I'm not delirious! I'm in love!

Overall, life is pretty good now. I just need to get my shit together and make something of my self. I've been driving, which is a start. I'm still trying to find a job. Ugh.

Spent this past weekend with Alan. It was a damn good time. Went to a birthday party Friday night. Watched the fights Saturday night (damn good ones, at that. Thought Carwin had it in the first round, but Lesnar came back in the 2nd one and whooped ass!). Spent Sunday at Alan's grandma's house with his family and watched the parade. Then Alan and I watched the fireworks with some of his friend. Today, I am still at his house while he is at work. Kind of awkward, kind of not. My asked if we were in our nesting period of our relationship. WTF does that mean?

I hope everyone is doing well and I love you all.

I love being in love. I just need to be careful, or I will become overwhelmed.

How did I get so lucky to have stumbled upon this magnificent creature?

I couldn't ask for a better guy. I get butterflies every time I'm with him. He makes me feel so amazing about myself. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him.


Oh, and I love macaroni and cheese also. Ha!

The more time I spend with Alan, the more I fall in love with him. He is incredibly amazing. And I am grateful to have him in my life. This is how its supposed to be =)

I've always enjoyed MMA and UFC and such, but since I've started dating Alan, I've been paying more attention to it. Watched some great fights earlier. Roy Nelson knocked the shit out of Stefan Struve in like 30 seconds. I would love to go and watch this shit live.

I'm falling more in love with Alan all the time. He is such a great guy. I feel so lucky to have a guy like him in my life. Were taking things slow, which is awesome. But I know in my heart were gonna be together for a long time.

I've been looking for a job lately. I need one bad. If I can start working soon and saving, I might be able to get an apartment with my friend Justin this summer. That would be great considering I live with my mom, aunt, and uncle. I love all of them, but I want my freedom! I've known Justin since the 8th grade. He is one of the few friends I have here in Ohio. My mom calls him my safe date and won't let me marry him. He's gay, so I guess I can see where she's coming from lol..

Still dealing with drama with Eddie. Since I've returned from Michigan, he won't let me have my stuff from his house. All of my movies and books are over there. He's being childish. If it were only a few things, I wouldn't care. But this all of my movies, including vhs tapes from when I was a kid. He had the nerve to tell me he would trade me my things for my guitar. Right. Trade something of mine, for something of mine. Fuck that. I don't regret the time we shared together, and I will always love him. But I don't care for this drama anymore. I know he has some mental issues, but they have really come out over the last few months.. oh well..

Wow, I ended up writing way more than what I usually do... Eh... Enjoy...

Yeah, its love.

As of February 27th, I am no longer single. I met a great guy named Alan. We've been talking since the end of November and since we started talking, I was really into him. He is almost my complete opposite. And I like it that way.

I'm so ready to start a new chapter in my life. I have a new leading man, and I have the feeling he and I are going to write many, many books together.


I hope everyone is well.

<3

You know what?

I am a Sex Goddess.

I just thought I would share that.

I'm a piece of shit.

I'll get what I deserve...