Friday, October 29, 2010
feeling so empty
feeling so fail
so fail when the people you want to talk to, they just don't reply your text.
how am i suppose to talk to people..
so i guess this is the only place i can talk to myself.
pretty poor thing aye
sighs well basically, i've been thinking..
how come i can fail so bad at keeping friendships.
what did i do wrong..
i wanna know why people don't reply my text.
guess i'll never know this answer unless the person tells me so.
i wait and wait and wait
such a loser.
sighs @ my life
feeling so fail
so fail when the people you want to talk to, they just don't reply your text.
how am i suppose to talk to people..
so i guess this is the only place i can talk to myself.
pretty poor thing aye
sighs well basically, i've been thinking..
how come i can fail so bad at keeping friendships.
what did i do wrong..
i wanna know why people don't reply my text.
guess i'll never know this answer unless the person tells me so.
i wait and wait and wait
such a loser.
sighs @ my life
what we could have been, 7:59 PM.
the only thing i feel like doing now is-
cancel all my air tickets
and shop on victoria secrets, topshop, forever 21, steve madden.
i think i'm crazy, its the first time i don't have any anxiety to go back for some real shopping..
cancel all my air tickets
and shop on victoria secrets, topshop, forever 21, steve madden.
i think i'm crazy, its the first time i don't have any anxiety to go back for some real shopping..
what we could have been, 2:26 PM.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
in the midst of hardcore studying, but i have to write this.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A0BAssXgeHs
the lyrics says-
I just cant understand the hearts of men
They tell you they want you and then they leave you
This is the first time, you're special
I believed those words and I was so happy
You should have told me you didn't like me any more
But I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
Although I will curse you I'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything
I heard that if you give up things too easily
To a man, he will get bored with you
I don't think this is wrong
A girl says that she will never be fooled again
But she will fall in love again
You should have told me you didn't like me any more
But I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
Although I will curse you I'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything
[narration]
Hey babe
The pain
It's not enough to describe how i feel
We were so happy together
But I know now
I've been blind
You told me that you'd never let me down
Whenever I needed you you'd always be here
I can forgive but I cant forget
Even though you hurt me
I still love you
I still love you
Don't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for love
And her caring instinct
U didn't know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard
Although i will curse you i'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything
Although i will curse you i'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything
[the guy said]
There is a girl whom I love. Now I can`t stay with her, but I still love her.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A0BAssXgeHs
the lyrics says-
I just cant understand the hearts of men
They tell you they want you and then they leave you
This is the first time, you're special
I believed those words and I was so happy
You should have told me you didn't like me any more
But I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
Although I will curse you I'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything
I heard that if you give up things too easily
To a man, he will get bored with you
I don't think this is wrong
A girl says that she will never be fooled again
But she will fall in love again
You should have told me you didn't like me any more
But I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
Although I will curse you I'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything
[narration]
Hey babe
The pain
It's not enough to describe how i feel
We were so happy together
But I know now
I've been blind
You told me that you'd never let me down
Whenever I needed you you'd always be here
I can forgive but I cant forget
Even though you hurt me
I still love you
I still love you
Don't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for love
And her caring instinct
U didn't know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard
Although i will curse you i'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything
Although i will curse you i'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything
[the guy said]
There is a girl whom I love. Now I can`t stay with her, but I still love her.
what we could have been, 8:35 PM.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
this blog is rotting like my life.
cos usually i will write it in my hello kitty schedule and then elaborate here, but my hello kitty schedule is empty.
partially because i can't remember what happen cos everyday seems the same.
and partially because i forget to update constantly.
okkk well, i owe heiman heaps of money now. she's my loan shark.
my friend got the first in the nz competition just like how mag won the voice 2.
hahahaha
yupp watch the voice 2 graduation concert - chrissie chau's eyes and everything is so sexy even her manly voice. and when she held the guy's hands.. WOW i think the guy melted.
and watching the new tvb drama with bowie lam and amy chan and bosco wong!
bosco wong is so HOT! hahaha the drama is pretty intense. better than mysteries of love? but i don't deny that i like the raylamXtaviay combination.
heard from buta that this guy in the new tvb drama is tavia's bf!!
but i don't want tavia to be with him, cos i want tavia to be with someone better =]
got so hyped up with 2pm's new album "still 2pm".
the songs inside are all pretty good i like it sooo much!!
went for a birthday party, that guy killed 22kgs of chicken for that BBQ party.
but i gotta admit that his chickens are pretty yummy.
just made me really fat.
and i was seeing how my friend wrap wontons at the party. cos the party was so drrryy.
and then i tried quarter pounder from mac'd for the first time with my life with star.
i love it cos it taste way better than cheeseburger. the beef is so moist and heavy.
nz beef! haha
oh and i've been playing tetris and bejeweled half the time in my boring life.
and then hea with shelly.
booked my plane tickets.. 24NOV!
yay^^ singapore and hong kong here i come!!!!!
omg i think i'll die living in hk this time. no free house for me to live T_T
extremely extremely SAD!!
and gotta use those shit as toilets, i think i will FAINT/ DIE, i don't know what will happen to us.
exams coming soon, assignments every week as usual.
omg so stress.
cos usually i will write it in my hello kitty schedule and then elaborate here, but my hello kitty schedule is empty.
partially because i can't remember what happen cos everyday seems the same.
and partially because i forget to update constantly.
okkk well, i owe heiman heaps of money now. she's my loan shark.
my friend got the first in the nz competition just like how mag won the voice 2.
hahahaha
yupp watch the voice 2 graduation concert - chrissie chau's eyes and everything is so sexy even her manly voice. and when she held the guy's hands.. WOW i think the guy melted.
and watching the new tvb drama with bowie lam and amy chan and bosco wong!
bosco wong is so HOT! hahaha the drama is pretty intense. better than mysteries of love? but i don't deny that i like the raylamXtaviay combination.
heard from buta that this guy in the new tvb drama is tavia's bf!!
but i don't want tavia to be with him, cos i want tavia to be with someone better =]
got so hyped up with 2pm's new album "still 2pm".
the songs inside are all pretty good i like it sooo much!!
went for a birthday party, that guy killed 22kgs of chicken for that BBQ party.
but i gotta admit that his chickens are pretty yummy.
just made me really fat.
and i was seeing how my friend wrap wontons at the party. cos the party was so drrryy.
and then i tried quarter pounder from mac'd for the first time with my life with star.
i love it cos it taste way better than cheeseburger. the beef is so moist and heavy.
nz beef! haha
oh and i've been playing tetris and bejeweled half the time in my boring life.
and then hea with shelly.
booked my plane tickets.. 24NOV!
yay^^ singapore and hong kong here i come!!!!!
omg i think i'll die living in hk this time. no free house for me to live T_T
extremely extremely SAD!!
and gotta use those shit as toilets, i think i will FAINT/ DIE, i don't know what will happen to us.
exams coming soon, assignments every week as usual.
omg so stress.
what we could have been, 3:03 PM.
Sunday, October 03, 2010
always accusing of how people change and change and change.
always mocking people making use of their friends
maybe its me, i'm the one that is like that.
changing into someone- someone that relies heavily on friends to help me,
maybe i was like that in the past, but i do keep up connections with them.
like true friends that help me through my life.
but now, why do i become someone that relies on friends that i don't talk to usually, just text or msn them asking for help help help with my uni work.
i don't even think that i deserve their help, because i'm a bad friend.
i just find them when i need help, and i don't keep up connections with them.
feel really lucky that they are still trying to help me when they can.
i feel really really sorry and thankful towards them, but don't know what to do, because i don't have enough time to bond with people, don't know how to bond with people. feel so guilty, so bad.
i'm stuck on my econ essay, don't know how to write it.
got the information and the essay plan but just can't start writing it, fitting the pieces together, more like fitting the pieces of my heart together to do it.
always mocking people making use of their friends
maybe its me, i'm the one that is like that.
changing into someone- someone that relies heavily on friends to help me,
maybe i was like that in the past, but i do keep up connections with them.
like true friends that help me through my life.
but now, why do i become someone that relies on friends that i don't talk to usually, just text or msn them asking for help help help with my uni work.
i don't even think that i deserve their help, because i'm a bad friend.
i just find them when i need help, and i don't keep up connections with them.
feel really lucky that they are still trying to help me when they can.
i feel really really sorry and thankful towards them, but don't know what to do, because i don't have enough time to bond with people, don't know how to bond with people. feel so guilty, so bad.
i'm stuck on my econ essay, don't know how to write it.
got the information and the essay plan but just can't start writing it, fitting the pieces together, more like fitting the pieces of my heart together to do it.
what we could have been, 12:28 PM.
