Killer Beauty — LiveJournal

04:08 pm

This is a new community for people who are suffering from eating disorders. Whether you want support with reaching goals or recovering, this is a place where you can get to know people who feel exactly the same.


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11:26 am

Hey,this is a new ed-community and we are looking for new members.It is already very active and im really looking forward to seeing you there :)

03:16 pm

Hey,this is a new community and we are looking for new members.It is already very active and im really looking forward to seeing you there :)

02:28 am

11:41 pm

i just took my wellbutrin pill and two nyquils...that has the same stuff as sudaphed hopefully ill be able to sleep tonight...i should feel better though..
anyway today i did nothing but sleep all day!
well tomorrow i promised myself i cannot touch food or i will break all of anas rules, let down myself and all of the ana communitys.
I'M GOING TO LOOK DAMN FABULOUS! MONEY, SUCCESS, FAME, GLAMOUR! THOSE ARE MY MOTIVES!
iM GOING TO MAKE THE WORLD WANT ME! fUCK THEM IM GOING TO BE THE BEST!
iM GOING TO MAKE THE DAMN ASIANS AT WORK FALL ON THEIR KNEES AND WORKSHIP ME BECAUSE THEY CAN NEVER HAVE ME! NONONONONO! HAHAHAHAH!
I decided today i hate myself and am going hardcore on ana. If one morsel of food enters me i will be forced to throw it up and if i dont i will have to punish myself somehow. Such as burning my self with a cig. that sounds really extreme but if i dont eat i will be perfectly ok!
this.
IM done with the normal life.
Change my body with extreme.
sick of every day ordinary
im going to be the next beautifil extrodinaire
rocking the razor body
bones that could kill
bubble pop electric!
runway bone queen!
KILLER BEAUTY ANA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

01:36 am - Randomness

Today I ran three miles at the gym! I feel so much better after running! Im happy I feel better but I have this thought in my mind that has been bugging me all day...do I really see the same person in the mirror that everyone else sees? I look in the mirrior thinking im not so fat...but what if people see me as fat. My image is screwed up in my head! Im 5'9" 145 pounds, I wear a size four but that isnt good enough for me.
I would like a concave stomach but what bugs me the most are my arms...I want them to be twiggy thin. I also feel stuck I need a change I want my bones to show, bones are beautiful. I want people to be amazed by how thin i am. I was like that four years ago, it was awesome. Well im on the right track now. Sometimes I think im crazy and just not have all these issues with this. I always have and always will even help wont heal me. I dont want to eat because it feels useless to me. I feel like it isnt for me. Food will kill me if i eat it! This is how i live, aviod it at all costs. This is so much fun, this is how i live. How can i be like everyone around me. Its an art, some people get tatoos, peircings, but this is my way of body mortification. Its so hard but if it wasnt everyone would do this. I like to do everything my way. no one is going to stop me! Im going down to 110. How long is it going to take. Im doing everything to get their quick. Exercise, throwing up, chew and spit, diet pills, water pills, coffee, diet cokes, cigarettes the best thing ever they make your hunger go away and are calorie free and have nicotien.
Well i lost the most weight throw my upper body so far. First its the shoulders, then head/cheeks i think when you lose it their you feel more spacey than normal, then hips, stomach, legs, ribs!

Current Mood: numb

12:50 am

Well hey this is Issala. So this is my new journal that im going to post in every day to accomplish my goal. I need to shed the pounds. I hate the weight and fat on my body. I wish it would just melt away! My weight has always given me a hard time. Im never satisfied with it and now im going to do something about it. Well ive been anorexic before and am going to be again very soon. I love the attention and the way it feels...wearing any clothes i want to! Getting guys to stare. Look like a famous model and being one. So many reasons...why cant i just get them right in my head and go back to my old weight. I feel horrible...I eat to much...my friends and family say im thin but thin just isnt good enough. "I wanna be so skinny..i want to walk in the snow and not leave a footprint" My weight is driving me so crazy i stay up way to late trying to burn calories. I constantly feel like cutting myself...Im not suicidal but i really feel like cutting my self..i wont though..im afraid of that and dont like blood or scars. I just have that strange urge. I guess im just stressing out about school.. i want to be so perfect it drives me crazy. I want to scare people with my weight and make them want to be like me. Im bored with my body and have to change. I also love the high of anorexia. If this is your first time reading about ana. When you starve yourself its an addiction, much like a drug addiction you seriously feel like you are floating...in a spaced out world where eveything is perfect.
Ana is perfect
Ana is heaven
Ana is purity
Ana is hell
Ana is everything to me, through the good and bad.

01:02 pm

Hello! This is Killer Beauty Ana's Community! Open for all the eating disordered to post! No invitation required!

Current Mood: hyper