Finally, my holidays are here. I can now kickback, relax and catch up on all of my lovely reading and finally look into buying an e-reader!!!!

Am discovering the wonderful world of ebooks, normally i would not read them as i enjoy holding the books in my hand and flicking through the pages which is kinda hard with the computer. You sort off miss the sound of the pages turning and everything LOL!!! Nevertheless, am managing to cope and the beauty of ebooks is that i have been able to find books not being sold in the local bookshops or library so am very excited about this.

I wake up everyday, look at myself in the mirror and i hate what my body has become. A disgusting mass of over hanging flesh, i want to take a knife and cut it all off. It makes me sick.

Am so fuming mad, ARRGGHHH!!! Stupid OPSM have this nifty thing on their website whereby u can go and book an appointment online and then wait for the store u have selected to call you and confirm ur appointment. So after doing that and waiting for several days with no call back, i get on the phone and call the store i had booked my eye test to be done and LO and behold. They had never heard of me nor recieved any appointment request. I explained to the girl on the phone  how i had gone about booking the appointment and she had NO CLUE !!!! that one could actually book an appointment ONLINE!!! on THEIR COMPANIES WEBSITE!!!!! Arrrgghhhhh!!! she then self-rightously points out that i should have called the store and i angrily replied i would have but it was after hours and having visited their website i was given the option of either calling them or booking the appointment online. And if people cannot book appointments online then they should stop providing the service  and mis-directing people!!

So miss " I AM SO CLUELESS"!!! apologises for her mistake then goes about booking my appointment. FINALLY!!! .... ME SO GRUMPY IN THE MORNING WHEN FACED WITH STUPIDITY!!!

Real life sucks sometimes, work is getting more hectic and uni is becoming mind-blowingly exhausting. Just when i have rediscovered my inner bookworm its back to assingments assingments assingments. Can't believe am actually back doing a post-graduate after swearing off Uni and all its assingment evils *sob*

So am starting night shifts which is the best thing ever. A friend of mine wants to do the lemon detox diet too but wants to see the results first hand before she gives it a go. I have had to take a break from the diet due to lots of social commitments which i could not get out off this past week and end of sept. But now with the night shifts, my social life shall be flushed down the drain and i can start the diet with a clean slate and well focused. Weight wise i only lost like two pounds which sucked major but the my waistline went down which was fun to see so i got myself some skinny jeans which am now in love with cause they make my legs look like whoah!!! HEHEHEHEHE!!!

So yeh, looking forward to start the diet again, i loved being in it and boy did i save money on grocery shopping hehehehehe!!!

So today i decided to do a full fast with a mate of mine and only have my diet drink at night and well things did not work out so well, by the time 6pm rocked around i was so weak i could not move out my bed, i was shaking, nauseous, and getting hot and cold flushes. I quickly had the drink because i assumed my blood sugar must have hit rock bottom and a nibble of a krispy kreme donought and boy did i regret it. The minute i finished chewing quarter of the donought i threw up everything juice included. I felt like i wanted to crawl out of my skin and my stomach would not stop rebelling. So i headed outside with a bottle of hot water to drink and sat out in the fresh cold air for an hour and my tummy finally settled but by then my family had picked up on the fact i was not doing so well. So off they headed to the nearest fast food joint and grabbed some fries with chicken and sat down to supervise me eat them. It was utter torture, my stomach feels like its being filled with a soccer ball, my diet is fucked, and i just feel full, bloated and completely disgusted with my body *sob*. So i've drank nearly 1 litre of the senna tea and hopefully that will get all the rubbish outta my tummy and tomorrow am definitely having the salt drink. Fuck am pissed off, my traitorous body really let me down today but i have learnt a harsh lesson, a full fast with no food but just the drink is a big no no for me. But disappointed or not i shall find a way around this cause there is no way am letting this stupid fat body let me down, i have come way to far for that to happen *goes back to plotting*

So since am giving the scales a skip at least until am at Day 10 after getting different weighing results at work. The scales at work said i had put on 4 kilos, at home my scales said i was 55kg= 121lbs and the work ones said i was 59.6= 131.1lbs what harsh critics those scales are but i am going to go with them instead of the ones i have at home because honestly i did feel over-weight even before i started this diet and when i first stepped on the scales i expected them to tell me i was like 60kgs= 132lbs so i was a bit surprised when they told me i was 55kgs. The work scales are also digital ones and my home one is a ticker one so i don't know whether its just the different types of scales that either add or deduct weight off you.

No worries though since as i mentioned above i am going to give them a skip, instead i decided to do measurements today and here are all my stats again and i shall use this to keep track of my weight loss.

Pants size currently: Size 12
Goal pants size: Size 8


Stomach:38cm

Thighs:24cm

Highest Weight:60kgs=132lbs

Current Weight:59.6kgs= 131.1lbs

Goal Weight:45kgs=99lbs

Dream weight:40kgs=88lbs


Well i still have a long way to go but am taking everything one step at a time.

OMG!!! i have actually reached the three day mark of my diet how cool is that squeeeeee!! i didn't think i would last even one day seeing that at work there is temptation everywhere!!! We just had a farewell party for a fellow work mate and the place is riddled with chocolates, cookies, cakes, candy, soft-drinks, crisps.... and the list goes on. Its horrible, everywhere i turn, i see people stuffing their faces with these wonderful delights *sob*!! but i have stayed strong and well here i am on day three and wohooooo!!!! the pounds haven't started dropping off yet so am a bit nervous about whether it will eventually happen!!!