Sunday, October 9, 2011

When life gives you Lyme...

I wanted to share with all of you some of the craziness of our recent lives, and, more importantly, how God takes crazy and makes it His own. Some people have not yet heard this story; others have heard parts; only a few have heard all of it. I want it in writing somewhere so that new baby K can read it someday and see how God truly protected him even before birth.

Yesterday, I took my last antibiotic pill. Thank heavens, because remembering to take a pill every 8 hours for 30 days is difficult, let alone for an absent-minded, pregnant mother of two! So, even though I do not love writing, I want to celebrate my first antibiotic-free day by writing down this story.

Back in July, our family took a one-night backpacking trip. It had amazing and dreadful moments all at the same time, as any backpacking trip with two young kids tends to do. I knew, being four months pregnant and all, that it would be uncomfortable, but noticed, for the first time, that my shoulders were much sorer than normal when carrying Sam in his Kelty pack. It was odd, but I didn’t think too much of it at time. Looking back recently, I realized that that was the first time I noticed some changes in the way I was feeling.

Backpacking on the Siouxan in June

Over the next month after our trip, my body began to deteriorate in other ways. For a few days I could hardly bare weight on my right knee. My left shoulder began aching constantly. I would wake up at night hurting so much that I would be in tears. I would roll out of bedin the morning feeling like I had been hit by a truck. Or, for my fellow volleyball players, like I had just endured my first two days of daily doubles. My hips would hurt, then my elbows, then back to my shoulders – migrating joint pain it seemed. We spent a week with our dear friends, Jess and Ben Scott in Boise, and I felt like an old lady! Although I had never experienced this as a part of pregnancy, I talked to enough friends and family who had also experienced pain during pregnancy that I kept talking myself out of seeing a doctor.

At this time, one of my close friends was undergoing some really tough times at home and had to move out. She had nowhere else to go, so we invited her to stay with us for a while. The thing about my friend is that she is studying to be a doctor. More than that, she had been studying all that month for her clinical test, in which they ask patients a myriad of questions and practice bedside manner. Well, over coffee each morning, she would ask me questions. Up until this time, I had really kept most of the pain to myself. I didn’t want to complain. I hate complaining. Really only Nate knew the extent of how much I was hurting in the mornings and throughout the day. But, with a barrage of questions from a person who cared, I had to be honest. “Make an appointment this week,” she said, after I had told her of a bad headache behind one of my eyes. So, I did.

Doctor check-up. Blood work. Hopefully not lupus or arthritis. We waited anxiously for a week, but the blood tests came back negative, definitely showing some inflammation, but difficult to interpret while pregnant. “Pregnancy pains,” my doctor concluded, “Keep taking your pre-natals.”

Again, over coffee, my friend asked me questions. I had to admit to her that not only was I feeling worse, but new symptoms were arriving like neck pain and upper-spine pain as well as more hip and shoulder pain. With concern, she said, “E-mail your doctor. I don’t think this is just pregnancy.” Neither did I, but who wants to be the hypochondriac? Against my reservations, however, I did what I was told.

My doctor ended up referring me to a specialist, who wanted to see me almost the next day. In I went to Portland to see a rheumatologist. He asked me numerous questions, and, generally, looked upon me as a mystery. He signed me up for a more tests, some for rare diseases, and said he would give me a call. Home we went again to wait.

A week later, on a Friday morning, we got a call from the rheumatologist. “Your labs were negative except for an unexpectedly positive Lyme test. Because Lyme disease is really rare in Oregon, this could be a false positive,” he tried to reassure me. My test results, which detect that particular type of bacteria in the body, were very positive. A score of 1.1 or higher is positive, and mine was a 5.0! That was crazy news to digest!

Of course I did what anyone else might do in this situation, I googled it. (If you're interested, here's a website to look at: http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0002296/). My symptoms did match the descriptions: migratory joint pain, random itching (which I suddenly realized I had been having for weeks), knee pain, a general ill-feeling, headaches, muscle pain, etc., etc., etc. Only one problem – I didn’t remember having a tick bite.

Until I googled tick bites that is.

After looking at numerous images of deer tick bites, it hit me like lightning. I remembered having a strange, huge circular rash on the back of my knee sometime in June, shortly after strawberry picking. I had shown Nate, my mom, and one friend. After a few days, it had gone away and left my memory completely, until I saw the pictures, that is. I was so excited I called Nate at work right away. I contacted the doctor, my mom, and sister. I had no doubt in my mind, then, that Lyme disease was indeed what I was experiencing. Funny, how the news filled me with joy!

Lyme disease, when caught within the first few months is treatable by antibiotics. It is pretty simple in the early stages. I picked up my antibiotics the next day, also the same day we had our ultra-sound which told us we would be adding another boy to our crew! Within a few days I was feeling fifty percent better and within a few weeks one hundred percent better. I couldn’t believe how quickly it worked! Whereas before, I wasn’t able to lift up the boys, now I am back to swinging them around in the air. Before, even vacuuming the room was painful; now, I am doing yardwork like a champ. Before, I could only toss the volleyball while coaching my 8th grade girls; now, I am serving, passing and setting like I always have. It is truly amazing.

Here’s a few more details I should include:

- Little research has been done on Lyme disease in pregnancy, but what has been done shows that there is an increased chance of heart defects in untreated patients.

- Lyme is treatable by a simple round of antibiotics when detected usually within the first 3 months of contracting it. According to our calculations, I had been infected for about 2.5 months.

- The antibiotics given are completely safe during pregnancy!

- I know for a fact that if my friend had not moved in with us, I would never have gone to see a doctor a second time, especially within the first three months. God used her, and the tough circumstances she was under, to bring our family healing. I am forever grateful to her and to the Lord for using her.

- Since having Lyme disease, I have heard more and more people that have contracted it. Because we live on the west coast, where it is so rare, most people have gone undiagnosed for years. Undiagnosed Lyme disease gets really serious, affecting the major organs, causing psychological issues and becomes very hard to treat.

- My doctor even admitted to me that he tagged on the Lyme test at the end, without much confidence it would come back positive. Thank the Lord he did!

In Acts 3, we read the story about the crippled man who begged Peter for some spare change. Peter said, “Silver or gold I do not have, but what I have I give you. In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, walk!” The man jumped to his feet and began to walk. Then he went with them into the temple courts, walking and jumping and praising God. This beggar woke up that morning hoping for a little change to buy food for another meal. But God knew that what the man needed was more than a little money – he needed life abundant! The observers as well were filled with wonder and amazement.

God gave us much more than we thought we wanted as well. We were praying for a healthy baby. God gave us a healthy baby, a healthy mommy, and the recognition that He is sovereign, in charge, and able to take care of our needs.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Ben's Decision

Ben's Decision:

A couple of weeks ago, the boys and I were reading about Jesus and his friend Lazarus, whom he brought back from the grave. Ben has been pretty interested in death lately, right down to acting it out with Sam. He was asking about dying and I said that after we die, we go to heaven. He wanted to know how to get there, so I told him he needed to ask Jesus to help him. He immediately bowed his head and prayed without prompting. It was so sweet. I've been watching him for the last couple of weeks to see if there is a difference. I haven't noticed too much. He is so young and doesn't understand a whole lot. It's just the first few steps of a life-long journey! We love you, Benny-boy!

Recent Sam Quotes:

After he accidentally hit his brother while playing and I asked him what to say: "Dank You, Yo Wewcum, sowwy, I 'give you." All right in a row, right on cue. I guess he was just covering his bases!

A prayer Sammy petitioned, after listening to his brother. He bowed his head and said, "God. Jesus. Bible. Owie."

Sam loves to read! Here is a little video catching him in action.




Recent Ben Quotes:

After driving by Camas, which has a stinky paper mill, "Boy, Camas sure poops alot."

After my dad complimented on his new haircut: "Grandpa, your hair fell down." (Dad: "Where did it go?") "On your face."

Oh gosh, I know there are SO many more, but that is all I can think of for now!


Together:

One of the funnest things to watch is the boys growing friendship, and the conversations which come from it. This morning, Nate and I witnessed them pretending to sleep in the living room. Side by side they cozied up in the blanket. "I luvoo," Sammy said to Ben. Ben just gave him a huge smile.

The boys talk about robots, dinosaurs, and their agenda. It mostly entails Ben telling Sam what they'll do next. Sam chooses between "Sure!" and "Doewanna." When Ben needs to use the bathroom, he tells Sam, grabs him a pile of "George" books and Sam sits on the step stool in front of Ben while he does his business. Can't wait to use that as blackmail some day!

Saturday, March 19, 2011

New Pictures - Finally!



It has been WAY too long since I last updated pictures on here! I do okay at posting them on Facebook, but am resolved to do better on my blog.

Sometimes I think to myself, "Why would people want to read about our mundane Washougal adventures? They are not as glamorous
as Alaska." But the truth is, we are experiencing such rich, meaningful growth here. Our adventures are every bit as meaningful, even more so because now we have our two boys to share them with!


Here's a picture of one of the homeschooling pre-school lessons with Ben. We've been having a lot of fun (most days!). We take a couple of weeks on each letter to make sure he really understands the letters shape, sound and how to write it. We've made it all the way to E so far! I am trying to pick a science-y type lesson each time.

Here he is, learning about apples. He would draw a smile, or frown, or sour-y face under each apple after he tasted it.


Ben's latest thing is robots. We designed the armor, which he wore around for at least an hour. Recycle, reduce, reuse, right?



Here we are hiking with Ben and Sam's beloved cousins, Zoe and Eve. We took them to the Steigerwald Lake bird refuge here in Washougal. We hiked this trail every single weekend of February!


It is definitely flu season in these parts. Here an example of the sad little faces I've been seeing around. No fun (but still so cute).



I've got some cute quotes to include at some point. Hopefully very soon!

Monday, March 14, 2011

A Full Cup

It is Monday morning. Monday morning of what could be a very long week. The boys were up many times last night: Sam coughing and moaning, Ben getting up and saying "My face STILL hurts, Mommy." I think they both have sinus colds. I have this feeling like I need to gear up for battle. Make sure my cup is full. Yet, even that make it sound like it is something I do for myself.

"My people have forsaken me, the spring of living water, and have dug their own cisterns, broken cisterns that cannot hold water." (Jer. 2:13) My life is a broken cistern. I picture a coffee mug with a big chunk broken out of the bottom, and cracks radiating up its sides. The liquid is constantly draining out. I can't stop it. I try to use my own strength to keep filling it up with a busy schedule, friends, family, pride, praise, and the like. It is no use.

Nate and I are reading through a book called "O2: Breathing New Life into Faith," and it is from this book that I was reminded of this metaphor. With a few extra moments of quiet time this morning, I visualize Jesus mending the cup and filling it to the brim with His sweet spirit, so that I can say, "You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows." (Psalm 23:5).

This day is Yours, Lord. Fill me up and help me to serve my boys with YOUR strength. Amen!

Monday, January 17, 2011

The Best Words a Mommy Can Hear

Today was the day Sam first told me "I Love You". And he did it without prompting! I was getting him dressed and, granted, I had probably told him recently, "I love you" (I tell my boys many times a day). He leaned in and said, "Luvoooo." My heard melted.

Also from Sam:

Sam loves, loves, loves to help. Lately, I realized he can even call daddy and brother for dinner. I'll tell him dinner's ready and he'll poke his little tummy out, get his right arm swinging and speed out of the kitchen shouting, "Eat, eat, eat...."

When Sam says frog, it sounds very convincingly like another four-letter F word. Not good.

The Latest from Benny Boy:

Whenever Ben talks about his daddy at work, he says he is at "to work". Is Daddy at towork, Mommy? Will you be at towork tomorrow, Daddy? etc.

About a month ago, Ben was sitting on my mom's lap while she put his shoes on. It was her day off and, let's just say, she hadn't taken any time to do her make-up or hair for the day. Ben looked up at her with very serious eyes and asked, "Are you an old girl, Grandma?"

Two nights ago, I overheard Ben give this mock threat to his dad. (Said in his fiercest monster voice). "I'm gonna screw you." Nate - "WHAT did you say?!" "I'm gonna screw you." Ben poked his little finger out and began drilling in to Nate's arm, drill sounds and all. If only we were all so innocent.

A quote from my Dad, who was giving Ben a hard time about his Buzz Lightyear. "Oh, I see you have Fuzzy Whiterear with you..." Went well over Ben's head, but sure made the rest of us crack up!

At night, we usually sing a few songs with Ben. Mostly the classics, Jesus Loves You, Jesus Loves the Little Children, etc. One night, Nate thought it would be a great idea to teach Ben a Cup'ik song (the language of the Cup'ik Eskimos that we lived with for 5 years in Alaska). The song in Quyana Jesus (Thank you, Jesus), and Ben loves to sing it. And the coolest thing he started to do on his own...he gets the picture of the Eskimo Dancers from Chevak and holds it as we sing the song. Pretty cool, don't you think?

Finally, I don't think I have mentioned one of the sweetest things Ben does nearly every night at dinner. He has for about a year now. During prayer, he stands on his chair (while we're not looking, of course), leans way over the table and kisses my hand. Totally his idea. I couldn't make that up if I tried!


Friday, January 7, 2011

The Blessed Life of a SAHM

This week I have been particularly blessed to be a SAHM. We had such a nice long Christmas break, with plenty of time as a family. On Monday morning, saying goodbye to Nate, I felt refreshed and ready to tackle the week ahead. Nate started coaching on Monday, and, although we miss him dreadfully the extra hour or two that he is away, there is the added financial blessing. I feel less pressure to be out there earning cash, and more freedom to simply enjoy my life as a Mom.

Sam:

Sam is a little man in the making. Every day brings a new string of words. Even though it is only 8 am, I've already heard him shout "Amen" at the end of our morning prayer, and give commands to "Dake" (Jake), the dog of my friend Madeline who we are keeping for a few days. One of the commands is a pronounced, "Shit", as he tells Jake to sit, while I smuggle my smile. He just zoomed by me, mumbling to himself, "book, book, book" as he headed to the back to find some more books to read. Another bookworm in the making. Recently, Sam has gotten into washing. If he sees me doing the dishes (often), he holds up his little hands and declares "wash". I then give him a washcloth, but it must be at least damp. He proceeds to walk around the house wiping down random surfaces. Yesterday, as I was engrossed in an e-mail, I felt my foot being lifted and pushed around. It was Sam with a "wash". Now I have a clean foot, and a little guy living like Jesus told us to!

Ben:

Ben is an excellent big brother. He spends much of the day trying to convince Sam to do what he wants (bring backs memories of my own childhood, ahem, sorry again Sarah). Lately, he loves to ride his tricycle at break-neck speeds around and around the loop between the kitchen, dining room, office and hallway. He also figured out one day that when the pack and play is turned upside-down, it makes a perfect rabbit cage! He loves to repeat over and over the fact that he is a rabbit that is escaping his cage, while I am the farmer trying to get him back in it. Or, that he has been bitten by a bear and needs "Dr. Sam" to help him. It's a fun game and, hey, at least he is eating more carrots these days!

Ben is finally getting over his infatuation with "chickens and pink cake". It was beginning to get tricky finding a new book featuring pink cake at the library (not to mention the quizzical looks of the librarians when Ben would ask where books about pink cakes are at). His love of the color, however, continues, much to his daddy's chagrine. We think we'll be getting Ben a kitten for his birthday because he just LOVES our neighbor cat, Jill. Ben seems to be the type that will always have some infatuation or another. Now, besides cats, it is "IRON MAN" (said with your deepest most robot-y voice), whom he takes everywhere. He also loves his Buzz, but usually only wants to play with him when Sammy wants to.

Also Heard Recently:

"That's totally Wicketts!" - Ben quoting the little boy on The Incredibles, who is really saying "Totally Wicked!"

Knocking on the door to the laundry room. Ben was going to check on Jake (friend's dog), who was sleeping in the laundry room. Nate caught him knocking on the door before he entered.

Hysterical laughing in the middle of the night. At about 3am a few nights ago, I was awakened to hysterical laughing from the boys. I'm still not sure what Sam said, or did, most likely a fart, but it made Ben laugh. They were squealing back and forth. I had to be pretty stern with them to get them to stop, but, of course, I wasn't too upset. Love to see them bonding!