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i haven blogged in a long time...
sometimes i want to disconnect with the world..and be in peace. by that i dun mean to go and die.i just mean like...just be alone sometimes.yeah i know it sounds emo but i think being alone at certain times helps you see things in a better light.but of course it does not apply to all situations, but like i said certain.

are we so oblivious to all that is falling apart around us?
that the very base and foundations of all we have built on and are trying to build on is crumbling?
that no one with their own focus trained on something else, seeks the irony to which they think they are helping but in fact degrading all?
we are all insufferable fools.

shyanne said "fate, is things that have long ago been laid down in stone, that they are meant to happen."
i believe that fate is within ur own hands. u mould,sculpt, create, shape it. by ur actions and those around you.but of course this is my opinion, and certainly not the rule. everyone has theitr own interpretations.
what do u think?

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i think the main reason why i dun blog so often is because i cant think of what to write for the first paragraph, den i'll be lazy to think, therefore i keep everything in my head.

there you go.

free speach?where?censorship where the strong only grows stronger and the weak gets oppressed.

yesterday i've learned a very valuable lesson. i will never do that again. it needs me to have that to tell me u mean so much to me...

i'm abt to complain my family is dysfunctional.ok technically i just did.but before i wanted to really express it out in words, we all just have to think if we have done enough, or rather NOT done enough such that it has resulted this way. arguments are a common thing, just as long they seek to further understand each other and not end in blows.

sometimes its so hard you just might want to give up. we'll hang in there. ur always not alone. =)

rather than whine abt this and that, take action. whining accomplishes nothing.(unless its the missus that does it, HAHA! ;P)

two cows for the price of one ben lau.

ok that was an absolutely random title.but cant think of one other den the one i told Bloop<>< abt.
she said my posts are more matured now a days, compared to last times. well i'd say thats true [it still surprises me that she still visits my blog :0 ] ,but i wouldn't say mature, more like able to grasp and understand what this circus we call the world is going around.we all still have a long way to go to become matured...

moving on...i spent my 300 pay away in 2 FUCKING WEEKS! its a combination of money mismanagement, some important dates that we all have to go through. i'm not blaming the dates at all, i'm just wondering how did my money reserves(if u can call that) depleted so fucking fast!shit man...

and yes i've got 4 presentations at the end of the month, along with mid semester exams next month. i think they fall near the end of the month. whatever the case, i shall try to cultivate some good habits such as control gaming times, slp earlier, wake up earlier,put toothpicks to prop my eyelids open during lectures, bring 3 cans of coffee into tutorial( ESPECIALLY IAF), make aqquaintence with slackers so u feel good when u do bad!ok thats mean...but come on, everybody compares...who knows, maybe i'm the loser that the top guy in class compares with...HAHA.

u know, i think our bosses should just stop charging us for driving thru certain areas...if u wanna curb it, just fucking ban driving...saves us some money u know?esp with the escalating oil prices and "taxes" that u urself impose on us(!)whoops.

and finally, its been 1&1/2 year with dearest =D
sometimes there was doubts in me, but after much self soul searching and some soul searching by frens, you mean alot to me...
i'd admit i'm not the best guy u can find around in what ever category, but i sure as garuntee you i'm just abt as unique my fingerprint against 1.3 billion people in china.
I LOVE YOU! :D

i hope dogs and cows fall again, not with ben lau's sound, but with some peace and cool to go around...