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after not updating for about a month, now seems relevant?

270 minutes left with Margi, hated her at first, her tough love has grown on me. yeah for nine a.m. modern two semesters in a row!
270 minutes left with Liz, i think i'm going to miss this class the most. Liz has made my first semester at school worth while.
270 minutes left with Emily, she's okay, i'll have her next semester too.
270 minutes left with Anna, the end is not soon enough, can't wait to entirely rewrite my research paper in two days! PUNK*D
270 minutes left with Darrell, i'll miss talking to darrell but not doing improvisation so often. I’m excited for our party on the last day of class.
270 minutes left with Pam, ready to be done with the people in this class.
180 minutes left with Dardi, easy class, dardi is the nicest lady ever. last week she bought the 70 of us donuts and coffee!
180 minutes left with Allen, close but not enough! at least i won't have him next semester.
180 minutes left with Julie, so the final terrifies me but overall i'll miss tech theater.
that's 5,400 minutes.
then add in  2 rehearsals + teching, dress and two performances with Lisa. (i believe this is about 9 hours, a little more)
the end is in sight.

my first semester at big people school has come and go quickly, and for the most part easily. i’m glad Maggie Hlaban is within easy reach, as well as Ethan. i'm ready for a break, but i hope i'll be ready to come back too.
i’m ready to be home for awhile, and then go off with my boyfriends’ family for a chunk of the holiday as well.
odd sentence, Emmelia has a boyfriend? six months on the 13th as well? what huh? but nice to spend new years in such lovely (this means you Ellen! well Maggie too! i lied, i love your whole family, don't be too creeped out) company.
work when I come home, then back to school.
10 days, countdowns are my favorite.
i will be grateful for this day, i will be grateful for each day, to come.

how’re you doing?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHAEL HLABAN!
i'm super glad you lived through the accident, and i'm super glad you're living to be twenty.
and i'm super glad!
hope your day is super great!
bff#1 4 lyfe!

i was quizzed yesterday at work by the district manager, i passed with flying colors. cheers to being bored enough to read the employee manual. boo to cleaning upstocks and having pants fall on you. double extra two yays to kicking contests with andy, i'm going to be super super sad when he's gone :(. and omg. best thing ever, two older ladies came in and as i walked them to dressing rooms, one said to another "ooh, don't talk dirty through the walls, people are here ;)" and the other giggled and said "but you know you like it!!!" and it was supercute/funny.

i got two shots on tuesday, i believe i'll be getting four more in two hours.

with the new phone, equals new ringtones, mine is "every rose has it's thorn", please call lots so i can hear it ring.

speaking of phones, last night Me, Mike and Nat set rules for the detailsphonetree, it's official... this is grand. STEALTH TO CONFERENCE!!!! lemme know if you're interested in joining in on the fun.

random note, sort of to myself: write a bio/find/make a senior picture for dickson within the next few weeks.. or deal with the wrath of karen. speaking of performances... Cathy added in a duet for me and Colleen.. we're thinking tap, trying to convince her to let us do occapella... it's not working quite yet, give us time. another dance thing, i'm now "dance captain" for "we are one" meaning, when we run it, if we decide to change choregoraphy, it's my call at the end of the day. awesome, i <3 being a dictator! except really i won't change anything. it's set for a reason. but yeah, that's that. cathy thinks it's some honor... i don't give two shits? it's just nice to not have to deal with marinelife

school is super douchey. for reals.

eight weeks, this is lovely. i <3 countdowns.

i really like wednesday as a day... it's my day off of school, haven't worked a closing shift in awhile, which is fabulous. last night i came home, dad brought dinner and then we baked peanut butter cookies! it was great. i'm a loser. i like spending time with my dad! cause i hardly ever see him. so that was nice... also, Project Runway is on wednesdays!! i love that show.

valentines day = tuesday, meaning... RRR OUTING TO THE OLIVE GARDEN WITH OUR BUDDY TONY. i'm pumped(i feel like Cindy, eww).
also, thursday... lunch with erin! score.
this is long.
BYE.

the last entry can now be voided.

the con was pretty much worth it.

i love the hlaban family a lot. especially maggie. she's super great. plus, her dress totally kicked ass.
i love staying up pretty much the entire night talking... details, details, awwSUPERCUTE! cracking the jaw has other uses, pictionary on thursday to describe said talks, despite all of the interruptions.
i love detail talks with Nat, Mike, Anna, Tori and Clay too!!!
i love the fact that sean duffy is now gone. have fun in california!

uncondtionallove/the worship was a joke, but i wasn't really expecting much in the first place. which is disappointing... shouldn't we be better about that whole worship thing if it's a church function in the first place? i'd like to think so. maybe i'm old fashioned. i remember when i started going to cons, kids cried at worship, a lot... and i thought it was kind of... not weird.. not funny. but something...but they were into it, which is what matters. now kids just don't care, which is just super frustrating and ew.

the y was awesome, simply because i love showers.
dance was super fun! even if i can't dance for shit! disappointing they didn't play grillz :( grinding with zoe, and tim, and aaron, and maggie, and emily, probably mike, nat for sure, and anyone really was funny.
my touch group was pretty cool, good group of kids, great advisors, amazing co-touchgroup leader. zoe wins at life.

MIKE HLABAN GUESS WHO CAME BACK TO CONS? FUCKING STANTON. STANTON!!!!! it was amazing, he ripped on Justin/David for awhile. turns out stanton moved to North Dakota for a year, moved back, came to fall con. we hung out for awhile. he's a cool dude.

back to other junk, um...babymaking workshops are fun, as are fingerpainting workshops that involve jizz wrists and spidermanning amuse me too.
the censorship speaker was entirely a joke. as was any comment made by a con attendee, with few exceptions, (Kealan and.... i think that's it?).
the potty training song was super catchy! i'll teach it to my kids for sure.
aaron and tim are super funny boys, especially with their v-cards validated.
SDS was fun, not as good as last time, but Mike, Maggie and Carrie are cool kids.

i'm a bit... sad about this spring con being my last. i'm ready to be done with cons for sure. but i'm sad that i never really had relationships with people that were kept up until the past year or two. i don't want to lose them either. can we still visit kids?

dear mike, sorry i was a jerk to you and hugged lizzie while disregarding you as a human being. next time have your face on every part of your head and i'll recognize you from the back easier!!! kgr8thx, emmelia.

also, learning to take off bras with one snap is the best skill, ever.
also, losing 5 pounds over the weekend that have stayed off, even though i've had food equals funny! LOBSTER NO MORE!
racine is so taking over cons by the way, it's kind of super nuts. jesus. at least they're a good church!!
fourway conference calls that will happen in the future make me laugh super hard.... ALLGONE!!
being attacked by water fountains rule for sure!! thanks nat! jksmile! the bruise only hurts if i am sitting or laying down....
panic attacks kind of blow.. and distract me. i hate being distracted while in good conversations.

i don't know, still have a headache, a little tired, procrastinating.
i'll take my pictures in today.. or tomorrow realistically. scan em asap... etc.

also, in honor of a fabulous conversation with Carrie on friday night, i watched rushmore last night, i really do love that movie. good taste in movies carrieface, you're the most fabulous.
since my dad found out that spring is at NSUC he said he would probably sponsor, simply because that's the wallet cleanout church!!!! hahahaa my dad effin' rules. plus, he'll go out and get food in the event cons sucks. which it better not. but anyway, that's supercute on my dads part :)
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well, shit.
this has been a super long week and it's only tuesday.
dance kicked my ass last night, and i actually felt okay after, that is until i got home.

i can't decide if i'm dreading this weekend or need the escape. maybe it's just anxiety?
tim, i understand the whole, not con mood. i'm feeling it quite a bit myself at the moment. i'll miss you this weekend for sure though.

oh yeah, school started up.
math teacher, eh... ok. we had a quiz today and got out when we were done. i now have over an hour until my next class and my ipod doesn't like the new software, thank you apple! JKSMILE!! so, i'm screwed and sitting in the library bored bored bored.
ancient civ teacher is funny, but douchey. his grading scale is based on a research paper (which is cool, i like papers) and an oral presentation (i'm fucked) class participation and three mini quizzies too. ughhhh long semester for sureee.

johannah, please check your email.

getting a new phone in a day or two, that'll be funny... because i'm so great with them in the first place. jksmile, again.

after school i get to do as much homework as i can so i don't kill myself on sunday/monday then pick up ethan from the train.
yearly reviews at work are coming, that means.... WAHOO SUPERFUNONCTRAININGCLASSES. i have a training class tonight, 5-7. boooo. so after i'm done with that, i'm gonna go hang out with my RRR till dance, which i'm sure will be wonderful tonight... because i love our asian i mean arabian dance. at least cathy knows her cultures. once again, jksmile.

i'm sorry if i'm a mondo jerk to you.

as much as i'd like to think that things are alright, most things are falling apart for now. not just with me specifically, but the whole family junk. apologies.
i feel pathetic not only for crying, but the fact that i'm pretty much ready to do so right this moment. however i'm in school and that's awkward. bottling it up i shall!

now that i've totally exploded all over. i'm going to go wander around, read the newspaper, whatevs.
you can totally hate me. kisses.

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funniest reason to get fired from a job = drawing a penis on one of the shirts.

super sad thing about this, it could very well happen to Nick! :( what bothers me most, not the fact that he was dared and did it, but the fact... well two things, of all of the dares to do, that one just sucked. at least make it a sweet dare... BUT anyway, the reason management found out was because someone told on him, another effin' one year.
ONE YEARS HAVE CODE! YOU CAN'T BREAK IT! whoever tattled, man... they're coming out to their car covered in plastic wrap with penii drawn all over it.


between shitting and penii, my old navy wins.

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to do list:
have Mcc send my transcript.
have pia send my other transcript.
send admissions cashmonies.
purchase textbooks (ouch, only $289.62!)
finish essay
edit essay
letters of recommendation, emailed p-diddy, ask dre tomorrow.
call katie about the Panic! show
hassle C-face about tickets, she <3's CRS disease.
apologize to mike for making a list and feeling like a copy cat.
Dear Mike,
i'm ever so sorry for making a similiar post, i'm not trying to be a copy cat! i make lists and stuff. you know i'm psycho with excel! please don't hate me! see you soon! yayyy
best wishes
Emmelia
do well in school.
have fun.
be nice.
be productive.
get more junk up in my trunk.
listen to Kevin Federline's single Popozao way more... oh Britney Spears husband... what a winner.
download the entire 2 cd set of Monster Ballads.
lose all of my baby teeth.
eventually have my wisdom teeth grow in so they can be removed. (very productive, i know)




to never do list:
be sean duffy'd, by ANYONE.



Things are catching up, school is about to start and I’m happy about that. Everything else in life seems to be fine. I’m coming down from all of the good feelings I’ve had since November. It’d be cool if loneliness was never invented.
I miss feeling close to people.
on the other end of the spectrum, it's hard to go "back to just friends" with someone you were never “just” friends with in the first place.

hopefully going to two panic! at the disco/Academy is.../hellogoodbye shows in march, one in milwaukee with C-Face and hopefully another in chicago the following weekend with work kids.. hopefully.. who knows, i'd still like to go regardless... any takers? tim?! someone? please?

haven't worked since last saturday, not guaranteed a shift until this saturday, have an on-call on friday... i <3 the fact that old navy isn't doing so hot after the holidays due to returns. punk*d i don't. but whatever...

my parents are gone for the night, johannah and i rented four movies (redeye, 10 things i hate about you, get over it, drop dead gorgeous), bought nine boxes of movie theatre candy (charleston chews, good and plentys, runts, gobstoppers, junior mints, milk duds, reeses pieces, dots, whoppers), quiznos subs, and ice cream sundaes. i haven't had this much to eat since before she went to school, we still have candy left.... at least we're totally fat!! i <3 girlnights and late 90's early 2000's teen movies. for real! (remember how we're disgusting as human beings? me too!)

that's that, i'm really just here to make sure i do that list. i'll add to it in the next twenty four hours as i remember junk.
kisses.

ATTN NAT:
michael james wilson has found your hoodie, he is currently humping it like mad and will bring it to winter con.
in case you were wondering.
that's that.
kisses and banana hammocks.
Oatmeelia

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a few things to make me happy as of today:
my ipod on the way home, songs included:
Total Eclipse of the Heart - bonnie tyler,
Don't phunk with my heart - Black eyed peas,
i think we're alone now - tiffany,
my humps - black eyed peas,
every rose has it's thorn - poison,
Totale Finsternis - tanz der vampire (total eclipse, german style)
those were the highlights.

also, while shopping with my mommy and sister, we came across the clueless SPECIAL EDITION DVD!!!! hahahaha new features include: some fashion crap + SUCK AND BLOW TUTORIAL!!! lock-in kids will be able to appreciate that the most. best game, ever. We win at sexapples and bananas. ANYWAY, so that made me laugh and reminisce on memories from a week ago. chirst, is that how long it's been? feels like longer.

is it sad that only two things make me happy? i'm pathetic and easily amused.
beyond that, getting my act together for serious, doing the college schpeel, i actually like writing essays. i haven't had to write an essay/paper for a class in... over a year. i <3 them.
sent con forms up to the Hlabans, winter con is soon.. still feels like awhile though. maybe when school starts time will go super fast.

rehearsal on tuesday was a lol. everyone whined and bitched, elizabeth said she showered with her ex on new years and saw a girl go down on another girl, obviously both inebriated. the girl who did the lickings tried to kiss elizabeth, i proceeded to do a literal roflmao. i'm a jerk. so we didn't really rehearse much, everyone left early, i stayed late with Sarah and practiced some solo junk, should've choreographed more, didn't. super productive. at least we <3 dixon.

speaking of, i'm so effin' sick of break. well at this point. it was cool when i was with people. but now everyone is back in school, so i''m just bored. i don't go back till the 17th.
since kids have gone back, i've stayed up till four a.m. and cleaned my room, stayed up till four a.m. watched movies, stayed up till four on the phone, stayed up till four forty five, writing essays even though i don't plan on submitting them i just wanted to write one for both questions because i have nothing else to do. i would probably be ok if i had hours this week, but i don't until saturday.
tomorrow night the culpa was supposed to play, but they got kicked outta the venue, so who knows there was talk of them playing a basement show in Lake Zurich. that'd be cool! and by cool i mean fill up time.

christ almighty, this turned into something way longer than i wanted it to be. sorry.
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Happy New Year.
two thousand and six is going to be drastically different.
or not.

i spent it with Rachel for the third year in a row, however this was the first time i've been home on new years in 6 year. anyway, Rachel, Ak and Luke were here.
Rachel and i were talking, we looked at the clock at 11:58, got the boys, went downstairs and made it in time for the countdown/drank grape juice and then went back to talking.
while i'm the shittiest friend to rachel, i do really love how we can not talk for like 6 months, then see each other and it's totally cool.
thanks loverpants.
we were on my roof for awhile, watching fireworks and junk.. it was pleasant.

maybe i'll do a year in review later.
probably not.
pictures will get developed tomorrow
from.... Madison, Dance, Chicago and New Years.

conflict is silly, i don't know much these days.
hope everyone was safe/had a good holiday.

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why doesn't the cockasaurus obey the beastmaster?
because Nat sean duffy'd roy.

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Christmas is soon, hanukah as well.
life has been pretty splendid.
we made potato pancakes and brisket this evening... effin' wonderful.
work is ok, i have christmas eve off. i don't have a single closing shift next week.
dance is pretty cool, we have rehearsals over break for the television performance, that'll be lol funny.
i went to madison monday and spent a good chunk of the day with nick, it was fantastic. i love that boy. even if things didn't go as planned with expectations. not bitter.
by the way, funniest part about monday, a guy asked if i was going to have eighteen children... life really doesn't get much better/more awkward/hilarious.
i'm going to chicago on thursday, spending the day with some folks, lockin at hinsdale church, work friday.
i work new years eve too... i actually don't mind because i'll be working with Dan/Vanessa.
deal no deal is a great show... and by great i mean, entertaining when you have tivo and can skip everything.
while i'm not particularly religious, i must admit i do love christmas eve services... they're super peaceful with 97% music, 3% paying attention. plus, it's nice family time too!
hanukah with moms family was last week, it was nice. my favorite part was playing cut-throat with Ethan/Josh/Dad.
i'm sure i'll have a picture post within the next weekish. i have a camera from madison, and i assume i'll take some next thursday as well.

anyway,
happy holidays, whatever it is that you celebrate.
stay safe and warm.

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( man, i haven't done a survey in forever. guess it's time.Collapse )

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i love you ruby.
taco does too.

i have one lecture left in each class.
two finals.
i'm almost done!

Ruby has stopped treatment. she could have anywhere from a day, a week or a month.
ruby, stay here for the holidays please.

i had a performance yesterday, possibly the funniest thing i've ever done. i have a feeling we'll hear about it tomorrow and thursday.

i like people who distract me from homework until one a.m.
i also like knowing that i'll be seeing said person in two weeks.

the siblings will be home super soon, wahoo!

i might be getting sick, i might just need more sleep.

having your waiter at ihop recognize you from myspace is super amusing.

thursday i saw Wicked with the work crew, good effin' times. especially the train.
friday, i went to class with johannah, super interesting, very nice. she had a performance at night, it was great. i'm super proud of my sister, she's great!! phenomonal job johannah!

none of this seems particularly interesting, but that's ok. it's keeping me busy and i'm not all that stressed. a good way to go into the holidays.

i hope everyone is safe and in good health.
stay warm! especially if you're normal and have seasons. :P!