Learn to read, people. My grandma sucks.

I find that it is really easy to do work. And you gain a lot from it. The hardest bit is GETTING UP to do work. I rest my case.

The Girl from Ipanema - some say it's overrated, some view as underrated, I'm with the latter, it's actually a very very beautiful song. Never mind the lyrics, it's probably the first of its kind, in terms of chord progressions.

Try listening to Smoothjazz.com, I'm so hooked to that bloody iTunes radio station at the moment.

I'm lacking sleep. And motivation. And inspiration. I need a muse!! -_<

Otherwise, I've been fine. Exams are in a month. Here's to all the lazy people out there, this is one of the latest techniques I've discovered to help me study:

Get a little notebook, and on the front page write the date and then "Things I've Finished". Speaks for itself. I've done big things already I've been putting off for the past month. I'm very happy now. So yea, try it.

God gave me free food today. Otherwise it's a test and I failed and I shall die a year earlier than expected. At least I'm not hungry.

Amen.

Fear

It is that time of the year again, but much earlier. Exam timetable came out yesterday, I got one of the "perfect' schedules where there aren't two subjects which are too close to each other. 9th, 11th, 15h, 22nd. The stage is set, all I need to do is perform.

Am I anywhere near ready? No.

The feeling I should get staring as this schedule is excitement. But its not. It's fear. Fear that I am aiming for the minimum and i'll fail again. This exact feeling has only happened once to me, beginning of last year when I failed, and I tricked myself to believe that I can cover everything in 1 week. And I didn't. So here's the plan:

1. Stop everything you're doing. Forget the standards, forget the lifestyle. YOU ARE IN DEEP SHIT NOW, YOU HAVE A MONTH TO PICK IT UP SOLDIER.

2. Friends can wait for later. They won't notice that you've gone for a month.

3. Your Game folder is non-existent. Go listen to Jazz Radio and read Roald Dahl instead. Don't you miss your guitar?

4. Close yourself out for a month. Imagine the personality disappearing, and I shall be void of this life, and totally, intensely be focused on the task at hand, which is owning this exams. I can do it if I start now; It is time to prove that. GOAL: H2Bs for all subjects this time, there will be nothing but joy and satisfaction on the last paper June 22nd, when I walk out that exam hall, and punch both hands into the air, being free.

So to anyone who cares enough to read this and is concerned enough, please understand that if I am shunning you or snubbing you, I am in dire straits and I can't see anyone right now. I will post my inner thoughts through this blog only.

Cya guys in a month.