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	2005.04.19 04.24 A couple weeks ago I thought I would try and remember my pass word and username for this journal. It took me a good 6 times before I finally got it. Went to the show Friday and saw Nate..damn he was lookin' good. Me and Sarah got in for free cuz I got Jay a pizza he is a sweetheart. well I am heading to work I'll write later. Mood: In love



	2004.11.15 21.12 bright red=love i am finally back to work and making some money. the only probably be back is that i miss temper temper and call me lighting. oh well i guess because i have alreayd missed alot of shows lately but i think i really want to go to the box social show on friday with heidi(i haven't done anything with her lately) Mr. drews and I celebrated our 1 month about 2 weeks ago. it was really quite sweet i was totally not excepting anything that speical like 12 white roses. i really enjoyed that evening. Mr Drews is Sean Drews who is my boyfriend just to keep everyone up to date. i also LOVE Sarah Smith. she is the best and understand waaay too well it is some times alittle creepy. i think i am going to make a cake on thursday and bring it to school staying it's my b-day or at least it has to be someones b-day on friday. Mood: creative



	2004.09.19 20.44 hey hey this weekend was cool. i went up to appleton with the golf team and got some new jeans, which i really needed. but it was funny cuz i was also buying a shirt and then i said to the guy oh take the shirt out i don't want it and he took it off the price but forgot or just left the shirt int he bag and i walked out of the store. it was soo funny. me and heidi larsen just look at each other and walk really fast. but i spent waaay to much money this weekend, i need to get more hours from work....and with sean drews, he is too much fun to work with. i cna't wait golf season is over with i have more time for everythign liek friends, work, and anything else. i am going to be in powder puff football team and it's exciting my nickname is "A-Bomb" how hottt is that. i lvoe how me, heidi, sarah smith, and sarah all made up names for each other. it is going to be waay to much fun. well i am off to bed, goodnight Mood: happy



	2004.09.06 21.51 i drug your ghost across the country and we plotted out my death. in every city, memories would whisper, here is where you rest. i was determined in chicago but i dug my teeth into my knees and i settled for a telephone and sang into your machine. you are my sundhine, my only sunshine. hmmm today was nice!



	2004.09.02 16.28 lets just end here. i think i like all my classes espically graphic arts and anthropology. i actually wasn't in anthropology but i dropped printmaking for it with the peer pressure of sarah smith and pagie peters...i give in soo easily. i will just take printmaking next year but i am kind of angry cuz that was my only art class til nex semester which in very fin. paige breece told me that morrissy is going to be in town and said that i sold check it out but i will have to see. but ia m quite excited about q and not u coming and box social, temper temper, and juiceboxxx...maybe i will go with jordan schulte..haha yeah right. i think he likes temper temper. i also want to see say anything, thanks to brandon k. It is the bad, not the movie say anything and they are rockin' i start work on saturday 123-6:30 i am happy to finally make some $$$ but i guess i am alittle nervous cuz she didn't tell if i can jeans or not or anything so i think i will be kind of lost. Mood: discontent



	2004.08.29 20.04 wishing for a new dress "I never guessed a kiss could feel so honest. I never expected a thing from you. I'm not the one who's special but it made me feel so brand new. You made me feel like nothing mattered. Made me believe that love was pure. I want to feel like I still matter to you. Stayed up all night same as last night and the one before just like the night we spent before. Last time I saw you I tried to hide it wasting my time hoping you would walk by. I would have never guessed how deeply you have made me fall for you. I'm not sure how you still feel about us, I myself am a bit confused. I realize that you don't need me but right now I'm missing you. Please don't let it end this way." -kind of like spitting this song is really prettyy. i have really thought aobut alot of stuff in my life and i kinda of feel refreshed. i do need to find a new bag for school or maybe a purse to held all my pens..ha the show on thursday was really deck excpet we saw sooo many kids from school there and some were cool kids i could held others were kids i didn't care to look at too much. kelly said she liked my hair and that made my night cuz i like to get complaints. i wish i coudl have hung with brandon tonight but thats cool it didn't work out i guess. i have another busy week along with school starting :/ Mood: praying



	2004.08.26 14.29 just chillin' why was your day crappy? i got a job at papa murphy's, it should be decent. . . well at least i like the people that work there i got some free shirts from brandon last night, it was cute..like a drug deal in the back of his car but instead of drugs it was free clothes. i also finally got zolof the rock and roll destroyer cd yesterday and once i have made some money i think i will invest it in the box set of the bright eyes...that would make everthing good. i also realized a few days ago that adam still has my pictures, i wonder when i will ever see those again :/ well going to see scattercast or osmethign like that tonight with jen. i hope it turns out good. "a touch last an hour, a kiss last day." Mood: pretty content



	2004.08.22 21.06 i'll wished upon stars that blew up i had a really quiet weekend and it was enjoyable and usually i don't find myself enjoying being by myself or staying in instead of going out. i am disappointed though that i missed some show this week but hey i missed alot of them this summer. i really wished i would've went to robot mosh fest jsut to see tony. i haven't seen that boy in quite along time. i also i got my hair cut...short... again but soo far everyone who has seen it has been liking it. i feel like back 8th grade when i had this hair as well and i would wspike the back. haha. but i haven't tired to do that and i don't think i will. i saw bryan after this haircut and that was a nice reunion, i will be happy to see him again when school starts. i meet a new kid this weekend as well, brandon, and he is pretty swell. we meet saturday afternoon and hung out that very evening. it was fun to go down to the comet which i wasn't in the mood for any coffee but i am glad he was. saw spencer chumbley while walking there and talked for a second which was all needed to talk to him. Mood: kinda of



	2004.08.12 19.38 today at golf practice we were about 100yards out and i hit my eight iron and got a hole in one. it was nice. i was soo proud of myself :) this golf season is going to keep me busy i know that for sure. i will probably have to play 3 match in 3 days in a row next week. boy will my feet be sore. i started my lovely letter to andy today too and i am almost done filling out applications to menards and fleet/farm. i hope and need a job badly. i do not like when people have to pay for me. i feel bad or liek i owe them something. ;) i went to state fair with my father yesterday and that was kind enjoyable but i think it gave me a cough. i really want to go there at least one more time before it is over with but it has been horribly bitterly cold out so i don't know. i was very angry though by the people that run state fair cuz their wasn't the contest for the biggest pig this year. "what the hell" that is totally and senselessly wrong. Mood: singing to the sky



	2004.08.10 19.39 lets dance! i went to the pga practice round thingy today and wow, what a beautiful course. i feel so good that i was lucky enough to get to go through the schoool golf program. i think i will try to save up money and try to play there someday hopefully before i am 60. i want to go state fair again soon. i wish i wouldn't have lefted adam's number at my mother's house cuz i haven't talked to him for awhile now and i miss him. i think i will go draw tonight unless something else comes up. Mood: smile



	2004.08.01 18.56 i went to my mother's house early this week cuz we found out that my grandpa, the only one i had, died on thursday. which messed up my whole week and good mood (not trying to bame my grandpa i was just happy and that doesn't happen to often) well first i missed jen's poolparty thingy, which i still feel awful about but i just was in such a daze i couldn't go. i ended up reorganizing and changing my whole room around. i miss adam quite alot. i am glad he will be back tomorrow i hope. man i have beeen listening to alot of dcfc and the magnetic fields and longwave lately, it's nice. i haven't listened to them in awhile. i really don't know what do with myself anymore. i am soo fucking angry right now but whatever. i think i might stop using livejournal or change to xanga.com but i will see cuz i am just sick of journal crap. damn you torre, got me into this! lol. i <3 you. i am going to go watch movie. Mood: poop



	2004.07.29 13.48 this song is beautiful. I remember when the days were long, And the nights when the living room was on the lawn. Constant quarreling, the childish fits, and our clothes in a pile on the ottoman. All the slander and double-speak Were only foolish attempts to show you did not mean Anything but the blatant proof was your lips touching mine in the photobooth. And as the summer's ending, The cool air will put your hard heart away. You were so condescending... And this is all that's left: Scraping paper to document. I've packed a change of clothes and it's time to move on. Cup your mouth to compress the sound, Skinny dipping with the kids from a nearby town. And everything that I said was true, As the flashes blinded us in the photobooth. Well, I lost track, and then those words were said. You took the wheel and you steered us into my bed. Soon we woke and I walked you home, And it was pretty clear that it was hardly love. And as the summer's ending, The cool air will rush your hard heart away. You were so condescending. And this is all that's left: Scraping paper to document. I've packed a change of clothes and it's time to move on. And as the summer's ending, The cool air will rush your hard heart away. You were so condescending, As the alcohol drained the days. And as the summer's ending, The cool air will rush your hard heart away. You were so condescending. And this is all that's left: The empty bottles, spent cigarettes. So pack a change of clothes, 'cause it's time to move on. -dcfc Mood: angry



	2004.07.24 11.44 i got too early for the insane time i went to bed and i was bored so i deicded to do a survey. enjoy! > >1) Starting time: 10:24 > >2) Full name: Angela Marie Orlando > >3) Nicknames: angie > >4) School: Menomonee Falls High School > >5) Email: > >6) Eyes: Brown. > >7) Height: 5'9/10" > >8) Siblings: Nicole, Amy, and Lisa(in that order with me inbetween Amy and Lisa) > >9) Ever tripped up the stairs?: yup > >10) Ever cheated or been cheated on?: nope, as i know of. > >11) What do you want in a relationship?: to have fun and be happy. > >12) Ever missed school because it was raining?: yeah cuz my grandma is crazzzy! > >13) Kept a secret from everyone?: yeah > >14) Had an imaginary friend?: nope > >15) Wanted to hook up with a friend?: yes. > >16) Cried during a Flick?: yes, "my dog skip" > > 18) Ever thought of animated characters as hot?: i don't remember. > >19) Ever thought your best friend was hot?: of course. > > 20) If someone you didnt know were to just ask you out, out of the > > >blue, what would you say?: no thanks. > >21) What is the first thing about a guy or a girl you notice?: usually smile/eyes > >22) Shampoo: whatever smells semi-good. > >23) Color: green or brown > >]24) Summer/Winter?: summer > > 25) Online?: > >26) Lace, silk or satin?: satin > >27) Like anyone: yes :) > >28) Who have you known the longest out of your friends: Melissa > >29) Who's the loudest: paige > >30) Who's the shyest: no one really. depends on the persons mood. > >31) Who do you go to for advice?: my sister lisa. haha. > >32) Who do you get along with?: pretty much anyone. IN THE LAST 2 WEEKS HAVE YOU------------ > >33) Cried: yup > >34) Been mean: yeah > >35) Acted blonde?: probably > >36) Been sarcastic: yes > >38) Talked to someone you have liked?: yes :) > >39) Told someone you loved them?: yes > >40) Hugged someone: yep > >41) Been depressed?: definately > >42) Wished upon a star: yeah last night i totally did. > >43) Laughed until you've cried: not in this pass two weeks. > >44) Played Truth or Dare: nope > >45) Watched a sunrise/sunset: nope >46) Went to the beach at night?: nope > >47) Broke up with someone?: nope > >48) Just sat and thought, looking for answers?: kinda of > >49) Are you lonely?: alittle cuz no ones home. > >50) Are you happy?: i was until question 49 came around > >51) Are you talking to someone online?: noope, everyone is still sleeping. > >>-----------DO YOU BELIEVE IN.......------------ > > >52) God/Devil: sometimes > >53) Love: not really but when it comes to 60yearold love, yes. > >54) The Closet Monster: what the hell > >55) Santa Claus?: no > >56) Heaven/hell: i guess > >57) Superstitions?: no > 58) Half empty or half full: half full >---------ODD QUESTIONS--------- > > > >59) Who named you?: my dad > >60) Favorite quote: "this kiss in not a poison, this kiss is not a present".-black eyes. > >61) When was the last time you showered?: this morning. i smelled funkyyy. > >62) What was the last thing that you said when you were online? see you soon > >64) What is your computer desk made of?: wood > >65) What was the last thing that you did: drank some milk > >66) where do u want to go on your honey moon? russia. > >67) Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with: someone wonderful :) > >68) Night or Day: night > >69) What type of weather?: sunny with few clouds and a nice breeze > >70) What did you do last night?: hung out with adam. :) > >71) Thing that you find attractive about the opposite sex?: how they chew gum. > > 72) How do YOU eat an Oreo?: the weirdest waay there is. > > > >73) All time favorite TV show: cold case files-court tv. > >74) Dream vehicle? like a 60s grand prix or just a old model of a grand prix > >75) What do you want to be when you grow up: as long as i am doing something i love.(how corny was that line) > > 76) Favorite music?: you know the sexy stuff. lets get you in the mood. > >77) Favorite band?: right now it's black eyes or the new pornographers. all time favorite band would be feeling left out. > >78) Favorite food?: spaghetti dinners > >79) Favorite Songs?: longwave-best kept secret. > >80) Favorite days of the week?: saturday > >81) Favorite Animal: elephant. > >82) Where would you rather spend your day? swimming or just sitting on the beach or in a hamcock. > >83) If you could change your name, what would it be?: james > > 84) Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: po-po and thats it. > >85) The most stupid thing u ever done: lets leave this one un-said. > >86. First Son's name?: Halen > >87) Husband/ Wife: :D > >88) First daughter?: > >89) Silver or Gold?:silver > >90) You like scary or funny movies better? both > >91) On the phone or in person?: in person > >92) Lust or Love: i don't really believe in love at my age but i am not saying it's all about lust either. > >93) If you could change something about yourself, what would it be?: my eyes > >94) Do you have pets: yup > >95) What kind of pet do you want?: quiet, good, little dogs. > >96) Favorite carnival food?: carmel apples. > >97) Favorite carnival ride: zippper or the ferris wheel. > >98) Who sent this to you?: missy. > >99) What do you think about this person?: she is the nicest. > >100: Favorite baseball team: braves. lol. > >101. Time Finished: 11.03 Mood: yummy



	2004.07.21 13.02 i'm in love! i missed warp tour which was upsetting but i spent the whole day with Missy so i guess it was just as cool as if i was at warp tour but probably not. i am sad i didn't get to see alexisonfire and my chemical romance again and i also wanted to see hidden in plain view. but me and Missy listened to both alexisonfire and mcr almost the whole day, it was nice to see and talk to her again. i have missed her soo much. we also hung out with her boyfriend andy, and oh boy i am in love with their relationship and just everything. they are too cute for words. i don't think i will ever be in a relationship like that but if i ever do i will never let it go cuz i would love it too much. it makes me happy to think of stuff like that, it's soo wonderful. i wish today wasn't soo sticky/raining out cuz i would like to walk up to north and just swing on the swing for awhile and then get a much of peopel and play monkey on the sand/woodchucks. that would be a good day spent. i played at lake park golf course today and whoa is it a short one. i got a 35, which i will take. i also played hansen on monday and got a 42 which yeah that wasn't soo hot. when my grandma was taking me home, told me all the places she use to live and work around shorewood. it was cute cuz then she told me about a drug store she and her friends use to steal from when they were younger. i am soo happy right now i hope nothing ruins it. everybody have a wonderful day! Mood: i love this song.



	2004.07.18 20.56 my hair is fucking gross. Camping was soo much fun. i meet a very cool kid, mike, he soo needs to go up there camping more often. He had a dancing stanta outside his camper, it was hott in a creepy/strange kinda of way. He was also qutie good-looking, i was surpised when he deicded to hang out with me for the night. I also saw this morning before i lefted and said he was going to call me sometime this week. :D but whatever i guess cuz he lives to far away for us to actually do something this week but somethime in the future. Once again i hung out with Jen(which is always good). we went to value village and bought up the store. The best shirt i got was a bob the builded shirt and it said "getting the job done" i totally took it in the dirt way and had to buy it for like 70cents. the shirt is just alittle small so i have to watch it when i wear it. Then we went to goodwill which was good cuz i found some nice looking pants that i was in need of. I was kinda of angry but understand that my sister at the time is much to broke to take us to bucas now but will in like a week or two. i am very excited about going back to that lovely place. I think when i come back from my moms, which i will be at for the next week, i have to go to subway with torre and jen and see my alan. lol.(i wish) everyone wish me luck on my golf tournments i have coming this week please. and if you need to get a hold of me, call me at my mother's: 784-3909 Mood: i need a fish pillow.



	2004.07.17 12.53 you want it, we got it we got it. I went to festa italiana with Adam on thursday. That was fun since i havent' seen that boy in along time. (he seemed taller or maybe i just didn't notcie how tall he was before) We ate some eggplant which I for some reason thought was eggrolls before we bought it. but it was good, i think it tasted like french fries but just greasey(actually i think Adam said it was greasey) i also got to finally see fireworks as well, that made the night and since my mother told me they are best, it was even more enjoyable. yesterday i hung with Jen all day which i hope she didnt' get sick me cuz it could happen. we went to johnsen creek with her mommy. i got 2 pairs of shoes, both of them for 12.76. what a steal that was. Jen got 4, she is soo lucky. :) i also got 3 shirts from old navy for 13$ or something. it was a good day until we were getting dropped off to the redwalls and heard that the show was canceled. if you ask Jen you will know i was pissed. i was soo close to killing my mother after that. disappointed and angry when we came home. i thought me and jen might be able to go to mequon for a different show but my sister said we chould go out eat and bowling since she would get lost if she tryed to take us to meqoun. but bowling was a blast. we went to this very little retro place. the only bad part about it, was that drunk people started to sing which was fucking wrong and hurt my ears. also the bartender was alittle stranger looking as my sister pointed out like a wanna-be porn star or a retired one. going camping for tonight and then tomorrow me, Jen and my sister are going to hit up value village and other good stores and then to bucas for a delightful dinner treat. i am soo excited for a piece of their cake that they make oh so well. Mood: wearing my new green shirt



	2004.07.14 20.50 Now i'm free. Love reflecting everything. i have been super happy for like an hour or more now and usually that doesn't happen. i like being happy for long periods of time and not just 5 minutes. i have been listening to jen's burrow all-american rejects cd and it's soo happy and peppy. i hung out with kevin on monday and that was cute but i don't want to give him the wrong idea cuz i dont' think i like him anymore then a friend. then on tuesday i went to jen's and watched waynes world 2. what a classic. then she painted my nails this color that was suppose to be a lime green but turned like yellow/fungi looking on me. i played in a golf match today, i got 110 :/ which i guess isnt' bad for how many 3 putts i had and just some horrible shots. and today was just wonderful cuz i came home and did nothing but then me and lisa went to subway and i saw my love of my life, alan wold, damn did he look good. man that would be a dream in heaven to have him be mine. like the that piebald song-new coke. i love that song. then me and lisa watch Monster which i really quite enjoyed it. it was kinda of sad/depressing what happened to the woman. oh yes and now lisa is 14. whoa! go lisa! it's your birthday! everyone wish me luck about getting that job at the library. i need one soo bad. Mood: smile



	2004.07.11 19.06 watching grass grow from across the room. well the week serviced to be interesting, at i wanted to just take a gun and shot my mother like 50 times and then there were other times were she was alright but still annoying. it will be interesting to see what will happen this firday though cuz me and her are suppose to go see the redwalls which is such a good band. and i hope she doesn't ditch me or some shit liek that. i really sad/disappointed that i coudln't go see june tonight with torre cuz first off i haven't never seen june and i would have loved it and i haven't seen Torrre in forever. i am going to call her after i am finish writing this and i think we were thinking about subway tomorrow. can finally go see alan wold (what i a babe) i saw that anchorman movie with Corey, it was pretty funny but i thought it was going to be funnier. thats okay though. i am glad there was no weirdness that night. i hung with my old bud Ben from central on sat. night and that was such a good time to see him and talk to him about everything. also got to met Mo which i just use know about but he is a really cool. i think that was one of the best nights spent well in a reallly long time. the hero of the day=my uncle T (he killed a spider for me) what a wonderful man. Mood: cats got my tongue



	2004.07.05 10.27 i am in a mad mood right now so much to good start going to my moms. i wish she cared or even pretended would be nice. i got jen's gift last night if i had a scraner i woudl scan that picture she drew of me in the sailing outfit and boat. and then she took me to ROONEY and we had some nice seats. that was soo wonderful. the boy next to jen was singing with me too all the songs it was cute. i didnt' see adam as i know of to get my AFT button. i guess some other time if we talk anytime soon. we also got to see parts of the band and i had louie, taylor, and ROBERT sign the poster i bought. i got a hug from that robert stud too. that made my whole week along with the guy who was wearing the elton john shirt. well i am tired, i think will go lay down. call me at my moms: 784-3909. Mood: :(



	2004.07.04 14.08 i am getting ready for tongiht with rooney. score! i thank jen soo much for taking me for my birthday it is the best. camping was pretty fun stuff. i meet laura and the seasonal kid, dillion or somehting like that. he was pretty hot for being only 14 since i am now 16 for everyone that missed that. i am kinda nervous and excited about going to my moms house this week cuz things actually happening that are good and i am nervous that everything will turn into crap and i will be stuck bored and depressed and in need of drugs. lol. well i have to go figure out if i want to wear red or brown tonight. this is a tough decision people cuz if i wear the red-i can also wear the black cowboy/mafia hat my uncle raphie got me and if i wear the brown i get to wear my cool brown shirt. man this is tough. haha. right now it feels like everything is in perfect place and just needs to stay that way for awhile at least. well everybody have a great night! Mood: sex tonight :)



	2004.06.28 17.43 lets not say anything. you won't tell anyone you're lousy with secrets poke my eye out I'll lost me left side you can flip me over like a record or a turtle which ever you prefer one way I'll keep spinning the other I'll die in the sun her sad crush to an ugly boy like me when you run I just walk fast you can be the big shot just don't shoot yourself let me put this away and I'll come complain with you I remember them standing in the circle. i am in love with this song. the weekend was alright for being at my moms but exteremly boring. i started to talk to my nieghbor nick again, he is cool i guess. has a nice car and motorcycle, that was fun. otherwise i guess nothign too exciting happened there. i don't know whats going to happen between me and corey though which i guess is up to him maybe. but i am happy he got me the snow patrol cd as an early birthday gift(which to everyone that is on friday) i am going campoping with the family but then coming back down early to see rooney with jen. :) oh man. i am happy for that. those boys are just wonderful. i hope i can go to TAF and the box social tomorrow but i have to talk to my father. i would love him even more if he siad "yes" oh yeah cky was fun last night too. pretty crazy but i'll talk about that later cuz right now i don't really remember all of it except for the smelly boys in front of us and me eating zebra cakes at the end of the show sitting on a garage bag cuz the ground was wet. and that hot bassist, he was nice. Mood: egg



	2004.06.22 11.34 camping was fun even though i missed the unicorns which i bet was just a perfect show. jake called me yesterday and that was cute cuz he was all wondering when iw as going to move. that made me smile. i also called missy and oh boy i am soo happy for her. she is lucky. :) then me and corey went to see dodgeball last night what a funny movie. but i most say some of the parts really grossed me out in the moive like the ending with ben stiller and that chin and the that russian lady with the teeth. shivers and then the rest of the night was nice and was different. well i got a golf met tomorrow and then i got to go to my mothers for the rest of the week or some shit like that. so if you need to reach me at that house i'll be on my old screename: punkqueen7 or phone number: 784-3909. i'll be bored so you guys should call. but i am going to cky on sunday! that will be crazy. Mood: mowing the lawn.



	2004.06.18 20.52 to start off-corey is back here in states= :) i am soo happy he is home. i have been missing him alot and i didn't realize how much i actually did until tonight when i hung out with him. but we only hung out for an hour which pretty much sucked cuz i just wanted stay with him all night (but not like you peopel with your mind in the gutter) unless it turned into a night like that ;) i need to hang out with him soon again but much for longer of time. i also went to six flags today, what a blast. i havent' gone there in almost 2 years. i alsmot died too though cuz we were in the line for superman and i like blackout. i also found out that june(formly know as drive like june) is going to be at mad plant w/waking bradley and the oparhs and some other band i don't remember. i am soo excited i have been want to see them since like almost last year or more and i can finally get there cd. then rooney is going to be at summerfest the 4th so me and jen yeah totally there. hey everyone shoudl check this out: http://www.buddypic.com/profile.php?username=tree+sex Mood: lavish



	2004.06.16 19.21 > Basics > Your gender: female. > Straight/Gay/Bi: straight. > Single?: nope. :) > If not, do you want to be?: ;) > Birthdate: 7/2/88 > Your age: 15 > Age you act: 11 > Age you wish you were: i am happy were i am > Your height: 5' 10 > Eye color: brown. > Happy with it?: sometimes > Hair color: brown. > Happy with it?: not all the time. > Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: right handed. > Your living arrangement: with my father > Your family: dad, lisa, nicole, amy, grandma, uncle, mom > Have any pets?: one cat. > Whats your job?: i am finding one > Piercings?: ears. > Tattoos?: nope > Obsessions?: not really > Do you speak another language?: not really > Have a favorite quote?: it's always the selfish who say life is waay too short > > Have a webpage?: www.livejournal.com/users/xbandagediris > > Do You... > Smoke?: no > Do drugs?:occasional:/ > Read the newspaper?: when i see it > Pray?: i wish > Go to church?: not in awhile > Talk to strangers who IM you?: depending on what they first say > Sleep with stuffed animals?: yes.-->popo > Take walks in the rain?: i get caught in it cuz it rains soo much > Talk to people even though you hate them?: not always > Drive?: yes > Like to drive fast?: yeah. > > Would or Have You Ever? > Liked your voice?: no. > Hurt yourself?: ha. yeah > Been out of the country?: no > Eaten something that made other people sick?: sure > Been in love?: not for me > Done drugs?: yes. > Gone skinny dipping?: no > Had a medical emergency?: yes. > Had surgery?: yes. > Ran away from home?: yes. > Played strip poker?: if i knew how to play poker, i would be all over it > Gotten beaten up?: yeah kinda > Beaten someone up?: haha yes > Been picked on?: yeah > been on stage?: yes. > Slept outdoors?: yes > Thought about suicide?: yeah > Pulled an all nighter?: yes > If yes, what is your record?: 1.5 days > Gone one day without food?: no came close > Talked on the phone all night?: yes > Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: yes--it was the worst sleep i ever had > Slept all day?: yes > Killed someone?: i talk about it alot > Made out with a stranger?: yes > Had sex with a stranger?: no > Thought you're going crazy?: yes. > Kissed the same sex?: yes > Done anything sexual with the same sex?: no. > Been betrayed?: yes. > Had a dream that came true?: i don't want my dreams to come true cuz i usually die then > Broken the law?: yes. > Met a famous person?: yes > Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: yes > On purpose?: ever play kill the ants game > Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: yeah i didn't feel good after that > Stolen anything?: yes. > Been on radio/tv?: yeah--well at one of the big screens at a hockey game > Been in a mosh-pit?: yes. > Had a nervous breakdown?: probably > Bungee jumped?: no. > Had a dream that kept coming back?: yup > > Beliefs > Believe in life on other planets?: yes. > Miracles?: yes/not really > Astrology?: i dont know > Magic?: no > God?: yes/sometimes > Satan?: yeah > Santa?: only on chirstmas > Ghosts?: yeah > Luck?: yes > Love at first sight?: no > Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: yes. > Witches?: no > Easter bunny?: use to > Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: yes > Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: yeah > Do you wish on stars?: totally. Mood: bomb yourself



	2004.06.12 11.38 meet you in the closet i need reorganize my life. everything is so messed up and i don't know how to fix it half the time. it just seems like i keep wanting more but nothing is filling me. nothing that i do seems to make that emptyness go away. all the normal things i love just seem so boring and do nothign for me but maybe i am just overacting. i hope so. i wish someone would hit me or beat the crap out of me or something so i don't think this anymore. i have been thinking too deep lately and i think it is making me depressed/angry. so if anyone wants to bea the crap out me go right ahead. whatever. Mood: feels like summer

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