Blog is now re-open!

Gosh, it has been a year since I last update my blog. Last post before abandoning my blog was my friend's wedding, which now seems like ages ago!!!

Within one year, many things have happened which I were not blogging here. One main big change is I have gotten FAT!! My appetite seems to pick up much faster than my metabolism and hence causing me to grow sideways. T.T I am always hearing fat jokes about myself now T.T

Anyway, it is decided to "re-fill" my blogs with thoughts, pictures, ramblings..... Please do come by often ;)

Congratulations~

I went for my ex-colleague (which I now consider as a friend) wedding recently. It is something that I will not miss as it is the opportunity to meet up with the rest of my 'family'.


The wedding was a nice one with almost everyone from office is there. I got to meet up with the rest again. Honestly, while I am sitting there surrounded with other KM members, it felt like I never left. It felt like home. The deja vu feeling was so strong I was stunned for some times. It does feel like I'm going to meet them again the next day for work.

Do I regret leaving? No...

Do I miss them? Hell yeah...

But this is life, isn't it? To move on and progress, you have to leave something behind. It's the price you have to pay..

I do not know how this post can suddenly turn emo-ish.. Lol.. Anyway, if my stalker ever read this, WISH YOU CONGRATULATIONS AND MAY YOUR LOVE BE FOREVERLASTING! :-D

No more coffee?

I have been told to stay off coffee for the whole month to see if it helps my insomnia... Been having a hard time to sleep, or sometimes it would be sleep and then wakes up at 3-4am, and not able to fall back to sleep until 6am... And I end up going to work looking like a zombie, and soon filling my blood with caffeine . Which then probably caused me to not able to sleep well at night.. And the cycle continues...

Hence for now, I sworn to be caffeine-free and say bye bye to my beloved coffee *sob sob* 

Bye bye Starbucks coffee! =(

Tata Coffee Bean coffee~ T.T

Sayonara Chilla Cup coffee *choke*

Astalavista San Francisco coffee~ =(

A little pour

A lot of things happened in my life... Sometimes more downs than ups, that it hurts like crazy inside.. When i was in uni, i had awesome roommates and awesome friend that are always there, and never get bored to hear me pour my heart... It's not like they suddenly disappear in my life now, but with our busy schedule, we normally can meet almost only once a month..And you definitely do not want to bring sad stories to happy gathering.. Of cox there is msn, handphone, whatsapp, but it ain't the same with sitting on the same bed, hugging a pillow each, cry if we feel the urge to as we pillow talk the whole night till we felt better...

These days i know im more easily irritated and occasionally (or as someone mentioned, always) irrational... But that is because i just keep on keeping everything inside and it is driving me nuts.. People i love the most are the ones that hurt me the most too...  Maybe what my uncle/aunty said is true.. Maybe i need to chant more to overcome all my obstacles and give me the courage and wisdom to choose my right future..

My grandma just passed away... Eventhough we are not the closest grandchildren to her, it was still a loss. But i chose not to mourn, because i know she had suffer terribly for the last 2 months, and at least now she no longer need to feel the pain. We sent her off in a simple way as she had never wanted all those "tong chang, tong chang" sounds and hassle.. And tommorow will be a bright new day...

Bukit Tabur~

Finally, we conquered Bukit Tabur~

We left house at 4.30am towards Wangsa Maju as we picked up friends along the way. By the time we reached Taman Melawati, it was already 6am.. Since it was the first time here for everyone, we did not know where was the starting trail eventhough we can see the hill. Asked around, walked around, we almost gave up finding the starting point. About 6.30+am only did we finally found the right place and we straight trekked up the hill.. It wasn't an easy climb especially for someone as unfit as me, but i keep pushing on to catch up with the others. Some parts of the trail are actually quite dangerous but the view from up there (not even the peak yet) was already breathtaking.

I'm not going to blog much bout the trekking but rather show you the pictures =)

Eventhough the trekking was tiring as hell, at the end of the day, it was all worth it =)

Bloggie with Sisters~

Created a new blog with my sisters for quite awhile but I just posted something there for the first time *After being bugged by my younger sis countless of times* =P

So if there is anyone who is following this blog at the moment *Anyone?? At all???!*, do check out that blog   http://mar-jo-lene.blogspot.com as my sis had sworn to update every week. *Hehe*

Anywayz, that's all for now.. Happy Weekend and Happy Monday, peeps!!

Btw, don't miss the Spain vs Italy Euro 2012 tonight!! I'm a Germany supporter but since Germany is not in Final, i shall half-heartedly support Spain ;P 

stop counting down

As the days approaching nearer, i started to feel uncomfortable.. scared even.. I don't know how to say goodbye, i don't know if i could.. It had become like a big family, i even have a big bro..

It doesnt matter that the time together isn't long, but the impact is already there... Each and everyone of them has left a footprint in my heart and time will tell if it's permanent or not..

Im a sucker at goodbyes, im really am... People will say this is part of growing up and moving on, and probably one day i really wont be talking to some of them anymore, the thought of letting it be that way is depressing..

But in the end, it is really about moving on.... and this time im sure, i will stil be having dinner with some of them 5yrs from now...

To black heart...

Why is your heart so black?
Does it make you happy to mentally torture someone?
Does it gives u a thrill to see someone cry?
Is it satisfory and delightful?