Tintinnabulation

Zenzizenzizenzic----->The eighth power of a number. First of all, I would like to express my apologies if I have made any rude comments or any improper comments on certain ppl on this blog... Seems that I have been quite faux pas in the past, I sincere am SORRY... This entry would be quite short. It's been a while since I've updated, trials 2 was on... Came down with fever straight after the last paper(phew!!) and got diarrhea the next day haha... If not life's back in balance, I'm back to my old self again... I think... I've completely lost m appetite though, lost 3 kilos already this week... Skipped dinner once too. Flavor of the week is James Blunt-Wisemen. I mastered the guitar solo finally, feel quite satisfied with myself hehe...

Ever wondered what is the actual meaning of friends? Seems simple, but I've had lots of opinions on them... Some say that they won't last forever, some have told me that childhood friends are the most innocent kind that form friendships that will last for a long time... Some say that friends are supposed to be there for you all the time, giving you support and stuff... Of course I have heard some that say that friends only would betray you in life, so you can only trust yourself.... So i guess best friends would hurt you the most... Hmm... Well to me, I thihnk that friends are ppl that would want to know you, someone you know that probably share a common interest... Of course good friends are different. Good friends would be there JUST at the right time. It's amazing, so I guess I have 1 good friend at the moment... Of course I don't mind an occasional "How are you", but let's say when I'm hurt most, a good friend would come up to me and ask me how I am... Or at least asks whether I'm alright. Dont get that often anymore, seems that everyone has their own problems. Oh well, life goes on, I'll meet new ppl...

Seems that I have been underdeveloped so much that I have no topic of conversation... I've been more and more quiet at functions and parties, damn I've gotta be more sociable... How do you guys start conversations? I've read a bit, and there are so many techniques haha... Not really effective though, luckily I'm not gonna be going to any real parties soon... Haven't even got my driver's license yet haha... Ok one last thing, I think I'll share something of mine with you guys. I've found out the 7 symptoms that I'm depressed (not that I'm not depressed all the time) but just in case any of you wanna say hello we've got something to talk about =) BTW 1 is most depressed and 7 is just a little depressed

1.I become SUPER lethargic in class.(Unless after PE of course)
2.I don't hang around my friends. At all.
3.I listen to depressing music. To you I mean. Or to anyone at all.
4.I sleep in class. I never do that.
5.I look into the sky while walking somewhere... Alone.
6.I become philosophical. I haven't quoted anyone in a while though.
7.When i eat double serving of food. I've been doin that quite often.

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Quincunx---->Five objects arranged so that four are at the corners of a square or rectangle and the fifth is at its centre. This few weeks have been up and down. I've been lifted, suckerpunched, and I gotta admit I fell harder than i thought... No more details on that. I've already faced the devil anyway. Flavor of the week is and old favourite--> Monty--Always look on the bright side of life. That song was my best friend for the last this week. Among my songs I mean. Another song to check out is Jamiroquai-Virtual Insanity.That song's funky.

Well Round 1 of trials are over... I'm relatively satisfied, considering that I could do some of the History structure questions... I'm waking up regularly at 5 now, waking early to study... It seems to be working, History's stuff's goin in, but during my Mod Maths exam I fell asleep until 5 minutes after the paper finished although the teacher collected my paper... Not so good. Guess everything has it's side effects. I'm being thankful that everything's not in a mess, I've blocked myself from the world quite a lot these days... I feel so bad. That's all for what happened recently I guess. Nothing really sparks me at the moment unless Katrina strikes Malaysia.

Let's see... I think that everyone deep down has a devil. Something that they can't face, although it's a part of themselves. Like me, I'm quite afraid of my own future as well as taking responsibility. I mean I can imagine myself in the future, but I don't feel really really confident enough... Oh well, that's life. What would yours be? (You don't have to comment here, email me at extrava2020@hotmail.com) I suppose when we confront these problems, we get enotional and we totally change... It's not easy facing the devil, especially if it's yourself or your parents or whoever you really really care about. Of course you can do something about it, but even when you're doing something good you don't feel comfortable doing it... I think that one day ppl actually get the courage to face it, and things get quite rowdy... But that's all. At the end of it all, you'll look back and you'll feel good. I think. What do you readers think?

You know Monty Python once said "Some things in life are bad,They can really make you mad,Other things just make you swear and curse,When you're chewing life's gristle,Don't grumble,Give a whistle,And this'll help things turn out for the best." I've found that to be quite effective, you should try it. Not for long term though, it's quite addictive and you become ignorant if you do it too much... But it at least calms you down so that you can handle a problem or life's difficulties rationally. We people shouldn't be influenced by our emotions all the time, so for me it helps me get my grip especially when making important decisions or when I think that my world is so sucky... Looking at the bright side of life really opens you up to other opinions and new ideas, I guess. For me it works la, don't know whether it works for you guys. I'm a person that's really attached to my music, not the lyrics, so I really appreciate my music...

And let's see, before I end, a little bit of my heart... If you know what I mean ;)

You're beautiful, it's true.

But I have to face the truth.

I will never be with you.

That river becomes an ocean,

My heart's back on the floor.

so much for having faith.

Listen to your heart,

when he's calling for you.

But you told him goodbye,

And now,

I'm looking at life as a piece of sh*t,

life's a laugh and love's a joke it's true,

But I'm always looking on the light side of life.

Last time I saw her,

I didn't dare to look,

for she had already said goodbye.

P.S. I know I'm a sucky poet, but it's just how I feel so forget how corny the lyrics are. =)