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[Feb. 26th, 2010|03:27 am]
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heres the deal if we wont talk about it then i'm not gonna force any conversations. I've tried in more than one occassion to reach out to you, but i guess it didnt work. See, remember how we were both talking and agreed that we both have grown up a bit. Well that's why its disappointing to know you rather not talk things out. We're 23 now...not 19, therefore I'm telling you now you can talk to me about everything and anything. Here's the truth, the last thing I wanted to do is make you feel weird and awkward, and when I got your txt telling me that's how you were feeling, I felt like I failed you. I had that same nausciating feeling like when we broke up. That's why I tried to communicate instead of letting things just be because it tends to bother me when nothing is settled. I admit, I was a bit physical that night and I am really sorry for that. But wasnt the date itself wonderful? Well at least I thought so. I hope this isnt true, but I now feel like that night I was just some date and that was it for some reason. I mean, when we were been truthful to each other, did you mean it cause I know I did? Regardless of what happened you're still special to me, and I guess even though there will be a lack of communication between us once again, I guess if you're ever down and just need someone to talk to or are in some kind of trouble, I'm always glad to help. Just if you ever have something that's in your mind and I was part of it i rather be adults and talk about it, because without communication friendships or even other relationships don't last. I guess talk to me when your ready.... take care and much love! till next time =)
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[Jan. 20th, 2010|03:13 am]
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Just randomly I thought about this, but have you ever wondered what life would be without you. Questions like "will you be missed?" or "who actually will miss you?" or "Will you leave some kind of legacy behind?" appear.....I don't know why but I just read this article on the guy who created 60 minutes and it made me realized that when it comes to dying, whenever that may be, a lot of questions and pondering comes to mind. For the sake of my death, I hope I do have a large number of people that will miss me and for some reason I want to leave some kind of legacy, a positive one of course. I had this day dream where after dying I was watching my own funeral from above the church and I just saw my father, mother, brothers, and my closest friends gather around my casket and just either cry or show some kind of sympathy.
I think my buddy alex said it best...."when death arrives, I'll be ready for it, whether its now or when i'm a grumpy old man." In a way he's right, and after looking back at the stuff that I've done in my 23 years of living, I too am ready for when death is ready to take me away. I have no clue why on earth i'm even thinking about this, but i'll let you know this....at some point I know that I made an impact in one or more individual's life. That feeling of giving back is great. I think that's the best gift you can always give to someone. I know in my case I'll be giving and giving till the day that I die....
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[Mar. 1st, 2009|02:56 am]
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well friday was just another day, school, work, papers....
meeting conan o'brien......o wait did i just say that!!!
you bet your sweet as i did! he was down here promoting his entrance to the tonight show in which he will take over in june. If you've never known...i'm a HUGE Conan fan so this was a dream come true.....i guess pre-interships pay off.
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[Feb. 19th, 2009|01:58 am]
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| "you can have whatever you like" 2008...The Review! |
[Jan. 1st, 2009|03:43 pm]
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Yes Yes!! 2008 is coming to a close, so for those who are still alive and read this....its times for year in review post.
Oh 2008......what a year it was. Part of it was great, yet other parts of it really sucked and well....in some cases I'm glad 2009 is finally here. So let’s begin.
After ringing in the New Year in NYC Times Square, the spring 2008 semester had begun. As I stated in my 07 review, I got a second job at school. I think starting the year with two jobs, making decent money was probably one of the best decisions I've ever done. And now this job is really paying off, but I’ll get to that later on in this entry. One of my classes that I really enjoyed was this History Course I took. I didn’t really enjoy the material, but the fact that one of my good friends, Alex, was in the same class. He used to work at the Publix where I work now and ironically (sp) he works at the store which I transferred from. But the main reason why I really loved that class was our professor, Erin W, she was smoking HOT! And well it was always a battle between me and Alex; it was always something to look forward to. My other classes were def a challenge. I think Spring 08 was the hardest semester by far since ive been at unf.
As the year progressed, my friend Kevin pretty much played the role of party host. I think I did a lot of partying spring semester of 08. Clubs, bars, parties, been 21 was awesome. Usually the place to be was KeVs, there were always girls, beer, and just good times.
Well the changes of 08 started pouring in as the spring semester ended. Alex and I agreed to become roommates for the 08-09 year starting in aug. since my lease at my place where i was currently at ended in June. Another change was Kevin informing all of us of him going back home for good. With that, I asked Kevin if I could take his room for the rest of the summer lease for two reasons: Lakeland sucks meaning jax is great (beach, work, and drinks), and I could find a place for aug. as me and Alex were looking for somewhere to live. Well it worked out great. So my thanks to Kevin was simple, throw him a party.
The night of the party arrived and a lot of ppl had showed up to say bye and party alongside our buddy Kevin for once more. It was a great night, but then drama came into the picture. His ex, alongside other whores, arrived and well pretty much crashed it. Shit got really heated, but the truth came out on why they broke up in the first place, and well I couldn’t believe it, but it was true. Still, as a going away party it must have sucked for him as he left and drove a couple of blocks away to get away. Meanwhile his ex along with the whores (ha) was confronted by the girls that were invited to the party. Well all of them went outside of the house and fights broke out. At one point my friend Amanda was ambushed by 7 of the girls and Alex and I had to break em apart (which resulted in Alex getting punched in the eye ha). Finally a neighbor called the cops and the night ended......
Hope kevin is doing well! On another note, 2008 stored another surprised for me...since our break my ex and I finally saw each other face to face in a number of places. First it was at the Jim Gaffigan (sp) show. Ha she kept honking at me from her car and I didn’t know who the hell it was until she came out. It was crazy because the last time I saw her was 2006. Then that night I went out to the beaches and we met up with both our groups, its weird we kissed that night, but at the time it felt good. Fast-forward to June and my buddy chase's bday came and the alehouse was the place to be. Well once again my and ex and I cross paths (its crazy cause we didn’t see each other all of 2007). That night she approached and well I kissed her, she kissed me back and with that we setup a date for later on in the week. That day came and well we went to the place where I originally asked her out, dinner was great and afterwards we hung out some more. After that it’s where reality started to kick in. I went on vacation and well she kept texting how much she missed me and such. So we set up plans for a second date, only to find out she can’t make it because she already made plans even though our plans were already made. After that, the truth on why I broke it off came back to me, and well once again I realized why I didn’t speak with her for a long time. After all this, I realized also with the help of some sources, that I feel like she only wanted to see me when she got off a relationship or was having trouble in one. I finally texted her at the end of this year and told her how communication should be kept at a minimum or even have none at all between us. For the record, I’m no ones rebound, and in a way I’m proud I didn’t give in so well don’t get me wrong sex is great, but not in that sense. I just hope one day she realizes that having a boyfriend isnt a "must-have" and have your life circulate around it. I hope she focuses on her school and grades, she has a lot going for her...but i dont think she realizes that....maybe not yet. I'm just taking the advice that my old roommate scott once told me..."if she is breathing and is able to drive a car, than thats old you need to worry about"...not the most upbeat saying but i get his meaning....
Back to the year, after Kevin left I had one week left at the complex where I was at. Living with a couple was alright, but I realized that couples shouldn’t live with other people. I think they tried to imply only rules for themselves instead of realizing there are other people in the same household. Though it wasn’t that bad since chase was a really cool roommate. I think what I learned from him was that life is too short and well you gotta work hard now and so you can have fun later. It’s weird, but besides Miranda, chase truly has been like my buddy since ive gotten to jax from the very beginning. So we all finally moved out, which meant something…. Vacation!!
Yes, it was time for Adrian’s wedding (my brother). See it wasn’t just any wedding; I was actually the best man. So our entire family flew up there. For the record, I really love traveling up north. The people are great, the weather is nice, and there some much culture and diversity. When we got up there, we met with some family from Ecuador in which I haven’t seen in over 12 years. My Spanish was a little rusty, but good enough to communicate ha. The entire experience was awesome. From the bachelor’s party ($100 later), to the actually wedding, everything was memorable.
So after the two of them got hitched, I helped Adrian drive down some of Carrie’s stuff to Pensacola. Its weird, but all they did while talking on the phone was argue and fight. Fast forward to now, and well they’re still fighting like crazy. See by hearing and seeing all of this, it increases my opposition of getting married so young. When I was with Miranda, all I wanted to do is marry the girl, but after we split reality kicked in and I found out how big of a mistake I would be making due to not having a career, a degree, or not really any immaturity. I hope my brother and his wife patch things up cause if this shit continues I don’t see a fairy tale ending ha.
So summer 08 was awesome, I met Kristy!!! She had to be a main reason why I missed the summer so much. She was smart, sexy, and funny, you name it. From the moment she got in jax we got hung out every second. I couldn’t be happier. Well unfortunately, a job in which she applied months before offered her a fulltime position and she ended up moving back to Tallahassee. Out of all the girls I met this year, she is really the only one I still think about here and there, though we did see each other not too long ago.
What I also loved about the summer was how I pretty much went to the beach every day and working at my second job right afterwards. Living in Kevin’s house wasn’t too bad either. Living with Scavonne and Eady was cool. Going out with them and bringing girls back was awesome, it made me realized why Kevin loved living there. I think the highlight of the year in general was my birthday party I threw at the house. It was a Harvard theme party and well everyone, and I mean everyone, came to this party. It was probably by far the best birthday ive ever had.
So summer was winding down, and after living in the house for most of the summer, I thought that living there during the school year wouldn’t be a good thing. For starters, I’ll be throwing parties like crazy ha, and two….it was in really bad condition. So it was time for plan B…look for a new place. So first, I needed one more roommate so I asked by buddy Brian who was living with his g/f for the time been. Though he likes his g/f, he couldn’t stand living with her, so with that I asked him to move in with me in Alex. So after getting two roommates, it was time for searching. Though it wasn’t easy, with Brian always outta town and Alex living back home, I took it upon myself to look for a new place. Long story short, we found a sweet condo from this young couple who are really nice, and now we are currently living here. Its great cause yours truly got the master and well I just love the privacy.
So august rolled around and school began once again. This semester was a hard one. I took some classes for my major, and also some electives. Whats great about all of this is since I work for the school, I can actually do my HW during my shifts. This made it really beneficial. Since the semester ended a couple of weeks ago, I don’t think I can reflect back on it as much as I need since some after affects are still happening, which means I dont have much to say on it in this entry. All in all it was a successful semester. Though I will say this, I should have about a year or year and half and I’ll be Outta College. Seeing chase graduate, I’m really looking forward to my graduation. Well see what life is holding for me in the upcoming future.
So with that it’s the holidays. Christmas was great. All I really wanted is to see my brothers, my parents, and even my dog. See 2008 was a rough year for this nation. The economy is officially in a recession, our president continued to be a dumbass, and well good people are losing faith in themselves because of all this turmoil. So family is a great way to relieve any stress and at the end of the day you see the roots of where your personality originated from.
So 2009 is here, and what will I be looking forward to……
I think our new president will turn and make a better change for this country, whatever it is we need it. I’m looking forward to starting my new job in which I got promoted two weeks ago at UNF. I’ll be an Asst. Events Coordinator. I get my own desk, phone, fax machine, and computer…SWEET! I basically get to run events or set them up for the folks at school. Finally, I hope my lil fling with Kelly goes into a serious relationship, not that I want that really, but with two jobs and better outlook on relationships, I wouldn’t mind dating her. I actually have fun on our dates. She makes me laugh more than I make her. I realized that in my life I now have stability, which can help keep a relationship and my school intact. I’ve grown up a lot, but I realized that I have more to learn…..
To all of you Happy New Year and The best Wishes for 2009!!!
-Angelo =)
Ps – here’s a great video…..ha how random!
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[Nov. 25th, 2008|03:18 am]
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i cried for the first time tonight.....the first in a very long time.....i dont know why this hurts.....maybe cause the effort i actually put in.......its not only that, its a combination of a lot of things, like my friends suffering, my roommate's grandparents dying, like the fact that things have been tough, the economy, the raciscim we have in this country, the fact that my father has so much pried....but i know he's hurting somewhere in the inside, the fact that some of my closest friends are leaving, the fact that one of the feeling i have inside i cant make it come out and be honest, its just everything.........the first in a long time....i guess i been meaning to let this anger/sadness/confusion out!!!
"all ive got is what you didnt take...."
today monday 11/24/08 was not a good day..........................
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[Oct. 5th, 2008|01:39 am]
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fyi
......i wasnt drunk(trust me you would definitely know)....there was a situation that occurred that night that made me think of you....see now i'm confused why you sent me that pic/txt.....anyways though i'm happy your doing well
i guess i should keep opinions or thoughts to myself more often.....
wrong perceptions can do a lot of "view changing" in someone's mind....lesson learned tonight
relieved! have reason to stop pondering and in a way.....i'm laughing at the results in which i viewed tonight...."weirdest" reaction i swear since i wouldnt have expected to find that out......i feel like seeing where i stand, like a huge weigh has been lifted off my shoulders and realize that what ive been doing has really paid off in the sense of how ive dealt with situations. I came to this town with this whole all-positive attitude, it went away for 1 year, and just like that dejavu has played a role and i feel like myself again 100%. Ive realized that what i wanted from this place has almost been accomplished this past year...tho it sad at the same time since a less than a year from now.....i think i'll be going through another stage of my life that will bring new possibilities....and for that ..
less than year.....soon! i cant wait!
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[Sep. 27th, 2008|04:27 am]
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| You want this Encore.....Summer '08 Review |
[Aug. 28th, 2008|01:38 am]
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I cant believe it...... school is upon us once again which means summer 08 has ended!
Looking back it now...it was somewhat of a spectacle...lets take a look!
Well it all kicked off with my buddy kevin leaving jax for good....not only he was a co-worker but like one of my good buddies, so what did i do....i threw the biggest party ever ha. I mean everybody that is everybody came...The night seemed it would end well, but it didnt, his ex-girlfriend show up with her friends, crashed the party with a sense of drama...next thing you know we have over 12 over people fighting out in the driveway. I felt like shit..for starters i was caught in this whole shit and two i didnt want him going home in such a bad after taste feeling. However ever since hes moved back, they started dating...relationships are complex huh?
After all that, I had the option to move back home but with kevin going back i ended up taking the remaining two month on his lease so i can stay in jax over the summer. Shazam!!! Next thing you know, i felt like i was the new "kevin", and by that i mean more confident, less insecure, more flirtatious, just down right a better level of myself. Not only that but I was living in one of the famous Lamba Chi houses.....things were going great.
As June was rolling by, we had a couple of transfers to my workplace...one of them was Kristy. She just graduated from FSU and moved back to jax to get settled again. I swear the moment i saw her i was CRAZY about her, though the entire time during her first day i thought she wouldnt give a like myself a chance giving the fact that she's smart, gorgeous, and just hilarious. Though irony played its part as her personality instantaniously clicked with mine...I had never felt such strong feeling since a couple of years back. So 3 weeks rolled by and i felt i ready to be in a serious relationship again....and then it happened, deja vu from the previous summer occurred and she got offered a job she had been waiting for a long time, which resulted in her moving back to Tally....I was really sad, but at the same time happy for her...maybe since we werent really a couple officially it made it easier to accept, though I tell you what I talk to her 3 or 4 times a week and I feel like she cares about me in some sense, something ive been waiting for a while, she really wants me to come and visit....dont know with how hectic work and school will be in the future...well see =/
Well after all that, i needed something great to lift my spirits up...thank god my older brother's wedding was around corner. Now like ive said in previous post...this was prob the event i was waiting for all year long. Really this that kind of event why you may ask? Well for starters I was the best man! I felt like a king(other than my brother lol). Also some relatives from my native country of Ecuador came up and wow it was awesome since its been almost a decade since my last glimpse of them. But really the best part out of all this was just the vacation itself. First starting in Hartford then down to NYC then New Haven, just feeling the difference of the enviroment compare to the south was amazing.Highlight of my year so far....
Heading back to jax was a little weird, see for the first time since our breakup...i had a lot of encounters with my last serious Ex. I know I know, some of you have talked to me about the couple of past entries including her, and well I dont know i guess after seeing and hearing from her so many times....I was confused...See here's the deal for some reason I still care for this girl very much, in a way I only do for a certain people who are close to me. I guess I should say this now before i continue to hide it in my head.....that breakup that we had...it seems physically it went away, but mentally it still comes back...in my dreams, when i ponder, when i hear a song, and well yeah you get the point, the truth is the teddy bear with the card thing...it made me feel good since i know i did something nice for you and for the first time in a long time i went to sleep peacefully with no dreams or nightmares. I dont know exactly what intrigued me to do it...but i knew i had to...well after our last talk....i feel really at peace with myself and us....i needed that, I will always LOVE you and hopefully you know that and I will continue to wish the very best for you!
Well enough of that emo stuff ha, onto brighter aspects. So during the early stages of August we were set to move into our new place when the fucking landlord for the place backed out and once again we were back to the drawing board. Time I was running out and the other two fellas were out of town, so i went the extra mile and pulled an all nighter and found this condo. And walla! were all moved in and the area is amazing(knock on wood since its Duval lol). Since i did a lot of the research and other chaotic crap, I was rightfully given the master....its great your own bathroom, closet, huge bathtub,.....oh yeah!!
So with that the 2008 Fall Semester at UNF had begun and well it feels good to be back. This semester shall be interesting with so many things in the making...Hopefully ending the year in a good note....
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