mood:  pensive
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I am pretty stressed out right now, because a very close friend of mine is having some troubles. Naturally, they transfer to me, and now I can't stop worrying. I would have felt dumb if I hadn't let everyone who read my entry know my current state of feelings related to my last entry though, so here I am.
First, let me say thank you to those who tolerated my rambling story, and were so kind as to actually listen. It meant a lot to me. Thank you so much.
I'm glad to report that I'm feeling much better now. The last time I saw, "him", was a little over a month ago. That experience had put me in a more healed state about things, and I've discovered it only gets better with time.
I didn't flirt, or even have a deep moment with him. I miss that, but I understand things are so different now. I don't know if there's even anything left in us that could connect that way.
There were also lots of people at this party where we saw each other, so I barely got to have any moments with him at all. But know that I still felt a little more closure with it. Basically, the more I see him as who I am today, and see who he is today, the less it hurts to look back.
To find that I'm still capable of enjoying myself, and the company of everyone, even though things are so behind us, really makes me feel good. Especially to see that he's glad to see me too, and he is still my friend despite it. It shows me that no matter what I imagine, he remembers what I guess I could call, "us."
I discovered he will be moving back into Los Angeles for a month. In that time I hope to spend more time around him, and gather even more of my closure.
Thank you once again for being so kind.
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curious
melancholy
tired