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[Mar. 7th, 2007|11:14 am]
Kelli J
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Well, I did it. I got my tattoo last Saturday! It looks a lot better than I expected. At some point I'll take a picture of it and put it up.
We have a snow day today. Kind of neat, kind of boring. I wanna go sled riding. Anybody wanna come?
You should totally text me if you do.
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[Jan. 22nd, 2007|09:03 pm]
Kelli J
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I got sent home from school today because I almost collapsed up the stairs and died. Heart problems </3
But, really, I'm only writing this for one reason:
I'm really confused about my life right now. I just don't know what I want out of anything. Literally anything. It sucks.
However, I refuse to go back to therapy.
More than anything I just wish I could go back to the cabin. I could stay there forever. I had no worries. I was free to do whatever the hell I wanted without a bit of criticism. I got close with some really great people. I just want to go back. That's it. Get away from all the shit that I have going on here in Altoona. I didn't have any self doubts while I was there, I was happy with almost everything. Do you have any idea how long it's been since I've been completely happy with my life? A long time, and being discontent for a long time is not any good.
Anyway, I basically want to say that I have a new, fabulous, group of friends that I appreciate beyond reason. To say that I could use another getaway, but for longer than just two days. To say that I have no idea what I want.
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[Dec. 30th, 2006|02:57 am]
Kelli J
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Anyway, so apparently 2007 is sneaking upon us, eh? Naturally, that calls for a run down of the year, and perhaps goals for the next year? Pending on how I'm feeling :)
Okay, well, before I get into that, I'll quickly tell everyone that I'm feeling better from the last time I posted. Much better, in fact. I still have pretty intense depression, but I'm feeling better. I had some good friends, and found a slight new interest. I'm doing okay now. I won't see I'm "fixed", but I'm definitely improved.
Right, right, the year in review. Most of this is coming from my previous journal entries ;)
January
+/- Rang in the New Year with getting really drunk.
- Got my wisdom teeth removed
+ My dad makes a hilariously accurate comment: "Well, let me tell you something, Kelli. You make a very unattractive drunk."
+ Got close to Meg, Kayla, and Slynch
+++ Had that party at my house, got real drunk and had sex for six hours
---- Got caught for the party because Sam Reed is a slut, and I got grounded.
February
----- Spent the first couple of weeks being grounded. That was balls. First time ever.
+ Went out for a valentine's day dinner with Heather, Meg, Ashton, Kristen, Kayla, Christina, and Steiny
+ Saw Broadway on Ice with my parents and Meg for my birthday
- Cried on my birthday
-- Got fucked over hardcore on Valentine's Day
+ Got $200 for my birthday
-/+ PSSA week, but it got me out of homework in my other classes ;)
March
+ Started prom dress shopping
+ PASC conference. Oh God, I sound like Alyssa ;)
+ Spent the night at Pfiester's for the first time. Met his mom<3 Good times with them
+ Got drunk there, and fell asleep with Justin at like...real early.
- Met Devin, Pfiester's little brother. "Tickle her bum!" haha but it's okay. He loves me :)
+ I bought bright pink tights for '80s day at school<3
+ Went to like...every practice and every showing of the school musical. And got in free everytime!
+ Purchased my gorgeous prom dress
April
+ Hung out with the boys a lot
- Was pretty depressed for a while
- SATs for the first time
? I don't know, I don't remember April much
May
+/- Prom
-Got ditched by four prom dates
++ Prom after party :)
-- 72 hour hospital stay in Danville for my seizures
+/- Met this kid Jordan while I was at the hospital. He had muscular dystrophy, but ended up being really creepy when I got home.
++++ DAVINCI CODE!
+ Started spending a lot of nights out with the boys.
- Ryan and I pretty much ended our friendship
June
+/- Sr. Prom
+ spent tons of time with Pfiester, Josh and Chipitz
+ June session of summer band. It certified my being a senior, and that made it all worthwhile
++ Summer gym with Mr. McDowell and Slynch
+ Started dating James
July
+ Went to Myrtle with my family
+ Met Elizabeth (whose address I just lost)
-/+ Realized how much I love Josh, Pfiester and Chipitz (who, to save effort, I'll call "the boys")
+ Got really really drunk with Josh, Pfiester and Cory and had one hell of an interesting night
+++++++++++ Went to Australia for 18 days
+ Met a lot of cool people
+/- had a fling with Rylan
+ Had a slight party thing at Chris's when I got back
August
- James found out about Rylan, and we broke up
- Oliver left
+ Started spending a little more time with Amanda J and Lyssa before they left for college
+/- Went to a party with some kids I went to Australia with
+/- Summer band
-- Chipitz and I started feuding
-- Stopped spending as much time with the boys
++ Got pretty high a couple times
+ Met Wolfy
+/- Went camping/wandering the town with Josh and Pfiester
- a lot of my friends went to college
September
- Rylan and I had a complete blow out
-He lied to his girlfriend, and it was just an utterly ridiculous time
+/- Football season started
+/- School started
-- I have a real shitty schedule they wouldn't let me change.
- Justin. I'm just going to not mention it anymore. It was an ongoing negative.
+/- My sister got married
+ I was the maid of honor :)
-- I got fat :(
October
+/- Last football game
+ Started to get a little more acquainted with my boys again
- Identified a new heart problem (maybe this was September, oh well)
--- I started to get extremely depressed
? I don't even remember this month
November
-Thanksgiving. And it was really awkward.
+/- Justin and I semi-made up...I guess you could say
++ I got really close with Pfiester<33
+ Julia and I decided to set aside our differences and become friends :)
--- Drastically decreased my consumption of illegal substances
December
- Started going to a psychologist again
- Got used
+ Christmas
This month was really boring, so I don't have much to report on.
Well, the year was okay, overall. After I came back from Australia everything went downhill, and I stopped being happy. I'm still not happy. I don't have resolutions yet, and I probably shouldn't make any. After all, I never keep them anyway, so what's the point?
I'm pretty sure I need to hang out with my boys here real soon.
I don't know. I've been feeling pretty shitty lately. Oh well.
I need to find somewhere to get fucked up on New Years. I'd really love it if someone hit me up with some suggestions?
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[Nov. 26th, 2006|01:54 am]
Kelli J
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Well, since I seem to hate my life and myself more and more with every passing weekend, I figure I may as well update. There's not really much to update on, of course. Life has pretty basically turned to utter shit since I last left off, which is kinda why I haven't updated. I didn't think you all much cared, but I need to vent. So, here goes....
-My sister got married. That was pretty weird, I suppose you could say. The idea of never actually having a sister again is kind of upsetting. I don't know, it's weird. I'd show you pictures, but my camera has become a sort of collateral.
-James used to talk to me periodically for a while. You know, drop an IM here and there to see how I'm doing and the likes, but that fell apart quickly. I fought with Ryan...again....and now he never speaks to me again. I guess these things happen sometimes. Nothing I can do about it.
-I don't really see my best friends anymore. Hell, I hardly speak to them now-a-days. I've asked Josh and Pfiester to hang out more than a few times, but we never do. I haven't seen either of them for a good three weeks. Somehow that just isn't okay by my standards, but I think I'm just going to give up here pretty soon.
-On that note, I think Chris may be mad at me as well. I don't know why, I just get that feeling. Tack him onto the increasingly long line of them.
-I'm dying. That's always fun. Acquired some fun heart problems and we don't have any idea what's wrong with me. Oh, it's exciting. So, let's see....all the parts of my body that don't work correctly: kidneys, pancreas, lungs, brain, eyes, and heart. Oh, yeah, and my hair's falling out in incredibly large amounts. mmm sounds like I'm in fine condition, eh?
-Actually, I have to be honest. For the first time in my life, I'm actually scared about my health. Sure, I joke about dying and everything, but I'm really frightened by it this time. I'm just not sure what's going to come of it. What if it gets worse? What if it's something serious and they can't figure it out? What if I really do die? I'm just so worried, but I'm not going let it seem as if it bothers me. Carry on, I guess.
-I haven't applied to college anywhere yet. I'm afraid to apply. I'm really nervous that I'm not going to get in. That every college is going to reject me.
-I was sort of pretending like you wouldn't guess by this far that my mood has mostly everything rooted in Justin. You knew it from the first sentence of this entry, I realize this. Well, yeah, I guess this time I might actually have lost the one thing that I always banked myself on. It's really hard for me to write this right now, as I cry with every letter I type, but I have to.
I have worked the past three years of my life to make him happy. To cater to his every desire. Bake him cookies when he had bad days, buy him birthday gifts from around the world, get him out of debt, make sure his car has enough gas to stay on the road, kiss him when he asked, carry his things. EVERYTHING. I always thought I was doing a good job at it. I thought everyday that somehow I was doing him good, that I was being a good person. I suppose, in the end, I was fooling no one but myself.
I tried to stray myself away - many times, but I could never do it. It's become near impossible for me. And I suppose that, deep down, I always had this undying hope that we would mend our ways and he'd come back to me. That he wasn't really using me, he actually cared about me. Sometiems I can be so nieve. It's terrible, and it only brings me down to the point I'm at right now - hardly ever truly smiling.
I never thought I would be able to read, write, or speak these words: He left me (indirectly) for Megan Lowery. If I could properly express how that makes me feel, I would. Unfortunately, it's something that you can't portray. One has to experience it to thoroughly understand the heartbreak. Let alone how absolutely horrid it all is. Nothing there is right.
I can't help but hate her, and even - though you never expected me to say it - be infuriated with him. I mentioned in my previous entry that I feared this may happen again. I wish my instincts hadn't been right. I prayed every night this wouldn't happen. For the sake of my mental stability and so much else. -I don't think that it's even so much Justin I'm upset about losing. It's the thigns he brought to me. I'm losing my best friends - his best friends. I lost his family. I'm feel as if I've lost almost everything I ever counted on. I worry every day that my place is just going to be taken over. Josh and Pfiester will ignore me and start hanging out with her. His family will find to love her. I'll just be the past memory. I honestly have no idea what I'm going to do with my life if that ever happened.
I asked Pfiester about it once. If he would like her better and just stop talking to me. He said "I couldn't stop liking you," but right now, it seems so much different. This is all so much more difficult than you guys can understand. You'll all say you will, but few can honestly empathize.
-Overall, it makes me feel terrible about myself more than anything. You know, what did I do wrong? What is it about me that just isn't satisfying? Was he looking for someone that didn't care as much? Am I not pretty? Am I somehow unattractive in my actions or personality? I'm not nice enough? I don't give enough? I'm not real enough? I'm....I don't know, but there has to be something that I either did wrong or is just naturally wrong with me - both physically and mentally - that turned him away from me.
-I don't really have much else to say for myself. I'm bawling right now, and he's text me trying to mend our ways like I knew that he would.
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[Sep. 5th, 2006|10:26 pm]
Kelli J
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Well, I've had quite a bit of drama the past few days. Yes, that's right, the first week of school and she already has drama. Not yet inschool drama, though! Yay me.
*Quite simply, it appears as if people are reading this journal that, well, quite frankly, shouldn't be. They don't know me, they don't know who I am, and, basically, there's no reason in the entire goddamned world that they should even know where to find this, let alone read it. And, if you're going to read and snoop through someone else's personal thoughts, don't make me deal with your shit. You know, when you disagree with the things I do, we'll say.*
If I really cared, I'd make this private, but I don't. What I think and do is just that. It's what I go through, and if people have a problem with it, fine. But when you don't know me, you lose the right to come to me and start drama with me.
So, now that that's out of the way, let's take a brief look at my schedule, shall we?
1.Calculus/ Shakespear
2.Band
3.AP Government
A Lunch
4.Yearbook!<333333
5.Microbiology
6.Honors English
7.Survey of Music/Pob and Stat
The only things I dislike:
-Mrs. Brown for English. Gahhh that woman is hell. I just....I can't stand her!
-Survey of Music. Such a bullshit class that I really don't want.
-Not having Ryan or Justin in band with me :(
Things I love
-Yearbook, of course!
-Mr. Fox (AP Gov)
Eh, it's not all that bad, actually. I'm trying to drop Survey of Music, but I don't know if they'll let me. If they do and I get Anthropology....I'm going to be so very excited and happy with my Senior year.
It's looking good so far, though. It ought to be a good last year of highschool.
Yes, that's right, it's my LAST YEAR of highschool, bitches! mmmm I can't wait.
Uhm, my weekend was pretty sweet.To top it off, it was a three day weekend!
Friday: Went to the game where it poured rain and we marched. That was not fun.
Spent the night out and watched Pete and Pete and got chicken fingers from Sheetz at 1A.M.
Saturday: House to myself with nothing to do. I went to the BG game with Kelsey and Whitfield 'cause it was something. That was it
Sunday: Nothing during the day, watched like...three movies. Spent the night at Chris's with Josh and Mike. That was pretty awesome, like it always is with the boys I hang out with. I didn't drink, just so you all know!
Josh and I went to sleep at about 4:30 and woke up at like...9. We walked to the tobacco outlet around like...11. Then I went home at about 2:30.
Monday: When I got home I went to the mall with Meg. Met up with Mike and Cristen and chatted it up a bit. Overall, not too too exciting.
But, the weekend alltogether was great. I love spending the night out.
I've been in on/off moods lately. I won't lie, normally it's all set off by one of three things:
1.First and foremost, Justin. Goooo fucking figure :P I'm really worried that the same drama that went on with him last year is going to happen again this year. If it does, it may very well be worse than last year's dilemma with Julia. Be ready, guys and pray that it doesn't go that pathway.
My goal this year, you may ask? Find a way to fall out of love with him and discover an amazing boy to date and love. hahahah it probably won't happen, but I hold my hopes high : ) support me!
2. Rylan for a bit. Let's put it short: I was about, oh, a few requests away from driving myself down there and fucking punching him in the goddamned face. That's all I'll say for that, because I believe/hope said situation is over and done with.
3. My dad. I don't even have words to describe it, so I won't.
That's about all I have to say.
I think I'll end with this: I may sound hypocritical here, but if you love someone, honest to God with everything you have love someone, be honest with them, people. Please. If they love you just as much, they'll understand. I speak from years of experience with Justin. Trust me.
Thanks!
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[Aug. 29th, 2006|06:35 pm]
Kelli J
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Sooooo, I hear summer's almost up : ( I guess that means it's time for the annual (maybe I did this last year, maybe not?) summer recap. Complete with positives and negatives : )
Thus supposing I remember all that I did. We all know my memory's not too great nowadays. No comments from the peanut gallery, thank you very much!
So, month by month:
June
+/- Sr. Prom (close enough to summer)
+ spent tons of time with Pfiester, Josh and Chipitz
+ June session of summer band. It certified my being a senior, and that made it all worthwile ;)
++Summer gym with Mr. McDowell and Slynch
+Started dating James
That's all I can remember :/ (I'm big on faces today)
July
+ Went to Myrtle with my family
+Met Elizabeth (whose address I just lost)
-Realized how much I love Josh, Pfiester and Chipitz (who, to save effort, I'll call "the boys")
+Got really really drunk with Josh, Pfiester and Cory and had one hell of an interesting night
+++++++++++Went to Australia for 18 days
+Met a lot of cool people
+/- had a fling with Rylan
+Had a slight party thing at Chris's when I got back
August
-James found out about Rylan, and we broke up
-Oliver left
+Started spending a little more time with Amanda J and Lyssa before they left for college
+/- Summer band
--Chipitz and I started feuding
--Stopped spending as much time with the boys
++Got pretty high a couple times
+Met Wolfy
+/-Went camping/wandering the town with Josh, Pfiester and Petey (who really we didn't want) (also periodically accompanied by Joe, Angus and Wolfy)
-a lot of my friends went to college
I don't know, maybe that's it. I can't remember. :P
I pretty much spent my last day of summer getting ready for school (e.g. putting together binders, picking clothes, changing purses, etc, etc).
I'm not really sure how I feel about life anymore. I'm basically completely confused in almost every single aspect of life. It's a mess, and I don't know how to sort things out. I guess, eventually, I'll find my way.
Until then, I'm out. I'll probably update this weekend with my schedule and first week of school.
Edit:
So, obviously there has been a small about of confusion about a few things here. So, let's clear it up:
We're going to back up to July. Rylan. I suppose the word "fling" was a bad choice of wording. I didn't mean it as such.Seeing as how, you know, there was no "fling" for there were no "returned feelings" on his behalf.
Not that it matters now anyway. I don't like him and find myself very, very angry with him and not much wanting to talk to him.
Best part about it, you may ask? I have even better boys to busy myself with. And I take pride in saying that I am very much in love with them<33 And, most unlike Rylan, they're fabulous people and enjoy me.
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[Aug. 10th, 2006|01:05 pm]
Kelli J
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Sooooo I came to a realization last night: I'm in love with my life.
As I was laying there at Meg's house with an immense amount of wine in me - which I didn't feel at all (I think I've built up a better tolerance) - trying to sleep (which I don't do much anymore at night), I just suddently realized how happy I am lately.
I absolutely love (for the most part) my life, the people in it, the things they've taught me and myself. I know that a lot of you don't love who I am right now, but I adore it. I honestly have had so much fun this summer it's just ridiculous. I've been opened up to a whole new world, and I enjoy it a lot more than ever before. Seriously, it's great.
Although I hate to admit it, I owe my current life to two people: Chris and Chipitz. They pretty much molded me in to the person I am today. The person that I, for the majority of the time, love. And for that, I must thank them. Really, it's a lot more Chipitz than Chris, but I think Chris is the one that really got me introduced to it, and Chipitz just took it from where he left off.
That's really all I have to say. I'm actually pretty busy right now. I just wanted to share that thought with you all.
With love,
Kelli Ann(e) : )
P.S. I've recently learned to adore Led Zeppelin. I listen to them pretty much on a daily basis. It makes me happy<3 |
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[Aug. 9th, 2006|06:36 pm]
Kelli J
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1. What was your favorite school year?
10th.
2. When do you graduate?
This year! Oh how I can't wait.
3. Who is the last person you kissed?
Pfiester
4. Who was your last boyfriend?
James :/
5. Have you ever kissed anyone of the same sex?
Ohhh yeah ;)
6. Do you like sushi?
Never had it, but considering my feelings about fish....no.
7. What is your favorite kind of food?
Mexican
8. What are your phobias?
There are so many of them: heights, spiders, insects, lunch lines, change...
9. If you could have one wish what would it be?
Certainly I can't tell you that. If I tell you what I wish for it won't come true.
10. Have you ever been skinny dipping?
Yes. Once. I'm up for it again if anyone wants? I hate clothes, as I'm sure many of you know. ::blushes::
11. Have you ever been streaking?
One thing I've never done. Also not something I think I want to do, but I don't know. I'd probably do it if the occassion came.
12. Have you ever dated someone your friend liked?
Probably
13. Has anyone ever honked at you while walking down the street?
hah yeah, and I get pissed.
14. Have you ever been asked for your number by a stranger?
Not that I remember. And by "remember" I mean that it's likely it has happened.
15. Have you ever failed a class?
No, actually!
16. Do you have a cell phone?
I rely on it.
17. Are your parents divorced, seperated, or still happily married?
Still married. 25 years on the 15. Married, but not necessarily happily.
18. Do you want to have kids?
Yes, but for a while. Well, depending on how my kidneys work out for me.
19. What would you name your kids?
Girl: Guinevere Lynn
Boy: Ian Michael
20. Have you ever been sexually harassed?
Nah
21. Have you ever sexually harassed someone else?
Nope
22. Have you ever punched someone?
Not out of anger. Just jokingly - I try to stay away from violence. I'm a pussy.
23. Have you ever had a dream you were flying?
I don't think so, actually.
24. What was the last dream you had?
It's been a few weeks since I've dreamt. Could be 'cause I haven't been sleeping? I just remember that it had something to do with Rylan.
25. Who was the last person you saw?
My mom. Other than parents: Pfiester
26. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Meg
27. What does your last text message say?
"Hey I can probably get you that alcohol. I think I'm going to spend THursday night with my Australia boyS. At Brandon's. That okay?" Sent to Meg. Feel loved, guys. I never let people read my texts. Far too much of an invasion of privacy.
28. Do you like to dance?
Only when I'm drunk, by myself, or in a really good mood.
29. What was the last thing you ate?
Grape jolly rancher
30. Who was your date to homecoming last year?
I didn't go to homecoming, but I went to Sr. Prom with D.Childs?
31. Who was the last person you IMed?
Rylan
32. How much do you weigh?
Two things you never ask a woman: her weight and her age. Learn that, and women will like you :)
33. What is your height?
5'5" and a little
34. Have you ever hyperventilated?
I'm an asthmatic. Yes.
35. What did you do today?
Woke up
Got online, checked my mail, ate breakfast
Talked to Rylan
Showered
Cleaned my room while jamming to Led Zeppelin<3
Walked to Blockbuster, dropped off movies, bought breadsticks
Came home, read.
Napped.
Today was boring.
36. What are your plans for tomorrow?
Wake up around 10
Get ready- -pretty myself up a bit.
Rylan and Darr are coming in around 1
Probably stop and get Brandon?
Do....something.
Go to the show at 6
Spend the night at Brandon's doing...we're not sure yet.
Tomorrow will not be boring
37. Have you seen all of the Scary Movies?
Yeah. However, I don't really like any of them.
39. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie roll pop?
Couldn't tell ya
40. What song are you listening to right now?
Wolfmother-Woman
41. Have you ever met anyone famous?
Nah :(
42. Have you ever been to Las Vegas?
My parents wouldn't take me, so I stayed home and threw a party.
43. Have you ever played strip poker?
I can't play poker, so strip poker for me is a bad idea.
45. What is your shoe size?
9-9.5
47. When was the last time you went to church?
A week before I left for Australia, I think. So, yeah, it's been a while.
48. When was the last time you scrubbed behind your ears?
Daily.
49. Have you done anything exciting over this summer?
Hell yeah. Beach, Australia<3333, Boston
50. What do you plan to do next summer?
Senior Week somewhere. That's all I know thus far. It's going to kickass, though.
51. What did you do yesterday?
Woke up late.
Went to State College with Alyssa and Amanda
While there: had lunch with Lyssa's new roommate
wandered around town and went to 248745 penn state shops
Got ice cream at Cold Stone
Went to McDonald's to get a drink
Came home
Did nothing.
52. Do you know how to play DDR (Dance Dance Revolution)?
Yeah, but I suck at it.
53. What sports do you play?
Basketball is my favourite, but as far as true organized sports: nothing.
54. Can you run a mile?
You slay me
55. What is your favorite show?
Family Guy, CSI, Futurama
56. Who are you thinking of right now?
Chris- -I'm talking to him.
57. Do you like to write in pens or pencils?
Pencils. I don't really like pens much.
58. Would you rather eat a worm or eat a spider?
Spider
59. Would you rather ride an elephant or horse?
Elephant
60. Name three things you want to do before you die.
Get married, have kids, travel the world
61. Where do you want to live when you are older?
San Diego and, later, Australia
62. What college do you see yourself going to?
No clue yet.
63. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Psychology...or something that involves looking at humans as animals more so than people.
So, yeah, I have no life. Oh well.
I've decided that I am far too easy to figure out. I was just thinking about it, and I realized that it seriously doesn't take much working to know how I work and the things I do. I've known Rylan for, oh, almost a month now. Granted, I spent every hour of my day with him for 18 days, but still...he knows how I work by now. That's so ridiculous.
Well, for the most part. I can't say they all know me completely. However, the silly things I do and such. I don't know. This thought was better in my head than written. I suck :P
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[Aug. 2nd, 2006|03:28 am]
Kelli J
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That's right, I'm finally home from my Australian Adventure. Yay me! It was oh-so very much fun. I can't even describe some of the things that I saw and did. It was just absolutely amazing there. I won't lie, I didn't want to come home. I missed few people. I'd go back in a heartbeat. I miss it and the people more than anything.
I'd post pictures, but, quite frankly, I'm just too lazy. So, instead, you'll get a hella huge update of day-by-day fun.
I'll admit that life just hasn't been quite the same since I got back. I went to a party at Chris's on Saturday. I don't know, it just all seems a bit different. I don't like it. I guess I"ll see. Things are bound to work themselves out eventually. Until then, well, I'll just try not to let it bother me all too much. |
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