Selamat Pengantin Baru, Farahanis!

This is a little late but never too late for me to post it here.

Farahanis is my classmate from primary school. Heheheh! I use to envy her a lot. Those days, everyone was crazy over "pemadam wangi" and  "biji-biji wangi". And also that ruler with liquid acrylic and fancy floater inside. She had all these stationery stuffs. Mana aku tak jealous. But that was me back in year one. Hehehe.

Oh well, it was once again a good time. Old buddies are there. :') One of my two pregnant friends couldn't make it. She was about to give birth, I assume. :O and Ieka mentioned her pregnancy due date is around early February! Wow...

Here are some photos I managed to steal from friends' FB. kekekeke! :P

Pssst. Notice my Baju Kurung. This is my own second Baju Kurung. :D Tailoring by Afiqah's mum! :)

Anddddddd,

back to November 11, 2012 : I followed Joe's family to Negeri Sembilan for his 5th brother's wedding with Nurul. I really like Nurul. She is friendly and fun to chit chat with :)

Hahaha! We were actually forced to sit there. Then, one of Joe's aunt was not happy about this and I only found out after the function. Yerla, belum kahwin, where can simply sit on the pelamin. Couldn't sit there for long, after few seconds, I quickly get up. Malu!!! Hahahahaha! but worth sharing here. Tengoklah muka-muka orang cover malu. XD

Next wedding please.

Insecurity is a bitch

She is beautiful, smart, and religious.
She is a perfect Malay girl in his eyes.
He claimed that she is the type that can make a mother-in-law happy.
She is placed in such a high level of perfection in his point-of-view.
That's why he felt like he is not good enough for her.

This is past. but he still thinks the same of her.

It breaks my heart and my self-confidence.

What am I then?

He is not careful with his words.
He never really say a thing about me. I feel so low.
Maybe I'm someone who is easy-to-get.
I know how bad I looked like right now.
Just an average face. Just a short and plump person.

It hurts a lot. I don't know how to fix this feelings.
He is not capable of doing anything about this.
He even scolded me...maybe he doesn't know how I feel.

It is not his fault.
I'm the one to be blamed.
Sensitive and not perfect like her.

What a bad start of 2013 for me.

It hurts...