a death ballet

words can only do so much in expressing my excitement. i'm sincerely overwhelmed.
acs (I) drama : the best is yet to be
how very true. ACDC, a job well done. (:

anws, thanks toxx, for the lift home. rmb, open 24 hours.





oh, before i forget,

you run, but you can't hide.


firstly,
littleboy, GET WELL SOON!
recently, i have been learning the skill of compartmentalizing. i think everyone needs to know how to compartmentalize. to put away certain thoughts, but not to discard it. you have little cupboards in your brain, and you just store those thoughts in one of the cupboards temporary till the time comes when you need to retrieve it.
COMPARTMENTALIZE. highly essential.

anxiety, apprehension and insercurity have been my best friends of late.
too sum it all, i'm going through the most common and popular phase that teenagers like me go through : TEENAGE ANGST.
how ordinary.

i read an article today about the importance of living in a LOW-CARBON society.
apparently it is ranked highest in the case of concerns.
so i guess the least we humans can do is to stop poking on those styrofoam boxes that our food usually come in, and to stop littering.
go green.
oh no, i've become a second jasper. (:

little miss artificial :
you don't know how much i appreciate our conversation.
yepp, smart and intellectual ppl.
thanks babe. (:

a stab through the bleeding wound.
it's like rubbing salt on an open wound.

everything's a blur.
it's like a fairytale gone so wrong.
two lost friends and a dead dog. go ahead and make my day worst.


you couldn't have made it anymore obvious.

-it's a foreign intervention

a forlorn attempt to try and recover what's already lost.
you can't have the cake, and eat cake.
or can you?


ever tried suppressing a feeling so strong, that the pain just goes straight up in to your head? it feels oddly like a brain freeze. from the nose bridge up and onwards, the pain just keeps piercing through. you feel like sneezing, but you can't. you feel like yawning, but you can't.
the beauty of the human body. how very complex.
i too wanna follow suit the "kurt cobain" route. but don't killing oneself give us a straight ticket to hell?


school passed by rather quickly today. all the fake fronts and feigned sentiments.
the cold and wet morning really did make a good backdrop for a despondent day.
all the superficial. your ugly perception.

ms singh told us today that nothing in the world is ever separated.
how very interesting.

who can ever feel anything near lousy whilst in the midst of a good social circle?

jasper totally floored me today with his sudden statement. for a moment there, i thought he could read my mind.
anyway, how very depressing jasper. boy with boobs/tits. totally uncalled for, but undoubtedly true. (:
afterall, i AM the BRUDDER. haha.

lay your tiny finger on me, make me ballastic, and i'll kick you all the way to nigeria.

it's fascinating how versatile and volatile the language, English, can be.
pro-NUN-ci-a-tion.
down right engaging, tho some might beg to differ.
we need to add a pinch of humor in to our routine-stricken life once in a while. all the formality and rule abiding. it's gonna drive you up the wall one of these days man.
LIGHTEN UP! hire a professional or something. better to be safe than sorry. if not, before you could say "SMACKING GOOD", you'll be visting a shrink on regular basis already. okae, that's super random.
anyway, for starters, why not i tell you all a lame-o tomato joke?
HAHAHAHA. i bet gene and kevin both are roaring to the extensity of the joke's lameness already.
inside joke. i'll pass anyway.
i've got loads to blabber about today. and i have absolutely no idea why either.
would you guys rather inspire, or to aspire?
i learnt a new word today - polysexual.
someone who copulates with everything and anything.

i'm thoroughly amazed and stupefied that i'm actually in love with learning. now i know why Lee Kuan Yew never ever once considered to stop learning, even till this date.
oh. so contradicting. but all of a sudden, i don't feel like blogging anymore. haha.
oh, btw ppl, try shoe fighting. super duber uber relaxing.

adieu ppl. (:

it's a great day.

i've never been happier. (:

my worlds revolves around them ((:
potato too. HAHAHA


shelly you oughta study and hang out with me more man.
think about all the opportunites you get to talk to HOWARD.
btw, howard likes it WHOLE.
and mr potato, we all suck at P&C la.


you ignoramous fool.
i've got nothing more to say.



life's full of sugar and candies.
why brood on the useless?

kevin, my drinking kakhi/khaki/kakee(whatever).

i'm seriously overwhelmed by the wide range of books the new national library can stock up.
food at the bugis street area really sucks.
cold wanton mee noodles. not very appetising for the stomach, esp when you're drop dead hungry.

i think digital camera's the best invention so far. check out david and kevin's stupid poses man.
they really crack people up real good.
photos courtesy from meiping. sent to me by our star model, kevin.









i think it must be the stress. all the bio facts and the accounts format that drove this two up the wall.

i just read SPG's blog. kinda intriguing.
totally "sex-drugs-rock-n-roll".
and i so wonder what's up with the whole SPG and Xiaxue saga.
speaking about Xiaxue, did you guys hear about her unfortunate event?
so i guess there won't be anymore of her daily witty updates by XX till she has gotten everything in order.
oh, btw, her account got hacked in to, and the hacker had deleted everything.

in sec one, we used to sms each other asking what homework there is.
sec two, we'd discuss about where we gonna go after school, hang out or what so ever.
sec three till early sec four days, we'd chew over on what time we'd attend for lessons. arriving late, after recess, or for some, arriving only in time to attend the last two periods.
as for now, with the two new guards and all, we sms our friends mooting over ponning (skipping) school.
oh my, the drastic change we all have grown in to thru the years.


mrs chew's last day today.
HELLO BACK MR OW YONG! ((:

did i ever mention that i'm physically and mentally drained?


i'm no longer going to be that special person you'll say to ppl on who matters the most to you.
soul-ed, broken.
if that isn't obvious enough, you're obviously oblivious of what's happening.


racial harmony was such a drag.
minus the costumes, i think it was really a chore to attend school today.
my mood can never get worse. tempermental. big time.
i need time to accept la.
anws, check my 1T1 kiddies. good music. hahaaha. quiet harmony.

we're not subjected to accept your beliefs and views.
and we definitely have the right not to endure your ridiculous actions.



a day of escapism.
never, N E V E R try and run away from the truth. i mean, how far can you run? sooner or later, it'll catch up with you.
TRUTH is like the fastest runner ever.

ta

i got yihkai-rrorized!
oh my. want juicy details of what happened? think ting and shelly will give you guys the exact full blow, bit by bit. exaggerations included.

hello people.


the absence of the internet from my life for the past couple of days, certainly did take its toil on me. "connected to the world.."

a great time spent with jasper ytd.
try running from far east all the way down to cine in less than 10 min. the night's wind rushing against your face. tad cool.
AND NO, I DON'T LOOK LIKE A BOY. (:
i think my brain lacks of oxygen (as so said by my incredible e1 friends) i've been yawning like nth for the whole day.
the girls have a nice way of disgusting me lately. now i got a phobia of my very own pencil case. self-inflicted of course.

check out gene's sweet post.
aren't we all just glad to be listed as his friends? hahahhahahahaah
right.

life can NOT get better than this.

oh, how i love my friends. (:


baybeats 2005. definitely memorable. something worth remembering.
all the "mosh-ing". did i get that right?
yea. in times of chaos and trouble, you'll realise the nicest and bestest side of your friends.
oh how i love them. LOADS. (:
baybeats was cool. all the punk-rock poseurs with sky-high, egg-white gelled hair, tapered pants and rowdy fashion sense.
"so cool man!"
ya. they were pushing and shoving and body surfing (i think?) nearly trampled the rest and i over. on the whole, the music was great. got a couple of EPs here and there.
The Pinholes, Vertical Rush, Love Me Butch.
aw man, all the screaming and shouting.
did alot of 'under-the-rain' thingys.
ate and chatted under the rain. how nice. i love fun-facts talk.

i'm pretty surprised at how tolerent some people can be of others.
thanks mr kevin. i was just too pissed.
haha. i'm temperamental. i play hot and cold.



ANYWAY, i had a swell time, despite the multiple mood swings.

and jasper, i'm the same for both the inside and the outside OKAE?!!

LONDON BABY! (:

guess what.

shelly, dine and i were at Citi Cab building today. it was raining heavily and we tried to flag for a cab.
but here's the weird thing.
we're at the taxi headquaters with 827349671223976245 available cabs, but no one wants to pick us up.
what bullshit. hahaha



listening compre today. 92.4 FM is kinda cool.
maybe i should start tuning in to that station. a change of music genre would be good for the soul.
everyone was comparing answers after that. kind of stressfull.
just read emm's blog.


quote

"how far/high can yours shoot?"

main, or rather, pretty major topic of the day.
sling. ask kaiwen lar.hahhaaha

/quote

WAH LAU! EMM! YOU POOP!!!!! HOW CAN YOU ACTUALLY BLOG THAT?!

emm's a SWELL girl. R E A L LY. please sense the sacarsm in my tone.
hahah.
oh how i love you emm. (:


i love eating mee sua with dine and shelly. slurping on piping hot meesua.
i'm their oyster eater. they both loathe oysters. ha
burping into shelly face with the smell of oyster can be kinda fun. disgusting, yes. but fun.
sounds like what steph did to ting with the jackfruit in her mouth. hahah

oOooohh. i LOVE doing science practicals with shelly. that lass, brightens up my day everyday.


HOW HIGH/FAR CAN YOURS GO?!



- mr 888888 -
WHEN ARE YOU COMING BACK YOU POOP! (:



afternoons and nights are packed from now onwards. consistant.
i love bitching with ting. haha.
i was so pissed tdy. thanks ting, for the very therapeutic talk.
I SO DON'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK.
i got nth more to blog. BOO listening compre tmr. DIG YOUR EARS PPL. EAT THOSE EAR WAX.
and tell me how they taste.
TA! (:



scandal - confidante #1

first thing first.



it's on the RHS, you silly. (:

meeting seniore michelle today gave me a taste of reality:
am i there yet?
it's like a meteorite just hit earth.
anyways, shelly has a thing for tampons.
and meiding has this thing going on too for pisces guys. meaning, ppl like EUGENE OEI. haha

shelly, sorry to break your little heart, but i just have gotta tell you this.
DENTISTS HAVE GOT NO LIFE! and even if they do, i bet they revolve around driving to work, cleaning teeth, and driving back home.
i bet you wish that i'd be a wee bit tactfull.


have you guys hear about my ultimate fantasy?
HA.


till than, bye ugly.

think not of happy times.
as all good times have to come to an end.


man are beasts.




it's a never ending spiral to this web of intense complications.
you throw rose petals on bed,
and writh around the pool of lies.
what more do you want?
deceit. manipulation.
you stab hard in to the core of beats.
twisting and turning,
you turn the tables around.



firstly: jasper, your SS teacher is mr AUYONG. not OW YONG! (:
fancy the idea of burping straight into the face of an unknown stranger? try it. totally DIY.
mrs chew's nice. just that i guess my dearest classmates, (ding and shelly) thinks that her voice is way high. 300 decibels. maybe only dogs can hear. but on the whole, she's nice.
and mr kevin leong. wth? steph gurvin and i DO NOT suck okae?!!
and you're the one who's a COW la! ((:

oh ya. before i forget. YOU'RE BETTER LA. (:
-reply to mr 888888-



ha.
i love english class. i just don't get why the others don't enjoy it.

ytd was fun! (:

met up at deli with ting and charles for our study routine. gene came and left with the others for lan gaming.
so we mugged. (really hard okae?!) chemistry.
met the others at 6.30. headed for beatty sec for the campfire.
david danced, kaiwen sang. it was a funny combination.
overall, tho the campfire was puny, and the emcees abit soft, it was a good night to spend, rather than the usual towning.

i can't believe i actually said no to ELEVATION 280. ):
the feeling of being in debt sure sucks like hell.



the one who'll be MIA for the next couple of weeks or so,
TAKE CARE!
don't get run over by all those bulls. pun intended. (:

Guten Tag.
oh how i love flickr.



reliving the old primary school days.
sipping on ice cold bubble tea (with mini pearls), trying to find a way home, with the company of a superb friend.
i finally had my turn at oral today. what a bummer. i "er-ed" so much, you'd think it's part of my substandard conversation.

had a rather cluttered start to the day. early morning, i got bombarded by jasper, david, howard and eugene for money. getting gifts is the nastiest thing that one can do to their own pockets.
as long as they are happy tho. (:

you expect closure.
am i supposed to give it?


those sugar-coated words.
it's there without fail.
the urge to just accept and forget,
to feel naught,
is on the high run.
it IS an obtuse triangle, with me way out in left field.



shalom ppl.
everyone's on a frenzy. packed up neck-high.
stress is on the loose. somebody, anybody, control that kid.
chinese MT oral tmr. splendid. guess i'll prolly just apologize after the whole thing. apologize for wasting their time, listening to my awful utterings.

anws, tdy's a mixture of both good and bad.
i was just describing the wonderful encounter i had on the way home from school, to emm just now. absolutely mindblowing. not to mark, of course.

tmr, 7.25. IOC.
terrific.

wassup with lactose intolerent people?
i can't imagine my life without it man.

tried on some clothes at zara with shelly, when some lady so-called robbed me of what's left of my modesty. haha. that loon.
studied at mac with jasper and kkw. and along came shiaw ting, the hougang ah lian. HAHA.
bitched, as usual, on some pretty tacky stuff. and no jasper, i agree. it does not take the guilt away.
some ppl don't know it, but somehow, they are just able to appreciate and take note of the little things in life. 25 cents worth of happiness.
oh my. rovers. (: sounds tempting.

we joke, we laugh, we criticize, we taunt, we sneer.
but deep down, the inner fairy shines at a friend's most hapless moment.
it's at this very summit,
we realise :
life can never get better without the daily sunshine.
the bitter-sweet memories, that makes life all worthwhile.

baby girl you make me feel so real.


massive sms-ing.
it feels great. locked up. and just thinking.




i'm fucking pissed right now. wassup with assholes.

pok gai si


hahahahaahaha



fan shi yu I
highly recommended for old souls like me. (:

i'm pretty hung.


light.



wondered ard town like some wondering ghost. had no purpose and no aim. just wondered.
dined at NYDC when i had no money. haha. ordered some puny pizza and shared among 4 of us.
dearest steph came. and she couldn't succumb the urge of pouring water on jasper which in turn, ended up all on me. nice try.

menthol.


checked out some CDs at heerens. popped by the hosue of condom. visited marriot's toilet.
what an eventful day. hur hur.
dropped by school. pass the tee to shelly.
prefect's camp was, apparently, wasted.
bitched and talked with kevin. pretty nice. (: kinda wasted too tho.


red.



aiyar. i'm tired la. bye

happy youth day ppl.


youth day celebration was a so-so. went up to answer a question. felt so mortified.
nvm. accomplishment. (:
hahaha. i'm at meiding's house now. screwed up a couple of tees.
thousand apologies.


dine is next to me now. that stupid loon. jumping ard on the bed.
ta

i'm supposed to be gone. but, i can't resist.



` slingg - it's all hypocrisy says:
i dun feel like going too lehs
is someone getting the best,the best,the best of you!!!! http://father-ozzy.blogspot.com/ says:
dun go lar
is someone getting the best,the best,the best of you!!!! http://father-ozzy.blogspot.com/ says:
its the same celebration every yr
` slingg - it's all hypocrisy says:
but
` slingg - it's all hypocrisy says:
i wanna go for a math
is someone getting the best,the best,the best of you!!!! http://father-ozzy.blogspot.com/ says:
aiya
is someone getting the best,the best,the best of you!!!! http://father-ozzy.blogspot.com/ says:
see ou yong rite
is someone getting the best,the best,the best of you!!!! http://father-ozzy.blogspot.com/ says:
up to u lar
is someone getting the best,the best,the best of you!!!! http://father-ozzy.blogspot.com/ says:
weird sia u


SEE! imma good girl potato. (: