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~Amunet 8D

'KAY GUISE

COPPER_PENTACLE → metonymia

I've been meaning to do this for a while, but finally settled on a name a little while ago. Sorry for any resulting confusion. :D;;

i really miss the internet? like, the camaraderie and late nights and caps lock and half-finished fics and it's just. i don't know. i just don't spend as much time on here as i used to and therefore i'm not really part of those things anymore and it's just a natural consequence of that and i don't think that i should, like, quick, drop everything and jump into fandom again! because there's other things i'm doing now that also make me happy and keep me busy but BASICALLY WHY CAN'T I HAVE MY CAKE AND EAT IT, TOO. (that was only one sentence, SO SORRY FOR RAMBLING. D:)

except i would gladly trade topology for fandom. a million times over. because. ugh. why. i've never been the dumbest kid in a class before and it's just. fhdsjkfds. like, i've been not the smartest kid in the class before, sure, no problem, but i've never been the explicit dumbest kid in the class and i really just DON'T KNOW HOW TO HANDLE IT MY PRECIOUS EGO.

also have been watching once upon a time and it's lovely and i feel like i'm doing it a little wrong, because kathryn/abigail is my complete fave and all i really want is for her and regina to be happy??? and i'm so scared of the fandom, because i really like mr.gold/rumpel and i know that they'll woobify and white knight him to the point where i can't stand him and even though his relationship with bell makes my fucking heart break they would ruin that too until i just hated everything about that. :| the beauty and the beast trope is just so so specific and easy to fuck up (ugh, fucking sansa/sandor shippers, looking at you) that i don't really want to see what they do with it at all. :\ (it's also really easy to make Problematic, because, oh hey, misogyny and stockholm syndrome, excellent, so i'm just really wary of people dealing with it.)

this weekend is also going to be fucking lame, because i have an in-class topology exam friday, an analysis test monday, a german paper due tuesday, and the take-home portion of the topology due wednesday. so that'll be gr8. (but once i finish all those things, it's pretty much down-hill from there, because we're already in the ninth week of the semester??? how do these things happen.)

which means i could, like, graduate from college. in 14 months. how the fuck did this happen. nate is graduating this winter and i'm already stressed out enough about him in the real world, how the actual fuck am i going to handle my own self graduating. (probably by running back into the arms of academia, ololol. :') )

i guess i have rambled on long enough and need to re-write a topology homework problem that i misread. good night, lovelies. ♥

i figure i'll squeeze one more post in before summer is over.

spent the last few days of summer camping, which was lovely, and was pleasantly surprised because nate came down to visit, so everything was great/super/lovely/&c. we hiked and swam and played d&d and ate (we ate a lot) and slept and stargazed and sat around the campfire and listened to me chatter. :D

classes start tomorrow, which is pretty lame, but it does mean i get to do math again! ♥ work starts, too, but scheduling has been a clusterfuck and our boss quit (we're guessing mostly because they cut all of the tutors' pay fdhkfsd >8C), so NO ONE KNOWS WHEN WE'RE WORKING YAY. 8|

my brain is all sorts of dead, but it's been a lovely summer, and i think i'm about okay to go back to school and i'm excited for all the things school will be and. yes. :) yay new things! ♥

whoop was just reminded lj exists i guess i should post something? (also, i'm going down to the DYT with nate and i want to put off packing, because i'm lazy as all hell. :D;; )

life has been super unexciting lately, um. i've been on a naruto kick since sunday night and oh my god feeeeeeeeeeeliiiiiingsssssssss. it's not even okay. i forgot how much i missed all of these stupid motherfuckers. ♥ also, i will never be over sarutobi asuma. i just won't. :c (i wish konohamaru wasn't the most annoying piece of shit on the planet so that the sarutobi line could go on and be great instead of dying with this little derp. 8\) also, sasuke episodes. :| just. fucking sasuke.

i've spent the other part of my time playing starcraft ii, so, you know. super productive and stuff. i'm trying to play zerg and i'm really bad at it, so. :\ but protoss confuses me and terran is boring and square, so zerg it is. (also everyone but nate plays either protoss or terran, so i feel like i should balance it out. and this way if we play as couples, we can use each other's creep.)

our fridge is fixed, also! and my sister and i are so excited because omg food and eating are things we can do again! so that is fucking grand. :D

classes start in a week and a half and it's LAME but. :\ there you go. my schedule this semester isn't as lovely as it was last semester, but i only have one friday and one thursday class, so that's nice, at least! though i'm working a little more, but i'm okay with that, because my job is fine and nice, so. :D yay tutoring! i should buy books and stuff, huh. bleh.

um. welp. yes. so yeah. exciting life is exciting! i should go pack now.

fhdfjdskfd idk if there is such a thing as reverse s.a.d. but i swear to god summer depression hits me every august and i don't even know why i just feel like a wobbly, volatile mess. period and just starting bc can't be helping, either. anxious for no discernible reason. i burst into tears at nate after he raised his voice at me and then i felt awful, he looked like i'd kicked him in the heart, so, of course, couldn't stop crying and just spiraled completely out of whack off the handle leapt into space and started orbiting the moon of feelings and just. fhdsjfsdfjd. god why. why the actual fuck. i'm usually so well-adjusted and fffffff. but i'm listening to hipster music and it's helping a little and i just. will hopefully feel better soon, because this is just not fun at all. :\ idk i am just afraid that everyone is angry with me right now a little, maybe, because they're busy and sort of business and i'm apparently thin-skinned enough that it's bothering me. just. woeful feelings of girlfriend/friendship inadequacy. :\

also our fridge broke today and i was the lucky duck who got to clean out the food that had spoiled so that was awesome fun. 8|

but otherwise today was lovely! i made banana bread in the morning and nate and i made dinner in the afternoon and watched olympics and played starcraft, which i am woefully bad at, but maybe i will get better a little.

i am so tired i need to be in bed NO WONDER I'M ACTING LIKE A LOON okay good night, darlings, love you dearly. ♥ sorry for feelin's all over, i owe you one.

oof today was tiring. @_@ but rewarding! nate and sa and mike were moving into their new apartment today, so i helped with that, and it was stupid hot outside and the a.c. inside was shitty, but it was all very exciting and new and i loved it, because new places are my favorite. ♥ even if the carpet smells funny and the kitchen looks like it was built in the 80's and nate's room is tiny, because it's also spacious and light and so many of the people i love in one home and it makes me happy. :)

life hasn't been too especially exciting. i've been running some mornings, and painting a little, and trying to cook and clean and keep my family from wasting away, and stop from melting to death in the heat. i've been meaning to write all this summer and just haven't. the muse is out of here. :\ idk. i'll try and find her. she's got to be around somewhere...

school in 3.5 weeks oh lawd why @_@ I MUST PARTY BEFORE THE SUMMER ENDS EVERYONE JOIN ME

wow there is something really uncomfortable about talking to your ex-boyfriend right after you've underwear!cuddled and listened to indie music with your current one and i just want to take chad and find him a nice girl (or boy???) and some "be less high-strung" meds and a heap of hugs and a kitten and a jug of ice cream and a blow-job and a feelings talk idk. D: hlep, i will never not feel bad about the shitty girlfriend i was for that poor kid.

ow exercise is so unpleasant, i am so unhappy. 8|

but it makes me hungrier than anything, jfc, i ate a massive lunch and dinner today like it ain't no thang, and it was really just awesome because it was so satisfying and i will just not understand people who can diet. 8\

i also met ellie for coffee today, which was lovely, and we frothed about a dance with dragons (holy shit, i forgot the ridiculous things that go on in that book, idefk, grrm, you are a crazy man) and played m:tg and i lost both times and blamed it on the draw both times (they were shitty draws, though, hand to god!). then dinner/evening, with nate, which is always lovely. :) chad came over to our house a little bit after i got home, because he and my sister had been rehearsing for a wedding they're playing this weekend, and we all ate oatmeal and drank mike's hard and it was really lovely to see him again, because he's the sweetest person (not really, he can be a fabulous, snarky bitch sometimes :'D) and i miss that doofy kid, i really do. i hope he doesn't implode or anything and is. y'know. happy. ._.

finishing the meme today, whoooo!

ten-day tumblr lj challenge
day nine: two smileys that describe your life right now
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day ten: one confession
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important news, everybody: if i get tipsy enough, i will spend twenty minutes telling you about robbie shapiro's gender and sexuality issues which are sort of related and sort of not and easy to conflate but actually two different things!!1 but that is beyond the point because my point is rex powers is a manifestation of everything he understands society to be in his own confused and hurt robbie shapiro way but the point is yeah. then another twenty minutes will go to ranting about dan schneider and queer representation on tween tv and mostly dan schneider. so. just so everyone knows.

(yeah i had too much wine with dinner saturday and poor nate had to endure this, but he was tipsy enough to be interested, so, no harm, no foul. :'D)

otherwise, nothing super special going on. i'm re-reading A Storm of Swords and just choking on my feelings all the time. WHO KNEW I HAD SO MANY TULLY FEELINGS? i can't go two pages without shrieking "LYSAAAAAAAAAAA" and flopping over to the kitchen to wiggle around on the floor and wail at my sister in a very undignified fashion. :\ damn you, grrm. damn you.

running and dinner will be the highlights of my day, i think. oh man. :'D this girl knows how to party. though good company is always great. :D and i've been trying to run more often, so maybe that won't be as painful and embarrassing as it usually is. :D;; fingers crossed.

ten-day tumblr lj challenge
day seven: four turn-offs

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day eight: three turn-ons

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