a death ballet

'cos it's all in my head, i think about it over and over again.



it has finally struck me. i think?








i do not want to cry this day, next year.

the ego has to stop in order for us to be true.





i need black coffee.

oehlers have been giving us lectures for the past couple of days.

well, i'm not a tall poppy, neither am i short poppy. i'm a tangled up poppy - in a dilemma.
what she says make sense. it's because of education that we singaporeans earn the term "ugly singaporeans".
everything is based on merit here. in order to score, we are willing to do things that are obsolutely mind blowing.
education is what that is learnt and have been forgotten.
books. what abt things that we cannot learn from books?

screw the education system.






all hail MR POTATO!!




-seek first to understand than to be understood.

seek first to understand that i'm short, than ppl will understand why you're tall.

thanks ppl, for everythingg. :)
ytd was no doubt memorable.

special thanks to jasper, kevin, oei, luke, kaiwen, mark, charles, noor, david, howard, lkk, enming, weesuan, wl, shelly, j.ling, sue, cuimin, steph, ting, becca, gurv, emm, phyllis, kymm, renn, tziwei, "levth.mo.dhan.mad.dan", tosh, ari, aus, and jm.

oh yea, nt forgetting, 4e3

:))



and aus, the stupid maze thingy you and jm had planned was tiring la. hehs.

i HATE getting wet.. x))



thanks nebbies, for everything. from the water-spraying event, to the cake cutting ceremony. hahs.
yepp.thanks a bunch. love ya'll truck loads.
and emm, dun worry, i love the present.



wee suan smses funny stuff. hahs.
shiite. felt so blardy irritated with my math result. all the unexpected getting weird marks. wth.
MR POTATO!!! 9875... HEHS!

friday IS a good okae?!!
so gene and lucas, STOP going against me!! xP
hahas.


EDISON CHEN IS SO DAMN CUTE CAN?!!!!



i say, JUMP!

D R I F T E D.


mrrul have weird friends. period.


sitting with steph during english is a NIGHTMARE! hehs. x)

sat behind during math again. however, this time, things were different. CHESTER IS JUST SO DAMN NOISY LA!
and mr ow yong just can't stop being sacarstic abt chester taking CLB. nvm, he's afterall still MY mr potato. :))
skipped SS retest. was sitting on the fence at first. that was until weiliang kept taunting me.
was on the verge of going crazy cos of his constant NAGGING and SACARSMS, when dearest shelly and kaizi told me to forget it. afterall, they do have a point. why study so hard for another 3.5 marks?

photos, updated. school.




met up with ossat. boy, he's still as crappy as ever. lunched at swensens.
pepper + salt = GOOD FOR HEALTH!!!

we do not a man like you to tell us, a group of women,how to survive, when your species has already died.

accounts is screwed la. damn screwed.
same for chem. goner.
nvm, got physics to cheer me up. hahas.


ehs, nirmalan, you're super cute la. hehs. x))




felt kinda stoned tdy. and to add on, felt super stressed too. the best part is, i'm not feeling stressed cos of work. i'll be more than happy to feel stress cos of work. but.. shiit. this kinda thing, i dunnoe how to handle. i'd rather die man. like a time bomb ticking, waiting to go CHEE BA BOOM!!!!! the words that were coming out of his mouth were super uber duper colourful.
hmmm. =I

peer tutoring sucks, even though i hate to admit that it does have it's advantages.
did 5 questions, which kinda killed about a quarter of my precious yet puny brain cells. crazy teachers.
i'm objecting to it now, but i think 12 months down the road, i'll be super thankful for this tutoring shiite.. the stupid irony.




emm, i just read your blog. regarding the things that you told kymm and i that day on the bus, dun dispair ya? kymmies and i will be here. you can complain, bitch and whine all you want to me during mother tongue yea? :)



last but DEFINITELY not the least,
mr ossat. i love you kaes?! so stop whining and complaining and erm.. whatever!! hahahs

went visiting tdy. this time, with the nebbies.
us, (gurv, emm, karenn, kymm and cuimin) were ransacking lucas' room. hahas. dun kill me luke, i know i kinda started it. xP
ting joined us ltr at cuimin's estate. visited aus' house tog. den headed down to geraldine's house. gambled, AGAIN. in-between is kinda finee. x))
i really really have beginners luck.


walked home with austin and jm. jeremy's a joker la. hehs.

"we should do this more often"



she embraced her faith, you denied yours.




i'm so psyched. boost me up with liquor babies!

words cannot describe how spooked i'm feeling right now.
go check out on the Nazca Lines, and the Hamburg Water Experiment.
the HWE is pretty interesting, whereas the Nazca lines are kinda freaky.
from one thing, it led to another, till i was reading things abt the satan.
dammit. my goosebumps are on the attention postition.

tdy's one of the "spritual" kinda days. ms singh was sharing with us some of her knowledge.
ans wl just made me realise that everyone is REALLY different.
hmmms. something to ponder about.


yepp, those aside, the day ended pretty quickly. ZAP! and school has ended.
chinese was kinda boring. mr yeo made us listened to some cassette thingy.
well, this resulted in emm riting "emm rox" on my arm.
you lame girl! x))




i'm still feeling SPOOKED!

cross country was damn good tdy.
netballers practically took over the events. x))

cabbed back wtih gurvin. i love the way she scolded the boys who cut our taxi queue.
"TMR IF I DUN BRING PARANG, MY NAME IS NOT GURVINDER KAUR!!!"
swankily cool.
btw, thanks jasmine, sooksin and justine for letting us take your cab. xP

jammed again. siao mans. i was so tired, i thought i could faint.
studied with jm and austin. nth went in to my head man. needa burn some midnight oil mans. i CANNOT fail history.

sushi for dinner?
one word, greaat. :)



got pretty tacky again with wl. burst out laughing when he did that cheeky thing of his. x))
bitchin' with him sure is fun.
khairi and wl are the allies, and ee sheng is the axis power. me? i'm the league of nations.
the competition between the two powers are getting feirce, and exciting. xP


had quite a peachy time with the girls during IT lesson. played blackjack while bambang was explaining flash to us.
and damn, i suck to the core at blackjack. I NEED BOTH YOUR LUCKS EUGENE AND TING!!!
caught constantine with JM and vin. (finally!)
I LOVE KEANU REEVE LARHS!!
"my name is Constantine, John Constantine. Asshole."

whOO. COOL MAN.

aus, thanks fer walking me home! real sweet. x))

i love the note from jasperr!!!! hahahas.




but i love the note from lucas, more. HEHs. x))

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

my ever dearest friends are the sweetest! all tha candies, and chocs can really make one go cray-zee!!
dine, really loved the daisy. and the rest.. thanks for everything. x))
LOVE YOU ALL MOTORCYCLE, LORRY, CAR, VAN, TRUCK LOADS!
valentine's day is really all about showing your appreciation instead of being lovey-dovey. =))


the match with STC tdy was pretty peachy. the jnrs were making a hell lota noise the moment yingmeng went on court. hehs.
yepp yepp, I'VE FINALLY STEPPED DOWN!!
aww man. i'm old. shucks.
took neos, as usual. what's new man. gosh. i needa new routine. hahas.
than again, now without netball, I'M FREE! -beams.
kaes, back to tha main picture. the friggin' centre was a biatch. well, maybe not her character, but she sure was a big ass on court. she KNEED me and managed to get away with it. wth. not only that, she ELBOWED and PUSHED and POKED me!! dammit mans. go join the wrestling federation instead of netball la.
you can definitely excel there. xP
and the centre for the first two quart made me fall. blardy poop. my legs are now scarred, no thanks to you, you neh neh pok.



yeas. i love the netballers loads. you know who you are. the usual 3, ting, emm, and ren. hahas. not forgetting, the rest. :))



snapped tdy, in the morning, at weiliang. he and his stupid theory of the "table-separation" thingy. got a bit wonky, and shouted at him. hahas. really what! "separate tables cos' elbows will bang."
BANG YOUR HEAD LA!






damn ugly la. really.

FUN FUN FUN!
ahahhaha. the phrase practically sums up the events of tdy.


jammed with the so-called "PUSSIE WAGON", aka "XXX WAGON" (hahahs. i like e name)
rushed like mad all tha way to PS to meet the two lil rascals. I DID NOT MANAGE TO CATCH CONSTANTINE. i'm sooo friggin pissed ):
nvm, the best part has yet to come. xP
rushed again. this time to levth's house. didnt stay for long. sorry levth.
mingled with the peeps there for like 15 min, than headed for jasper's house.

here's the fun part.
being the crazy gamblers we are, we (jasper, ting, gurv, sayhoon, diana, kevin, weesuan, weihao, eugene) gathered tog and gambled like some sickos.
ting and i formed a tag-team, ltr joined by eugene. we were in a winning streak that we practically went berserk!! screamed like nobody's business. hhahhs.
WE MUST DO THIS MORE OFTEN MAN! CAN RELIEVE STRESS! hehs.
oh yea, kevin is a smooth banker. =P


cabbed back with ting and weesuan.
bitched a lil. kinda exciting. hahas.
oh man. bitchin' is no longer a girl's thing. it's a boy's thing too. hahahas. all tha guys are like doing it now too can??! hahas

things are starting to stink.
if you wanna end it, just say so.
stop running away.



lalalala

gong xi fa cai! nian nian you yu! ZHAO SHEN GUI ZI!
can't believe i said that to my mum. hahahs.

agree totally with what jasper had said. towning should be a daily affair.

CNY concert was O K A E. sentat is REALLY REALLY FUNNY cans??? hahahs.
"happy new year everybody. my name is Fa Fa. chinese new year must Fa."
wahahah. what crap.

bummed ard with the girls (steph, ting, becca, gurv, hidaya, j.ling, sue, and shelly). took hell loads of pictures tog. as if that wasn't enough, we even tok neos tog. girl power man!
slacked ard town aft that with rul and gang. walked ard aimlessly.
bumped into lester, badri and dearest JM. hehs.
in addition, bumped in to cute athiyah. rul was doing a silly impersonation of her. =P
anws, athiyah, dun stay pissed for too long yeas?
met arif and their friend harith (i think) at 7-eleven. tell u guys man. anyone, i repeat. ANYONE can spot arif from afar. him, and fahrul too, with their peacock-like hairstyle.
rizza joined us aft that. crapped as usual.
too many ppl are hanging out at orchard.
AH BENGS AND AH LIANS!! SHOO BACK to your neighbourhood malls. xP

i'm sooooo bored. and i wanna watch constantine!!!!!
keanu reeves is damn hot la.

love the way rizza put it. PDA - public display of affection.
and man..rizza, and fahrul(if you're reading this), i cannot believe that you guys got MOLESTED by that gay coach of yours. hahaahahahahahahahs!!!!

haiya, going crazy again.
yepp, same ole usual me.



and silly JM. austin told me larhs. I'M NOT PETTY KAES!!!! xP
in case you dunnoe, i was joking all this time. like duh. hahahahahas.


steph and i are in to some kinda post card writing disease.
but than, it's fun. =)

eh. dun be dumb larhs. stop badmouthing me to my friends. in case you dunnoe, they hate it when you do that.
and why?
cos they are my TRUE friends. and u have none.
fullstop.
=)

yea lar. like wtf. i dun give a shit. ANYMORE.
the only reason i went out with someone else cos I WAS PISSED FOR HEAVEN SAKE. wth. like it wasn't obvious enough. after all, you guys din even bothered. so why the hell should i stay?
like i've said, i was there, but you all treated me as if i wasn't there.




anws,
did some retail theraphy again today. this is becoming like some kind of habit for steph and me.
i got clothes! i got clothes! hahahas. what's new man.
jamming with kevin jasper and david sure is funny.
david does a really cool "gothic" rendition of Bring Me to Life's rapping part.
i needa shop some more. i'm going crazy. =P
the guys (and some girls) are pool-ing now. dammit. regret not joining them. =X



I CANNOT WAIT FOR MONDAY!



here is 10 good reasons why bitching is good for girls.
1) it makes us alert : we know abt every single thing that is happening to every one
2) it makes us happy.
3) it relieves stress
4) it makes us honest ppl
5) it improves our vocabulary
6) it increases our awareness about what is happening around us
7) it keeps us up to date abt the current "political" situation
8) it make us happy
9) it motivates us to NOT be like those ppl whom we bitch abt
and last but not least,
10) we girls just have practically nothing to do. =p

cheers.

dun mess with me. i'm feeling grouchy.


i feel like i'm no longer needed. you guys had a great time together, bet it didn't even matter whether i was there or not.
u all knew i was waiting, but you all practically walked pass us without even bothering.
whatever. i'm sick and tired of this strained relationship between all of us.




school passed pretty quickly tdy.
mr ow yong still goes at the speed of light for a math. he's bonkers la.


i start school everyday reading notes which are left on my desk. sleep through most of the lessons, piss wl off during math lessons, and go crazy during the interchange of periods.
how interesting.



I WENTA TOWN TODAY! hahahhahhas.
got pretty moody. like what lester said, "emo".
budden, how not to feel that way when.. ergh. fergettit. those things are not worth mentioning.
waste space only.
bumped into jasper and kelvin. hahahaahas. "so him"

"OMIGOSH! WHO IS THIS INTERNATIONAL BIG HEAD GUY?!!"
HAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!


two wrongs don't make a rightt.


SS test was pretty O K A E.
just that alan au yong shouldn't say that it's from chapt 1 to 7, when he BLOODY HELL SET THE QUESTIONS BASED ON CHAPTER 6 AND 7 LAR!
stoopid. =P



PE lessons are getting fun. well, maybe it depends on how you're seeing it.
we were the last class to ran. msbok held us back to do stretching as we were the lastest class to assemble. the guys ran in a straight line. den after we crossed the overhead bridge, they formed a "T", in favour of tohxin. muahaha.


I WANT MORE HONG BAOS! =D






kofi annan = COFFEE anan.

JM and vinay are liars. =p


i hate biased umpires.
I DIN EVEN TOUCH HER LA!
think those two umpires should go lala in the kitchen, on the floor. just like what ashlee simpson song says.



jasper : i love the picture of you holding the 50 dollar bills and laughing. classic.=)

i'm back. stronger. =)


so much to say. too little time.


let's test my summary skills. here goes.
i've been having pretty good weekends so far. the times at coffee club with different hangouts sure rock big time. mango tango makes me tinkle too. hahas.
cleared up a couple of things with several ppl. not all tho.

received a couple of sms-es from pretty weird ppl so far.
both equally desperate. get a life mans.


it's been a month.
-poof.
fcuking fast.




orite.. hmms. oh yea. i failed accounts. just like i had expected. 1 out of 16. cool aye?
i really stink at accounts man. everytime mr lim starts a new topic, i just can't understand a single damn thing that is coming out of his mouth. this, despite the fact that i really try to stay awake during his lessons.

i'm now waiting patiently for feb 14. the day i've been looking forward to for the past few days.
the day of liberation.