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This is the hardest part…saying goodbye to the one you love. You can’t do anything but to cry. You wish that you can stay and share love once again but you know right from the start it was wrong. You did your best, you fight for it but love cannot be last when it is wrong from the start. You pretend to be strong to ignore the pain that is killing you slowly but it hurts too much that you just can’t help yourself but to cry. Why it has to be wrong? When you know love is strong? You done your part, your heart are tired. You didn’t mean to leave and say goodbye but you have no choice but to let go. Let go of the love is not meant for you, the love is not right for you. Somehow is hard to move on and go on with your life but soon you will overcome those pain you feel. Somehow you will realize the pain is just temporary and it will be heal. From there, your heart will no longer hurt, no longer broken and ready to move on, and once you’re in love again, it doesn’t hurt that much. You will never say goodbye to love anymore but say hello to it and goodbye to pain…

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Here we are, standing close to each other

You look in my eye and I took your hand

I’m sorry I can’t stay; I’m not the one you need

I can’t give the love you wanted

Loving you is wrong

I love you and you know I do

I have to set you free

This is the only way I know

You deserved to be happy not with me

You love him more than to me

Someone is waiting for you

Truly loves you more than I do

I wish to stay but that will be a lie

Your heart belong not to mine

Remember the words I say

In my heart you will stay

My love will remain as long my heart beats

I will never stop loving you as long as I live

Time for me to go, so I let go of you…

I’m sorry but I have to go…I love you Goodbye...

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Only you who takes my breath way

Only you who can make me fall over and over again

Only you who can make me smile

Only you who can take my worries away

No one else can make me feel this way, only you

No one else can love me the way you do, only you

No one else can make me happy like you do, only you

No one else can cure the pain I feel, only you

Nobody can hold me the way you hold me, only you

Nobody can kiss me the way you touch my lips, only you

Nobody can make me fall like this, only you

Nobody cares to me like you do, only you

Only you, nobody but you

Only you, no one else but you

Only you and there will be no other

Only you and only me

In our own world there is you and me

In my life there will be only you

My love will be yours, only to you

Because in my heart there will be only you…

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Sorry people for inconvenience and late reply you know how busy I am updating my blogs and I have to finish my post in a hurry, very quickly as I can. My head hurts now same as my eyes. Whew! I got so many messages and comments to read. I realized my blogs become popular that I even got many invites. You know people I don’t have to be snob here since my journal is in public so it’s open to every one unless you just try to mess up then it will be a different story. New comers and readers, welcome to my heart, there’s no rule here because I am the law in my own blogs. Now, let see what I can do for now while I’m here. I only have limited time to stay here, make me feel home people…

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Hello people!!! I am back now; hmmm I don’t know it’s for good or what. Its’ been a long week since the last time I’m here. Well I make this as quickly as I can. When our schedule finally arranged and fixed, checking the long list of schedule in my organizer it was totally loaded.

Reading it makes my eyes big, the dates was actually in a row that we only got 1 day off which we never get fairly. Then I realized I won’t be have time to write my journal. I don’t know where I can’t put my own time on it since the loaded schedule. Suddenly I freak out! What???! Oh no!! I’m going to miss my writings again for sure. Since I love you people, I decided to leave you something as a many as I can for you to read while I am away again. This is not going to be easy, I’m sorry that I have to leave again temporarily because you know I have to work hard for you people. I hope and I wish, that there will be no more issues and if ever we can’t avoid to have issues since people now has been into their emotions, let them be…lets deal with it, learn to deal with it, that’s life! Please no more fighting it will just make another problem…Happy reading!!!! TVXQ fighting!!!

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Finally, I am done updating, I just hope every one is happy and satisfy for the effort I made.  I really appreciate your time to support my work and writings. I’m thankful to those people who stay with me even how late it is already. Forever I will be grateful to you people, to all the time you give to me, you will always remember, sorry I cant reply to all your messages and comments, i dont have much time so I need to take a rest now and sleep because we will travel and work again. I’m going to miss you all; I just wish every body will be happy even I am away. Now, people I only have 4 hours to sleep, ohhh 2 hours I guess…Please respect each other and no more fighting its not too much to ask right?I ill keep you all in my heart, I LOVE YOU! see you on stage! TVXQ Fighting!!!

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Time to sleep, sorry I have to take my rest and stop writing my journal. Sorry for keep you hanging, but my eyes so tired now. Let me sleep so I will see you in my dreams…

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“This is one of the songs I love to hear it over and over again. This is the song I am currently listening now…the lyrics it tells every thing I have in my heart…”

ALL I NEED IS YOU

By: CLICK FIVE

You're scared
It shows
Been there
You're not prepared to be
In love
With me
So soon cause you've been through enough to have
Something hold you back

We don't need to go that far
Let's hold on to where we are
If it's real we'll make it through
Cause all I need is you

They say
Don't waste
Your time
They're obviously blind

So let's
Forget
The words the thoughts they put into your head
Don't give up just yet

We don't need to go that far
Let's hold on to where we are
If it's real we'll make it through
Cause all I need is you

We don't need the world right now
We got time to work it out
Hold on tight, I'll hold on too
Cause all I need is --

Baby, maybe we should start somewhere
Baby, let me in your heart
Before we fall apart

We don't need to go too far
Let's hold on to who we are
If it's real we'll make it through
Cause all I need is you

We don't need the world right now
We got time to work it out
Hold on tight, I'll hold on too
Cause all I need is you
All I need is you
All I need is you

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“This is one of the song that inspires me every time I feel lonely and down. I can relate with this through experience I have…”

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“In response to the song BECAUSE I AM A GIRL by KISS”

I just can`t understand the ways 
Of all the men and their mistakes, 
You give them all your heart 
And then they rip it all away... 

You told me how much you loved me, 
And how our love was meant to be. 
And I believed in you, 
I thought that you would set me free... 

You should`ve just told me the truth, 
That I wasn`t the girl for you... 
Still I didn`t have a clue, 
So my heart depended on you...Whoah 

Although Ill say `I hate you` now, 
Though Ill shout and curse you out... 
I`ll always have love for you, 
Because I am a girl. 

Been told a man will leave you cold, 
Get sick of you and bored... 
I know that it`s no lie, 
I gave my all still I just cry. 

Never again will I be fooled, 
To give my all when nothing`s true... 
I won`t be played again, 
But I will fall in love again... 

You should`ve just told me the truth, 
That I wasn`t the girl for you... 
Still I didn`t have a clue, 
So my heart depended on you...Whoah 

Although Ill say `I hate you` now, 
Though Ill shout and curse you out... 
I`ll always have love for you, 
Because I am a girl. 

I loved you so... 
Now you leave me in the cold, 
How could this be? 
I thought that you`d only love me... 

Into the night, 
I will pray that you`re all right. 
You hurt me so, 
I just can`t let you go --- 

You took advantage of my 
willingness, 
To do anything for love. 
Now Im the only one in pain... 
Will you please take it all away Oh 

Never thought born being a girl, 
How I can love you and be burned... 
And now I will build a wall, 
To never get torn again. 

Although Ill say `I hate you` now, 
Though Ill shout and curse you out... 
I`ll always have love for you, 
Because I am a girl. 

Although Ill say `I hate you` now, 
Though Ill shout and curse you out... 
I`ll always have love for you, 
Because I am a girl.

This is a boy version…

Written by: mickypyc

Im sorry that I can’t stay

You don’t understand my mistake

I give to you all my heart

And then you just rip all away…

I told you how much I love you

That our love was meant to be

I thought you believe in me

But you just set me free

You better told me the truth

I wasn’t the boy for you

In my mind I don’t have a clue

So I depended on your love

Even I say I hate you now

Though I shout and blame you now

My love will always be with you

Because I am a boy

Even I leave you cold

I make you sick and bored

I know in my heart, I never lie

I give my all even it makes me cry

I will never fool again

I will still give my all when nothing is true

I will never play again

I let my heart to fall again

You better told me the truth

I wasn’t the boy for you

In my mind I don’t have a clue

So I depended on your love

Even I say I hate you now

Though I shout and blame you now

My love will always be with you

Because I am a boy

I love you so

Now I am cold

How could this happen?

I thought we will only share our love

And every night

I pray to God that you’re alright

You hurt my heart

And I can’t let it go

I was taken for granted

When I do everything for love

Now I’m the only one left in pain

Will you come back and take it all away…

I never taught being a boy

How can I love and being burned

Now I will make a wall

So my heart will not get torn again

Even I say I hate you now

Though I shout and blame you now

My love will always be with you

Because I am a boy…

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Now I just hope that no one will make an issue regarding on the poems I have posted. Some of the poem I post was made by people that close in my heart. They have a gift of writings that I admire so much. I hope no one will feel bad about this thing. Soon when I got to know you more and you start sharing your poems with me, I will make one entry for you to show appreciation so I’m looking forward to that day, what are you waiting for? Come on! Show me what you got; share me something now and I will be the one cheering you up!

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Suddenly it’s magic. To see you glowing looks like its magic. Your beauty shines like magic, your eyes sparkling like a star in the sky. Nothing compares to your beauty, it shines on a special way, and your beauty takes my breath away…

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Hi people happy happy friendship to all; let’s celebrate together the day of a friendship. I got many friends here now and they are one of reasons why I stay here. Writing this I feel I am a child, jumping on my bed ahhhhhh I miss my soft bed…let’s be fiends ok?

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There are so many strangers that I met here along the way. My blogs is open to the public that anyone can comment, read my entries and add me up. All I can do is to welcome all of you with all my heart. So I’m hoping that we will be fiends here ok???

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We travel a lot and now I am getting some fresh air…I miss korea a lot since we stay more in Japan. It feels good every time we get back and be with people we love. I don’t have much time to spend with them and even I can get a girlfriend now, for sure I can’t even give her so much time too. Probably, if ever I will have a girlfriend at this moment in time, she has to be patience and understand my job. I don’t know if she can handle the way of life I have, that is something I am worried about…

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Love is not a crime that once you’re in love you’re guilty of it. Being in love with someone you know out of reach is not a sin. Ordinary people don’t have the right to fall for someone that is not same life as them, that’s on people’s head. Status in life is not a basis to be in love and not to be in love. In my life, it’s hard for me to fall once I did, it always be complicated. I got complicated life, so I got complicated love life. When would be my fate will change that I can live normal loving a person without any pressures around me, when would be my chance come that I can show my love freely. I don’t know if that will happen but one thing for sure I will never stop falling in love because is one thing I can’t give up…

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I posted links on my journal it doesn’t mean I own that site or what. That’s only I site I visit for entertainment. I mean I just love that stuff they are posting there, those websites that I often visit once I have extra time to relax and I find interesting to read it. Well, I don’t know now if I will have extra time to be on the net since the schedule we have ohhhh I’m going to miss the fan fiction and drawings I love to read…I’m going to miss more my writings and I wish I can deal with it for 3 months! Thinking not to write for 3 months makes me incomplete! Ahhhhhhhh Yoochun good luck!!!

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Hello people!!! I am back! My emotions are mixed; I don’t know what my mood is I just can’t describe it. I just feel lately that I need to write as soon as possible because as I said I don’t have much time now to write. This is the only chance I got so I have to do everything I can do here.  I don’t know how long I will stay here on line since I have 100 entries to post it so you have to give me a little patience people. I don’t anything else just a little understanding and respect is not too much to ask for right?

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I admit, I’ve been sounded romantic, that I was writing too much on my blogs. I explain it many times that writing is one of my passions that I can’t simply give up. Writing is related to singing, like writing your own songs coming from the heart. Before I finally realized I was in love, I was already writing love and romantic poems which I wrote for a long time, I feel that is one thing I have to share with you people so I’ve been posting it here. I didn’t know that my writings will be a basis for my private life. When I finally revealed my feelings and admit to myself that I am in love, I started to write more love poems coming from my heart. Then, confusion, issues just came up…I don’t know why it has to be a big deal about my feelings when you know I’m just human with emotions. Worst, some people even want to know whose the girl I love or let say curious who might be the girl I love which I believe it’s none of your business.  If I tell who she is it will satisfy you? It would be an answer to your confusion? It’s my will not to tell you who she is because that is something I have to keep it in myself; I don’t think it is wrong. I was misunderstood all this time…

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Why I always have to worry? Why I have to feel this way that I feel the whole world is against me? What did I do? Do I make your life miserable?

I’m not perfect! Don’t think I am, yeah right! I am a celebrity who cares about Micky Yoochun anyway? That’s only his stage identity, how about showing who really Park Yoochun is…you don’t care who I am, I don’t care who I am either because I am here not as you see me in camera. This is reality, not just a movie or tv, the reality is me, I hope you get my point…

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Do I have to share to you some experiences I had for the past few weeks? Nothing is new; I have the same heart, same life. What’s new with me? A little something I called “clothes” yeah I got new clothes again, some other stuff. Well you know me; they say I am a big spender in money. This is me, I want to spend money to buy things that I know I can look good. Do I make any sense here? Who doesn’t want to be looking good? Now if being big spender in money will be an issue again, who cares if I spend it? It’s my own money; I don’t think it’s wrong. Maybe I am a big spender but I am wiser…think about it people

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We work hard, the clocks keep on running and we are also running like a clock. Every time we have event, we’re always in a hurry. We keep on nagging each other, “faster!!!”… “I forgot my keys!” “huh? What??!” blah…blah…something like that, in the end of the work, we look groggy that I can’t even open my eyes wide as I can. Hard to catch sleep, we don’t have enough sleep so if you block my way or simply getting in my way, you’re just looking for trouble. Sorry I don’t want to be evil so save you life!!! *wink*

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Well I even actually amazed by myself, writing and posting 100 entries in just one day?

The clock is running 24 hours a day but I feel I don’t much have time to write so I have to give the best I have now. For the first time, I did this! Now I realized how amazing I am, I just laugh to myself. I don’t know why I have to do this, caring so much to people I don’t know suddenly my writings becomes my profession and my profession becomes my obligations. I don’t have to explain why; I just love what I am doing. My writing becomes my addiction! *knocks my head* Smile people!!!

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Many people are confused, curious and puzzled what exactly my type of girl is. As I said, I don’t have big standards when it comes to that matter. I’m sorry for making you confused for letting you know I’m in love if that’s a big deal? Well for me, whoever you are, wherever you came from and my heart falls for you, then it’s you my heart choose no more question ask. Love is all that matters, beauty to me was nothing if you don’t have a heart to understand, beauty fades but beauty inside never fade…

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Well probably you know sometimes I stay with my house and lives there, there are times I’m not staying with my group but it doesn’t mean I totally leave them. We still have lots of moment we share for and when we are together something funny always happen; it always a memorable one. Now this entry is dedicated to them, my beloved Dong Bang Shin Ki Members. To my dearest group, yes I am talking to you, Junsu ah!, jaejoong sshi, Yunho and of course you the “big baby” Changmin. Well you guys are not here with me and I don’t want you to be here you know why I don’t right? Let’s start this, I know even you’re not having an account here; you know what’s going on around me. I even caught you guys reading my blogs not once but many times when I let my laptop open and my journal site is in maximize mode. Well don’t think I am mad because you’ve been exploring, browsing and spying on my comments and replies but it surprised me a lot since you guys are not into reading long writings especially our leader sshi YUNHO, am I right? How come yunho mentioning he loves reading when he totally hate it. Funny! And there is you jaejoong, who talks so loud saying…”Faster, before yoochun gets back!” and then you look around checking if I am coming. How about Junsu? I almost laugh when I see him sitting in front of my laptop, controlling it and navigate every thing. It looks like he’s the one who leads you to play around with my blogs huh? And our baby changmin, it doesn’t look like he cares at all to read but he keeps on eating my food I left. You guys are so adorable just watching you doing the funny thing as if you will understand all that is written there when it is in English. Maybe somehow you will understand even a little right? And what surprised me I even saw you guys checking other’s blog reading their entries, how interesting it is huh? Well now, if you will play around with my blogs next time I am away from my laptop, make it sure you will read this entry…If you have any questions, talk to my lawyer…LOL

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Taken for granted or to be rejected is one of the painful things hard to face with. Believe it or not, I got many of it and there is an experience that I will never forget. When I was in the U.S. and study there, I didn’t gain friends as easy as that. Since I am a foreigner in their country, they see me as “alien” and different from the others. There is no totally discrimination at all but I feel rejected many times when I try to fit in with the singing group in the school and they thought I was just a skinny boy that I got nothing to show for. They think I don’t have talent and my image doesn’t look I can sing. All I can do is to watch the group singing on stage while I am just one of the crowds watching them. I told to myself, someday I will be on stage just like them and people will cheer me up and will scream my name. I have that vision in my heart and I keep on holding on for it. I believe on my own belief. I have my own world when I stay there but along the way, I meet some students that are same races as me and friendship starts to bloom. I build my confidence when I found friends where I can relate with and where I can show my real self. Finally, I fit in to where I am truly belonging. My vision in life never fades in my heart until my chance came. I join in a singing contest in school where I show them what I got and what they are missing with. After my performance, I saw those students belong to the singing group rejecting me with their eyes and mouth wide open. It shows how amazed they are in my singing ability especially when I hit the high notes. After that contest, they approach me if I wanted to join in their group and I just give them a pay back of what they cause me. I reject them the way they reject me and I told them, I’m not interested anymore because I will build my own singing group with my friends. I don’t know what I did is right, but somehow because of that experience I had, I become more eager to fulfill my dreams and I start to take my step to a journey of my life and because of that dream, I become Dong Bang Shin Ki…And now being Dong Bang Shin Ki is one of the reason to be proud of…

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The life I have is always being in a hot seat. Celebrity doesn’t have privacy and its reality hard to deal with. Somehow living in fame doesn’t make you completely happy. When you’re celebrity it doesn’t mean you have every thing you desire, every thing you need for. Material things in the world cannot make you happy for a lifetime, just like beauty it fades. I come to the point, I hate my life. I almost blame God and questioning why it has to be like this. Then I become puzzled think for a minute, I am the one who make my own life it’s not God who put me here. I have a choice, I will never be like this if I didn’t choose this path. I admit, I get depressed, down and sometimes sad because things I want to happen doesn’t go on my way, it doesn’t happen the way I wanted to be but I realized, we cannot get every thing we wanted, we cannot have every thing we desire for and if ever it happens, it is God will. Our fate is in our hands but God is there to guide and to watch.  I have no regrets having a life that is not normal because for me it’s a gift from God that I have to treasure it. Life is a gift, whether you’re a celebrity or not, whatever kind of life you have, it’s a gift we have to value for the rest of our lives. We only live once, and if ever we have second chance or another life to live with, its God will to give us life again. So value your life as long you have all the chance to spend it because life will never gets back once it taken away…

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Do I deserve to be my life in controversies? I got many issues…running through my mind…one by one they become night mares…nightmares hunting me every where I go…This is reality, my life, how come I still dreaming in a reality world? Reality becomes dreams, and dreams become nightmares…please…take it away so my worries will fade away…

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Maybe I am good to you and nice but it doesn’t mean you can just let know every thing to me. It’s my life and it doesn’t mean you have access to know what’s going on around me. If there is something I have in mind or either in my heart right now, it’s my private life, something personal that I can’t share. Well, even how many times I say I’m being natural here the reality will not change the way people think of me. Who cares if I am a celebrity? I don’t even care what I am to people, I’m still human, I have emotions, I have feelings, if I want to get mad, I will, If I don’t like you, simply I don’t like you. I have to be real so if things I did or say hurt you, not my problem. I go my way, and then you go your way. Do your thing, I do my thing. As long we both don’t hitting each other below the belt, then its fine, no problem to think about. Know your boundaries and I will know mine. Do I make things clear here? Mess up with one of my precious possession and you are dead meat!

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Go people! Say what you want to say! If that makes you feel better then go ahead. Say anything you want, hurt me, and hate me if that will set your heart free then do it. I am already numb by too many problems to think about. I am dead by too much pain you caused me. Now this entry for sure will be a big issue again and comments will be flooding like teardrops from my eyes. Don’t think I write this because I’m in favor with my brother; don’t think I’m on his side. If you want to know something just message me, ask me anything you want to know unless it’s not personal, I can answer it honestly. I don’t want to write too much here because it will not be good on my part. I don’t want trouble and this is not a war that we have to fight each other. I’m tired explaining do I have to keep on repeating that? Please people grown-up!

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Here we go again, issue never fade. Of course it will never fade; it’s always a part of my life.

Every where I go, it follows me. Even in my writings, it becomes issue. Many of you already know what I am talking about here. Don’t think I am mad writing this entry but somehow, I get disappointed. I don’t want to pin point people because I’m not being judgmental.

Honestly, I have poor judgment to people because I don’t judge people; I’m not good at it. I just let my heart see what really they are. In spite of my poor judgment, I never was fooled because I use my mind to protect myself. I am more into instinct than judgment. I’ve been good to almost every one here and sometimes I feel I was taken advantage. Once there’s something came up, it always a big deal. Then people will never stop talking and talking, saying their own words but their heart never understand at all. Actually, I don’t want to pretend I’m ok when I’m not. I’m writing this, thinking what I’m going to say, it’s hurt my head people. I write this for you to know, what I feel right now. I AM DISAPOINTED THAT’S WHAT I FEEL AND I WISH IT WILL GO AWAY…

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I thought every thing will be alright when I get back, but it turns to worst and I just don’t get it people. Why it has to be always a big issue when it comes to my feelings and writings? I don’t really get it! I don’t know where I should put myself to place, I always go wrong. I’m so tired thinking too much about many issues. I’m holding my temper as long as I can, don’t let me explode or you will regret it!

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I know I have a gift of writing, I write many poems since I was a kid and writing were one of my greatest passions. I got inspired by many poetry writers including those celebrity people I admire. Remember Arthit Ryu from Thailand? He is one of the great poet celebrities I’ve known. Sad that he didn’t post his creation for a long time and I really miss reading his poems, I was thinking to join the poetry club in the net and join also in the contest but I’m quite nervous because this is the first time I will do this. Actually, it was only in my mind and I’m not yet making any decision. I just want to explore and I think joining the contest is very challenging. There’s nothing wrong if I give it a try right? But I’m afraid I will have no time to concentrate due to many work and besides, I have to choose the best poem I made before I pass it in their site. Well, I’m writing this to hear your opinion

What do you think I supposed to do? Face the challenge or just leave it that way? Any opinions will be accepted, my mind and heart is open to understand and whatever decision I made, you will find out soon…but for now, I have to do first my job, so I will continue to work hard ok?

website: http://www.best-love-poems.com/

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Many people ask me why I shouldn’t have a paid account in live journal. My account is plus, it means, free. Remember the best thing in life is free right? So why I have to pay when I can get it free?

And besides, writing is free, it’s not payable and we don’t have to spend money just to have a blog like this and express your feelings, share your emotions, this is totally free, I guess I said it clear and briefly…

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Months has passed, I denied to myself that I was in love because I was not yet sure that time about my feelings for this girl. And then I realized I keep on writing love poems because simply “I am in love” and my heart is inspired to write. When I finally realized it, I can’t hide it anymore but don’t you think there is a reason to be happy? When you’re in love it doesn’t mean you are happy. Well, when my feelings finally revealed, I become speechless. I am sure in my feelings that I was in love with her, the sad thing is…she doesn’t know I am in love with her. I don’t have courage to tell her because I become frozen every time I think of her. I feel nervous every time I try to tell her, this feeling taken all over me. So I express my feelings for her through my writings, but the sad thing is…she doesn’t know I am here, that this blog of mine truly exist. How does she know if she’s not here? How does she know I write for her if she thinks I am just one of her illusion and fantasy? I’m just one of her crazy dream, that’s what she thinks of me. I am a star, I shouldn’t engage in this thing. I’m a star so supposed to be I don’t have time for this. See? How does she know I love her, I’m longing for her, that she’s all I want, she’s all I need in my life if she has doubts in me. But then, I decided to hold my feelings inside my heart but the sad thing is…she doesn’t believe me at all…that a star can fall…

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Have patience, your prince will come someday. In love, you have to be patience and brave. Don’t lose hope in love because there’s always hope in loving. Just remember that love takes time and no need to rush things. Maybe we can’t get what we want right away but we never left empty. Soon the love we wanted and longing for will come in our way unexpected and you will realize that love not only takes time but time takes love…

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How far you can go in the name of love? How long you will go when it comes to love? Do you have limitations? Do you have what it takes? Many people are fighting for their love but in the end they still end up loser. Love is a challenging thing, the more you get hurt the more you want to try. When it comes to love, always remember it has no limitations, it has no boundaries, and no amount, and it cannot be count. When you love someone it doesn’t matter what you can take from them what matters most is how you fight for it and survive. In the name of love, you will do anything, everything and give your all to satisfy the one you love. In the name of love you break down, cry, hurt and suffer but manage to stand tall. That’s what love can do; tearing up every piece of your heart and you will surrender everything you have, your body, soul and heart just in the name of love…

Lesson to learn: “In loving, just do every thing what you can do, do it without expectations, just loving without questioning, give all your best you got without asking any return and if ever they leave you in spite of all the things you done, it’s not your lost anymore, its their lost…”

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If you think I can easily let you go, I’m sorry but I can’t give you up. You’re the only thing left to me, why I have to set you free? You are my reason to live and you are my life, if I will let you go, I can’t no longer live. I’m sorry, call me selfish but I will never let you go. It’s the hardest thing to do, maybe I am crazy but I can’t let go someone like you. Hate me, curse me, but I will never let myself down and give up for something good. You’re one of the good things happen to me, good things like you is hard to let go. So let me love you the way I wanted to…

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Two hearts lost in a middle of nowhere, one is broken and crying, and the other one is bleeding and dying. Two hearts, separated by world and distance, with different time and place, find each other in a lonely place. Unexpected happen, they fall in love and cure each other pain. The two hearts become one, is no longer broken, nor dying. A new life has begun; a dying heart becomes alive, no more crying, a broken heart finally become whole and start to make a new life. A two hearts almost lost in a world, crashed and shattered but find each other and a new love blooms. Two hearts become one by the beat, now they have each other, they will spread their wings to fly and share their love forevermore…

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Here I am again, writing something new, something I feel, something in my heart, something in my mind. Recently, many people got confused by my entries. Some people ware surprised to find out that I am in love. If that’s a big deal or something not to be bother at all. Honestly, I am not totally taken; being in love doesn’t mean you are committed.  I just want to clear things so confusion will be over. Actually this entry is dedicated to some people I have to thank with. When I get back here, there are some people write an entry, I’m not sure it’s for me or for someone but they mention my name on their entry. My online friends here in live journal are mostly girls. Mostly are fans but I never considering myself as an idol so for me, every one here is welcome to be my fiend. I admit, I pissed off and even get mad but it doesn’t mean I have hatred in my heart. There is no space for hate in my heart, as I said; I have a lot of love to give. I appreciate those people who never give up supporting me and believe in me without any doubts. When I started to make live journal account here, I never expect people will find me as real. You know what I mean, when I start to use this live journal, there’s no hope in my heart that people will believe me since I know my status is, even how many times I explain that I am not an idol here, I’m just here as natural with no celebrity side, not all people will change the way they see me. Somehow I can’t change what people think of me. We can’t please any body but I feel happy because there are few people accept me and treat me the way I wanted to be treated. I told you, I don’t want to be like V.I.P. here so I talk to people casually. I admit I can’t give attention to all people here and some people think I am being unfair. Right from the start, since I get involved in the net, people doubted me and I don’t want my identity to be question even my feelings. Accusing me fake, I never make it as a big deal to me; I don’t take it seriously but it will be a lie if I will say it doesn’t affect me, somehow it affects me a little but I ignore it and be myself. I don’t want those faking and poser matter will be an issue because I understand at all. You see how I did my best to be patience and give my understanding to those rude, uncivilized people but not all the time I can let them disrespect me like that. Now, as I said there are some people I have to thank with. They actually know who they are, I keep on reading their entries and I’m proud of their writings. To those people close to my heart, don’t think I don’t even remember you or either recognized you. As I said, whoever you are, wherever you came from, I’m not a type of person can easily forget the people who done many things in my life. If you done something good to me, you will be remember. Maybe it doesn’t show how much I appreciate you as you, but you see I work hard for you to be happy and give you what you truly deserved. I told you, I will not be just an idol here but a friend you can talk with. I hope that I didn’t make any confusion this time. My heart is open for friendship but I hope no one will abuse my kindness I show because you know me people, once I explode, it will be worst, I’m saying this for you to understand and make things clear. Whoever you are, forever I will be thankful to you and you will be remembering as long as I live. You’ll be in my heart not forever but for always…

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All this time…I thought I can live without you, I thought I can go on without you, but I was wrong all this time. All this time, I was trying to fight with the misery, I struggle with pain and tears started to fall from my eyes. All this time I thought I can get over you, that without you I can be alright. It’s all wrong all this time, it makes me cry all the time, how can I turn back the time? When I can’t have a time? All this time, it was hard through the day, without you, I lost in time; I don’t know how to track the time when I cannot have you at this time, it’s you I need all this time and be mine for all time…

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There are times when I feel I can’t go on, that I want to give up and surrender the fight. There you are never leave me alone, you give me strength and hope. You show me the way; you taught me how to be brave when things don’t seem right. When I fall, you’re there to catch me, when I’m sad; you make a rainbow for me. There you are, giving all your best, showing all your love without expecting, without any demands. I was blessed by your love, I breathe because of you, I live because of you, you’re the air that I breathe, the beat of my heart, the veins of my soul, I learn to touch the sky, your love makes me fly, the reason is you in every thing I do, the reason is you in every step I take, the reason is you in every words I say, the reason is you in every dreams I reach, there’s no other reason except you, the reason for me to live is you…

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When you’re not around, I am lost forever; Things never been good to me when you’re not here. When I can’t see you, I feel blue. I’m not used to be far from you, I want to be close to you as always. I’m lost without your love because it is my guide, your love is my energy to keep me moving, your love makes me strong and I feel weak when you’re not with me.  You’re love is all I need; I don’t want to get lost so I need you now and please come back to me…

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I don’t care what they say, or what people will say. I don’t care where you came from and what race you are, as long as you love me and I love you, it’s all matters to me. You are matters to me; the only thing I cannot live for is you. You are the one I love and I don’t care if they are against you, it’s you I will love until the time is through, and nothing can change that.  Even we are far away from each other, I don’t even care the distance between us, what matters most is I have you and you have me, whatever it takes, we will never surrender, as long as you love me, I will give the best of me…FIGHTING!

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You are far but I feel you’re close to my heart. Every time I close my eyes, it’s you I see. The picture of you never goes away; it’s all over my head. I just can’t control not to think of you when all I can see is a picture of your face, the shadow of your smile and the memory of you. I got your picture perfect in my mind every time my eyes are close. The image of you seem so perfect, it’s the only thing I see that is clear to me. The vision of you is my future and the picture of you is a vision of my life…

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I am far away from your world; a million miles away make us separated. In my world, I dream of you, I make wishes for you. Far away, I love you. We are far and yet it’s like were together when we dream. In our dreams we can share our moments, in dreams we can love each other freely. Only in our dreams we can make our own world. In reality, we are not together, somehow it makes me feel bad but I never give up dreaming of you because it’s only you I see in my dreams, only in dreams I can be with you. In dreams I can feel you; I can hold you and love you the way I wanted to. I made a promise under stars, once that I get the chance to be with you in a lifetime, I will never let go the chance to be with you, I will hold your hand tight, never let it go and I will never let you slip away…

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Love is one of the most powerful weapons, when love is strong, it defeat everything. Love has its own power to control our mind and heart. Love has the power to make you fall, to make you cry and to make you down. Love can hurt you, love can beat you and love commands you. Somehow it is true that love is power, people think it’s a powerful thing on earth since love can control every human’s feelings and emotions. For me, maybe love is powerful, but it is more magic. Love is magical because it makes people fall in love unexpected, it hurts but it feels so good, it is magic in a way that love can move in the unexplained way. Love is magical because it fulfills everybody wishes and make the impossible thing happen in just one beat of a heart…

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Once a heart is broken, it’s hard to mend. It will heal but scars will be left. It’s hard to love again when a heart is broken into pieces. There is no easy way to mend a broken heart. When a heart is strong, it can forget easily but if is weak, it will cry so hard. A heart can forgive but it’s hard to forget. I got my heart broken the first time I fell in love. It was painful and yet worth it, from that experience, my heart become strong and I learn to love over and over again. I learn to fight and face all the hardship I come across. I fall, I cry, I feel I will not survive but now look where I am, I never thought I will go this far, and my broken heart finally heal. Now I fell in love once again and if ever my heart will be broken for the hundred times, I will never have a change of heart…