Midsummer's Despise

I was without doubt described as a dreadfully eccentric lady.

I'm a fandom artist, ex- alt nude model, holed up gamer gal. Used to have friends, kinda don't now.

This journal is pretty dramatic, its most def shallow, but its a history. Certainly needing a paper bag over my head to reread.

I still journal, in the dead days of LJ. I like to blog into a sea with no eyes nowadays. I want to blog like its okay to not be entertainment. I'm tired, I can't be assed :p I miss the drama and friendship on lj. Old person misses youth idk.

Some of my posts are friends only, most of it is not. Its windbag, and either boring or me just being introspective, lonely or just mulling over things...I do a lot of dump words long posts about things in the past. No one reads or cares so there is dirty laundry for others to feast on. I know I'm not the only lj binge reader =3=;;

I spend a lot of time looking at rando journals. A hobby of mine is searching for their earliest posts. It feels nostalgic for a time when everyone had their own self centered social lives. I binge read journals full of that sweet early 2000s manic dramatic.

I miss those early days on the internet, what people talked about, cared about. I adore reading friends of friends journals. Its so much more than stories, and shallow tiktoks. Something is missing in culture today and that is here... Left in dust.

The best part of branching out around rando or friends social planets is finding connections. It feels trippy when the rings return me to my outer universe of friends. But its also a whole experience to imagine unknown people and branch around in their worlds too.

In other words, I am a creep that lurks on lj I guess lol. Feel free to add me, though the journal is more a dairy of a lameo and personal now.

Life updates, no more wild times and flurry of friends to comment and engage with. Sort of miss lj surveys, quizes and such now haha...*leans on cane*