The belated birthday of wanya84

I thought I owed a long overdue entry in wanya84.I can even imagine the first line "I know this entry is long overdue but...." then i stopped there.It seems like i imagined that I have to update on something but I just don't have time to but now it seems that actually I don't have anything to update about.Ok this does this make sense,no?ok move on.Hmm The long dreaded presentation of Malaysian studies is finally over.What a sh**ty week it has been.I was down with food poisoning which lasted up till today though I'm starting to regain my appetite back.Damn the kuey teow tomyam!!Then the fever followed by the presentation which I would rather forget and not talk about.Then the scoldings.blurggh.*erase erase*.Well I registered today for my subjects next sem and 1 of the tutorial slot that I wanted was full by the time I registered.I thought that was normal since I was half an hour late so I registered for another slot which makes my timetable looks even busier.Then I found out that the tutorial slot that I wanted has a maximum capacity of 5 people.I mean it's freagging five.Usually the capacity is determined by the size of the class room.I wonder where on earth is the classroom which can only allocate 5 people in foe is.Is there some sort of secret room in foe that I don't know of?or the lecturer decided to conduct the tutorial in the comfort of his own office or pantry?Or this is just some kind of joke i don't get?No wonder it's full.If the 3 of us managed to register for that slot we already cover more than half of the population of the class.And as usual when 1 of us is absent which will result in absetees of all 3,the lecturer will be having only quarter of the class in session.Whatever.Terpanjang lak.Anyway 2 more days to 2006.End.

Birthday birthday

I had lots of fun for my birthday.Although pu3 n patin wasn't with me on my birthday they compensate it with all the plans to celebrate it.Thank u to these lalinks.First the suprise cake i get at anw subang.It was totally unexpected cause someone was angry at me.hehehe.Then the picnic at sg congkak and this time less sesat.bravo patin.However the weather wasn't on our side.It was raining heavily after we took our lunch break.So we decided to play uno which everyone won except someone.Yeah it's just a probability of 1/5 to win anyway and yet i won twice.uisy riak.I get a casing and a handbag.I love them.Turned out it's a white birthday for me.I really need a casing anyway cause my usb port was ruined and I need to remove my cd-burner drive.The handbag is lovely too.Oh yeah I am now so addicted to solitaire.I know it's lame but I haven't played it for so long so it gave a new feeling to me.I'm so not looking forward to next sem.I will face a really busy and pack semester.It's gonna be tiring.The timetable was so pack that I have no favourite day of the week except maybe weekend.sigh.sem 2 gonna end in just few weeks.It will be study week and then finals.Ok first there will be presentation that I have no idea when.So I'll pray hard to god that I can do well in my finals.So goodbye.End.
Word of the day: sepanduk dua serupa (contributed by patin)

So....I'm finally 21.Finally the age where i can vote...not that I'm planning to.I always thought when I was much younger that I wouldn't reach 21.I don't know why but it seems far far away at that time.I do wish that pu3 and patin is here right now with me but they are in an apprenticeship program in upm.Hmm nevermind they remembered my birthday anyway.My family isn't here too.huhuhu.It's ok though cause I have you.You who gave me ralph lauren blue.I luuuurve it.I have been wanting it since 2 years back.I finally got it yay!!.Thanx for all the suprises too......it is perfect to me despite a few glitches but let's not talk about it hehehe.Thank you for all the wishes everyone.So no birthday cake but nevermind I had it every year anyway.If I could make a wish they'll be a lot of it so I'll just make my everyday wish......for everyone around me now will still be with me in perfect health and condition till the day i die.Right. so out of idea and hungry so end.

What does it feel to be missing someone so much but u know that there's no way possible u could see him/her again.No way possible when u are alive that is.I've been thinking a lot of my late grandpa lately.In other words i missed him so so much.I don't even know why the thought of him keep on crossing my mind for almost every day since the past weeks.Since I lost him when I was 15 I did thought of him from time to time but not as much as these days.I'm sure most of us have lost someone dear to our heart in our lives.I guess no matter how much I missed or feels like seeing a certain someone just for one last time I guess I just hope that he's in a much better place now and for the ones that I'll miss if I won't be seeing them again.....well it's just best to savour these moments while it last.

It seems to be difficult updating this blog once a week.blank *sigh*It's not that my week has been boring and all about routine.In fact I did lots of things this week.Not that it have anything to do with school work but heck it's fun.I bought a ring with the trimonkeyz today.The mood ring.It's like uber cool.It change colours each time we wear it and it does change according to our mood.Or mayb that's what it wants me to believe.Ok so i guess it's not that cool to only find out about it when i'm 21 just like finding out that a frame can be positioned in different ways.Right now the ring turns blue which means i am despair.I think the ring has got life on it's own.No,that's crazy thoughts.(but maybe not that crazy afterall).Someone once asked me why didn't I write just everything that happens to me.For instance the fight i've been through in exact clear words.I just don't feel safe letting myself open up so much.which in a way defeat the purpose of having a blog.Last few days i try to think about what's going to happen 10 years from now.Will the people I'm close with now will still mantain the same level of relationship with me or will they just cross my mind one day and all that i can think about is that "oh yeah I used to be close with him/her".And so that's a sad thought.I did lost contact with some friends who used to be my clique in school.For that I blame me.In the end I guess it's not something that i can answer.It's just something that needs time and some effort to get through with.end.

I've been opening n closing this page over n over again trying to put up an entry but well i can't really think of anything.This week have been both boring n fun.Fun for the fact that I've watched like 3 movies in 1 week.Well that's a record for me.N there goes my money i get for raya invested in gsc n tgv.Not that I'll be getting anything other than getting to watch the movie in return but i guess it's ok.I only have this semester anyway to enjoy as next semester my timetable will be packed.It's the hot season again.The usual climate n temperature for cj return.Last night Fatin nearly met with an accident when we were coming home from dinner.In just 1 month I've been in 2 cars that nearly met with accidents with 2 motorcycles.One with fatin n another with my bro.One more n I will start to think that I'm bringing bad luck.I've got work.sigh.end.

It sucks to be sick at the first week of the semester.The first week which usually is filled with days going by without much classes to attend should be enjoyable.A lot of movies and foods could be slotted in on those free times but now i'm stuck with a flu,sore throat,cough and a high fever.Though these are the only times that i ate n drank only what's good for me.Well that's another bad thing about being sick.I never like nutritious foods but man.it felt so good to have hot water flowing through the soring throat.On another note,I've just found a clinic wih a doctor in it that doesn't make my heart goes thump thump thump.I have this kind of phobia for doctors-I'm doctorphobic(well i don't think the word does exist).it's just that usually when i have to go to the clinic for check-up,my heart beats even harder and my face will turn pale which worsen up the condition that I am already in.So it's good that a doctor manage to not make me feel that way.Anyway I realized the recycling ad that was aired in billboards or mass media was simply too much compared to the bins for us to recycle.The campaign ad goes by"jangan cakap sahaja,kitarlah semula".Well we don't talk much about it but when it's time to recycle there's simply no bins for it so who's now in the party that cakap sahaja.Ok enough of my ramblings.anyone who can't understand what i wrote just remember that I'm sick and anything I do is excusable.Ahchoo.end.

I've just gotten myself addicted to another cecilia ahern's novel....Where rainbow ends.It's a great novel as far as i have read.Definitely a must-read for you book lovers out there.Watched Bewitched the movie last night and man... as a bewitched fan( the series i mean) the movie sure sucks big time.There's something wrong with the plot,the acting...everything.This movie has nicole kidman in it,it sure can be a lot better that this.I'm yet to start baking...tomorrow maybe.Anyway my bro came back and out i go.Night dreamers.end.

Alhamdulillah....I passed all my subjects.Now i can proceed on making the kuih raya and celebrating raya without worries of having to study.I didn't pass with flying colours unfortunately but it's so much better than my prediction of failing all my subjects.Felt so high.This must be the feeling of taking drugs.ecstacy.Yeah result with a pass written on it is definitely ecstacy to me.Anyway I don't know whether this will be my last post before raya.I guess not.I'll be celebrating raya in penang.So friends who happen to be in penang during raya u are most welcomed to my house.There will be nice foods.Remember I'm gonna make some kuih raya hehehe.Wow this must be the fastest bulan puasa so far.It doesn't feel like raya yet anyway.end.

sigh.Waiting for results certainly is one of the things that i will not miss when i left mmu.How does a few lines of sentences of pass or fail makes my heart beats so fast and make me lost my sleeps,The thing is that as unbelievable as this may sound i usually get a premonition when it comes to results day.There will be one night where i'll dream of my result and it turns out my results is the same one as i dreamt about but this time around i really really do not have any idea.I don't get the usual dream.Oh boy is this bad news.sigh.end.

This few days.... I've been pretty occupied with a novel i recently bought.PS I Love You.Now most of u will be thinking by the title of it that it's a novel about girl find boy fall in love yada yada yada.It's actually a novel on how a woman cope after losing her husband that died cause of tumor.Sigh it's such a heart wrenching story,motivating yes.Make me think of what will happen if i have go through it.Being at home is good.Been busy stuffing myself when it's buka puasa time.Of course if this goes on for another month I will have to worry that i couldn't fit through the doors or walk to my classes anymore.Hmmm....results coming out.How i dread the day.end.

Get through my day with a throbbing pain in my head.I guess it's the result of talking with the hp being charged.Hmmm i never gonna learn.Nothing interesting happen to me for the past week.Oh well that's a good thing i guess.Anything interesting for this short while will be bad news to me.Being at home with nothing to think about makes my mind wanders off and I think about a lot of things.Life and death.People have been talking about the signs of end of the world nearing.A lot of speculation have been made.To me it's just sad.Nowadays people everywhere are obsessing about it.To me whether there are signs or not we should fear death anytime anywhere.By fearing death we learn to improve ourselves.There's no use finding the signs when we are still the same person each day.Of course i'm not saying that i'm a beter person myself.I'm not.I do hope i'm improving anyway.I have a current obsession anyway and it's taking hell lot of my money.sigh.end.

This is so unfair!!!!!Why lah why out of all places kat penang jugak yg takde.waaaaaa...and mcd is just opposite of my house.Patin said there's only 1 mcd in kelantan n it's newly oppened and penang is surrounded with mcd.jalan 15 minutes jer ada mcd.okla besides the fact that penang is small...i mean for the island but there's a lot of mcd here so why whyyyy!!!!.This buffet will be so worth it if u have a big stomach n i do have a big stomach.sob sob.*runs off to write a complaint to mcd*

Uuu wee i'm so happy.y?nahh i'm not gonna tell hehe.Anyway i should be sleeping right now since i'll be going home early today.Hmm anyway it's ramadhan again and i'll be at home this time.I'm done with all my finals and god i really really hope i'll pass.geee i am sleepy so have a good time everyone.Oh yeah m2sa u got it right hahaha.end.

Ok I'm supposed to be reading my notes instead of blogging but hey everyone needs their rest right *guilty*.There wasn't any entry in this blog for the past 2 weeks pretty much because there's nothing interesting enough for me to tell and besides i'm so occupied with my finals that most of the time i was in my room.Anyway last monday to thursday was....urm what word would best decribe it oh yeah... hellish to me.I had 3 papers which i had really low coursework marks and thus i'm under superloadiwannadie tension.Barely sleep for 6 hours every day and last thursday i finally felt so very weak.I was practically saying prayers begging to god to let me pass the paper as i punch in the numbers to my calculator.This is how i know that i'm sucks at handling stress.I should be doing something about it.Maybe i'll take up sports.....okla very unlikely but i said maybe.Anyway load of thanx to my friends the people who said comforting words to me when i'm about to breakdown and give up.Sigh.Maybe mcd's banana pie might bring up my mood.Anyone wants to buy me one?muteki puterey?patin?muahahaha.end.

Hmmmm....there's something that disgust me more than looking at a tenggiling that is knowing someone who claims to be a Malaysian but when had the chance to reside in other country,this country once called home seems poorly managed and horrible.I've known a friend that gets an opportunity to further her studies in a neighbouring country.... it's great news but what really disgust me is how she turns out to be this racist and have this sentiment of anti-malaysian when she herself is a malaysian herself.I mean I can't claim that I am truly happy on how our country works...I'm sure noone can claim that they are truly fulfilled except maybe PM and even he himself wants some things to change but I 've never gone as far as to bad mouth my own country and thus worship just a land that without a magnifying glass is just a small dot on the map.I know for one I don't discriminate ppl on their races so please don't steorotype my race as being the forever ungrateful lazy community.Ok enough about that....Read this.Ok this story makes me even more disgusted that seeing 100 tenggilings.It's so beyond disgusting and i'm too lazy to find the word in the dictionary.I mean come on la kan guys...we are civilised ppl ok have some respect la on woman.What if your mom or sister goes through this takkanla happy kan.urghhh.It saddens me even more that most of the guys acting this way are malay guys.Note that I'm not being judgemental and thus discriminating malay guys.Even if i want to, I can't since my brother and dad are malays but then this is being said through my observation.Wooing girls by trying to have personal contacts (eg:raba2) or bersiul2 at girls don't turn a girl on ok.Even if u are as handsome as brad pitt we will still look at u as a scary irritating annoying pest who deserved to be jailed.So back off.I'm not in a running to be a female activist here but as a woman i wish to spread the message....again BACK OFF.Note that i don't say all malay guys are like that just some kampung rempit guys yg tak reti bahasa jer.
Just a thought.....wah angry nyer aku
Get my midterm marks....arghh .......God help me

I've been tagged .Yeah thank god.... puteri had started the sound effect *pschhkk* once again.I know most ppl hate history lesson so bear with me for a while....

20 years ago,1985
I was barely one year old.Since i can't even remember what happened this evening i should be given the nobel prize if i can actually remember what happen back then.

10 years ago,1995
I was nearly 11 years old.etto....What i can remember is that i was quite small for my age.I was always in front of the line.I fought everyday with my bro and some of my teeth got squashed by playing with him...okla i'm accident prone.I also remembered giving my dad quite an unpleasant suprise when i return home with blood on my face and body resulted from a terrible fall in school.I joined some weird clubs which up till now i can't figure out what was i'm thinking back then (Read:the kungfu cub and the safety road club which activity consist of going to the road looking at cars..yeah it exist).Had 2 best friends (Huda and Alma) who helped me out a lot in school.I'm famous for being the blur and forgetful girl and still am up till now.sigh

5 years ago,2000
I was a 16 years old chubby young girl who's afraid of the weight scale.Since it was just after pmr i was just having a lalala time.All i can remember was going to school and having cold sweat and goosebumps each time it's add math period.My class get a really fierce teacher who turned out to be one of the best teacher in my whole schoolling years.I'm still ordinary and blur.I had my real first crush (tolak the crush on celebrities la).I had no self confidence on my appearance and certainly wasn't the center of attention.I know sports wasn't something i will ever be good at.I learnt hokkien from my friends since ppl still thought i'm chinese even with my baju kurung (blame the sepet eyes).

3 years ago,2002
I started a new life in mmu.I was in my alpha year.Made some awesome friends that make the life far from my family bearable.Freedom at last!!!I'm not sure how but i had so much energy then contradict to what i thought first that i'll be a loner spending most of my time in the library.nerd la konon.I still remembered feeling suprise that the shopping complex in melaka was so small compared to penang but melaka was a nice place.Forced the rest to watch lots of horror movies with me and was a frequent visitor for the bubble tea stall in mp.<>

Last year,2004
Lost a friendship...get my heart broken into pieces.Still held on to a much stronger relationship with trimonkeys.I am still a struggling student.Found out that i'm actually a stressful person and i get so tense up when it's final exam time woohoo (sound effect tidak kene).patin got her car so we spent so much time and money enjoying life.Thank god they are food-lovers too.Always pokai for spending so much money to try on foods at new places.My first experience living in house instead of hostel.Started to gain more self-confidence.

This year,2005
Still having so much fun.Although studying is really tiring for me but i know i shall miss these times.At least i know this will be so much better than having to work.When else will i have the options to sleep as late as i want and skip class when i feel like it.Wanya84 was launched and I'm now a blogger who read her own blog over and over again....skali lagi *takde life*.

Next year,2006
I want to see fireworks please please.Hopefully i'll be in my final year busy doing my fyp and my practical.I hope by this time i can control my temper and not known for my blurness.

10 years from now,2015
I'll be 31.Hopefully by this time i'll have/be:
- my desired career with a good pay of course.
-Married to the most lucky guy on the planet (yerla since he's married to me kan.....hakhakhak) and have cute,well behaved kids.
-A proud owner of a beautiful car and a cozy house.
-Can afford to send my parents on holidays and get them whatever they want.
- still have my best friends around me to keep me sane.hehehe

Okla dah abis.
Ok I'll have to tag someone else now but since i don't know if there's anyone who'll read my blog so ppl feel free to take this meme if u happen to read this or if u want to.

*wah...tiba2 ja ada kotak byk2 atas nak letak new entry nie...weird weird [iklan]* Anyhow i have no intention to insert a new entry here since well nothing much happen anyway but since the ms- konon- tinkawonka keep on doing the soound effect *pischhhkk* pestering me to put an entry so here it is.I realized the last few entries in here were all depressed and sad and yeah angry.So i shall put something happier to read about since i think life is ok now.etto.I submitted 2 of my assignments so what a huge relief it is.1 more to go then final.One more month to ramadhan.Well i think i am looking forward to it since it will be 1 full month of fasting at home.Lots of nice foods.nyeh nyeh.However i shall miss dearly the experience fasting at mmu.I think the 3 years that i spent fasting far from my family was actually fun.Although i can't have a full table of foods here but searching for foods at new places for bukak puasa was fun.Heck even sahur and going to classes in hunger was fun to me.(jauh di perantauan...cewwahh).It is afterall such sweet memory and not something i could buy anywhere else .It will be another 2 years fasting as a student of mmu (hopefully) with F.W.K.M.S.Oklah enough about puasa.lambat lg pun.Last night patin need to send some of her stuff back home.So after going back home as usual we go for a hunt for foods.We want to try the foods at the much talked about foodcourt "My friend's corner".Sadly when we get there the place have changed it's owner thus the change of the stalls and it didn't appear inviting to me.So we go to NZ and ate ice-cream goreng.weee.Okla even though i'm not suppose to eat anything cold but takpela.Erm...I think that's all for now.Puas hati tak cik tinka.chi chi chi chi boing boing.....And thus i shall read my blog over and over again...takde life i know.thank u.end.

I'm sick.Yeah what a perfect timing.I have 3 assignments n 1 lab report in hand n i'm sick.I'm so emotionally unstable n what's worse is that i can't think.I've looked at the assignments questions n i'm blank.sigh.I'm sick that i'm whining right now which makes me pathetic and i'm sick that ur sick of me.What i need right now:
-All my works done
-my health
-some medicine (panadol soluble)
-a doctor?err....i guess that can be ignored for a while
-100 plus
-my mom
-my home
-someone,anyone i care about with me right here right now
again.......sigh....
*pardon me i'm quizzical*

I'm supposed to be very very busy right now and what i need right now is more than 24 hours in a day but still i can afford to lose what i have in hand to put in some words in this takdela-cool blog which the reader consist of only me.daa.I'm tired...really really tired.I've been studying for the past few days for this subject which i have a midterm on this wednesday.However what's sad is that i know i'm still far from ready to face the xm.Oh to add more to it,my toilet sink is broken and my tongue hurts like hellMy heart beats so fast thinking of the amount of works waiting for me.2 assignments which i haven't really started which are due next week.1 of which seems almost imposible to solve in one of the parts.Yeah.So, for now i would like to take this opportunity to thank right from the bottom of my heart to the ever gagap dr.C for making my life as miserable as he could contribute in.And though i know i'll be getting very low coursework marks resulted from the *&@#$% midterm and the equally *&@#$% lab...he really did touch my heart with his cruelty .End.

Wow lots of things happened this week.So much so that i'm in the state of i guess denial and frustation on the world.Stability certainly isn't what can describe my state of mind and feeling.I've always known that when i grow older thare are a lot of things which i will have to learn and responsibility which i have to bear but i don't know it will be this much.For even though i'm as a muslim that believe in fate,qada' and qadar... this are just some times which i can't help but to question god why this god why this!!My mom always says behind every things in life though how painful and sad it could be there will always be a certain reason behind it.Allah is indeed fair.So i'll always hope i could find the reason of all these and just endure the broken heart..end.

It's only last saturday that i wrote about my mp3player n how much i'm in love with it.I never thought that by today i would have lost it.Yeah i'm sad...devastated might be the correct word.I never even get the chance to use it yet having just taken it out from it's box.I haven't even get the chance to show it off.I wanted to use it when i'm walking to campus alone or when i'm studying or when i'm in need of a flash drive.Though i have the feeling that something's gonna happen to the mp3player.There's always something that happen to things that i put so much feelings in it.It hurts damn much.I know it's cheap n it's not an ipod or anything but it came out from my own pocket money.I acted like a kid who just get her toy when i first bought it.I guess it will be another year till i can save enough money to buy me another one.tulis ni pun rasa nak nangis.haih.end

I finally get myself an mp3 player...woohoo.okla just a cheap one but anyhow it came out from my saving when i was in school so it's really really precious to me.It will be so much better if it's an ipod or the cute mp3 player with panda design which caught my heart earlier but i love mine too.Anyway mawi won!!!yeay kalau tak menang buat rugi jer undi.He just have this x factor that makes him so likeable.I wish i have his x factor.Going back to cj tomorrow.This holiday definitely felt like 1 of the shortest midterm break for me.Nevermind though.end.

Erm cameron highland is fine.It's a nice trip indeed....so relaxing and to me the bus and the apartment weren't dissapointing.They were great and worth the  payment.Thank god everyone was happy at the end of the trip.I'm also thankful that even tough there were a lot of changes in cameron...more buildings and development have been made the air there is still cool and refreshing.It gave me the calm feeling and made me forget all the problems i had in mind.Anyway congrats to patin who organize this trip....good job dear.I love sugar coated strawberry.I haven't been sleeping for the past 24 hours and i had a flight to catch so imagine how blur i am at the airport.I can't even walk straight and find my directions.Thankfully enough someone was kind enough to stay with me till my flight and took care the checking in things for me.Otherwise i might even miss the flight.Anyway today is lalink pu3's birthday.I wish i could make a tibute for your birthday just like patin's but i forget to bring home the cd for photos.Sorry dear.So to the one and only princess who have been my bestfriend,my housemate,coursemate,my gelak2 mate,my tutor and a lot others but most importantly the sister i never had who've been with me through my high and low times...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PUTERI SHARINA SHAHARUDIN aka sophisticated mama...ekekeke.May god bless u always.may u always be happy,may our friendship never dies and love u lots....

I promised lalink tinka last week to put an entry on her lovely skirt but i guess it's quite late now.Anyhow fatin had already put an entry on that and she described it better than me so check out her blog aite.and I do agree with fatin that the skirt look so sweet and it suits pu3's personality .I'm going off to cameron tomorrow and although my excitement of going there have been brought down due to some problems i really hope this trip will goes well and we won't encounter any problem up there.Amin.Anyway 6203 i'm sorry.

Waaaaaa..........nak patin nyer watch yg sgt cool.Nike watch yg sgt sporty.They are 2 red sets in the collection and it's soooo me.Aih tringin2.I wanna be paris hilton..byk sket duit.If not because of me wanting to save money for mp3 player i would have bought that watch.anyway the salesperson at the shop was so so so adorable and so cuute.Plus he smells good.I wonder what perfume was he wearing.Check out some piccha on the watches at fatin's blog.But anyhow the watches don't fit me...yer tiny hands syndrome.Patin.....your hands are so so cool ok.hmmmph

I realised i sort of neglect this blog a lil bit.Well i did update every week but there's just not much to write.Besides i think the only people who read my blog are those who already knew what i did every single day.Anyway it's spring here in cj.At least it was...even for such short time.There are beautiful flowers around here and yeah i do imagine 1 of my friend running around the trees with that beautiful skirt..hehehe.Why didn't i just imagine me doing so?Because i just don't fit in the picture.I have this craving for a month or so for just a simple nasi lemak but being me waking up early to have breakfast isn't much of an option.I'm always craving for food anyway.Starting to get real busy with exams and works.Although i don't appear so but i am worried.We've already found the precious 8.Thank god.I hate myself when i'm in my nasty mode with people.I am worried for or rather i'm confused about one thing.If people i mean anyone likes something let's say chocolate shouldn't we love it every single time.I mean it's not that we have to feel like eating chocolate the whole time but u just don't lose interest in it.Then how come sometimes when i woke up from sleep i just forget why am i so interested in my version of chamomile tea.but there are times that i felt the sudden feelings of wanting to sip it so much.I guess it's normal.Just like having ulcer every single month....

What a week....well nothing much happened this week.I'm just tired and part of me is unstable.I do hope that i'm in penang now since my best friend will be back in ireland next week and i haven't get the chance to meet her.It's been a year anyway.I am looking forward for the cameron trip next 2 weeks.Maybe it could get my mind off certain things.I am getting tired of being angry and i know that sometimes i am the one at fault.Whatever.Really looking forward for the weekend.This week felt forever.Anyway have a great weekend.

This weekend was fun and casual.I went to dataran putra yesterday for af concert.Actually there's a lot for me to tell about the concert but i just don't have the mood nor the energy to form words right now so to know more about the concert check out fatin's blog and fotopage.All i can say is that i think the long wait for the concert and having to come out early to get a good seat was worth it.I truely enjoyed it.Today.... or this afternoon precisely i went to midvalley.It was actually unplanned as we actually thought of going to seoul restaurant for lunch but arrived late and past their lunch time so we took the 2nd option which was to go to midvalley.I get to watch hitchikers guide to the galaxy.The movie was....ok i guess though it's not as funny as i expected and there were times where i kept on yawning.nevermind though i still enjoyed it.I have this craving for seafoods right now.Wish my dad is here to take me for some seafood dinner.....please kawan2 let's go for all-u-can-eat steamboat lunch next week or when kaya sikit.Maybe if i can get my cup or cups of chamomile tea (my version) right now it would be nice....thihihihi

Thinking about it i did make some issues a bigger deal than it is when in fact it shouldn't have been that way.So i did felt guilty over some stuff that also had burdened u dear tinka but i don't think i'm gonna share it with everyone here.sorry.Right now i am feeling guilty on trying hard to avoid somebody that i'm not comfortable with and thus someone that i thought of as how do i put it "different".Don't ask who.Sometimes i did unintentionally treated people the harsher way.....i don't know maybe i'm the weirdo here.When i was in penang i felt a slight pain in breathing but was told later that it's the result of being under stress.Right now the pain is gone maybe as the result of laughing every single day but it was replaced with a quickened pace of my heartbeat and yeah i do know why.....is it healthy?i can't really answer that.For a good reason?i guess..........well more to i hope so.

Yesterday was really fun....the mr tutor eye-candy said hie to me when i was in the same lift with him but of course i have to mantain the coolness but was destroyed by patin few seconds later.nevermind though it was funny.Then the day went on and again i took the role as the pest control since i have to spray the penyengat.It was really2 funny getting ready to do it with the really weird attire and the blair-witch project video caught on camera.Not much to talk about.i had better off sleeping...

Felt so long since my last post.Well i don't really have anything to update anyway.Went for a movie today.Such a bad day.Everything went wrong.We didn't get to watch mr. and mrs. smith so we have to opt for the intepreter.But the movie was ok i guess.Lots of things on my mind right now.Maybe i'm just making those issues a big deal but i can't help it.Suddenly everything cramped up my mind.I'm scared,insecure and maybe the anger hasn't fade.Terrible me.I felt lots of burden for me to think about.I'm hating every single part of me for making things that could be under control goes wrong and burdening everyone else.I'm so sorry...Maybe it will be better if i'm not here since my presence seems to bring problems to me and people around me.What a sick post but who cares anyway.

Now finally is the time for me to return to cj.It felt strange....few weeks back i was so bored i kept on counting days to go back to cj but now parts of me don't feel like going back.It somehow felt stressful and i'm certainly not in my best mood.I felt this anger to people that might not entirely be their fault for what had happened but i can't stop blaming them oh and i would love to snap in their faces.Of course i didn't.Maybe i'm just emotionally challenged.Maybe i'm just taking things too seriously.....and this is precisely what i hate about me.....

I hate making decisions.Not to mention i'm an utter failure to it.Some of my decisions certainly didn't end up giving me the best result that i expected.The holiday is nearly coming to an end.Although it will be fun seeing my friends again but going back to mmu is just like going back to reality for me.I'm not saying that being on holiday is like living in fantasy but not much of a reality check.More decisions to make...more headaches to face.Reality really breaks me....

What i have been doing for the past few days.tinka came to my house and from then on we did what we do best.....gossips and laugh damn lot.On sunday we went to gurney plaza and i didn't know that there's some flower fair going on and the police blocked the road to get there.so i had to take a longer route to go there and god there's so many car.The worst part was my bro's car air-cond decides not to took pity on us and so there's the traffic jam and we were sweating so much that i think we could have filled up a full jug.Even the people in the car beside us were laughing at us.Not to mention my legs felt so wobbly pressing the clutch pedal.Anyhow we got there and the first thing we did was to get a real cool place and a real cold drink.We looked like we just had our work out and came straight from a gym.Then we decided to watch a movie and we can't decide either to watch house of wax or kingdom of heaven so we flipped coin only to watch seed of chucky.hahaha disgusting.I bought myself a checkered shirt.Last night before going to bed we wanted to watch a movie but since there aren't that much movie in my house we had to pick an unknown movie..paparazzi and we looved that movie...there's so much hatred and revenge in it.I think we sounds sick la tinka.Anyway i had so much fun analysing jaime's face,condemning aidil and just talk nonsence all day.hahaha.but it would be so much more fun if there's patin around here too.We can laugh so much till it hurts.wow this is long.....ciao
ps:i gotta get off my addiction with summerland.I'm starting to get real comfortable with it.

It is really annoying some times when i want to update this blog there have to be something wrong with xanga.Well this week.... wasn't really an interesting week just like the past weeks.I get to do what i wanted to do.Carrie underwood won american idol.Kesian bo.Nevermind though.They gained their fame anyway win or lose.I watched 3 movies in a row on astro today.The first was trapped.I was captivated by the movie from the beginning till the end only to miss the ending part which was really the answer to all the mysteries.darn.The second movie was romy and michelle's reunion.Well the story don't have a point or message.It's about 2 woman that have to fake out their life in order to impress their friends since they didn't think they achieve much.I certainly hope i won't have to do that some day.The third movie was clueless which i lost count how many times i had watched it.I have something to do tomorrow.Thank God.On another note i really wanna watch madagascar.I've waited for that movie since the incredibles which was 5 months ago.I wanna watch house of wax too.2 hot guys in 1 movie.Watching a movie alone isn't an option for me....sheesh.Feels life from the heart....it's much more worthwhile.

Hmmm.....actually i don't know what to write here.Maybe i can write what happen this past few days.I got my hair cut....shorter than what i've imagined but it's not bad.I drove around my mom to places she wanna go today since she took a leave.My internet was cut off few days back cause there's some problem with the bill....biasala tak update.I'm doing something which i've planned quite long before and i'm just hoping it goes well.Watched trl tonight and orlando bloom was on the show.He looked extra super duper sizzling hot.oh dazzling nyer.what else....i'm sleepy and stuffed with ice cream.....nite pikipikita!!

This holiday is starting to get really really boring.I practically do the same thing everyday and it has stopped being fun.Okla beside the fact that i have lots of foods to eat now and i don't have to pay for them i am bored!!!furthermore i miss my monkeyz.it felt so long since the trimonkeyz lepak lepak together.i want to play monopoly but i don't have one.i want to eat rotiboy but penang of course don't have any of it here.oh yeah my plan to jog succeed since finally i manage to wake up early.yay to me.Okla it's mainly because i have to send my mom to work that's why i have to wake up early but nevermind ignore that fact.oh yeah jon johnson sgt hot.Anyway for those of u that called or messaged me and i didn't reply or answered straight away sgt2 sorry.Sound trouble.Amuse me please.....

050505 quite a special date ain't it.At least it is for my bro for today is his birthday.So just a shout out for my bro Happy Birthdayy..may god bless u always.U know ur the best bro i have (because ur the only bro i have...thihihi )Anyway i baked a cake yesterday....don't know how's the taste yet.Got myself a dose of ice-cream for my craving although it's mint which i don't really favour but it's ok though.Went for dinner at EQ and it's a buffet diner.Among the varieties of foods is roasted chicken.....next to it looks like some red stuff which i naturally thought is the sauce.Turns out it's a jam.Why the heck anyone wants to put jam next to roasted chicken maybe it's a trick meant to be a joke by the restaurant which of course i felt for.Weird.Anyway still hadn't gotten better with my ulcer.....pain pain go away!!!

I'm having ulcer on my tongue.That's right on my tongue.I am literally close to tears when i do anything ranging from eating,drinking,talking...oh just anything.Hurts like hell but it's my fault anyway for drinking so little water when i should have done otherwise in this hot weather.Should really pull myself together.I have this major depression thing yesterday and it sucks.Make me feel pathetic.But as a friend said to me when u felt down a drain and u bleed u can't stay in the drain for long,just get out from there and continue on walking.Yeah life goes on ain't it.So what's new..well nothing.Guess i shouldn't update when there's nothing to tell but heck i'm in pain.So amuse me......i need ice cream!!

Especially for the blurrest,funniest,cleverest,loveliest,loudest laugher,craziest<> my housemate,roommate,part time tutor,problem listener,problem solver,teman mengarut at times when i can't sleep and most of all a BEST FRIEND anyone could ever ask for *drummroll*
Fatin Ruzanna Serinara aka kenanga si paku
Love u bebeh!!mmuahhs Slamat mengundi ekeke

It's nearly 1 week since i came back to penang.What had i done?nothing.Anything accomplished?Nothing.This is the art of doing absolutely nothing.Wake up,eat,watch tv,read novel,eat and eat again along the process,and sleep again.Such an unhealthy life.Haven't met or contacted my friends yet.Yes..I'm even too lazy to contact them.Well maybe next week.Ooh results coming out next week.I'm doomed...unbeleivably nervous.My cousin was married last week on the day i came back.Seems like everything move too fast around me or maybe i'm moving too slow...hmm.Where's my monkeyz?Haven't chat with them since i came back.The latest book i read had really shown it's effect on me.The book is basically about stalker so somehow I get really scared when i'm alone trying to get some sleep.Felt like something's watching me erkk.Went to eat seafood with my family just now and had a piece of the fish's bone stuck in my throat.hokk hokk.Had a plan in mind for this holiday...just hope i won't back off or at least last a lil' longer,stay a lil' longer.Conclusion <>

Hmmm so this is the last entry i'm posting before going back to penang for my 2 months holidays.My computer will be transfered to my aunt's house so i guess i won't get to online that much.This week has been superbfundeliciously grreat.Lots of fun things have been done..From the trip to buy our study tables,the movies,mandi manda at sg chongkak...went to see my darling syed adam harith (the baby in the pic),all the makan2 and lastly the book fair.Yeah today is fun.Bought lots of books at such cheap prices.Oh i wish i could be trapped one day in the book fair......with food supplies of course or maybe the book fair could be done once a month instead of once a year(Yeah like i have the money ).Bought 3 sidney sheldon's books,2 books on stalker (i'm obsessed with stalker??) and a book on something light in case i get too scared Book indulgence on the way yayy.Going back with tinkatinka tomorrow.sob sob really can't believe this week has ended.If i were to have more money instead of the current state POKAI right now i would have stayed longer.But what to do......enggak ada wang.Anyways happy holidays people and don't miss me hohoho........

Went to sungai chongkak today for a picnic with the guys.Tired but had lots of fun there since there weren't so many people around so we get to play play play in the freezing icy cold water.Went there around 9 and reach there nearly 12 because we don't actually know the direction to go there but managed to ask a few people which is the reason we finally could get there.Don't really know what else to blabber about.Just had 2 hours of sleep yesterday and i'm dead sleepy now.Anyways i love this week.I'm not in penang but i'm happy.Gonna miss all these pretty soon.Thanx guys... all of u made my day..........glee .
*and it really doesn't matter if we don't eat and it really doesn't matter if we never sleep*-The Corrs

YaY!!Finally I'm done with my final xm and sem 3.HuHu...boleh tgk naruto tanpa rasa guilty.U know how i always have this power to attract insects or animals.Yesterday another animal stopped by and my oh my landed not so far from me.....to be precise just a few cm away from my head.I was just about to sleep so then i had to ran down to tell fatin about the animal which was a batman.........okla it's just a bat but in my panic state i told patin it's a batman.So patin thought i was imagining things but checked it out anyway.So then the whole house had wake up to get rid of the poor creature who keeps on banging at my door.....drunk kot cm mabuk jer the bat.Itula org dah kata don't drink and drive or in this case don't drink and fly.Alright merapu.Anyway can't really sleep last night cause i'm so alert of every little sounds.Anyway yesterday met mr tutoreyecandycomeirasanakkidnap...glee nyeh nyeh nyeh.So anyway tata for now....

I love ice-cream.I mean i really really lurrrrve ice-cream.ice-cream is nice.It brings smiles to the usually serious me.But..............why oh why am i so untalented (adakah perkataan ini?) in eating ice cream.At the age of 20 i ate ice-cream like a 6 year old does.I'll get messy and people laugh at me.Oh well i don't care........ice-cream is still the best.Buy me an ice-cream and i'll love u (ok this is a joke).Boring entry for a lovely boring day.........

Aww i lurve today....i brought smiles to my friends.Gembira tak my darlings?<>Oh sweet scents of misery...where art thou?Not that i wanna meet u but if it's all been done what is left to do?Done with 3 papers....some more than the other is disastrous but what to do.....just wait for sunshine to appear back .....huhuhu .Anyway enjoy these moments of sgt semalam yeah my exclusive tinkteen .

Note:The baby in my profile pic right now is someone who i haven't met and not even related to...by blood that is.He's a nephew to tinka tinka.However this is the only person so far who i ever felt in love to even before i met him....why?well for all the obvious reason....This is a pic of one of the cutest and adorable human i met so far.huhuhu.This is my ruu-chama and as wanya..he's all mine MINE.Sorry agak psycho .

Another earthquake occured yesterday since the former black sunday.It's intensity is about 8.2 scala richter....quite a big one i guess.I was sleeping at that time but i'm not in my deep sleep state as i was supposed to study.Suddenly i felt like someone just shook me.I know i was supposed to be homealone so imagine how terrified i was.So i ran down though knowing nobody was home.When i reached downstairs i saw pu3 n how glad i was.Assuring myself that i was imagining things i get a message from my friend.Turns out everyone experienced it as well.Slightly relieved that it wasn't a ghost trying to wake me up.My parents and bro tried to reach me but the line was kind of bad at that time.hmm it was devastating knowing somewhere far from here there are ppl probably killed by this earthquake.It was more devastating learning this might be signs from the mighty god that this could be the end of time for human.On a lighter note,gone through my mockmeeting yesterday and man i have no idea my english could be so bad when i'm in my nervous self,I kept on forgetting words but what's past is past.I'm just glad it's over.Gotta study.tata for now...

yay....pc dah beshh....Finally after surviving 1 year with yellow screen now i can finally have a normal screen and my dvd-rw is installed.....nak burn byk2.All thanx to amir.I owe u one .Not much happen today except the day went by with me eating a lot.Went to subang in search of a new place to eat but ended up eating in pizza hut which we can easily get in alamanda.Then at night went to F1 serdang.U see we have to eat a lot to calm ourselves for tomorrow's mock meeting.Since it have already been 2 years since i last did my presentation so i am currently dead nervous for tomorrow.Please please god don't let me go blank tomorrow...Anyway still happy with my pc....ngee .Oh btw...finally clean up my fan so best la nk tido...hihihi

Went out today to pcfair to buy my dvd-rw to replace my dvd player and cd-rw which are so screwed up.Yes my computer is falling apart.Can't wait to test them out but i have to first figure out how to installed it in....erk.Just now met up my parents who are now in kl because my dad have some kind of meeting i guess.U see I have always wondered how did i ended up growing up in total blurness.From school up to now ppl have always remembered me as the blur girl .Tonight i finally found my answers.I blamed it all in my genes .One such example: I was telling my dad and my bro about the F1 which i saw last weekend.(side note:How ironic it was as at that time i was eating in F1-the restaurant of course).Anyway I was telling them about this new indian driver and how i saw some of his supporters turn up at the game bringing the indian flag.Then my bro told me that this driver felt at home in malaysia since he saw lots of his supporters and anyway the travelling time between india-malaysia just ammount to 2 hoursMy mom obviously not interested in the conversation suddenly interrupted "2 jam pegi india naik kreta ek".The table suddenly went silent and burst into laughter.Aiyoyo mama camana la nak travel 2 jam pegi blk india naik kreta...balik penang pun 4 jam and in the case of last raya haji it took me 8 hours to travel from penang to kl.If from my mom's understanding we could travel to and fro india-malaysia for 2 times using the 8 hours .Hmm the students in india must have all the pleasure going back to their hometown despite studying abroad more than me huh.Another thing i discovered was my "peka-k" gene is also inherited from them.Trust me in my family 2 persons could be saying different things but the converation could still run smoothly.Yes definitely it's inherited......(Yeah i know i know about the genes inheritace..i took bio too.Just agree with me will u ).Anyway got to stick up to my plan on studying.ngee .nite blurry....

There's one thing that i just don't and won't get.Why does lizards or any kind of crawling insects love to be dead so near to me.It goes way back when i was in standard 3.... i remembered trying to grab my pencil or something i needed from my school bag and guess what i grabbed?A dead lizard.I grew up picking lots of other species of animals or insects which preferred to be dead when i found them.In my alpha year i found a lizard dead under my table..my beta year another one of its own dead next to my cpu and now and let me specify today i found a lizard dead in between the corners at my door.Now this is a tough one...we had to scrape the lizard and god that was disgusting.No I had nothing against lizards but i don't fancy the slimy being either.So please mr cicak and i'm begging please choose other place to die or commit suicide next time around.sankiu....

Tired....Hungry....Just spent 11 hours at sepang watching the F1.Takdela 11 hours tgk but the journey to and fro there adds up to the 11 hours la.Despite my tiredness i am honestly really excited of the thought being there.If only i get the tickets when i was in form 3 when all the craze for mika hakinen started...wow!!!*gleefully grinned* I still support mclaren mercedes although they are quite behind in the ranking for f1 but what the heck....kimi raikonen rawks.The thing that i loved most about f1 is when the drivers have to do their pit-stop..seeing all the mechanics work as fast as they can...coolness!!There were some action on the track when mark webber's and fischella's cars collide with each other.I think their cars were on the lead at that time.The action i had with patin not on the track was when we had to smuggle our tidbits inside since outside foods are not allowed there.But we had to since the food inside expensive giler.We were blessed to sit beside an uncle that looked so passionate for the game that it lifted our spirits.The not so fun part of today was that i had to walk approximately 5km to the main road to wait for the bus heading to klia.Imagine me walking 5 km..I took the public transport there to cut off some expences and because of my seat was quite far from the main road the shuttle bus was quite filled up when it reach my stop.So we decided to walk.. little that we know it gonna be that far.I get really worn out since the only things in my stomach are just water and twiggies.Takpela it burnt the calories i gained from the makan besar at hartz chicken yesterday.When we finally reach the bus stand it was so cramp up with human that it gonna be hard for me to wrestle with the rest of the matsalehs that's definitely bigger than me to board the bus.So we had to call up cik tinka to fetch us...sankiu darling.Anyway i had fun today despite emo sbb lapar.Loved ur company cik patin.Lets pray i'll get more free tickets from my acu next year.Amin..I know that it's not a big of deal for some of u but i went to watch f1 baybeeee....

I am currently really really down.it's not my intention to whine or whatsoever.That's not the reason I made this blog.It's just that it gets to the point that my mind are mostly filled up with thoughts of i'm going to fail and really that's not the best thing to think about.All the works i had done it seems wasted.My results are still as bad as ever.I really need to struggle for my final.One thing I found out about human being or maybe just me is that human could do anything in the world when they are desperate.I have thus used that theory....stressing myself to the max and thinking all the worst things that could happen if i were to fail.Please god let that theory works on me this time around.For a dear friend i know u had read this.....but again cheer up aite.ok I'm certainly not the best person in the world to cheer someone up .

Really can't wait for the 18-20th.I get 2 tickets from my aunt for the grand stand ticket for F1!!!!!!!!!!!First time dpt tgk F1...uisy berdebarnyer.Actually a lil' bit down and worried of my studies.sigh.For a friend who i know that who's having a hard time now and in a period of depression.....as long as u believe in god noone is lonely in this world.Think positive aite .(menggunakan blog spt ym sajer)

I wrote a long entry on last friday on sepet but the genius me closed the window before i submitted the entry so i don't feel like writing another one so here goes... my comment on the movie is that it's a good attempt for a malay movie.Though there's some scene that I didn't really understood but heck maybe i don't have an artistic mind.Went lepaking with my bro today.Gets my mind of things that's bothering me.Met up with my ex-schoolmate ena after so so long last night.It felt good to feel like a schoolgirl once more .Not much to write.Hope to clear off my mind.

I had a great morning....NOT.last night the whole house went out to A n W subang to celebrate myrra's birthday.Had a blast there despite our sleepiness.Came back home around 3 and only got to sleep at 4.Mind u I had lots of classes on thursday so i was kind of worn out.Decided to skip my math class and had a long sleep.Thanx to my neighbours next door the plan failed.I was wide awake angry and confused around 10 with norah jones song blasting as loud as it can .Considering I'm a deepsleeper just imagine how loud it had been.Went down to check wether it's one of my housemate's mp3.To my horror no it's not.Browse through my comp since I can't sleep then they decided to turn off the song.After thanking god went back to sleep.15 minutes later awoke by another track of norah jones.I mean GIMME A BREAK.it's not that i have anything against norah jones but today i have everything agains't her.who the hell cares wether u know or not about arghh whatever.This is referring to norah jones song don't know why.Now i'm wide awake.I mean HELLO Don't they ever heard an invention named headphone.Wow i'm so not a morning person .Going out with my beloved monkeyz to watch sepet.If it turned out to be nice gonna update the blog later in the evening.Till then pray that u don't have a neighbour like mine.Anyway Happy Bithday to the cutey myrra........praying for all the best things ahead of u.....*smooch*
~Bday girl 3rd frm left~

U know sometimes when u had gotten over something......but there's still some kind of different feeling when u took a look back at that something.It somehow felt suffocating and stabbing.When u had started pretending about something till the pretense get too normal u just can't stop pretending....so right now as long as the moment is on u had to keep on pretending the suffocating feeling is actually a happy one.Everyone does it once in a while at least once in their lifetime pretending to be in an emotion they are not.....in short i guess it's the human nature to keep pretending.Afterall i am to one's perception a perfect friend ain't I.
Crazy thoughts~keep it real~

Have u ever felt so so much want to turn back time to 1 hour or 20 minutes earlier from ur present time.I have this feeling now.The xm just now supposed to be an easy paper but just because of 1 simple thing that i had forgot to do it had cost me my passing mark for this paper.Not only that I'm not even confident about my assignment and lab report.aih down nyer.felt like dropping the subject.The worst thing is that I know about this just after I had submitted my paper.#%^($@*^$.aih(mengeluh).The only thing I'm thankful to right now is having such good listener like u patin who also bought me milo ice.sankiu.*mmmuahhhs*And also I'm sure u too cik pu3 if ur here.Now looking forward so much of the return of someone I really wanna meet.....Huda jusoh (aih sgt2 rindu).Arggh better get my mind off all these.Gonna go crazy soon.

Tired.Seriously I'm all drained out of energy.This week in particular had sucked out most of my energy.The week started with the preparation of my math exam which i actually didn't do.So i went to my math exam with knowledge of the chapter only 20% in my brain.It will be quite a miracle if i do pass the paper.After the exam I had to finished up my assignment and lab report of info theory.The lecturers wasn't much of a help but my oh so cute tutor...he's my lifesaver (cair cair) .I rushed with my assignment but only get to finished it up on friday which was yesterday with some help from a source.On thursday the whole house went for our bbq shopping and we bought 200 chickens and lots more in my menu.The bbq was great and lots of fun despite the kekalutan during and b4 the bbq.The bbq started at 8 and we get shooed from the bbq spot at 11 with lots more chicken to be grilled.The chickens are still in my fridge.So all the guests who was left went up to my house....the bad part is the guests had to help up brought all the stuffs up too.After the cleaning up....I only get to sleep at 3 and had to wake up at 7 for the cyber race.Although there were some conflicts at the places i'm on duty at but it's a fun event.
To all my guests for the bbq party thanx all for coming and hope u enjoyed yourself although ayam lambat masak and kene tolong bawak naik stuffs bbq and to those who i missed out on inviting i'm really really sorry .Maybe next time if i could host another bbq insyaAllah i hope i could invite everyone .Oh yeah if anyone wanted the photos for the bbq msg me kay...

~The host la beb~

Bored but lots of works to do.Difficult to breath.Is hot.Wish I'm not here.Boring entry I know.Shoutbox always down.Sigh.Haniz should stop sulking now.just heard peter pan's song mungkin nanti.......aih kecairan tahap maksimumnya dgn suara dia....sgt jatuh chenta although i have no idea how the band look like ish *drool*drool*

warghh sgt penat ....the food tasting went well i think.lots of ppl turn up and though there's not enough food for everyone but i hope those who came were happy with the foods.I could only manage to taste the sushi which is the section i'm handling.The guy at the customer service in sushi king was really nice.He treated us so well..Not much to write about.....For more pixies on the food tasting visit fatin's fotopage at http://eggtopia.fotopages.com/

Today I did something out of ordinary.Went for a jog at 6 with tinka,patin,mira and dina at cyberpark.Felt quite refresh after the jog.Then it's fun time .We played the swing,seesaw the slide and everything else at the playground there.huhuhu At least even though I just manage to go for one round there at least it's sumthing other than just sleeping at home.It's good enough for the beginning..yeah it's good enough

Word of the day by pa10: kecik kontang

semlm sgt fun ....muahahaha.Last night after having I can't remember how many plans the D-30-B manage to suprise the birthday girl....farahhhh.However it goes like a cartoon show la.We actually planned to suprise farah at the jambatan seri whatever at putrajaya.However by the time me,tinka n patin went out from our house it started raining.The rest of the housemates was alreasy at the bowling centre at alamanda.So after drama berlari2 di parking alamanda and main sorok2 behind farah's car....the birthday girl is suprised afterall after we sprung out and sing the bday song for her.yay.oh patin bawak sgt menakutkan semlm....cam naik roller coaster .Then we went to jambatan seri wawasan to eat the cakes...take photos and laugh..Went back to our house and took more photos .However it is..epi bday farah n hope u have loads of fun for ur coming days
~Bday girl in pink~              

Especially for my 2 darlings (tinka n patin):
100 plus n 7 up-sore throat,any kind of fever
coke,100 plus,pepsi-stomach pain
strepsils-sore throat
just trust on what ur drinking
Last but not least:
jgn kutuk org-sakit mulut
Sorry for the rest of u who's wondering what this entry is about....

Made a mistake on my last post by saying my trip back to penang on last aidiladha my longest trip ever within penang-kl since my longest trip (hopefully) was yesterday.I actually spent 8 and a half hours in the car.Believe me it wasn't fun.To make matters worse I currently have an ulser in my mouth thus making the hell of a time for me eating or drinking.Sight of me eating....HORRIBLE.I can only eat using one side of my mouth.It's so scary thinking of days ahead...lots of assignments,lab reports and exams in hand.How I wish I could skip the days to 9th March.And yet I'm right now updating a blog.

Currently:Lots of questions in mind
Head over heels with:any songs from KEANE

Erm another day wasted.Well I don't exactly think it's wasted but bcoz I'm not exactly studying so wasted la kot.Morning spent driving my mom to places and scared the hell out of her with my driving...ekeke .Afternoon went out to meet my dearest alma.Have a long chat with her over just a slice of cake and ice blended mocha.Didn't realised that we actually sat there for over 4 hours before walking around the complex feasting our eyes on the clothes and shoes.Aih dah broke window shopping la mampu.Then met up some more of my schoolfriends there.Baru jer jumpa but miss them like hell dah waaaa ..Planned up to have some picnic the next time all of us are back for holidays.I should study now but felt like watching simply irresistable.Last 2 days are spent helping out for the wedding of my uncle and aunt.2 weddings at the same time.Got really drained out by the end of the 2 days.Add up lotsa weight.Hope ppl will still recognised me...ekekek.Somehow today is like my keep-in-contact day.Some friends who haven't called for long suddenly called me.Or maybe today is the I-miss-Haniz day?ekeke .Prasan case.Anyhow I have fun today weee

Currently:missing everyone
Head over heels with:keane-somewhere only we know

Hmm I really got to do something about my memory.I am right now having 50%chance of wearing the same t-shirt I worn yesterday.When I took my shower today I hung the t-shirt that I worn yesterday and the one I should be wearing today side by side and they are both black.After my shower I spent 15 minutes trying to remember which of this t-shirt I should be wearing.haih.I ate a lot for the past few days as in I ate for almost every meal including tea time and supper.Hmm I should really stick to my resolution after this holiday.What's up with today..everyone was like angry or are they just angry at me....I have no idea .What the heck could i do in just one day anyway.Bomb their hometown?Thankfully I have a nice meal tonight .Would be very busy on this CNY.Have to go back to perak cause 2 of my relatives are getting married and I have to help out.There goes my plan to meet up my friends .I really can't get my head to concentrate on my notes.I have to really keep myself from anywhere near the tv.Watched down with love....cute cute...Really hope everyone could get over whatever i did...whatever it could be..sigh .how do i hurt anyone in any way possible?y am i so blur?

Done nothing much today except going back to my beloved penang.The haze are so thick here that I can't even see the island from the bridge...it was like vanished.I went to math class today just to go out of it 15 minutes later after signing the attendance....sigh.I'm just not in the mood to listen to lectures (padahal memanjang jer takde mood).After having my breakfast went to src room to make some call for the ccip.Double sigh...i waited a total of 40 minutes in there just to call a restaurant that won't pick up their bloody phone.Eventually i had to make the call from my hp.Now I'm the only one awake besides my bro who's out long ago.The sound of silence (ceyy) makes me to think about things that happen around this time 2 years ago.Sincerely at that time I was in a really happy state in short I'm in cloud 9.Geez... how much things have changed since then.In fact so much things have changed since a year ago.Some good others I can't bring myself to think about.Life goes on....Triple sigh.

P/S:feeling rather guilty about something

Smith Point-Escape
taking on the day
waiting to escape
the thoughts
that keep me here today
cutting back the time
waiting for your light
to show
and lead me through the day

*parts of the song that i currently head over heels with *

I'm in the lab for my info theory lab session.I'm bored and sleepy.Wanna dl YM but somehow i couldn't.How i wish I'm back at home now sleeping.Tinka is beside me drooling over james laffeti photo.Wanna take a photo of my tutor.He should be in this lab any minute now.*grinning*.cepatla abis lab dudududu

I figured out how to share my pixies on this blog yay!!Alright i didn't figured it out..someone taught me how..so thank U..i'm sure u gonna read this..so this is a pic of me n my bro

Today and every other thursdays for the rest of this semester will be the days i won't look forward to.I have 7 hours of classes and well for today i only have 6.I went to my tech comm class at 8 only to feel the regret of going there.I didn't have enough sleep the night before coz ants and some insects kept on destructing my sleep and as a result i was very very sleepy and have no idea what the lecturer was talking about.So as usual i escaped from that class to have my breakfast while waiting for the next class.For my 11 o'clock class as i fall asleep again while waiting for the lecturer; at about 11.10 he came in saying the class was canceled and he even asked why hadn't we checked the mmls.I think he actually thought every students have nothing to do than to sit in front of the comp all day long staring at the mmls site. Anyway i think he just uploaded the notice this morning since the class was quite filled up by the time he came.sigh.Since i'm taking the class alone well i was left alone then so i thought of going to the lib to sleep (yes..the only reason i go to the lib each time are just to sleep) but there were so many ppl in the lib that i felt forced to study.Thank god for the super duper cute tutor...he made my day and makes studying more fun hehehe (kecairan thap maksimum).After my 1 o'clock class i went to mc'd to have my lunch with my girls since the parking in campus was full.Alright i know this is a boring entry but this is my blog so deal with it.I have been thinking a lot lately and it's really bad.All the thoughts brought me down when i'm actually happy.so typical of me....

The last few days are so filled up with activities that I have forgotten some of them.To start off...I spent the longest time I've ever spent to go back to penang last thursday... 7 and a half hours!!imagine that...i could actually go back and forth penang-kl in 7 hours .I couldn't even sleep along the ride as I had to make sure that my bro didn't fall asleep.I surely don't want to spend my raya in hospital.Really pitied my bro but i didn't dare to take over the wheels as i have a bad eyesight at night.I was really bored in the car....however I should thank someone who constantly sms-ed me throughout my journey till I reach safely at home and go to bed.U know who U are...thank u.I thought of meeting my friends on friday but it turned out they were busy and i'm actually slightly relieved...don't think that i would have that much energy to entertain anyone.The next day I thought of not going to my raya prayers but hearing the takbir from the mosque very2 near to my place I thought what the heck..it's once a year anyway.So after my raya prayers I went back to perak to visit my grandpa's grave....God i really really miss him It turned out to be that day is exactly the 6-th year he's gone.One of the closest man in my life gone...Then I went back to my tok su's house.. also in perak.The road there was quite bumpy and i had a terrible headache but of course being me i managed to stuff in lots of food despite my headache.The next day I went to a bbq at the beach.Since my cousin was going to get engaged on sunday he rented a house near the beach as his now-fiance live near the beach house.And so I get to spend my time at the beach just gazing at one of my favourite thing...the sea.I didn't get that much chance nowadays to be so near to the sea...I mean unlike the time when i was in school.For those who don't know, my school is next to the sea and so i get to hear and smell the sea everyday for my entire 12 years in school.After the bbq i had to help with the making of the hantaran.I somehow couldn't believe my cousin actually get engaged and soon gonna be married.It felt like just yesterday that us cousins camped out at the beach and gazed at the stars together when i was small.Anyway that was basically what i did for the last few days...hope everyone have a wonderful time too

ahh...I finally could rest.Just finished my engine math 4 test..Tomorrow I'm going back to penang for raya.We get a few days off till tuesday.Well actually I have classes on monday but I could "accidentally" skip them.I'm really looking forward to go back since I haven't been back for exactly a month.Thought of meeting up with my ex-schoolmates when I'm back.I think I'm the only one in the group who have kept on m.i.a each time they made a reunion....lazy me..but since i made the resolution to keep in touch with my friends it's my obligation to fulfill it.For tomorrow I'm having 6 hours of classes.However, out of the 6 classes there's a class that I'm looking forward to attend...my info theory's tutorial class.Why?It's because of my tutor.This particular tutor is so so cute and he actually have 1 of the sweetest smile I saw in guys.To prove how cute he is there's actually a girl who attended 2 tutorials for that week conducted by him.Even when he told this girl that she could go home as he'll be teaching the same stuff the girl just stayed through out the class.Well actually I thought of doing the same thing too. When he asked some of the girls in my class for their names..some just smile and can't even say out their name..and yeah one of them is me.In case some of u wonder No I don't have a crush on my tutor.He's just an attraction of the class.An eye candy of a very boring info theory.Maybe it's a blessing in disguise for taking this subject.Talking about blessings...I thought of everything that had happened aroud me and thank God I found every hidden reaons of all these.For those reading this...have a good weekend.sigh I'm so hungry....

I'm feeling superbly relieved right now.It's like the weight from my shoulders have been lifted .The problems that have been bothering my mind and i put on hold have finally settled.I think I owe some people thousand of appologies....u know who u are.I'm not a perfect person but I am trying to improve myself.The beauty of what had happened is I learnt that when anything bothered u take actions right there and then...sit through it and solve it while it's still small.If I had done it much earlier,it wouldn't be this huge.It is afterall some misunderstandings that could have been settled so much earlier.Another thing just ignore the loud minorities or those who would love to see some drama and so created some by themselves to make other people fight with each other.Sigh and I only get to know this after 20 years living on this planet.Oh well tomorrow is another day and hell yeah I'm looking forward to it.Hmm never said that in such a long time...

Similar of other days in the life of haniz.....nothing much happens just lots of thinking.I get an sms from an old friend of mine and she told me how she misses me.now this friend of mine is among the one closest to me in my school years.since in school i'm an accidentprone she's just the same.we would bumped into the same accidents,we laughed on the same things,get angry over the same things, we shared our deepest thought on life n somehow she's one of the few people i considered a sister i never had.however being me i failed to keep in contact with her; my sister.Now today although it's a small gesture but this girl manage to make my day.it makes me felt good that at times when i felt so down and low there's someone out there wishing to see me and thought about me.ironic ain't it maybe at this date 4 or 5 years before i wish so much i could be free out of my parents control.ironic ain't it how a girl that have lots of care could felt that way.ironic ain't it how 4 or 5 years before i always wished i am 4 or 5 years older,ironic ain't it how i count my days to end my school years......ironic ain't it how i wish n wishing so hard my parents are here with me now,ironic ain't it how i wished i'm 4 or 5 years younger,ironic ain't it how i wished i'm back in the carefree days in school......ironic ain't it how much this feeling filled my mind now

Just came back from a movie with some friends.Watched kungfu hustle at sunway pyramid....giler lawak bodoh la.hehe but it manage to take my mind of things which happens lately.I've been eating nonstop from 9 o'clock..from anw to popcorn to some more food at this place which i don't think actually have a name around subang.got a long2 day tomorrow...lots of class but i plan to "overslept" through some of it.oh well tomorrow is just another day.

Woke up today feeling so down and confused...not really looking forward to face the days...felt like sleeping for a really really long time.I think i've been putting too much negativity in this blog lately.At times like this it somehow reminds me of someone who had a really special place in my heart and although hard to admit who i missed more than she will ever know.Somehow we've looked like enemies lately not even in talking terms.Well I know things changed a lot and so so different...nothing i could do to make things became the way it used to be unless we could turn back time.Whatever it is if u think u r this person and u read this though i highly doubt it erm..i guess there's nothing left to say just hi....

Went for a movie today with patin at one utama.yer itula namanya tak sedar dah broke tu nak jugak tgk movie .Went out after zohor since the movie only starts at 5.15.With the busy traffic and hardly no parking we only manage to have our lunch at 3 nearing to 4.Ate at yoshinoya a japanese fastfood restaurant.wiuwiu nice .Then went for a search for my pc-link cable for my hp.as usual lah biler nak cari tu mmg takkan ader nyer.Giler penat round round.After finally giving up went into the cinema for our show of bridget jones.wiuwiu beshhhhhh !!Looking around the cinema I could only see couples which I'm pretty sure the movie wasn't a choice of the bf and only a small number of guys around.That means a lot of ppl think it'a a chic type of movie.But man the movie is funny..even funnier than the first bridget jones.Everyone was laughing a lot and I'm sure everyone enjoyed the movie.Oh yeah a summary about the movie...well for those of u who watched the first bridget jones will know that she's now with mark darcy her bf who at first she detest.Now she's very happy, up to more embarassing moments and suspected mark darcy is now having an affair with his colleague...to makes matter worse her ex from the past the ultimate playboy david cleaver is back in town to seduce her....jeng jeng jeng...to know the ending watch it for yourself.Now watching the movie get me on thinking is there a guy single and available...well a mark darcy of real life out there...he's charming,sweet,accept his girl for who she is no matter how she looks like.I mean it's too perfect to be true.No offence to guys out there.I'm sure u all are fine too .Anyhow what I learnt from the movie is....nak mark darcy gakkk though I'm pretty sure the girl behind me who keeps on saying alaa sweetnyer will want him more than I do.Anyway have a good weekend guys.

Money money money lotsa money in the rich man's world

I'm officially soon-to-be broke or maybe already am one .I've been going out of my habit of going out lately and so in the end I found myself being the best of friends with the atm machine.My very big appetite lately have not been much of a help .I found myself constantly hungry even after 20 minutes after having my lunch or dinner .At the point of writing I felt that I could actually eat this keyboard.Tomorrow I'm going to a dinner organized by one of the club in mmu that I'm not a member of.Frankly I have so so many thoughts of this.Very big part of me don't feel that my oh so battered heart could actually stay through the dinner but what the heck I'm going anyway.Last 2 days i went through a very memorable book with my friends.Usually when we goes through these sentimental-like stuff such as a journal from the past,the card that we get from a friend u know the one which holds so much memory in it we found ourselves smiling remembering those time but this book ain't giving me those in short it's a very painful way of walking along memory lane.Enough with that.I finally get myself a proper bathroom in months.There are now light and a proper pipe.heavenness wee .The man who repaired the pipe asked me who changed the fluorescent light and the starter and I said it's me.The man sudenly get so ammused by that fact and somehow it looked like he would want to put it in ripley's believe it or not.I'm not sure whether I should felt flattered or insulted.Since I don't felt flattered it must have been the other.What do he actually thought girls are stupid?I'm not saying weak since my lil bow wow weigh more than the starter.Whatever.Anyway got a really loooong day tomorrow .Till then anyone wants to take me for free meal?anyone?comeone anyone will do.....hihihi

What a grrreat morning

Have I ever told u all how much I love my morning.I had just came back from my morning walk.For those who knows me would be wondering since I don't like exercising what am I talking about.Well here's the story; today I mean just now after struggling real hard to wake up for my 8 o'clock class I finally succeed.Then I went to my shower which pipe had just burst yesterday and had the most troublesome time bathing in one year.After that I went to a tutorial class which I found is empty and dark and I thought maybe the lecturer was late...I waited and waited and finally gave up and start to wander around foe and I found a lecturer who looked equally as lost as I am and so I followed him only to found he eventually went out of foe.So I waited outside the class I supposed to went into; then a fellow classmate came to me and asked about my class.. well I forget what's my tutorial section; after thinking hard she told me my class is cancelled.I don't even know whether to feel embarassed or tired or both or something more.I walked all the way home to found I forgot my key and I had to woke one of my housemate and waited for her to open the door for me.Now I'm leaving a few spaces in the bottom here in case I did something more stupid today...you might never know since it's just 8 o'clock.Till then love your morning as much as I love mine.....NOT!!ARGHH

Woke up quite late today.Went to hartamas square for dinner last night.Went there around 8.30 but just get to eat around 10 since we were going rounds to find the place where anding af2 went in one of the show in astro only to found out later it's actually the hartamas square .After dinner we thought of going into kl to look at the lights.What a good idea that was since we get stuck in traffic jam around bukit bintang area.I was so bored that I started to sms a lot of ppl from my list since my new year resolution is to keep in touch with my friends .Tried to take some pics on some of the ppl well mainly guys on the road too but failed since somehow they moved too fast.Reached home around 2 sumthing and raced with a cat that looked as if it wants to get into our home.Thinking what to have for lunch next....