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I work at toys r us now. I miss trains alot, I miss mpls and my friends. I hate snow. My birthday is on the 1st of dec. and I don't think anyone will remember. I need more peircings and tats, I think it is the only thing that will make me happy. Maybe I can convince joe to give me a free peircing for my birthday. All of my cds are gone. I took them to work to blare over the hunormous loudspeaker system, but then forgot them behind the counter when I left. I think someone stole them. but who else besides matt even likes leftover crack that works there? What about the dank? Nobody even would know off half the bands. Why would they take them, they are my babies? Gabe said that somebody probably just moved them or locked them up somewhere. But who and where? I miss my music. I want to kill and sleep. Well I have the day off tomorrow, but then how do I get them back? I am going to stay up until 9 I think, then call. I will go now.
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everyone of my friends send me yr phone numbers damn it. I lost alisons,louis', tims,ames. damn you all I left the numbers in MI. so just send them to my yahoo...stomach_acid_worms@yahoo.com
comply bitchs....my head hurts
who will come with me to the punk rock flea market?



I miss matt.

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argg well I am comming back for like A WEEK. THis all starts on fri. ummmm. poop.I can do nothing most of sun emie is getting married. umm anyone want to go to the punk rock flea market with me. We can sell stuff and trade stuff. this way I can help my sister get ride of all my stuff.
hey well get ahold lf me I should be back around noon on fri.

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well...I might be going away for a while. ummm out of state. NO one call my house. I f you would like to talk to me before I leave ( next few days) then e-mail me...stomach_acid_worms@yahoo.com
everywhere I go I will check my mail and respond if I can. seattle, oregon, L.A. ,portland, cali...dont really know. But I love you guys (you know who you are) and write me
Jenna S.

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Hey suicide boys....any of you ever hear of the tv show QUEER AS FOLK? Kick ass show. You ALL would just love it! hmmmmm write me back if you have or if you want to know more about it. I drool over it.

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Someone on here just told me to deleat them. Yet on myspace said nothing. He actually added me back on myspace. Why are people so mean? I never did anything to him. I was always nice and he basically told me to fuck off and die! I hate people!

Ohh yeah. I have a job now. arggg. So ummmm. Bye. I wont talk to most of you as much and I wont have any free time. Call if you like.

Jenna

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I have 2 other journals. One of them is at insanejournal.com I am cereal_killer. At Myspace.com I am the same but you must look me up by name or at my fake as all hell e-mail thingy.Jennajenna@yahoo.com.....I think that is all. weeeeee! mY TATTOO HURTS! owww. It is bad ass tho. Anyone want a tattoo. I know a great place. They are super friendly.
Who wants to play with me? I dance*dancing********* yep. I have no friends at the insanejournal thingy. They are mean. My eyes hurt. I also have to call my mother. SO I go now.

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ARRRRGgGgGGGGGGggggg!!!!! I want to stab that asshole in the fucking head.
Well.....I have had like three interview things with that damn home depot! fuck! Then I did a drug test. Then I forgot to bring my social security card. They used a different number and said that it would be ok. Sooo...now after about a week with no reply. I called back. Nope I have to retake the drug test. Fuck! That is so annoying. I really have no way to do all this. Its annoying as hell. THe guy was an asshole over the phone. Basically saying that I am a moron and should be shot. So I waste so much of his time..ass. So now i have to go back there. See this disgruntled man. Get a little paper from him. Then go somewhere else and piss in a tiny cup. As a girl you always get a little piss on your hand. Then they don't let you wash your hand. AAAAHHHHHhhhhh! YOu have to sign the bottle of piss. THen wash your hands. Mst likly they wont give me the fuckin job anyway. Do to me being stupid and not bringing the card.
But I did get sex last night so its not all bad I guess. Yep...not that you wanted to know.... but this is my journal and I can write whatever I want to! so take that! ha!
No matt, I am not smearing your name. I went over to another friends house after you droped me off.
I ate to much Icecream. I never thought the day would come when I say such a thing. But I ate to much Icecream! My tummy hurts. Ohhh yeah my skettios arein the microwave! i gotta go!

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Well I was thinking I need to take pix of all the people that are models. Different angles and such. Ummm....I'm tiard and jeff foxworthy is on the tv. It is hard to concentrate.
WHen do you ppl want to do it.
I'm taking pictures but later I need to do more then one sitting. I will need live (ish) models. So, andrea think your up to sitting in a bathtub for a long time? Maybe I won't do it like that. See I want to paint you all....but I don't know how I could do it. For instance....I don't think it would work to have me sitting next to the bathtub while andrea plays dead while I paint her. If I take some shots of her first. Then after if I need it I could just have her sit on the couch in the same position. Will that work? I need som guy models. And I NEED Tim to be the pill popper!Well it might work with Taylor....I want thier look for those ones. I still don't know who would be the hangman. I think I want it to be Jaysin....hes alot like him. hmmmm....I don't know if thats a good thing. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
don't pay attention to the ramblings.
Maybe I could just.....Maybe just some black and white shots. I'm still thinking.....also....never mind I donno.

I can't think anymore. write me back

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hey....I do nothing. I practice typing. I want to be able to type without looking. Why? I want to paint over the keys. Why? It pisses people off! My cds skipping. Damn you manson...why you skip? This typing thing is annoying. it only works sometimes.

all the park kids are playin...all the punk rock angels sayin...hes one of us and we don't even know.your one of us.-manson

I miss my friends!!!!!!!!!!!!! where are you all? I want to do some art.

Volunteers...I also need to work on my spelling!

I need models. Not a photo shoot. My suicide paintings need you. See I need someone I can move around. After we can have a play date. do something fun.

one slit wrist in bathtub...must be girl.
one hangman...male
one pill popper...male
one gun shot to the head..female

This is an ode to my friend chaz...who lynched himself about six months ago. Its to show the raw and ....I can't explain. or I don't want to.

hey tim...wanna be a pill popper? Michelle...wanna be gun shot girl? Andrea wanna be slice-E girl? come on people! god it is soooo early or late.


skull fuck

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Take out the book nearest to you.
not the coolest.
whats the 5th sentance on page 123?
well leave a comment...I want to know..ohh and tell me who you are and what the book is.

I'll just do the books closest to me.
I say book(s) because I am bored.

I am Jenna
"we would not believe that our adult dreams were often truly childish."-from twelve steps and the twelve traditions...for those of you not in the know...its and AA book.

"Water that is hot will cause overextraction."-the book of coffee and tea (its from my sisters work)

"souls do not want to be without a body."-anne rice-the tale of the body thief

"in raising his eyes, with a strong feeling of curiosity to ascertain the color of his guest's he found them by no means black, as he had anticipated-nor gray, as might have been imagined-nor yet hazel nor blue-nor any othercolor in the hevens above, or in the earth beneath, or in the waters under the earth.-bon-bon-the complete tales and poems of Edgar allan poe


well thats all I have in me for now.

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Carve out your eyes and skull fuck you! hmmmmmm I could go for a nice skull fucking right now.
Its fend fo yourself night. I love fend for yourself night. I killed some ants today... I feel kinda bad. They were just crawling under the carpet. I'm going to hell.

Speaking of skull fucking. I went job hunting today. Yes me looking for a job. You all win.....for now. Are you happy Timmy? I said ARE YOU HAPPY TIMMY? You who always tell me to get a job. well I applied at mall of amerika. (yes with a K) I want to be a cleaning wench..ie: I pick up your shit. you throw it away...I take out the trash.
also Kmart....I want to be lose prevention. Ha a thief catching other thiefs. Well I refuse to be lose prevention at a food store at least. Fuck that.
I am sleepy. I miss Jaysin...we hung out at a park the other night...it was fun. That bitch bit me. Now I have his fang marks on the back of my neck. Then he spun me around till I almost puked up my cheetos and soy nuts. Well yep....you should all take a look at my myspace thingy.
I think you can serch by name. Or ummm if you can so it by e-mail....its jennajenna@yahoo.com.
(not an actual e-mail tho, sorry.) Theres awfull pix of me. Yep and soon to be more.
I feel like stalking someone. Where is the cat?
Well, thats it for now.

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My head is fuzzy. I need more sleep..or maybe gasp!...no!...less?
well you are all my none journal reading slaves now. I miss Matt moore! I do...and timmy and tay..so on so forth. I miss Jakob andJaysin and Darren and mike still didn't add me. I bitch. I shoudl eat something and do some art.
where is the kitty Gizmo....ohhI found him.He sleeps on the back of the couch. Ahhh but where is kitty? who knows.


I need to eat something.....it kinda hurts now.

I need some new holes....my lip has heal shut. now I'm thinking snake bite. hummmmmm. My tat gets finished on the 7th of next month. That is if i have enough money bythen. Aries will eat my soul if I don't have the money. Even tho he is a vegan.
why does no one call for me....why wont anyone come and wisk my ass away. I am bored!

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Every one here is smashed! Johns naked running around. Moshing in the basement! morgan flowing like water. Insanity. My fathers gone insain. I can only write short sentances. exept that one. My brain is fucked and I'm sober. I like boys. chrushes are fun. I finally have a few. Smart people are so fucking atractive! Tay was smashed the other night. It was great. first time seeing that. megan is smashing shit and screaming. john broke a window. My head hurts. moes kicked out. I have nothing to do with this. I need! to move SOON! My house is to fucking hectic. And in no good way.

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I was doing very sad rabblings that don't make any sense.And I was on matts page.SO I decided Why not!no one reads this anyways.I am sure most of it is babbling and incongruent. I refuse to read it over so... to fuckin bad for you!

I have noticed this in people. My brother actually. After watching a movie/teli show,he trys to be his hero. Most of what you say is WAY over my head but on this I can and will say a little. You have noticed that people empathise(christ I can't spell) with these charecters. Sadly in real life they end up not knowing wha to do. That is until they themselves end up in a tv "sitcom" sintuation. Then they become the star of the show. I have noticed people getting all nesalgic (bare with me please) over old teli shows. Old episodes. I have takin the step and cut myself off from the hate box. The hate box that when its not telling you how you should be living your life.ie..reality shows,sitcoms, soaps... Then when your on break from this fantasy life,They bombard you with this input that you need this or no one will love you. You need to be skinny..you need to be healthy. Images that constantly contradict each other.... And its all because of catholics and christians. They say sex is wronge. Every thing you do is wronge. Go to church and repent! you are SLOTH. a deadly sin. You watched a porn you are LUST.repent! Then after being bad all week you go and pay fire insurance to these churches.I don't wanna go to hell,nooo!!! I have taken up space.it is sad no,?! you must read whatever I write.you have no choice.satan! haha Thats all I got.oh wait no BOOBS!ha. I slay myself.am I creepy yet.

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hellooooo.I am special.gerr I couldent spll it.err neederd help.twitchtwich.come to me house.lovemeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Photo's taken of Jenna! I am pretty princess...yes I is. [Photo's taken by dryadserenity aka Alison] Alison is my sexy bitch...you know it.

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ok so last night was super fun.I hung out with moe,john,megs,my brother,and wil.ummm..wil...yep I am a horny mother fucker.I should be kept in a basement some ware.So last night every one but me got drunk,some smashed.john found a knife and was trying to hurt himself moe was trying to take it,and my brother tried to take it away from them both.reproctions of fucking with a drunk with a knife you ask....his thumb was almost severed off.but still holding I guess.
um I am working on my suicide project and diy class.Moe lives in the basement behind the bar.I have come to the conclusion that life should not be so serious .so I told "my boyfriend" chris that we are just dating now.how the hell can you have a long distance serious relationship? Fuck i'm only 18.(oh yeah my birthday was the first of dec.to anyone looking for a reason to give me a gift.)but life should not be so stressful,I'm a kid and I enjoy flirting and fucking and hanging out.I love made up games like Ryan's(scottylicksfrog)games.
I want to go to real shows.also I hope to live as a urban pirate for at least a summer.I lost most train of thought by now so...