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so does anyone know if there is like clip on extentions?
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[17 Dec 2006|04:36am] |
I am hoping he is okay. I am so worried. All I want is to go see him. Make sure he is okay. I love him more then ever. On the down fall I got really mad today because they went to go pick up her from land o lakes because she was visiting she and I got really mad. And I feel aweful I just want her to learn and never go back to where she is.
On the lighter note I am about 115 exactly. But I still feel so gross. It's better then 117, but no where near 105. I will be getting there. Once my cousin comes down I usually tend to not eat a lot when I keep busy. YAY!!
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[15 Nov 2006|11:04pm] |
I don't know what I want anymore. I miss Shaquille like whoah! I mean we were do close! But I guess we just grow apart. I wish we hadn't but nothing more I can do.
Anyways I feel so gross because I keep eating and eating and telling myself not too, but I do. I used to barely eat 200 calories now I eat I bet over 5,000 cause I am some fatty thats like 200 pounds. I hate this shit. I don't know what to do anymore.
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[10 Sep 2006|01:09am] |
Friday:
Ultimately Amazing.
Mall was a blast, so many inside jokes and laughing.
Then movie was really really funny cause just the people
with us and the peple sitting behind us.
Then went to Tara's house.
Justine, Noel, Tara
Funniest people.
They are like...woah.
Very ODD conversations.
Cookies.
Saturday:
Stayed up till 4:00 throwing pens at Noel.
Long Long Talks!!
Secrets!!
More Food
Michael
Movie (United 93)
Sad Moment.
Sleep Soon
Thinking:
I feel like I am losing my old best friends.
Yet I still have friends.
I mean I love Tara, Noel and Justine there amazing,
but I miss Shaquille and Amanda. I wished that everything
could be the same, and still have new friends,
no classes, and boyfriends.
I keep thinking everythings changing because of ME
but I know it's not.
It's very confusing but I am not letting myself get down about it.
GOOD NIGHT!!
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[08 Apr 2006|11:47am] |
playing as she's pulling back her hair
she drives away
she's feeling worthless
used again but nothing's different
she'd stay the night
but knows he doesn't care
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[02 Apr 2006|09:42pm] |
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My stomach and back fat keep growing and growing. I am about 116 pounds. My sister and mom and they can see my LOVE HANDLES when I was 103-105 I didnt have LOVE HANDLES I feel disgusting and depressed. I am NO longer eating. They need to stop making me eat. I hate it. They keep saying wait till we get the new house were getting work out stuff and we will do laps but it wont work. I am DISGUSTING I am majority of the time wearing baggy shirts and if the pants are tight I have to wear baggy shirts. I don't care anymore about health reasons, I wanna be skinny again. And I can't do this unless I STOP eating!
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