wats happening?

todae got lessons per normal...supposed to be lah...but in the end todae and tml de history cancelled...postponed to 6th and 7th...means pushed to the second week...irritating bahge...i just wish someone retain her teaching methods but change personality and face....cant stand her sia...so todae got break for 2 hours...den went for oral...also slack dere....den plae around and tok with the ppl waiting for their turn...haha...den when everybody finish...den tok to Mrs Ng...i guess she's ok bah...but facing a cls i think she changed mentality...haha...she tell us of her sch-ling daes...so cool ah dat time...haha...den after that go mac at green to eat...den i go tution...frm 3 till 6 lah...wah piang...den come home and slack infront of computer till now...woohoo....i hate this life....

oh great...i'm having thoughs kinda feelings all over again...hopefully its just a crush...its another long and complicated story...

shyt...

todae was chinese 'O's...sian lor...fail le..if not fail i think sure must retake de...anyways...yesterdae watched infernal affairs...quite nice...not bad...has unexpected twists and sad ending...ah wadeva...got lotsa of things to sae...alot going through my mind now...ah...wish i ould erase everything in my mind and restart all over again...haha...todae after exam go angeline house watch movie..a very very lame movie...haha...i gotta go and eat now..chiao

ok so this is how it goes...

this two daes neva update cos of O-fucking-lvl chinese...well..partly...the other reason was i had bad results...haha...booo...i failed my com. humanities and chinese...my ca for chinese was a cool 39!...wah lau eh...can u get any lower than that!...all my results were like C6,C5 de...haha...never expected my english CA to fail also...but heng my english SA pass...oh wadeva...Mr pang got quite alot to sae about me...bahge also...although her tots were uninvited...but she just barged in and broadcasted her tots...as usual...den chiu dip also got alot to sae abt mi...she also sae one think make me go and reflect...nid to go and bah wo this holidaes and buck up on my studies...going to chiong chinese le...cya peeps

yeah yeah yeah!!!

woohoo!!!!...todae's post shall be in red to remember wat has happened on the 25th of May 2005!
LIVERPOOL FOOTBALL CLUB HAS WON THE CHAMPIONS LEAGUE FOR THE FIFTH TIME!!!WOOHOO!!!
i simply love that team~!...wahaha...todae go sch damn high sia...though i woke up very late to catch the match....it was enough cos the xtra time and the penalty shootout was nailbitting....wah kao..my heart nearly stopped when shevchenko NEARLY scored in the dying moments of extra time...wah that was really heart stopping stuff...haha...den when we won the penalty shootout i was like jumoing around the living room...doing everything in celebration short off shouting my head off...haha...whee...so happy...was having an adrenaline rush...now to think back about the feeling when seeing gerrard life the cup
gives me goosebumps...haha...woohoo...now my eyes are super tired...whee...wad a wonderful feeling...i hope they are allowed to defend their trophy and get alot of money to invest in new players!!!woot!...anyways...got to go and study...hope american idol carrey wins...haha...chiao

WOOOHOOO~~~!

LIVERPOOL HAS WON THE EUROPEAN CHAMPIONSHIP!!!!!
ITS NOW 5.45 IN THE MORNING!!!!!

i'm a nobody...

chinese is so close...yet i plae all dae..no study...'ni men yao ji shi cai neng kai qiao...' was wat one of my teachers always like to sae...though we riducle her outside...we all jolly welll noe this yr is a make or break yr...u either work for it or u lose it...just as simple as that...dun always moan and regret this and that...dnu whine abt anything against u...for sometimes those kinda stuff's gonna make u stronger...somedae...my chinese...i noe if i put in effort...i can do well...but the problem with mi is i haf no MOTIVATION...i kip thinking of the future...but nth motivates me to work for my FUTURE...haha...even my bro offer mi a brand new gaming com quite sometime ago...it seems lost on me...to ge a hp line...must do well to show my dad i merit it...haha...but nope...i live life right here right now...i just past each dae...nth seems to make me worried...i just think abt it...think...and den forget abt it...woohoo...wonderful...my results SUCK!...and yet i'm not worried...why am i like dat?...its really making me going nowhere...i think even i repeat my sec4 i wun even do well...haha...chinese...mother tongue...too bad i dun rite it all the time...if onli...but dun regret...u are who u are...u are responsible for ur reactions...take a time to think and reflect on ur actions...and den make efforts to improve on it...move on rather than think and cry over the past...pick urself up...die dao le zai pah qi lai...haha...wadeva...

something more cheery!
TODAE IS LIVERPOOL vs. AC MILAN
CHAMPIONS LEAGUE FINALS
2.35 CH5!
I'M A LIVERPOOL FAN!
I WANT THEM TO WIN!!!
WOOHOO WISH THEM LUCK PEEPS!

gtg tc peeps..study hard for ur exams and dun live on to regret ur actions...chiao!

WhY?

woohoo...i tried to be an honest fellow...in the end got myself an fail grade...haha...cant blame much...it all goes down to inadequate preperation....my science is a TOTAL FAILURE...oh wee...good thing is both maths passed...though not very fantastically...i fail my chi...though marginally...so did my humanities...geog just passed...english was a letdown...haha...wat a way to give urself confidence for ur chinese O...woohoo...oh boy...why do i get the sinking feeling?...*BlooP**BlooP*...sian...why cant i just put more effort in my studies and work?...singapore is a fantastic place...onli if u haf money...haha...singapore society is a paper society...no paperwork no pass...no qualification means 'we'll contact u shortly to tell u u haf got the job' kinda response...just bullshit...oh wadeva...gtg...chiao...tc peeps

w0o~

so many daes neva update le ah...also becuz i lazy lah...haha...hm...quite alot of things happened this few daes...once again...SORRY AH POW!...forgot to cor u on sat!...really sorry!...hm...fri went home sian sian...sat went out whole dae...in morning plae soccer...afternoon plae bbor....den study...den early evening plae tennis...den had dinner at grandad's place...going home i slp on MRT...den very funny thing happened...i slp rite...den suddenly will jump up!....so xia suay...den i think i frightened the person sitting beside mi and my dad...den very xia suay lor...cos the whole carriage looking at mi...like i ah siao like dat...lolz...den walking home...i like half conscious...cos i noe where i'm walking...but mind is like blank...so its like i'm half awake...haha...den yesterdae i supposed to go out with angeline they all in the afternoon...but i gort no money...so i neva go...den susan cor ask mi go eat dinner...den i anything...went there...but as usual PPL were LATE!...hahaz...ate stingray,hokkien mee,chicken satay,chicken wing,fried oyster...den go to the playground and plae...den plae until super hot...man shen da han...sy and eliza go back...mi,char,susan and lorriane want to go pale pool...went to hougang green...saw ben chua...but the place super smoky...char cannot tah han...haha almost puke...lolz...den went home...on the way home talked to susan...haha...maybe is i think too much...but u better dun do it anymore...or for that matter dun do it again...hm...now mon...better start studyiung for chinese lo...den if get good grades can throw it aside...haha...and one more thing!

I VERY NIANG MEH?!...WHERE PINK IS GAY COLOUR AH!...GOT COLOUR CODE FOR A PERSON'S SEXUALITY ONE AH!?MY SHIRT ONLY DESIGN PINK MAH...WHOLE SHIRT BLACK LEH...HAHA...sorry zhikang to disappoint u...BUT I A-M NOT G-A-Y!!! ...haha

ArGhH...

oh yea......todae was the end of the exams...juBilaTion...for now...cos chinese O not too far away...but the POWERS THAT BE cant grant me the happiness...of freedom for awhile....ARGH!!!

i'm sorry...i really am...but i've had enuff...i'm can't stand anymore ppl giving mi attitude...i've been really patient...really open...but sometimes a person also has their limits!i'm not demanding a apology...not anything like that...i'm just asking that u understand...if u want something more than an aplogy i'm sorry currently i cant do it...maybe a good nites rest would do it...after u cut my line i couldn't help but worry and think...and for ur INFO i DID NOT go out with ANGELINE THEY ALL!...i had originally wanted to go with ur in the night...but i've already told u my reasons of y i'm not going...i just abt HAD enuff!...

maybe deleting this post after things are well or when i feel like deleting it...i dun care...too fucked up to think bout anything now...fuck...

monkey see monkey do.

"sometimes its not always good to get too close...it may lead to misjudgement of things...take a few steps back and ur vision might clear..."

todae had A maths paper and physics...lolz...phy sure fail de...A maths hope not bah...i really hope...WOOTS!!!exams coming to an end...but close behind is chinese O lvl...oh boy...where oh where is my life going?...hahaz...cant sae it dosen't matter anymore...once u dun do well...u ain't going nowhere...haha...oh well...gtg...

"to love a person is to be able to see that the person u love is happy...nth else dosen't matter..."

flunked....

i've flunked my chem and e maths II...oh boy...am i in so much deep shit...haha...tml worse...Add maths and Phy...kao eh..sure die de lor...den Hist...sian...den after that one week to study for O lvl chinese...sian ....ARGH!!!!!...haha..sian...gtg chiao

::YOU::

todae was ok...the papers seem esay enuff...but always ended up me getting back lousy results....suck...den todae went to go and study...bored to shit...didn't study much...i plae more den i studied actually...haha..anyways i want to slp le...gtg chiao

bored

todae had to wake u early to go to tution...really felt like not waking up...cos body especially my legs were aching...lolz...den aft tution came home...around 3.30 go and meet sy to study...on the way met gomez...goign to same place...den study together...study till 7+ i left for home first...came home sian...i couldn't study much todae...except probably maths...sian...i going to flunk my geog le..haiz...gtg...tc and best of lucks peeps...chiao

tired

ok..so the rain did stop ealy..thank heavens....so we did go and cycle todae....7 of us...pear Ms.BOMB sy eds Lorraine and charmaine...i went to Ms.BOMB de house to pick up bike...frm chomp chomp dere cycle all the way to hougang plaza...and den frm den on cycle to puggol end...very tiring...alot of accidents happened along the way...haha...den went to the beachadn plaed awhile...before heading back to compass...took a short rest b4 all went off for home...went to Ms.BOMB house to return the bike...den went to pear de house to study...but couldn't cos too tired...on bus kip nodding off...den came home feel like just lying down and slp...but too sweaty and smelly...urleah!...bathe...den one funny thing happened...i slept halfway eating my dinner!...haha...sian tml tution at 8 in the morning...gtg and slp early...chiao

whee?

yesterdae was start of the exams...had SS...which i think i flunked....cos had no time to do finish...spent too much time on my source based Q and not enough pts for my structured...den for my E maths paper 1 i get a pass happy liao...den went home to change and met u with sya dn wendyl to study...after awhile got ppl come in and smoke in the open area at the coffee bean at pt...i cannot tahan and den go and play at the lan shop..plae for an hour den go and pei den go plae basketball...frm like 9+ to 10.30...den went home slp...todae started brightly enough...supposed to go and cycle with the girls de...but now its raining like there is no tommorow...fuck...i want to go cycyling and den study...but now sian lor..raining...i hope it stops so and the sun comes up and dries the place in record time...

rain rain go away
come again another dae

haizz...

tml is start of the exams...hm..did abit of ss when i came home...after sch i went to the library...bored...den i went home...very tired...tml is ss and E Maths 1...must stuff more info in my head...haizz...den during exam going to vomit everything out...todae in American Idol anthony was voted out...hm...i wonder where am i heading...very unsure abt future...especially after getting results...good or bad...i haf no ambitions for the future...all i think at is now...when my bro ask mi wat i wanted to be....i was completely at lost in wat to reply...den i gaf a crappy answer in being a footballer in Singapore's own professional league...HAH!to think i would think of that!...it seems to adults that studying is the simplest thing but yet not all of us young teens can do it...now i really wished i had really put in more effort in studies previously...bah...wadeva...no pt in mulling over the past...crying over spilled milk...just as long as i dun repeat mistakes of the past jiu can le...aiyah...forget it...exams havent finish jiu think bout prom nite and class gathering...damnit...i just cant concentrate lah...my mind is all abt relaxing and playing....fuck...things frm the not-so-distant past has caught up...i'm feeling the same things i felt not-so-long ago...why would all these things still come into my mind...argh!...halfway studying and playing my library of songs jay chou's hui dao guo qu song was palyed...made me think bout wat would happen at the end of this yr...would we still be in contact...not all den at least some?...haha...i going to study le...chiao

shyt...

i'm totally screwed for chinese...i've really flunked!!!...to hell with chinese...though i may look like one i'm not for it anymore...i dun care how ppl feel abt me not connecting with my roots...i can speak...ask to do it...i'm just not up to it...ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...after chinese my mood was down...really down...felt like tearing my paper up...i've let my parents down...and its my own doing...especially when i speak chinese at home...and my mum is chinese educated...she would definitely feel damn disappointed with the result of 42/2/3 marks for CA and PRELIMS...oh fuck...anyways...after sch went to study...starting i could concentrate....but after that...my concentration just wasn't dere...i tried to do my maths...but i couldn't do...i tried to memorise s.s...cannot...tried to do geog...a lit bit onli...in the end i went back to ss...den had dinner outside with them...den around 8 jiu go home le...had a nice chat with eds on the way home...she made clear a few things to me...ahaha...going back to studying after this...tc peeps and study hard...chiao!

ARGH!!!

fucked...i've flunked my chinese...but i dun complain..i deserve it...i neva studied...my CA was also one big mess...fucked...i've screwed myself over...yesterdae didn't update becuz i came home late...around 10+ den reach home...after sch yesterdae went to study with eds susan and eliza...charmaine came later...study until evening and went to susan house for dinner with dem...den afterwards continued to study...with eliza going home and sy joining us...den around 9+ ppl start to go home...leave me and sy...den we did abit more b4 leaving around 9.45 likdat...very tired...den todae sian lor...first period Mrs Lee scold like siao...though i guess we deserve it...cos we never did homework and she went over the roof...but i think she went too far...she just scolded everybody...just scold and scold...even for smallest of things...her reasons were quite man bu jiang li de...even asked us to stay back and do...shyt her...den during english...i very super buai tahan english le...and more more getting pissed off by Mrs Ng...I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE!!!!!...the english department haf to be so meticulous...den haf to pressure teachers until siao?...i noe Mrs Ng under alot of pressure..especially frm Ms Chew Mui Mui and the Eng Department...but the load dat comes down frm the teachers and the den unloads it to us is too much man...maybe for mi...i just lost my cool todae again...i HATE this life...sometimes dying feels like the only way out..but must find the will to go on...i still haf so much wishes to fulfill and things to try...wat is this compared to the pressure frm the REAL world...the SOCIETY...DEADLINES to meet?...this is nothing!...i will concentrate and tidy up my messed up life!...i will not be defeated this easily!...i will study hard!!!actions speak louder then words!!!

happy mothers dae

ok todae was mother dae...yay!HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY...MOM I LOVE U!...haha...ok that said...yesterdae went out to watch movie with angeline and co. ...wanted to watch house of wax...but in the end due to my inconvinience because i had to be at yio chu kang to meet my parents at 5.30...house of wax started at 3 or 4 plus...they settle for divergence...the aaron kwok show...sad to sae i couldn't understand wat was the real meaning of the show...there were some scenes in the show that were worth watching...but most of it didn't merit a mention HERE...haha...den after show went to meet parents for dinner cum family gathering...den we celebrated my uncle(mom's oldest bro) and my cousin-in-laws birthdae...went to karoke...den went home...slp...den this morning went for tution....frm8 till 11...den went to the library and den to popular...boring dae...family wentout without waiting for mi...=(...mom and sis went shopping...bro was suppose to buy lunch for mi...but until now he still havent reach home...and i just deleted most of my computer games....going to do more studying...haha!sian...gtg tc peeps.

bored

Lonely No More by Rob Thomas

Now it seems to me

That you know just what to say

Words are only words

Can you show me something else

Can you swear to me that you'll always be this way

Show me how you feel

More than ever baby

I don't wanna be lonely no more

I don't wanna have to pay for this

I don't want to know the lover at my door

Is just another heartache on my list

I don't wanna be angry no more

You know I could never stand for this

So when you tell me that you love me know for sure

I don't want to be lonely anymore

Now its hard for me with my heart still on the mend

Open up to me, like you do your girlfriends

And you sing to me and it's harmony Girl, what you do to me is everything

Make me say anything; just to get you back again

Why can we just try

I don't wanna be lonely no more

I don't wanna have to pay for this

I don't want to know the lover at my door

Is just another heartache on my list

I don't wanna be angry no more

You know I could never stand for this

So when you tell me that you love me know for sure

I don't want to be lonely anymore

What if I was good to you, what if you were good to me

What if I could hold you till I feel you move inside of me

What if it was paradise, what if we were symphonies

What if I gave all my life to find some way to stand beside you

I don't wanna be lonely no more

I don't wanna have to pay for this

I don't want to know the lover at my door

Is just another heartache on my list

I don't wanna be angry no more

You know I could never stand for this

So when you tell me that you love me know for sure

I don't want to be lonely anymore

I don't wanna be lonely anymore

damn...

ok i noe my heading sucks....but who reads my heading anyway...its the content that counts rite?haha...anyway sometimes my content ain't that interesting either...haha...how woukd u noe the other sex likes u?do u look for body language?their attitude towards u?....haha...just curious to noe....its always been u like the girl/guy....but u dunnoe whether she/him has the same feelings for u...or maybe likes u...but not in the way u like she/him...damn am i making everyone confused?anyways shouldn't be thinking bout all these things when the exams are just around the corner...but this kind of feeling sometimes cannot be helped de rite?haha...though i can push it aside....it will come back sooner or later...so might as well face it rite?haha...so will concentrate on my studies for the time being...gtg...chiao

oh man...

i cant study!!!!the exams are like onli one week away and i'm still watching tv and fighting urges to use the computer....BAH!...todae english paper 1...i think i did ok....not fantastic...just maybe a pass...damn...after sch i came home immeadiately...tot i could study...ended up i slept for half and hour and read comics till like 6 and watched Dragon Ball Z on kids central...dumb i noe....but i cant study...cant switch to that channel...i tried to...but there is so much chapters to revise!!!!...ah!!!...dunnoe why i cant transfer my stamina in running into stamina for doing my studies....argh!!!!i must STRIVE!!...shyt...i'm kinda confused also...hahabut wad the hell i'm going to study!!!!

shyt...

hm...todae chinese prelims....and i think i flunked it....gonna be damn disappointed with the outcome...man i stl cant wake up...this is the prelims and 'O's FOR GODSAKE! and yet i still take it easy...must something big happen to me b4 i wake up?....sian...supposed to study ss now...but end up using the computer....i'm very happy bout one thing though todae....THAT LIVERPOOL ARE IN THE CHAMPIONS LEAGUE FINAL!!!!!WOOOTS!!!!!!!!HOW COOL IS THAT!!!!...haha...bored...maybe going to study later...chiao!

damn...

damn the computer is still not ok....damnit...i miss my songs...and my games i haf inside there....and my dad is still not back yet...so he dosen't know abt it...the computer just wun start right...stewpid...normally the computer if u on it there would be a beep sound meaning 'all-systems-go' that the computer is ok...but mine when u switch it on...there would be a long beep sound...meaning the computer is either habouring a virus or just C.M.I le...bloody hell...anywyas guess its good huh...the exams are so near and the computer just can't pick a better time to breakdown...dumb...anyways my anger led to me knocking the computer at its sides...i dunnoe maybe i damgaged some of its components...lolz....wadeva....my dad's work stuff is all inside...so if its really spoilt he would DEFINETLY gif me a good hearing... and a ban...damndoes that suck....anyways...wasted most of my time these few daes...could pull myself to study...especially chinese...i would rather do maths than chinese...sundae morning i went out cycling...den i came home i just couldn't bring myself to study so i went out and plaed some lan gaming...den i came home watched tv...den slept late...this mornign went to maths tution...den came home..slept abit....den went to do a incey-winey bit chinese...damn...den came to use my sis de computer...oh shucks how i wish god could use his divine powers and save from the spiraling hole i'm falling through...haizz...no choice but to climb up on ur own two hands and feet...no one would be always there to help...always believe and NEVER ever give up!...yeah thats the spirit right?gotta study now...chiao