Super long never blog already... really miss blogging... now i also dun know where to start. Just within like one month, so many things ve happened in life and so many learning and reflecting areas and points in my life.

Think I shall start a brief summary about my holidays after my exams. Straight after my exams, I went tioman beach for a three days and two nights trip. It was a truely beautiful and amazing beach with clear waters and amazing coral reefs, full of various marine creatures and corals. When I looked at the beach: the clear sand, clear blue waters that seem to integrate with the sky and fishes of various colours and sizes, I was amazed. These r God's creation and they r so beautiful and amazing. If there was no God, who could ever create such a combination of beauty and wonder. I really stand in awe in the presence of God and His creation. Simply breath-taking and beautiful.

After I came back from the Tioman trip, I had cg farewell dinner and the next day NUS farewell chalet. haha... Think I had lots to learn from the farewell dinner. Firstly, be sensitive and understanding to the needs of various bros and sisters within the family and be flexible :) A cg comprises of God's children from all walks of life, with different upbringing and family background, with different needs, different likes and dislikes, different hobbies and preferences. Although we r so different, on thing is common: We ve been saved and we are God's children; all of us make up His body. The dinner was quite good haha... just to make jit drool I saw describe the food :) hee...

Soup: Beef, potatoes, tomatoes, carrot, onion and we boiled for almost 4 hours, so the soup was rather tasty.
appetizer: frozen watermelon and honey dew with lemon sauce
main course: Chicken with cheese and fresh mushroom and red wine sauce
side dish: baked tomatoes with cheese and baked rice with bananas, cheese and icing sugar.
dessert: ice-cream with fried wanton skin and icing sugar
drink: iced lemonade
sharing dessert: chocolate fondue with fruits

haha.. sound so good rite? The recipe was contributed by robert and improvished and prepared by our Cg :) haha... With great thanks to robert and everyone in the CG who made this farewell possible

We had a good time of sharing whereby we talked about the needs of our cg and ways to improve. What we hope to see in the cg and how we can achieve it. Think it was really a good time of opening of hearts and sharing lives. To sum everything up: think everyone really desire to see our cg bond together and really share life together, whereby we trust each other and serve God together and do greater things for Him. Although we were super tired, shared till morning 4am i think, guess it was really a fulfil time :) Those we were graduating n moving on, also shared abt their plans for their future and wat do they hope to see in their walk with God. haha... i hope i got all these right :) cant really rem, just vague memories of that night :) hee... tt's e reason y it is so impt to blog and keep track of all the ups and downs in your life. While ups r to bless us, downs ll build us in char and our trust and faith in God. Without trials and downs in life, our walk with God will not be a true christian walk already ;)

The next day we had NUS farewell chalet. It was a good time of fellowshiping and building r/s with ppl. Really ll miss those who ve graduated. Its really weird tt i ve only known them for a few months since 24th dec, but e r/s we ve built is very different from any past r/s i ve had with ppl in e past. Its abt trust n faith in each other. Think the crucial factor is that God is in the centre of our life and r/s, tt's e reason why our r/s is beyond the surface kind of ve fun r/s, but we care and love the children of God, cause He loves them too :) Think I ll truely miss those who always nag and scold me... haha... think i dun ve to mention names sia. dun wanna make them pai seh (Geeeee). Though a bit bu ser de... but God has other n greater plans for them, plans to prosper them and not to harm them...

After the chalet, I went stra to Hong Kong. I was there for 12 days and I stayed at my aunt's place. They were so hospitable tt I felt indebted to them. They r not very well-to-do but because i went there, they spent so much money and ever bought gifts for my family. I was truely at a loss about how to show my gratitude towards them and to repay their kindness, in the end, i wrote them cards to thank them. At first I was truely worried and bothered by their kindness and was drown in the negative feeling of indebt and was feeling lost. Experience these feelings during the last few days of my trip and I truely experience God's love and grace towards His children. During the initial part of my trip, I didn't really seek God and wasn't really faithful. But wen I was really down and I prayed and came into His presence. Asking Him for guidance and peace of heart and mind. I felt at peace and refreshed. During this period, I learnt to rely on God more and to treat God as a personal frien and guidance. I found myself talkin to him like a childhood imaginary frien, but this time round, He is real in my life and He is living :) I realised tt i can seek God and come into His presence not only in prayer but anywhere and anytime :) God is omipresent omipotent :)

From this Hong Kong trip, God revealed to me two areas of my weaknesses which He wants me to grow in (Self-control and gentleness). I really lost self-control in Hk, shopping like crazy n spending every single cent i ve until i was empty, this never happened b4 wen i was in s'pore, but think God revealed to me during my overseas trip tt i truely lack self-control. The other area is gentleness cause of the way i reacted to situations.

After i returned from Hk, was the teritary camp. one thing after another, thank god my mum didn't give me a hard time n was still rather understanding :)

Aims of tertiary camp:
1) grow in self-control and gentleness
2) pray for a vision of my purpose in this ministry and cg
3) cg to bond and build up our trust in each other
4) guidance from God on friens whom i m sowing on
5) praying for matriculation and alpha
6) Experience God and be ministered by Him

Plans for this holi:
1)Growth in biblical wisdom (read case for christ and finish new testimony)
2) spiritual growth(God's outrageous claims, fasting on choc and beef until alpha ends)
3) commit myself and pray for friens whom i m sowing on and freshmen who r comin in
4) learn guitar
5) try out dance :) (This is still under construction, whereby i m still praying and seekin God for guidance in this area)

Think i shall end here 1st and continue another day.. i m so tired already. hee... the next time i blog will be on the camp itself, my studies and my parents :) haha... this is actually to remind myself wat to blog e next time, i m rather absent-minded. hee... bye bloggie... nitey

Was reminded of this verse: Trust in the Lord your God with all ur heart and He will make ur path straight. Yes indeed... He will make our paths straight... for God so loved the world ttt He gave his 1 n only son....

 

Signing off at 11:46 PM

My first birthday as a christian, with God in my life and with a whole group of family... How do i feel? I feel super duper blessed... Had my pre-birthday celebration on saturday,22/04/06. I thot it was a celebration for eugene's birthday...

We had dinner together as a unit, after dinner everyone got up and our hosts of the night was jitsy and flince. They said we r playin a game (obviously is a birthday cel lah :)) Then jit said eugene needs a partner, an assistant for the game. I was standing on one side, just lookin on, when suddenly zhu shouted my name and asked me to be his partner. I was like huh? Ai yoz... y sabo me again... hee.

So I went up and the game was to blind-fold me with a piece of cloth. I was suppose to reach my hand into a cup of water with unknown substance and eugene was suppose to describe the 'things' to me, so I can guess what is it. Ai yoz... they ah... kept scaring me... kept saying... got lizard, so discussing, whats tt spiky and disgusting-looking thingy. I was rather fearful... haha... they sound so convincing, i almose thot realli ve lizard sia.. :) Btw.. the theme of the game was based on our baptism name. Mine is petrina and I am suppose to be quiet thru out the game, cannot shout, ve to be calm while eugene's char is supposed to be v systematic and describe the objects to me in detail.. haha i think its st like tt, it has been 2 weeks ago liao...

The 1st item was a rubber octopus, the 2nd item was a scrub and the third was a fermented tofu and the last was a choc cake... haha

I didn't suspect anything, was just playin along with the game, it was till the last item (the choc cake), when they placed it in front of me and i could smell the aroma of the choc cake that got me thinkin (this could be my bday cel and I have been tricked)...

Haha... very surprised and v happy too :) I think they were v successful, cause I realli didn't suspect anything. haha...

After tt was e affirmation part... Huichun was e 1st to affirm me and I was realli touched by her words. She act rem things tt happened so long ago and I didn't think she ll gof much thot to it...

haha... Dun wanna go into details here lai... but was realli touched by their words... I thot I was too noisy n irritatin at times (cause too noisy and loud), but felt v touched wen they affirmed me n said I brought them joy... haha... didn't expect to hear this...Flince words were e funniest, realli didn't expect tt from him... He said I warm his heart but hurt his ears... haha... wat a way to put it in... This is realli a very meaningful birthday, v unlike e past bday celebrations i had for 19 yrs. Every yr was just gathering, ve fun and tok lots of crap :) But this yr was v meaningful and I could feel God's presence and His love thru His people...

On my bday itself, I was so surprised and touched... Winnie and guan rui actually baked a cake for me... It was still exam period and winnie still had one more paper to go... but they baked a cake for me! was really truly touched by their effort and display of love for me. I totally had no idea and was truly surprised wen I saw e cake at e door and they started singing happy birthday :) Wow.. amazing... feel so blessed, I was speechless for words.. haha... (hmm.. how to describe the cake ah?) The was a two-layered sponge cake with cream in between the two layers and on top, with mango in between and peach on top of the cake. the cake was then drizzled with a sauce... haha... cant rem wat it was liao. But the cake was delicious... haha... as long as is Winnie bake 1, e cake ll taste fantastic sia... haha...

After tt, they made me perform a song... so i got my follow-upers (jit and ah jia) to pei me.. haha.. we did "I love you Jesus" with action some more.. haha... it was fun!!!

Btw.. I didn't study tt day at all... was too excited and restless, cause my bday.. haha...

Oh ya... robert made me Choc foundue with marshmallow and it was delicious... haha...

A big thanks to all my bros and sisters... this has been the most meaning bday cel... Realli feel v blessed and touched by ur love for me despite the flaws I ve :) Life is truly different, meaningful, beautiful and wonderful with God being in the centre of our life:)

Hmm... now is time for my bday wishes:
1) Pray that I will be able to share Christ with my aunt and Grandma, during my trip to hongkong and tt they ll be touched by His love for them.

2) For my CAP score to maintain at 3.9 or improve. Feelin rather stressed at times, cause mummy will keep reminding me: wanna c how great ur God is, so busy with church stuff den neglect ur studies.. wanna c if ur grades got deprove. Found it rather hard to explain to her and make her understand, to her my studies is the most important thing now, cause I am a student, wats else is impt other than studies? But... to me... serving God and a life with God in the centre is the most important thing and amazing...

3) Pray for me to mature in wisdom and my character... 20 this year already, wanna c a growth in me and a sense of maturity in me :) ve not been able to out-grow my childish ways of reliance on man and my demanding and unreasonable personality. But I believe that, with God in my life, He will mold me into the person I was created and with His strength, I will be able to grow and learn to relie on Him more... :)

4) Wanna learn how to play the guitar... Aim to learn the basic by this holiday. GG to get a guitar wen i come back from hong kong :) The reason I wanna learn how to play a guitar is because I realise this is a truly amazing and wonderful way to praise God. I realised this during the exam period. Now, whenever I wanna praise God, always need to get jit to play e guitar... haha... its not tt without the guitar i cant praise God... It's just a v wonderful feelin to play and sing to God... haha.. dun know how to describe also...

tt's all for my bday wishes :) haha... so long never write in my blog already... still ve so much to write.. Hopefully i can rem all of e things i wanna write in here :)

 

Signing off at 8:37 AM