still_we_try

Here I am up at the ass crack of dawn for work. Living in the country of kissimmee is pretty exhausting when you have a 40 minute drive to work and back since you're outside of civilization. It's beautiful where I live though.

Lets see...where do I start with this update...I'm currently working at Orange Lake Resorts as a Pool Attendent...for those who don't know what that is...it's basically a lifeguard on steroids. I get to deal with towel bins and more guest communication which is bitter sweet. I've lost like 30 lbs working there which is pretty awesome. It's been 4 months since I started and it's the best job I've ever had solely because I have the most kickass crew ever and have finally found where I belong here with these people.

I am still happily single and do not plan to change that or want to change that anytime in the near future. Sure, there have been crushes along the way, but good friends is the way to go. In my heart I just don't want to waste my life and my energy on anyone else anymore. Maybe once that feeling subsides then I'll be ready to commit. But for now, I've committed to myself and am doing a damn successful job at it.

Finally discovered my calling when it comes to school...am going to be going back, and roughin it till I get my psychology degree...if I can fit a double major to include marine biology then I'll be set. Long term goal is animal training/animal conservation...but with a psych degree I'll have options to fall back on which is phenominal. I'm not settling for a miserable future career anymore...I'm takin this shit to the highest level I can push it...

There is so many more things going on...but unfortunetly it's time to strap on that uniform and take this 40 minute drive to West Village where I get to pool attendend alone.

Goodbye for now :)

-April

Going to Luna tonite to 80's night! Hope its fun, Heather is meeting us up there n I'm sure it'll be a blast....I just hope edd wakes up from his nap and still wants to go with me :(

so I've decided to give into peer pressure and make a twitter...I don't get it tho....help?

my twitter is still_we_try feel free to add.

and btw still trying to catch up to ya'll from when I went on vaca, don't get mad I'm tryin my best!!!

and also thanks for the reassuring comments I love all u's!

Hey friends sorry I haven't been commenting in the last few days at all. Edd n I just moved into a new apartment with my best friend Amanda, and I don't know how often I'll have the internet till we figure out what internet company to go through, that has a cable internet bundle for cheap.

I promise I will make it up to all of you once this is all situated! I still have to go paint my room! sheesh!


So I'm super sorry I've been slackin, and I hope you all still love me!

<3 April

So I just wanted to throw this out here from my boredom.
I love image in this world- it's hilarious and it seems like it will always be this way. Skinny, dumb, bimbos makin it big as models, or as arm candy for all the tools in the world makes me happy.

You have average sized girls (like myself dammit, and I'm proud), and you have large girls that are trying to fit in this teeny tiny image that the world projects. But really, curves were in back in the day, WAY back yes, but a women of power was a women who put food in their stomache, and who had sexy beautiful curves. Check out old painting, curves were sexy. Sure, you do have men out there that actually LOVE boobs, and LOVE nice butts, but the image shows u that boobs and ass is out. That gorgeous HIPS are out. Makes me laugh.
I'm all for genuine beauty. Gorgeous faces, gorgeous hips, gorgeous curves. Thats whats in the REAL world. People with gorgeous minds, and souls. Seems like all these skinny bitches have are exactly that-their LOOKS.
I would take a girl with some meat on her bones then a skinny dumb broad anyday. Because weight can be lost, the image CAN be acheived...but stupidity is hard to lose. Bitchiness is hard to lose. And thats all these girls are, beautiful on the OUTSIDE because they stopped eating, or puke up every meal or are on a damn diet pill...but inside they are the ugliest bitches you could ever see.

And those girls that have been large, and are now total assholes...sorry hun, you may be skinny now, but you'll always be a dumbass ugly bitch inside.

I'd take genuine beauty inside and out, then to be what society considers "beautiful", "sexy" and "hot".
I would never trade my boobs for a boy chest, I would never trade my ass in for flat nothingness, I would never trade my BRAIN in for a set of abs. So suck it bitches!
Be proud, eat what you want, be physically healthy, and if you don't reach this "IMAGE", grab a non low cal beer, and order yourself a steak and stick up ur middle finger to these assholes that want to fit you in this fake box of beauty.



Thank you :)




****EDIT****
This post is in NO means a fuck you to people with real disorders with weight. Its just a fuck you to the dumb skinny women in the world that CAUSE your disorders, and the society that forces your disorders to start, and continue.

Friends are great fun and beautiful. All my new ones if you could do me a SUPER favor and fill this little thing I made up for ya out I'd love you's EVEN more!


1. Name:

2: Location:

3: Age:

4: What are your hobbies:

5: What are you proud of in your life? (name 1):

6: What attracted you to add me in the first place?:

7: What do you want to be when you grow up (haha):

8: What's one of the CRAZIEST things you've ever done?:

9: Name one thing you regret:

10: Do you have any tattoos/peircings, what are they and feel free to leave a pic if you'd like!:

11: A picture of you, if you don't have one no big deal, I'll still love you.:

( My Answers to the aboveCollapse )

I really can't stand my emotions. God in a fight with my significant other last night because I'm depressed and ready to lose it.

Still sad. I just feel like nothing goes well in my life. God help me.

So Edd and I are moving to Florida in the next couple months...We WILL move. I can't live in crap ass michigan much longer and if I'm unemployed or don't get a hobby for very much longer I think I'm going to die.

Talked to a couple old friends today which made me happy. I miss being young when things were awesome with these people...change and growing old makes me sad...but I'll live. Ok pointless entry cuz I was bored, have a good day.

ask me a serious (or not) question about one to five of the following.

1. friends
2. sex
3. music
4. drugs
5. love
6. livejournal
7. porn
8. the future
9. anything else you can think of

no matter how rude, sexual or confidential...
i will answer honestly.

When will the peices of shit in this world get the karma they deserve? I'm tired of waiting.