i really don't feel like doing my 20 page outline haha...but whatever people were oddly curious to know what happened yesterday...that i was so serious and looked down, but yeah i have to stop showing emotion, it seriously kills me.
well today was nice I'M SO FUCKING PISSED zd djkl vjf cjsfdjk ok i took my test and yeah i did everything right but i missed the FUCKING TURN INSIDE......wtf? i would of fucking passed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!fucking shit, now i gotta go on friday again...next friday grrrr. anyways whatever haha i actually played today :)....gloria was like dead asleep after coldplay and peter needed academic help. i started contemplating outloud and then peter goes out with a very vile tone yes you should be out there you're first chair i give him a look and then nick asks him and what chair are you? and he's like last but i SHOULD be first. i'm like excuse you? yeah i just don't want to play this boring music.....i was like wtf...hey i got to play this boring shit too stop complaining i got first cause i actually put effort in it, i don't give this shitty attitude so piss off (lmao i said this in my head) the kid couldn't play festival variations he can shut his little ghetto wanna be mouth up. ohhh and he'll see i'll prove him dirty that i can and will play first part in both band and orchestra.....grrr. oh and then he's like you don't even play loud? i'm like cut me a break i'm learning still...when i get the part no worries you'll hear me and that was that...i wanna audition all county just to shut him the hell up, but if it's the same judge..hehe no lol. seriously he got beat by some fool that's been playing bassoon for like a year and a half, he knows he has sucky tone and that he's not too popular and still insists he's the best. think we gave him too much wings (haha it might not make sense cause it's a spanish proverb :) ) when he was a lil ol freshman...but his days are bye bye and yeah, like i've said countless times i WILL have a good senior year, and refuse to be the orchestra fuck up like his dumb ass :)

heh ranting :)......gets a shitload of the chest.

oh and wuttke he's been in this odd good mood i'm like wtf? but he's nice to me so we cool. oh and in the morning since they were sorting all county music we talked about that and kristy goes oh you might make it this year...wuttke last year she tried out for gloria and gloria made it. i was like doy (in me head) dumbass he's gonna be like i can't trust her now and then he'd get like clark did....and then he just started laughing he's like that's freaking hilarious...i wa slike phew and he found it funnier that i wa suhh yeah i dunno that or that but i will play that lol. i was scared to tell him lol. and he curses i'm like wtf lol i find it funny...but it's ok if i let something slip caus euhh yeah lol.
and my ramble time is up, i have an hour, cause tomorrow i must read bio :)

I GOT PAID TODAY!!!!!!!!!! :) 96 some dollars is AWESOME!!!!! but anyways..i earned those heh..interesting, ac was broken today and i got my exercise...plety of exercise :) but yah whatever this whole week has been uhh whatever...i enjoyed the pep rally, wasn't as bad friday i hung out with my friends and yeah chilled..........and then i'm confused
anyways, good ass food!!! yum i love good food...and work lunch i had spagetti with meatballs...what more can i fat ass like me want? and yeah i gt bit by mosquitos on friday and they itch and yeah oooo! i must share!!!!!

well friday was the pep rally was friday and my hair was pretty lmao and so yeah first was full of shit to do, attendance pass out music pass out folders fee collection, i played maybe 20 mins lol but i practiced some orchestra music cause i was like hell nah bitch i set up so i'm playing lol and steven heard me and he's like don't play ppp play loud lol. oh! and brookes comes in in the beginning of class all excited go play go play and some other random jamiacan words lol we think he wanted to hear the barber of seville it was hilarious and wuttke being all official is like i'll forward you a rehearsal schedule once we've made it.
third was a drag with a test but i think i enjoyed the class. and lunch we talked to wuttke in the office about some random shit lol i forgot what but it was amy and aliana and me
and i went to math with only pants lol...nice so um pep rally had some fun, made fun of some and yeah after i took attendance the second time and then ran my ass in the office cause haha i hate loud ass percussion and yeah they were loud and everything they played sounded like shit and i ran into the office with nick and justin and wuttke and we just talked about crap and wuttke was like this is fucking awful and i just give him this schoked look and he's like sorry about that lol...wow and then he cursed some more. oh and nick justin rex and maybe chase are extremely gay friends...lmao so these dudes all grab rene's ass or something or hug him and he puts on this face i just cracked up
and now i'm just chilling deciding with kyle what we'll see in a 10 year reunion..shoud be interesting :)

well hehe things are looking good..i'll have a buddy at UF!!! :).....hopefully that works out good so be all graphicy and designy and be good. lol well i talked to spanish lady....acuna matata the whole conversation, i get excempt from all speaking assignments lol :P and my dad fixed the car...so technically i have a car now :) and ms layman met with us senior people today and i was in a much happier mood about that. haha i got to miss all of band...i played maybe 5 minutes??? hahaha i love my random dumb jobs, attendance, pass out music, do his little errands collect fees and all that good junk. hehe. so anyways NHS today...stupid gay crap but i'll live i'll see if i actually do community service this year lol. and uhh yah got stuck at school till 4:45 fun stuff oh! and i got triple chocolate cookies...doesn't that just sound yummy :)???


and just for haha i heard this today and found it funny just for shit and giggles lol

xsmf1231x: hey
needaname384: hey what's up
xsmf1231x: are you in ap psychology?
needaname384: nope...i'm crazy already
xsmf1231x: hahaha awesome sayra

if clark were here this would be fun...atleast we can laugh at wuttke cause he likes UM...haha i think he went there...I MISS CLARK :(

TRIBUTE TO THE NICE GIRLS

This is my tribute to the nice girls. To the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be they that are doing something wrong. This is for the girls who don't give it up on the first date, who don't want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they've heard a thousand times. This is for the girls who understand that they aren't perfect and that the guys they're interested in aren't either, for the girls who flirt and laugh and worry and obsess over the slightest glance, whisper, touch, because somehow they are able to keep alive that hope that maybe... maybe this time he'll have understood. This is an homage to the girls who laugh loud and often, who are comfortable in skirts and sweats and combat boots, who care more than they should for guys who don't deserve their attention. This is for the girls who have been there from the beginning and have heard the trite words of advice, from "there are plenty of fish in the sea," to "time heals all wounds." This is to honor those girls who know that guys are just as scared as they are, who know that they deserve better, who are seeking to find it.
This is for the girls who have never been in love, but know that it's an experience that they don't want to miss out on. This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a skirt. This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend.
This one's for the girls who you can take home to mom, but won't because it's easier to sleep with a whore than foster a relationship; this is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with. This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looking to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone. This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've seen from across the room him leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near, or talking a little too softly for the girl he's with to be a random hookup.
This is for the girls who have endured party after party in his presence, finally having realized that it wasn't that he didn't want a relationship: it was that he didn't want you. I honor you for the night his dog died or his grandmother died or his little brother crashed his car and you held him, thinking that if you only comforted him just right, or said the right words, or rubbed his back in the right way then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had. This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after failing to sleep.
This is for the "I really like you, so let's still be friends" comment after you read more into a situation than he ever intended; this is for never realizing that when you choose friends, you seldom choose those which make you cry yourself to sleep. This is for the hugs you've received from your female friends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are beautiful and intelligent and amazing and loyal and truly worthy of a great guy; this is for the despair you all felt as you sat in the aftermath of your tears, knowing that that night the only companionship you'd have was with a pillow and your teddy bear. This is for the girls who have been used and abused, who have endured what he was giving because at least he was giving something; this is for the stupidity of the nights we've believed that something was better than nothing, though his something was nothing we'd have ever wanted. This is for the girls who have been satisified with too little and who have learned never to expect anything more: for the girls who don't think that they deserve more, because they've been conditioned for so long to accept the scraps thrown to them by guys.

well thought i'd share, my aunt just called us from new orleans and she's fine, she stayed in new orleans cause she couldn't make it to texas, but she's safe and that's what matters...i got sorta scared cause earlier i read a report saying thousands feared dead. she's ok and she'll probably come stay with us cause her house is probably either gone or flooded or next door.

Thank you so much for the happy birthday :) I really liked it and it was quite a suprise! I hope you're having an amazing time in Canada! I know you are because you've been looking forward to this trip forever! I miss you :( Hehe and i'm still waiting for that post card! :P We'll hang out when you get back hopefully <3

I'm so bored. Nothing really is happening :) I get paid in a week so i guess something is good. I went out with Kyle yesterday and well i 'm sure you know how that went. Deep deep deep deep DEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP down inside i know that we'll be ok. Eventually. *sigh* oh well. We're both still kids.Young and Naive. haha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! :)

*tear* my little girl is growing up

hehe I LOVE THIS SONG!!!!!

it's now or never :)

so i'm gonna dance and shall call you to wish ya a great birthday!!!!!!

haven't posted anything in a while cause i'm a lazy ass lol that's the truth, and i've actually been doing stuff all this time.
but yah i've been practicing and i'm yah bored and need a break. today was bum day of the eyar....lmao i ate 4 FOUR lol pizza and then laid on the floor for 30 minutes watching spongebob. well anyways... yah stupid SAT i see us retaking that crap real soon lol. but let's cheer up cause uhh yeah cause we cool like that 8)
hehe we cool cause of what's coming and yes those damn pictrues made me react and say holy shiot....dude i'm old!!! lmao no worries....like you said foxmar can make the ugliest people look pretty lmao (ie me (: )

well till next time i'm gonna go back to practicing cause my abnormally sized cheeks are a bit better. (me leave in cinco días!! woo hoo) uhh yeah now i'm gonna sleep cause my back feels like it's dead...damn i'll never do what i did last night left me hurt all over :)

1490??? wtf is that??!! I cant wait to see how they judge the scores. Maybe we didn't do so bad after all?? I'm not taking any chances though. Studying hard for the ACT so i can pass SOMETHING and go to college! Because we have to go no acceptions. I understand you don't want to go to FIU. Why do u think i'm trying ot go anywhere BUT fiu?? lol We goin to college :D we're seniors

YAY!!!