Baby Wolf?

Not if I have anything to say about it. Dammit.
I'm late. Like I'm not gonna have one this month late. I'm not happy, and that turkey baster I found better not have anything to do with this. Lucy's days may be numbered.

It's gonna be a long few months

Babysis called earlier to tell me I may get a late night call. Mom is really sick. Temp is ok, but the nausea drugs aren't helping anything at the moment. My stomach clenched up in sympathy. I still managed to eat some potatoes and mexican cornbread just because.
Most of the time it's a blessing to be just far enough away that I can't get dropped in on. It sucks to be just far enough away when something is wrong. I'm in "Should I wait for a call or start driving?" mode right now.
Guess I'll wait, go smoke and put my ass in bed just in case. Night kids.

Slowed Down

I've been on the go so much lately, either working or something else, I wasn't sure what to do with myself today. Annie is out of town, and late getting in since she missed her flight, Lucy left here early, so I was alone. I ironed a lot. I have entirely too many shirts dammit.
Went to The Dive to read for a bit, threw a few darts, back home. Talked to Mom and Babysis. I'll be getting updates tomorrow so I feel a little better about not being there. I'll have Bosses and Visitors all week, they'll have to get over it.

I'm useless, going back outside to finish my book and put my ass in bed. Night kids.

Running out of Titles

Mom did well yesterday. Got new hardware installed so they can just plug her up Monday. She handled it pretty well, we went out to eat and I took her home. She's a bit sore and they threw her out a bit prematureley I thought, she was still a little loopy. Of course same can be said for my surgery, I was still way loopy when they sent me home, so maybe it's new policy.
Anyway, got her home in one piece, waited around for Stepdad and Babysis to get home, Lucy and I went back today to visit. She's still planning her funeral, but at least she's half-way kidding. I think. She seems to enjoy making me uncomfortable. She had me looking at the wig book. I picked the one she liked, yay me.
Lucy painted clouds on Spawn's newly blue ceiling at Mom and Stepdad's house while she and I fought about wigs, hats and the state of the football game.
Babysis is probably mad we didn't wait for her to get home from work, but it was getting late, I'm tired, and I'm practically blind at night as far as driving so we had to go. I left the Jeep at the hospital yesterday and drove Mom's car home so Lucy and I had to retrieve Jeep and all that today. I had to drive home since Lucy can't quite get the coordination involved in a stick shift. Lucy is in bed and I think I'm heading that way, it rained most of the day and it's suddenly fricking cold. Later kids.

Yay, almost

It's been a busy week. Work has been stupid busy, that's probably not a bad thing. Off tomorrow, probably today by now, to take Mom to get her port put in. Lucy wants to go see her Saturday so I'll be making a retun trip.

Right now Annie is out of town and The Handsome Devil and I are enjoying the time alone. I should put my ass in bed.
Later kids, and thanks for all the well-wishes. Mom doesn't know about the blog, just told her lots of people in lots of places are wishing her well, and she appreciates it too.

The Grapevine Jumped The Shark

Mom sent me a text, someone died. Turns out she didn't. Babysis had already heard it a few times, small town you know. I'm shocked, The Grapevine has never been wrong before, full of shit maybe, but never wrong.
Must have gotten that info from twitter.
Damn technology.

Wait and See some more

Mom's at stage 3, she starts chemo Monday. It's possible it will cure her if it doesn't kill her first. Gonna be a tense few months. Only 4 treatments so they're planning to blast the hell out of this stuff. Fingers crossed, prayers said, candles lit, it's gonna get ugly I'm afraid.
Must put my ass in bed so I can get to work early tomorrow. I may be supporting Babysis so she can stay home for awhile. Later kids.

Sunday, Sunday, Sunday yeah whatever

I went to work and moved some more of my shit because I have entirely too much of it. I'll get the guys to move the last bookcase tomorrow and quit being a badass about it. I moved everything except that on my own so there.
Annie and I had a fight last night where not a damned thing got accomplished other than I hate her and don't want to be around her.
I picked her up this afternoon to go to The Asshole's house for dinner because I'm way too fucking nice to people I hate. I need to work on that.
Mom has put me on the guilt trip from hell because I'm not there and I think I need drugs.
Now I need to call Lucy and get some more really good news and put my ass in bed so I can work tomorrow. I'll look for my sense of humor too, I'm sure it's around here somewhere, Ironic seems to have run it into a corner so I'll go rescue it, as soon as I get my cape back from the cleaners.

Sleep would be nice

I went to bed a long time ago. My brain wouldn't shut down. I also realized I'm about a week late. Maybe I won't have one this month, just jinxed myself I know.
Mom did ok today, will know something next week.
I walked out of a meeting this morning because I was about to bitch-slap someone, so it was a good thing. I managed to go back and get through the rest of the day. Thankfully no boss or visitors tomorrow since I may be late unless I settle down enough to sleep tonight. Drunk is way superior to this.........
At least then I hit pillow and gone. I almost fell in the bathtub earlier which I usually only do stupd drunk so now I can worry about the state of my head some more because balance has been an issue for a few days. I'm just a barrel of laughs.

Here's one. I went inside last night to get something, came back out and couldn't find my book. I knew I had it, left it on the table like I always do, it was missing dammit. Checked back in the house, nope. Veronica was eating it in the yard. She's the good dog and has never bothered my stuff so I was shocked. Lucy's theory is Betty took it and gave it to Veronica to make her look bad. That I can believe. I went out and replaced it today since I'd just started it and she ate the last half so there was no way I'd be able to finish that copy. Now find out I'm missing one in the series because I have a big gap, I hate that.

Got mail from Dad, he ran into Mom in Wal-Hell yesterday and she told him I'd accused her of calling and telling him shit. First off I have no idea why he was in Wal-Hell in the first place, and this explains why she didn't want to talk to me last night. Paybacks are hell. I did find out one thing, they both swore they didn't talk to each other a few months ago, they did, so there you go. I was raised by wolves.

Gonna try this sleep thing again. Night kids.

The One Without A Title

Mom has to have biopsies tomorrow on one of the spots and her bone marrow. One spot seems to be something other than what it was before, and I didn't ask about the bone marrow, but can guess. Since Babysis is on vacation she's taking her, and both are needle biopsies instead of cutting so I'll be in another meeting all day.
Mom didn't want to talk when I called this afternoon, just told me to talk to Babysis and she loved me. I know Mom is a drama queen, where do you think I got it? She's also scared and I don't blame her. So am I. Won't have results till next Monday, so keep a good thought.
I'm off to sleep since that's my new best friend. Night kids.

Early to bed, blah blah blah

I did last night because I was so ill I couldn't stand myself. Woke up at 6 and lounged around till after 7. Ran my ass off the minute I walked in the door until 8:30 when they dragged me to a meeting, that lasted all fucking day.
Got to The Dive and had a beer, Annie is calling about the network, head back, she calls, it healed itself so I don't have to come back, just be there early tomorrow. Have something else to do in the morning anyway, so yes, I'll be there. Looks like an early night for me again.

At The Dive, reading, stranger came over and gave me a beer chip. His words after sitting with the people at the table not far from me "Hi, I'm SoandSo, and I have this chip but these people are rude and I don't want to give it to any of them so will you take it?" I introduced myself, said thank you, and have a free beer in my future so ok.
A shot showed up in front of me later, apparently courtesy of a friend I can't seem to find a name for, so we'll call him Mr. Cool. He's always that. He was messing with me and his wife apparently told him to quit poking the bear, he's all "I can take you". Yes, he could, but we get along just fine so I see no reason for all that. Just told him "Yes, you can, I'm tired, not pissed off at you and not drunk. I'd rather not try out pissed off, drunk and ready to kick you in the balls." We'd probably both end up in the hospital.
I'm over the overwhelming pity party I was having, I'm just tired, depressed, and gonna work myself to death because drinking myself to death isn't nearly as pretty or productive.
Mom sees the new Dr. tomorrow and we'll see what kind of Chemo she has to have and all that. I told Babysis I'd call after work since I can't be there and I don't want to hear bad news there since I have no drugs and no control over my emotions these days. Don't wanna look all pretty with snot running down my face.
All in all, it was a weird day, still trying to get used to my new spot and still need to move some stuff, or at least pack it up so someone else can move it for me. Maybe Thursday since I'm meeting all day again tomorrow.
Off to check in with Lucy and put my ass in bed.

Not Drunk For A Change

I worked most of the day, shit got moved. New office is semi-fucnttional. Some of the outlets don't work and neither does the phone, but at least I can do my job. Good thing since I'll have visitors all week dammit. I should put my ass in bed so I can be fully functional tomorrow since I can't spell worth a shit tonight. Later kids.

Shit and Stuff and I Dunno

I've apparently been drunk for a few days. I've got shit to do, but I'm lacking motivation, and that's not good.
I moved part of my office today and gave up on the rest of it. I called Babysis earlier, but she was at Mom's so that kinda defeated the purpose, Lucy is mad at me, I'm not too thrilled with me, and I think I'll just go to bed before I fuck up something else. "Pity, Party of 1? We have your table available."

Epic Drunk

Yes I am. Seriously. Lucy abandoned me. I have nothing worth saying either, I'm just drunkm, and going to fall down when I stand up, dammit.
If I had something to say ....

I'm lost. The person I cared about threw me away. The person who cares about me is being thrown away because I'm stubborn. I need to sleep.
I shouldn't even say this shit

The One Where I Confessed

I told Mom I'd been to Dad's house this past weekend. It was supposed to be a secret. I failed on the whole secret keeping thing because I'm lame.

Mom is seeing a different Oncologist next week because the lymphoma is back. She's having chemo this time. She's not happy, neither is anyone else, but at least it's something.

Glass?

My new door on my new office went in today. Wooden frame with full glass. They're fucking kidding me right? Might as well throw in a hamster wheel in the corner. I'm not pleased. Lucy says maybe they thought about normal people who wouldn't want to be enclosed completely since there are no windows. I had to remind her I'm not normal people. There will be retribution for this travesty.
I'll have to go into the closet to adjust my nipple ring and I came out of the closet 10 years ago, I have no desire to go back. Mumble, mumble, bitch....

Got nothing of interest

Just kinda spinning my wheels, busy but not really getting anywhere and not real happy about it. But oh well, I was never promised a rose garden. Now I've got to go find that song dammit. I hate it when my brain is stupid.
I've been drinking less again. I slacked off, picked it back up heavily, and pretty much put it back down again and I'm not sure where I'd rather be. Pros and Cons...
I did buy some pants today since I heard twice I needed something that fits. Damn, I hate shopping. I may have to go see Lucy tomorrow just so she can check me out thinking I'm someone else again. She's never gonna live that one down. Actually I need to call her, something to occupy some time. Later kids.

Lions and Tigers and Bears....

I'm apparently scary, which amuses me no end. Annie called to ask me to bring something home. Her whore was dropping it off in my office. She circled a couple of times before coming in and handing it to me, looking terrified while she did it.
Made my day complete. I should have shouted "BOO" and made her shit her pants.

If you're gonna play with Tigers, you need thicker skin. If you're a lying cheating hypocrite you need rhino skin.

Salty Sweet? Bittersweet? I'm not sure

I haven't been the most pleasant person lately and Lucy has borne the brunt of that I think. I planned to work all weekend. Finally said "WTF" and picked Lucy up to go to Dad's house with the intention of spending a few hours and letting her and the new G/F get to know each other.
Some of the new G/F's family came over while we were there and it was very cool. We talked and laughed, as in I actually talked to total strangers. It's a big step. New G/F invited us to stay the night since we hadn't decided. We did. I haven't laughed that much in forever. Dad lit the firepit, we cooked dogs, me and Lucy, Him and G/F swapped stories and laughed our asses off. It was awesome.
Lucy got post-it's and wrote notes on each one. The last one was from me, it said Thank You for the laughs, and the company, and putting up with us, especially Lucy.
I got called a Bitch for the last part, but it was worth it.

I told Dad if he lets this one get away I will personally kick his ass.
I was sad when we had to leave today because yesterday reminded me of the old days with Stepmom. Her family was always around and we laughed and made fun and had a good time. Dad needs that in his life and so do I. I've been crying since I left because now I miss Stepmom all over again. The good part is Dad and I are talking again and spending time together. We got some of that after Stepmom died, but when Skank showed up, I kinda quit. This is good, I hope it works.

Fall has Arrived

I'm already freezing my ass off. This can't be good.

Lucy's got some 'splaining to do

I saw Lucy walking out to the smoking area at the hospital when I went by there today. By the time I got to the door she had turned around to check out the Dyke she saw walking down the hall. She was really surprised to see it was me. She didn't recognize me in dress clothes. Bitch. I got an "Oooops look" and didn't get the explanation till later. She's so dead.

I Should Be Sleeping

Birthday Party. The Princess got older yesterday and Mrs. Asshole did today. There were drinks. I'm fuzzy after that.
Everyone showed up. All good. I have a book to finish dammit, people need to leave me alone.