20 January 2010, Wednesday
I'm loving you...
So deeply that it felt rather scary.
You were a stranger to me, and still is.
Yet, how beautiful it can be, to just indulge..
I'm loving your existence...
Whoever you might be...
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Life's rather complicated.
With comments around...
With sounding points made by others..
With no intention on rebutting...
Loaded - physically, mentally, emotionally..
Harboring negative energies...
Disrupting everyday's tasks...
Life's a little hard...
Trust it'll be better.
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Still, I'm loving your existence...
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
Psychology behind the choice of Toilet Cubicles
5 January 2010, Tuesday
To choose a toilet cubicle, one has to make the decision acccording to what kind of business he/she will be having for that particular time frame.
Seeing a row of 5 toilet cubicles made out of wooden partitions, with cleft in between them at the lower part of the partitions (where you can bend down and peep others if you are really desperate, or you can just slide your feet over to the other cubicles if you think it's fun having your colleague next to you doing business), i always ended up prefering one over another, often, with a good sense of choice.
The one nearest to the entrance is always for those 'quick' ones, while the one furthest (towards the end with solid wall beside you) is always for those who are dealing with big business, or 'secret' business (whatever it is)... on the other hand, those in between, doesn't really feel safe as both sides might be occupied by people at the same time thus your business should not be profound enough for people to realize you're next door (or colleagues should not recognize that you are in that cubicle for god's sake).
i know, i know, this is something that people wouldn't blog about after such of long time missing in action. But steph find it pretty interesting not to think about it... psych's still Steph's first choice...
Signing off...
To choose a toilet cubicle, one has to make the decision acccording to what kind of business he/she will be having for that particular time frame.
Seeing a row of 5 toilet cubicles made out of wooden partitions, with cleft in between them at the lower part of the partitions (where you can bend down and peep others if you are really desperate, or you can just slide your feet over to the other cubicles if you think it's fun having your colleague next to you doing business), i always ended up prefering one over another, often, with a good sense of choice.
The one nearest to the entrance is always for those 'quick' ones, while the one furthest (towards the end with solid wall beside you) is always for those who are dealing with big business, or 'secret' business (whatever it is)... on the other hand, those in between, doesn't really feel safe as both sides might be occupied by people at the same time thus your business should not be profound enough for people to realize you're next door (or colleagues should not recognize that you are in that cubicle for god's sake).
i know, i know, this is something that people wouldn't blog about after such of long time missing in action. But steph find it pretty interesting not to think about it... psych's still Steph's first choice...
Signing off...
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Alas, a positive view in my life
17 October 2009, Saturday
Preferences are so subjective.
I came to realize that things must not necessarily be done in such a way.
I stumbled upon the option of reacting in a way i never thought possible until i witness someone doing it.
I wondered off to my own world and dwelled in it too much, until reality hits me hard on my face.
There were a lot of things in me that i do not appreciate and ain't proud to have.
But i am glad that i am constantly exploring possibilities and occasionally realizing things that hadn't been within my consciousness for only-god-know's-how-long...
Simply said, I am loving & hating my job now.
Preferences are so subjective.
I came to realize that things must not necessarily be done in such a way.
I stumbled upon the option of reacting in a way i never thought possible until i witness someone doing it.
I wondered off to my own world and dwelled in it too much, until reality hits me hard on my face.
There were a lot of things in me that i do not appreciate and ain't proud to have.
But i am glad that i am constantly exploring possibilities and occasionally realizing things that hadn't been within my consciousness for only-god-know's-how-long...
Simply said, I am loving & hating my job now.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Work
29 July 2009, Wednesday
I GOT MY SALARY!
YAY!
*and my colleagues aren't so bad after all... It was just an ego defense system to say that they are evil and i am all saint.
WOOHOOO!
I GOT MY SALARY!
YAY!
*and my colleagues aren't so bad after all... It was just an ego defense system to say that they are evil and i am all saint.
WOOHOOO!
Thursday, July 09, 2009
working in MV
9th July 2009, Thursday
It's getting to the near end of the week... But there's nothing much to celebrate cos working in this department means hell at every end of the week... There will be Work-In-Progress (WIP) meeting every friday and thursday would be the day whereby all the colleagues will be very anxious and stressed, little things can get on their nerves easily.
today is the second thursday that i've been through. Nonetheless, i have to be stress a lil' too cos colleagues tend to be envious towards the stress-free me and will start pumping up some work/shit for me to do, eg cleaning someone's table. well, i do have a small presentation this coming WIP meeting and i guess i should wet my pants to show them how stress i am.
last WIP meeting was dramatic. no one would ever imagine how it went. Working in big corporate company sounded like a dream come true but reality struck- it was the other way round. you'll never be able to imagine how sarcastic, straight-forward, and insensitive your bosses are. they can scold you idiot straight on your face. they can isolate you and make you feel like hell. things are not as systematic and as organized as you thought a corporate company should be. there are a lot of bitches and dickies on the run to hook you up with some kind of fault.
of course, it was a culture shock for me. having the discipline to clock in puntually everyday also indicates that i have the tendency to clock out on time. you can't have the best of both worlds. but the fact that they do not understand how much effort i've put in to adjust to this new environment makes it harder for me as a new kid on the block. *BIG SIGH*
things hadn't been going on too well for me, with people constantly criticizing, double standard, being in an out-group, etc etc. I am tired yet i am confident that if i were to persist, i can gain a lot from here and move on.
signing off,
tan...
It's getting to the near end of the week... But there's nothing much to celebrate cos working in this department means hell at every end of the week... There will be Work-In-Progress (WIP) meeting every friday and thursday would be the day whereby all the colleagues will be very anxious and stressed, little things can get on their nerves easily.
today is the second thursday that i've been through. Nonetheless, i have to be stress a lil' too cos colleagues tend to be envious towards the stress-free me and will start pumping up some work/shit for me to do, eg cleaning someone's table. well, i do have a small presentation this coming WIP meeting and i guess i should wet my pants to show them how stress i am.
last WIP meeting was dramatic. no one would ever imagine how it went. Working in big corporate company sounded like a dream come true but reality struck- it was the other way round. you'll never be able to imagine how sarcastic, straight-forward, and insensitive your bosses are. they can scold you idiot straight on your face. they can isolate you and make you feel like hell. things are not as systematic and as organized as you thought a corporate company should be. there are a lot of bitches and dickies on the run to hook you up with some kind of fault.
of course, it was a culture shock for me. having the discipline to clock in puntually everyday also indicates that i have the tendency to clock out on time. you can't have the best of both worlds. but the fact that they do not understand how much effort i've put in to adjust to this new environment makes it harder for me as a new kid on the block. *BIG SIGH*
things hadn't been going on too well for me, with people constantly criticizing, double standard, being in an out-group, etc etc. I am tired yet i am confident that if i were to persist, i can gain a lot from here and move on.
signing off,
tan...
Thursday, July 02, 2009
sigh
2nd July 2009, Thursday
Working in MV wasn't something that i find interesting, at least it speaks for the first day...
I am an Intern, thus no induction program for me
no induction program simply means that i sit around waiting for people to guide me and give me some interesting work
however, people are just too damn busy preparing for the mega sales carnival
when people are busy indicates that i had nothing significant to do but to sit around and not be bothered
the uncertainties of what time i should be out for lunch, what time i should be heading home doesn't make me feel awesome working under a complete strange environment...
at least being a receptionist i am familiar with the settings and people and i know good enough that no one would bully me
some people over in that department gave me the first impression of "u-better-respect-me-cause-i-am-an-egoistic-asshole"
so yeah, that comcludes my first day of MV working experience.
ain't gonna give me any motivation to head to work..
Working in MV wasn't something that i find interesting, at least it speaks for the first day...
I am an Intern, thus no induction program for me
no induction program simply means that i sit around waiting for people to guide me and give me some interesting work
however, people are just too damn busy preparing for the mega sales carnival
when people are busy indicates that i had nothing significant to do but to sit around and not be bothered
the uncertainties of what time i should be out for lunch, what time i should be heading home doesn't make me feel awesome working under a complete strange environment...
at least being a receptionist i am familiar with the settings and people and i know good enough that no one would bully me
some people over in that department gave me the first impression of "u-better-respect-me-cause-i-am-an-egoistic-asshole"
so yeah, that comcludes my first day of MV working experience.
ain't gonna give me any motivation to head to work..
Monday, June 15, 2009
15th June 2009, Monday
I am very lazy lah!!!!
*chinaman accent
lazy to update all the sites that i am affiliated with...
i updated facebook with photos, and lazy to update my blog...
i updated the both, i am ignorant towards friendster now...
i am super lazy to update everything at the same time because i am lazy of repetitive work and isn't it redundant to do both?
i am assuming ppl reading my blog would have my facebook account...
fb acct: private_cg@yahoo.com
so yea, i am super lazy now...
why la?????????/
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By the way...
Happy father's day!
to no one...
all these while, wishes sent were not received.
thank you's received were not genuine.
so yea,
happy father's day
to no one.
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prom's on the way...
hair got haywired...
kinda ugly looking...
and color faded...
no thoughts as to what to wear...
not planning to shop for one...
not enough income for a grand me...
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sigh...
i'm down low...
i guess, cos it's monday...
I am very lazy lah!!!!
*chinaman accent
lazy to update all the sites that i am affiliated with...
i updated facebook with photos, and lazy to update my blog...
i updated the both, i am ignorant towards friendster now...
i am super lazy to update everything at the same time because i am lazy of repetitive work and isn't it redundant to do both?
i am assuming ppl reading my blog would have my facebook account...
fb acct: private_cg@yahoo.com
so yea, i am super lazy now...
why la?????????/
.....................................................
By the way...
Happy father's day!
to no one...
all these while, wishes sent were not received.
thank you's received were not genuine.
so yea,
happy father's day
to no one.
......................................................
prom's on the way...
hair got haywired...
kinda ugly looking...
and color faded...
no thoughts as to what to wear...
not planning to shop for one...
not enough income for a grand me...
......................................................
sigh...
i'm down low...
i guess, cos it's monday...
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