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[10 Sep 2005|05:38pm] |
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I recently made this post on my journal and didn't expect to receive so much praise in it.
All kins of girls have been telling me how relieved they feel because they feel like I have spoken for them about things they'd never imagine blurting out or taking it beyond simple thoughts...
And because I want to bring this community back to life.
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"BECAUSE we recognize fantasies of Instant Macho Gun Revolution as impractical lies meant to keep us simply dreaming instead of becoming our dreams AND THUS seek to create revolution in our own lives every single day by envisioning and creating alternatives to the bullshit christian capitalist way of doing things."
(from BK #2)
I have been thinking a lot.
About how people perceive me.
About my Catholic reigion.
About who I am.
And about me living in this world as a girl.
Like any other person, some people hate me, some people love me, others are indifferent about me...I only care about those who love me.
Like I say, I'm supposed to be Catholic.
But I have changed so much.
I mean I was christened under the Catholic church.
I attended mass every Sunday.
I went to catechism and had my holy communion.
I played Virgin Mary in the church's Christmas pageant [Virgin Mary....me? HA!]
I even used to lead rosary prayers and that stuff is pretty challenging, I mean you recite the prayers and a bunch of ladies recite after you...it's like...half an hour long of prayer or so since in total we'd recite a total of 5 our fathers and 50 hail marys [I think? I forgot...correct me if I'm wrong please...:/]
I used to go confess my sins.
I used to feel so bad I'd even cry as I'd admit all the awful things I did.
Then I would usually walk up to the altar and recite the Creed, 3 Hail Marys, and 1 Our Father, and then talk to God.
I haven't attended mass for over a month, and I haven't confessed in YEARS.
And trust me...I have BILLIONS of deadly sins under this innocent face of mine.
But I have really thought about the Catholic religion...
Sure, our religion is based on kind treatment towards others regardless or race or religion and we don't go around trying to convert anyone, we just let in whoever wants to join us.
But what I hate is how damn conservative we can be.
I am Catholic...
Yet I don't oppose homosexuality but I truly support it and see nothing wrong with it although I didn't know what homosexuality was until a couple of years back.
I don't oppose fornication. I hate it how people make such a great deal about sex.
Sex is good! It's what us living creatures do! What's so sinful about engaging in sexual conduct?! Especially with the one you love?
As long as yr careful, of course.
But what's wrong with one-night stands.
Guys do use girls for sex and it sucks...
But why can't us girls do that?
Call a guy up invite him over...lure him into sex, get yr orgasm(s), and right after yr done send them packing.
"No I don't care if yr not finished. No I don't care if you wanna stay over and cuddle or if you wanna talk and stop worrying if I'll call or not, I'll call if I want to?"
Why can't we have the freedom to do that?
I actually did that and I was ina load of toruble.
I was called "a tease" and selfish by him.
And I was called a "slut" by my fellow sisters.
Why can't girls enjoy sex?
Why do we STILL live in the oppresion of waiting to get married or waiting to get a boyfriend and go out with him for a good year or so, why do we still live the oppression of being raped or sexually assualted, or the oppression of meeting a guy, falling for him but finding out he only wanted us for sex.
And most of all...
why do we still allow ourselves to live the oppresion from society, including fellow girls, of not having sex no matter how badly we want it, in fear that others will call us sluts, whores, and easy?!
Why can't we have sex when WE want it?
Why must we wait and "save ourselves" when guys won't do that for us?
Why can't we fuck everyone we want without being called sluts?
Why can't we be able to fucking choose whatever the fuck we wanna do with our own fucking bodies?!
I'm sick of being labeled a slut.
I know what I am I don't need you to define me for me.
I'm sorry fellow Catholics, I have let down our church.
With my support for homosexuality.
My support for fornication.
And masturbation.
And every lustful thing you could ever imagine.
And with my support for birth control.
Not abortion.
But birth control.
Will somebody just PLEASE TELL ME...
WHAT IS WRONG WITH PREMARITAL SEX!?
Sure...sex has consequences...STD's, unwanted pregnancies....
But doesn't everything else have consequences?
Isn't life itself a risk?
And isn't there risks in everything and therefore we take all precautions available?
There is a risk in getting in a car accident, therefore you wear a seatbelt.
There is a risk in getting an STD so therefore you wear a condom.
Makes perfect sense, doesn't it?
For years and years and hundreds of years females are expected to obey their parents, for our own good, of course.
Or is it so?
Or is it that they train us to be loyal wives?
First obey our dads, drop out of school to marry a guy and obey him.
So we live an entire life of oppression and obedience.
Who do men obey?
Why can't they obey someone too?
Why must they have the need to tie us down?
Can't they realize we too are humans, with ambitions, aspirations, goals and the ability to choose.
The ability to think for ourselves and contribute for the wellness of society.
The power of females has been underestimated.
We are capable of so many things but haven't been given the oppportunity to experience, do, and achieve.
You want to have sex with the whole world?
Do it.
You want to stay a virgin?
Stay a virgin.
You want to be a firefighter?
Become a firefighter.
Lawyer? Doctor? Architect? Professor?
Why the heck not?
Suzy homemaker? Baby machine? Man obeyer?
You sure? Yes? Go for it.
You wanna be a musician?
Become a musician.
You wanna join the all-male surf team?
Go and tear those waves apart!
Whatever you want to be...
It matters to you and only you.
You be what you want to be regardless of what others expect of you.
If this fucking society can't put up with it, it's their problem.
If it goes against yr Christian beliefs...then what is this?
That's right...we're in fucking America and you can't believe whatever you want to believe...religion shouldn't lock you in something you truly don't believe in deep in yr gut.
I'm supposed to be a Catholic.
I do good deeds...or attempt to.
I try to help others.
I donate clothes to charity.
I wan't to be a pharmacist to cure this world of illnesses.
But I see nothing wrong with fornication.
Or homosexuality.
Or birth control.
But I have beliefs and stick to them.
Whether the Catholic church is happy or not.
I double fucking dare ya, girlfriend.
I have spoken.
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[18 Aug 2005|10:33am] |
the past two days have been wicked. On Tuesday i went for my job interview and then to alices, henry came round and they dyed my fringe green which was cool. henry was chasing us around with a massive rifle that he found in one of the rooms haha, not so funny at the time tho :) we had lunch outside in the sun and henry kept on rugby tackling me to the ground wot a bugger <3 alice dyed the tips of his hair after lunch it looks rad
We walked to kats house to feed the fish because they're away on holiday. we went in their pool haha it was sooo fun we were just splashing about like idiots :) walking back to the house alices mum stopped the car and gave alice a lift back but me and henry walked because i was wet. henry thought it would be funny to rub his boxers in my face every 5 seconds so i got hold of them and threw them in the middle of the road for a joke haha alice came back to mine and we didnt do much, we felt shattered because we normally just sit around watching t.v and going on the computer
Last night the family went out for a meal which was cool xx
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[13 Aug 2005|09:20pm] |
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♥APPLICATION♥
POST THIS AFTER:
♥Basics♥
♠Name: Carina
♠Age: 19
♠Gender: F
♠Location: Germany
♥Favorites♥
♠ Bands(5+): Nirvana, Hole, Led Zeppelin, Bikini Kill, Babes in Toyland
♠Songs(3+): Doll Parts, HSB, Light my fire
♠Female Artist: Courtney Love
♠Movies(5+): Velvet Goldmine, Girl Interrupted, Star Wars, Lolita
♠Colors: Blue, red
♠Items:
&heartss;Opinions♥
(pick atleast 3 or all, please think carefully about these,remeber its your opinion)
♠War: sucks
♠Self-injury: it´s not right
♠Abortions:
♠Female Rights:
♠Anorexia:
♥Promote us somewhere and give us the link♥
♥Photos♥
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[05 Aug 2005|03:12pm] |
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♥Basics♥
♠Name: Holly
♠Age:16
♠Gender:female
♠Location: somerset
♥Favorites♥
♠ Bands(5+):le tigre, hole, the ramones, bikini kill, blondie
♠Songs(3+): deceptagon, sheena is a punk rocker, carnival
♠Female Artist:kathleen hanna
♠Movies(5+):pretty in pink, donnie darko, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, one flew over the cuckoos nest and edward scissor hands.
♠Colors:dark green, purple
♠Items:cd player, accessories and clothes
Opinions♥
♠War: i think it is too severe and violence isn't the way to solve bad situations.
♠Self-injury: sometimes things can get too much for people and this is how they attempt to make themselves feel better as it gives them a release of pressure for a while. i dont think that people who self harm are looking for attention but feel that they need to be cared for and helped.
♠Abortions: it is the womans choice what to do with her own body but at then end of the day its ending an innocent life
♠Female Rights: the suffragettes rock, i think that girlies are fab and they deserve the same respect as everyone else.
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[18 May 2005|07:12pm] |
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hey girlies,
jst wanted to let you know ive now got two accounts....so i may post through either of them. jst so u all new i am both - gwabbits and vainhearts.
xxx
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[16 May 2005|04:32pm] |
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[16 May 2005|04:17pm] |
i found these betty page clips somewhere and i thought some people might appreciate them.
so i haven't posted alot latly so i felt i owe you all some pretty pictures so theres some bettypage ones for you shes so beautiful.todays been a bit boring to be honest i've had to revise all day but i have been thinking of how weird it is that im leaving school in a week.
im going to take my camera in all week so hopefully i will have some pretty pictures on my digital cam and ill get some black and white ones too if i can work my old camera i have to use its like an 80's throw back lol, so ill scan those if i can too
i hope everyone is ok?
heres some pictures of me i got bored i apologize
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[03 May 2005|04:50pm] |
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hey girlies....sorry ive been un active for a wile!
how are we all?
i have no new pics to post cos my scanners broken :(
xxx
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[28 Apr 2005|10:33am] |
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Hey all,
I was just wondering if any of you have ever seen this? I haven't here in San Diego, CA, and i don't know anyone that has either. But maybe it is popular elsewhere.
Look at this entry in my journal and let me know. I'm just curious because i've never seen it!
http://www.livejournal.com/users/0doll_parts0/10664.html
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[25 Apr 2005|04:24pm] |
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My friend Nikki came over yesterday and we got bored and took some picture, also included are some from today. Since I've neglected posting in communities for a bit, here they are.
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