Having lunch with my family is something that I cherish dearly.....
Monday, August 6, 2012
Remember
I must remember the word of God!!!! He is my rock, the one I depend on. And he never fails me.
He's burden is light.... :-D
Saturday, July 28, 2012
Listening to classical music <3
Fantastic music, but too sad....
The lyrics to this songs is unbearable, it speaks of the truth, but at the end of a tunnel there is always hope.
and Hope in me is through Christ.
Lyrics:
O Fortuna
velut luna
statu variabilis,
semper crescis
aut decrescis;
vita detestabilis
nunc obdurat
et tunc curat
ludo mentis aciem,
egestatem,
potestatem
dissolvit ut glaciem.
Sors immanis
et inanis,
rota tu volubilis,
status malus,
vana salus
semper dissolubilis,
obumbrata
et velata
michi quoque niteris;
nunc per ludum
dorsum nudum
fero tui sceleris.
Sors salutis
et virtutis
michi nunc contraria,
est affectus
et defectus
semper in angaria.
Hac in hora
sine mora
corde pulsum tangite;
quod per sortem
sternit fortem,
mecum omnes plangite!
English Lyrics:
O Fortune,
like the moon
you are changeable,
always waxing
or waning;
hateful life
first oppresses
and then soothes
as fancy takes it;
poverty
and power
it melts them like ice.
Fate -- monstrous
and empty,
you whirling wheel,
stand malevolent,
well-being is vain
and always fades to nothing,
shadowed
and veiled
you plague me too;
now through trickery,
I bring my bare back
to your villainy.
Fate, in health
and in virtue,
is against me,
driven on
and weighted down,
always enslaved.
So at this hour
without delay
pluck the vibrating string;
since Fate
strikes down the strong man,
everyone weep with me!
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Bother
I didnt know that i was that much of a bother to you.
Was I the only one feeling happy to be with u?
Am I qualified enough to judge that ppl don't love enough, don't share enough, don't care enough?
From feeling lonely to officially being lonely....
~~Pray that i will get over this phase of my life~~
Was I the only one feeling happy to be with u?
Am I qualified enough to judge that ppl don't love enough, don't share enough, don't care enough?
From feeling lonely to officially being lonely....
~~Pray that i will get over this phase of my life~~
Saturday, February 25, 2012
a sentimental heart
Often times, true happiness does not come from outrages thing that makes you laugh out loud, rather the small things in life that we often overlook. I find myself slowly but surely adjusting to a life of independence. Finding myself happy over small incidence such as making dinner for myself. (hehe not instant noodles for once). is heart warming. Although the dinner was no master piece, still it fulfilled me.
Still, i miss my family dearly. Mostly the distinct noise emitting from them. How I wish I could teleport myself home! >.< I want to eat dinner my mom made, sleep in the same room as my sis....
Having a feeling such as this....it's my first. although you hear them in songs, the deep yearning for something, you never really understand. I now know! I thank Michelle for making me accept reality, that i indeed miss home!
Although there are still many challenges awaiting me, i'll face them one at a time, hehe because i can't multi task!! ;p
<3
Still, i miss my family dearly. Mostly the distinct noise emitting from them. How I wish I could teleport myself home! >.< I want to eat dinner my mom made, sleep in the same room as my sis....
Having a feeling such as this....it's my first. although you hear them in songs, the deep yearning for something, you never really understand. I now know! I thank Michelle for making me accept reality, that i indeed miss home!
Although there are still many challenges awaiting me, i'll face them one at a time, hehe because i can't multi task!! ;p
<3
Monday, February 20, 2012
sad.
I guess... you're just too good for me.
U glow from afar, but up close, it burns my eyes.
Too much for me to have.
That having said... i wont do myself justice if i didnt try.
U glow from afar, but up close, it burns my eyes.
Too much for me to have.
That having said... i wont do myself justice if i didnt try.
Saturday, February 11, 2012
CoNfUsEd !!
want? dont want? I dont know!
but i do know i want my results to be good!
I guess it's all up to GOD!
Speaking of which... I'm going to church this sunday! at 10! so happy about it!
Sunday, February 5, 2012
minutes in life
I think that every minute we spend in life is never a waste. We listen, we see, we experience and then we learn :)
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
change
I have a feeling that this will be the turning point of my life.
Am i hating this change because i hate change itself? or do i really not like my life right now? Will i ever get accustom to this change?
Studying in KL is so different from studying in JB.
For one, this i my first time staying away from home, and the most important part is that I'm staying with someone else, Michelle.
Although Michelle is a really great person, but sometimes I just cant keep up with her, everything about her is impromptu. I can't. I'm a person that plans out what I do, even if it's just washing the plate. Michelle is also really fast paced, by fast i mean she is so independent, she has great confidence, and most of all she's really good at driving not to mention cooking. She is the opposite of me. I'm not independent, I don't have confident, I cant drive and cook. For me this change feels like a never ending chase.... When is the time that i will be independent, when will i have a bit more confident with myself, when will i learn how to cook and DRIVE!
I know it's wrong for me to think this way, but i cant help to feel jealous of her.
Now that I'm staying with a person who is my complete opposite, I feel pressured, I don't wanna be a burden to her, I want to quickly change, so that I won't tie her any more. I know she likes to be free, but I really need her by my side now (at least for now). I don't know if she understands, but I'm really scared. I don't know what am i afraid of, but i feel that everything is not under my control any more. Just like driving, you never know what to expect (in my opinion anyways)
When studying in Sunway, the routine was fix, all I need to do was to comfortably sit in my mom's car, reach back to my noisy home (now it's just a lonely house of 2), watch tv, sleep in my comfortable room (now it's just comfortable bed. Now, everyday is a 'happening' day, I experience feelings that i don't usually have in KL: panic, fear, doubt, low self-esteem, anger (the type that slowly creeps up to you), frustration (mainly towards myself) and embarrassed. Not to blame anyone, but because things tend to happen randomly and suddenly around Michelle, I am left with no choice but to cope with it.
I don't really know how is the best way to deal with all this, but I know by the grace and mercy of god I will somehow manage to get through this period of though time.
Am i hating this change because i hate change itself? or do i really not like my life right now? Will i ever get accustom to this change?
Studying in KL is so different from studying in JB.
For one, this i my first time staying away from home, and the most important part is that I'm staying with someone else, Michelle.
Although Michelle is a really great person, but sometimes I just cant keep up with her, everything about her is impromptu. I can't. I'm a person that plans out what I do, even if it's just washing the plate. Michelle is also really fast paced, by fast i mean she is so independent, she has great confidence, and most of all she's really good at driving not to mention cooking. She is the opposite of me. I'm not independent, I don't have confident, I cant drive and cook. For me this change feels like a never ending chase.... When is the time that i will be independent, when will i have a bit more confident with myself, when will i learn how to cook and DRIVE!
I know it's wrong for me to think this way, but i cant help to feel jealous of her.
Now that I'm staying with a person who is my complete opposite, I feel pressured, I don't wanna be a burden to her, I want to quickly change, so that I won't tie her any more. I know she likes to be free, but I really need her by my side now (at least for now). I don't know if she understands, but I'm really scared. I don't know what am i afraid of, but i feel that everything is not under my control any more. Just like driving, you never know what to expect (in my opinion anyways)
When studying in Sunway, the routine was fix, all I need to do was to comfortably sit in my mom's car, reach back to my noisy home (now it's just a lonely house of 2), watch tv, sleep in my comfortable room (now it's just comfortable bed. Now, everyday is a 'happening' day, I experience feelings that i don't usually have in KL: panic, fear, doubt, low self-esteem, anger (the type that slowly creeps up to you), frustration (mainly towards myself) and embarrassed. Not to blame anyone, but because things tend to happen randomly and suddenly around Michelle, I am left with no choice but to cope with it.
I don't really know how is the best way to deal with all this, but I know by the grace and mercy of god I will somehow manage to get through this period of though time.
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Emotional
Why am i feeling emotional lately?
Note: I'm thinking of all the reasons as I'm typing away.
Reason 1:
Driving maybe one of the reason that is driving me up to the wall. :(
Learning how to drive is one thing, getting nag at in the car is another thing... with both of them combined, emotions start to well, and the next thing you know, tears are flowing from your eyes, just like an over filled glass of water....
Reason 2:
Everyday waking up to find myself all alone in this big house (Hui Xian has started working, mom goes to work so often, and brother has school). Where's the company that i'm so used to??
"Hui Xian sleeping like a dead pig, not to mention always in odd positions. My little brother's silly actions and jokes that I love so much. I miss them so much.... hehe even though I can see them later in the day."
Note: I'm thinking of all the reasons as I'm typing away.
Reason 1:
Driving maybe one of the reason that is driving me up to the wall. :(
Learning how to drive is one thing, getting nag at in the car is another thing... with both of them combined, emotions start to well, and the next thing you know, tears are flowing from your eyes, just like an over filled glass of water....
Reason 2:
Everyday waking up to find myself all alone in this big house (Hui Xian has started working, mom goes to work so often, and brother has school). Where's the company that i'm so used to??
"Hui Xian sleeping like a dead pig, not to mention always in odd positions. My little brother's silly actions and jokes that I love so much. I miss them so much.... hehe even though I can see them later in the day."
*How Am I To Manage in JB?*
Reason 3:
All the stress from moving to JB is starting to show now that the beginning of Yr 3 is just round the corner.
Actually the preparation is no biggy... Money is the problem! More like budget is the problem. No point in declaring my family's financial status here....
I can't think of anything else.........
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