There are no words to begin to describe how excited I am at this moment. My best friend Jenna, her husband, and their daughter are flying in tomorrow for a long weekend from Illinois. Her and her husband moved out there last June, when she was 6 weeks pregnant. Her adorable daughter will be exactly 3 months old tomorrow when I get to hold her for the first time.
I can't sleep. Or stop crying. I am so so so so freaking excited. I seriously don't remember the last time I was filled with this much excitement, anticipation, and overall emotion. Maybe my wedding day, two and a half years ago.
Now if I can only get through my work day tomorrow without crying, that will be the the true test.
I can't sleep. Or stop crying. I am so so so so freaking excited. I seriously don't remember the last time I was filled with this much excitement, anticipation, and overall emotion. Maybe my wedding day, two and a half years ago.
Now if I can only get through my work day tomorrow without crying, that will be the the true test.
Big girl news:
Sophia went in the potty for the first time yesterday!! She woke up dry for nap so I asked if she wanted to sit on the potty, which we do quite often, but this time I had high hopes that something would actually happen. She sat down and a minute or so later a little bit of pee came out. It totally startled her and she jumped up to see what was going on down there.
It was a proud mommy moment :)
Sophia went in the potty for the first time yesterday!! She woke up dry for nap so I asked if she wanted to sit on the potty, which we do quite often, but this time I had high hopes that something would actually happen. She sat down and a minute or so later a little bit of pee came out. It totally startled her and she jumped up to see what was going on down there.
It was a proud mommy moment :)
I start back at work on Monday. I'm kind of excited, but I'm more nervous. And self-conscious. Mostly self-conscious.
I'm really not comfortable in my body anymore. Pregnancy and everything since has not been kind to my body. I'm misshapen and extra fluffy in places I didn't use to have fluff. I don't really care as a SAHM because there really is no one to impress if I look frumpy during the day. Don't get me wrong, I try to look nice for Shawn and presentable to the world, but if I have crusty yogurt on my pant leg, none of my mommy friends are going to judge me.
But all that is different in the wide corporate world. Your image is your first impression. My new co-workers are going to take one look at me and label me. I want those key, critical first moments to count. I want to show them that I belong there. I guess I'm just nervous that being a mom has gotten me out of practice of being in the professional world.
I'm nervous about how Sophia and I are going to adapt to our new routine. How the fuck am I realistically going to make it out of the house by 7am 5 days a week?? We're lucky if we can make it to a 9am sign class once a week.
And what about nursing? I'm ready to wean, but I know Sophia isn't. Is this going to completely disrupt our nights as she tries to drink as much from me instead of sleeping?
I don't know. I wish I felt more prepared and comfortable about this whole thing. I wish I had a plan and some way of knowing I'm doing the right thing and that it's all going to be alright. But there would be no fun in that.
*fingerscrossed*
In other mommy news, I bought Sophia a little potty today. She's been showing a lot of interest in sitting on the big potty, but once she's on she gets freaked out. I think because it's so big for her and she probably feels like she's going to fall in. I had a gift card to Babies R Us, so her and I went over and she helped pick out a cute little Minnie Mouse one. I'm waiting for Shawn to get home to unwrap it because I know he will want to see her reaction to sitting on it for the first time.
I can't believe my little baby is already growing up so fast. Eep!
I can't believe my little baby is already growing up so fast. Eep!
One of my favorite & Local babywearing stores just hit 10,000 likes on Facebook and our now doing a fun giveaway. Check it out :)
On a more positive note. I did a half hour of Core-focused Pilates yesterday, and it was amazing! My abs are so sore today. I didn't think I had any muscles left down there. My goal is to do either 30 minutes of yoga, pilates, light weights, or a walk every day.
Operation: Happy & Healthy has begun.
Operation: Happy & Healthy has begun.
- Current Mood:
optimistic
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