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Thursday, August 24, 2006 / Thursday, August 24, 2006
why can't other days be like today. why can't i just act as if i'm ignorant of everything that is happening in front of me? why are they people lying about things that they shouldn't have. or was it just a manifestation of the elder's mind. i don't like being used. Please don't do it again. how much you want to go out, please don't.

paham ker tak paham? confirm tak paham. yang tak tahu apa2 eksyen faham ajerlah ehhh.

had a nice chat with a friend of mine. mostly talked about his life. his concerns. i guess its better hearing about someone else's life then your own. i miss long chats with random people. maybe technology have really caused us to forget how to talk face-to-face. everytime that topic is discussed i feel as if the teacher was pointing her finger at me, accusing me of not talking enough with friends and acquaintances about anything under the sun. but i believe that i am an easy person to talk to. you just have to smile and tada! we will be talking. but then i guess even if we had that short conversation linking two individuals, it won't last very long would it.

everytime i pass him, he has that ' don't-talk-to-me-i-don't-know-you' face.. absolutely annoying. the other one just knows how to look. well, i guess that's stupid. yeah2, i know everyone know that i am not going to nmae him here. hah. so i shan't waste my time talking about things not concerning myself.

ooh.. went gym just now. was tiring. i think i did the exercises wrongly. i was so not in the mood to exercise but because i was suppose to exercise two times every week and i have only been doing once, i felt bad. and aniwaes amelia was there to partner me and be the motivator.

had extra lessons for malay after that. it was okay. hah. but was funny. i think i am starting to like malay class. although i have been failing malay so terribly. maybe i am not cut out for this subject. i feel stupid. but i know i shouldn't fault myself. coz then i will feel down and i won't be my normal self again. ouhs. for people who have not met up with me for soooo long, the whole week has been a bad week for me. i feel pissed with every single thing a person says, a person does or just noises. i felt so annoyed when i heard about something. i should really remove that memory from my memory disk. its just so wrong to be thinking like that.

MOVE ON farahin.

oh and if ever my friend from SA is reading this blog. really. i didn't see you at first glance of the photo. i do know how u look like okayy. haha

so yeah. hmm.. sat's my younger sister's birthday.. shall i wish her now or later.. later dennn. oh and i like zai and mush. they are nice people. so now i shall start losing weight, i hope. aaaaaah!
but i did smt wayyy wrong. 2 slices of pizza today. i bet mush is going to kill me because of it. hah.

i guess that's all. oh and faz if u are reading this. i have no school on 25-08.. let's go annoy saba at her school. and amirah. i shall meet up with u next thursday alrights. so until the next entry au revoir~

oh oh.. my old hairdooo...



Monday, August 21, 2006 / Monday, August 21, 2006
heyhey. hahs. just wanted to tell you people that i cut my hair.. haha.

oh oh. and i feel oh so tired cann.. and and.. =) just plain happy. had dinner with family.. bought sister her birthday prezzie. she has an mp3 cannn.. so nice.. its orange in colour!! haha. just like someone during hari raya.. wooohooo~ maybe because of that i get high whenever i see the colour.. haha. right2.

oh and econs test was fine..i'm not sure if i answere correctly.. but just hope soo.. video was farniee. hah. trying to edit it now.. i think my video skills stinks already.. ooh.. and i need to wake up wayyy early tmr.. yyyyy.. should i fast tmr? i am way too hungry already cannn.
and and. i was PMS-ing the whole day. sorry those who had to endure. malay class was funnn. farnie2.. tmr our tuen to present.. die.. i will die of stage fright.. haha..

alritey den.. bye.


Thursday, August 17, 2006 / Thursday, August 17, 2006
oooooooh... wheeee~

singapore idol was stupid. i know i shouldn't be saying this since i didn't vote and all. but as an outsider, i KNOW the voters did something really wronf today.. how could have the booted the BEST girl in the competition.. i actually told my sisters what kind of placing it would be before today.. coz i guess i was convinced that that person could not last any longer.. but who could resist cute looking guys singing to you cute songs right. alas, voters are usually made up of girls.. maybe thats the reason why.

but anyhoots. my 'boyfriend' (gp lesson girls.. haha) is still in the competition.. if he's outed( haha. i don't think there's any such word.. but you know what i mean, if not paham2 ajerlahh..).. too bad ah.. thats the end of me watching singapore idol.. i swear.. haha..

next up.. i went to the gym today to try and be fit.. wahlau.. the machine damn tiring cann.. haha. but for the sake of losing weight, i shall persevere. hahs. and i know you know that i am fat, so stop being in denial. hahas. (only goes out to my darlings..) my a7 girls are the type super straight forward one.. haha. oh no i think i hang out with them too much that i have a chinese slang or smt like that.. like.. 'wahlau','sianz','- -"'*(okay mebbe this for adeline, yufei and sihui ONLY).. haha.. there's no more 'eh','tau'... and all teh jazz that i used to do

sat at the library today.. i like it there.. i like being lonely.. oh. and i have this bugging feeling. but then.. whooo cares. oohhh~ took 72 with darling geraldine today.. ( oh and soutparkers, if you girls are still here, i KNOW what to get for geraldines's birthday!! remind me to tell you ppl. 4/8 girls want to join buy oso no prob.. coz got a lil bit expensive in my terms. but not in masse's term, if you know what i mean)hahs. she is my morning perk. every morning i steal her from her classmates so we can talk crap and update each other about stuff.. i noe her full name! geraldine ng, kai xian.. ( if that's how u spell her chinese name..)

oh oh.. tomorrow is mr DALE'S birthday..




he asked for a present.. but dennnnn. i've not been seeing him online, to make plans. so tooo BAD! haha.


Tuesday, August 15, 2006 / Tuesday, August 15, 2006
procastination is such a a wonderful thing.

i shall procastinate.

as long as its nothing to do with subjects i like.. which right now is only PW.. coz we have finished everything that needs to be handed in. well at least for the week~ haha.. i shall not bother about the rest of the subjects too much.hahs. ooh..i have been doing sooo many quizzes.. come, i show you the results..haha

You Are Right Brained In Love

Bit of a drama queen
Peacemaker, first to end a fight
Good at thinking up creative dates
Tend to fall in love and get hurt easily
Going with your gut instead of your head
Emphathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault
Good at recognizing patterns in relationships
Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count
Wildly passionate and intense when falling in love
Spontaneous with relationships, going with the flow
Overly visual - can play back past dates like movies in your mind
Roses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart



You Are a Light Pink Rose

You represent sweetness and grace.

Your vibe: Kind and gentle

Falling in love with you: is like falling in love with a best friend


Your Style is 1950s

High heels, pretty dresses, classic makeup...
You're a feminine beauty who knows how to play up her assets!



/ Tuesday, August 15, 2006
haha.. i had to copy this from fazz's tagboard... so farnie.. and my new tag was going to delete it, so now it can live forever.haha..

<amirahh>: ohman ohman i felt so cheated for ahwile. i thought LUKMAN HAFIZI really existed for a while. hahaha. ok fine he exists in farah's imagination. well. anyone is capable of making an existence there! ahaha

haha... that's actually quite true. anybody and everybody has existed once in my imagination. and for those who are closer to me or those who i have tiny wee crush on, made it there a million times over. hahas

and what else eh... oh today went well i guess. i found out last night that i have one good and lasting relationship from my primary school. and that girl has been with me..through my ups and downs.. my happy moments.. the moments i needed a shoulder to cry on..the arguments we had.. the love that we shared.. the many trips to her house every friday to see little mikki (and the 4 o'clock neighbour).. haha.. i thank you sila for your friendship.. =)

haha.. and i feel so fineee.. although i am suppose to go and learns maclaurin's expansion all by myself coz i have to do the tutorial.. damn.. why did they have to do that. i am going to screw the topic up cann.

and and.. my 1gb sd card is making trouble..omg! dun tell me no more photos for me to see..
noo.. my cute guy's photo is inside cannn. and he video which has another person.. ohmy.. whatthehelll!!! this always happens cann.stupid sia.. should have saved it..but nooo.... FUCK!


Sunday, August 13, 2006 / Sunday, August 13, 2006
maybe i'm meant for greater things or maybe my route has been set.

i feel tired. my whole body is aching. i want so much to be free again. free to do anything, because there's nothing to worry about. promos coming. i haven't been revising. should i even be in this route?

whatever it is. i am tired. i just handed in my economic powerpoint late dur to my very BAD timing..

and now i have to finish geography and a general paper essay before 5.15..

and i have not touched my malay work at all. and i have a test tomorrow. i should go study later. in school or something like that. i think i am making myself feel so swamped with work, paderhal dont have so much work. my friends from other jcs are facing more work than me, and i think they are fairing better than me. hah.

i think i should start on my GP essay now. daaaa~


Monday, August 07, 2006 / Monday, August 07, 2006
hmm.. i have this feeling in my brain, my heart, my soul, my everything that something ba dis going to happen soon, very soon. okay so actually i am talking about my NOW-mood. i feel bitchy-emo-irritating-rimas all at once... i feel like biting someone's hand.. aaaaaah!!! and i feel like making a mean joke to someone, anyone. but i confirm bin chop will be sooo guilty if i ever dare to do that.

okays so i'm PMS-ing big deal. oh and if you know i am, please do not get near me, i will really bite that hand of yours. hah. as if anyone would care. oh and i have a baddddddddd feeling that i am talking to myself again. and i am feeling all lonely now... haha..

i think i am MAD.. one second moody, the other second laughing.. i should go and see the doctor, like what my group mates tell me. but which doctor shall i see?

the mental doctor?

the heart doctor?

the love doctor?

or.. or..

MY witch doctors??

haha.. i wanna go and see my witch doctors.. it's been wayyy too long since i met them and spoken to them. i should be rated 0 for being a horrible patient/ friend. i shall give a HELLO call to all of them tonight! just reminding them that i AM ( sorry to say this ) still VERY much alive!! haha.

i think i love my friends to bits.. if i have the magic powers.. i wanna make them all into small little dolls so i can stuff them into my jean's pocket or make them into a chain and put them around my neck.. haha.. but whattehell... they are and will ALWAYS be in this tiny heart of mine.. haha..

actyally i wanted to put up photos of sister's dk perforamnce and the pictures from kampong glam trip.. but but.. haha the photos are wayyy too big and my laptop is being a bitchy not allowing the photos to be open there. i shall summon you to death, you traitor lappie you! haha.. ( see what i'm saying.. i'm talking to myself again..)

oh oh. and for tk girls reading.. the school is collecting funds to upgrade the current facilities.. like actually have an air-conditinoed hall.. and things like that. so calling all 4/8 girls, do make a small donation coz it will be fun fun fun! so if you girls wanna donate, just contact me or amirah or saf and den we can pooll all our money together to donate to the school! yessah~


hah. i think that will be all for now. i need to go and actually study NOW. no actually i shall procastinate and do my PW. hahaha.. daaaaaa~


Tuesday, August 01, 2006 / Tuesday, August 01, 2006
masa tak akan berulang lagi.. hatiku sedih kerna kehilanganmu mr mp3.. kepada siapa yang telah mencurinya disebabkan sikap lali ku.. i have these wirds for you.. GO AND DIELAH CANNN...

okayyy.. crafted something last night.. unfortunately its in malay.. because somehow i'm not like some people who are able to craft nice english poems.. hahs.

Harapan Cinta

Harapan dan mimpi pasti akan bersama suatu hari nanti
Cebisan nota ditulis setiap hari
Hati bergonjak setiap kali
Panggilan namanya membuat degupan jantungku berlari-lari

Hati yang sering merindui si dia
Akan sentiasa terdiam kelu setiap kali kau mernung tepat padaku
Hanyalah jika engkau tahu
Betapa dalamnya cintaku ini padamu

Tiada siapa yang boleh mengambil tempatmu ini
Hati ini akan sentiasa ada ruang untuk arjunaku
Janganlah dikau buatku menuggu lagi
Walaupun wajahmu sudahku lupa..
Cebisan memori kita bersama bermain-main di benak fikiranku

Jika kau tahu dan kau tak menerima
Janganlah kau beritahu
Aku rela bercinta seorang diri
Tidak kisahlah orang berkata aku bertepuk sebelah tangan
Kerna belum lagi ada jejaka yang boleh mengambil tempatmu di hati ini
Mereka tidak mengerti betapa dalamnya kau telah mengambil takhta di hati

Walaupun hati ini sedih kerna kau sudah berpunya
Kalau tidak pun, bunga bertempiaran menunggu untuk dipetik
Siapalah diriku ini di sisimu
Janganlah kau membuatku derita lagi dengan kata-kata manisanmu

Sehingga suatu hari nanti
Bila aku rasa masanya untuk beritahumu..
Tunggulah sayang..
Biarkanlah aku termenung seorang diri buat kali ini
Dikau pasti tak akan mengerti


oh how close i felt u near me.. how close ur presence were.. if only you knew what an impact ou made to me.. you wouldn't know.. coz i wouldn't sayyy... so until that day which i will forget you... i shall just stay away from you and ur presence.. if only i knew what i was talking about..