An update

Fine midnight- I think is time for a brief update on my holiday life I'm having ever since last month. It's real fast I would say since it's going to end this week. I have mixed feelings for this to end since it basically means school starting which is good yet it also mean money needed for tuition fees.

The whole holiday I've worked in some local cafe as a waitress for about a week before I went to work in an event company whereby I learned a lot of things I would say,compiling list, making numerous of phone calls, tabulation, and more ! I even got to attend some good events like giving out tickets for some movie screening, Raymond Lam's concert, and Astro Star Quest. All these somehow has made my holiday become a little less dull and the most important thing was I got to work with my significant someone. I think it would be not-so-fun if he is not around to tease me a bit, go lunch with me, buy me breakfast and my favourite guava, and so much more !

Well people could certainly think all sorts of things when I'm in a relationship with a guy totally come from a different background, but I, myself see this as a very good chance to see how far can we go. This is not a bet, it's just something I would like to maintain until changes need to be made. Doesn't that sounds familiar? =)


Anyway, school is starting and I already can imagine the amount of workload I'm going to have. I'm gonna miss this 'long holiday'.

Happy new year everyone ! May you guys & girls out there have a wonderful year ahead ~ Grab the positive opportunities that pass by you as it may only pass by ONCE.

Holiday

Cloudy noon- Holiday for weeks already and basically didn't have much fun besides staying at home in front of the desktop and grow 'mushroom'. Occasionally going out with my sweetheart and that's basically the most fun I could have. Just got back from Viet yesterday and today night got to work already. I feel so lost mentally nowadays especially this coming weekend where I got to work in Jusco Cheras Selatan. Sometimes I just don't understand how can disorganize manage to survive on this earth ! I don't meant to offend anyone I just feel unease when I got to work with those people. Perhaps I just have to strengthen my adaptability level in order to get the most out of it.

I think is going to rain soon since I heard loud thundering sound. And I don't know what I got to do in this 7 hours before my work starts. I got a random thought sometimes wondering when a person tell you s/he loves you, do s/he really meant it? A big question mark here and there. In the latest trip to Viet, it makes me think that marriage and giving birth are really like a set of gamble session where you just put everything in and it could turn out to be a really good or bad one. *grins* Well all this kind of random feeling do come once in a while especially when I miss somebody ! Have a nice day people ! =)

Bored Saturday

Fine night- Holiday officially started last Saturday 4pm since that was the time I sit for my last paper. And the very next day I went out with my special one already. Well days passed and I just went for an interview at Captivate yesterday. Everything goes pretty well I would say and I got to call in on next Wednesday to check on my status. Seriously I've been a little worried to start work again in C Beach cafe. It's been a while since I last worked as a waitress and God knows what clumsy stuff I would do on the very first day.

Long holiday seems to be bored. I found that it was a little sarcastic when my closed one said so. Well I think I need to figure out something to fix it. People tend to say I can't pick up hints and yet they're giving me way too much but why not just throw it right in front of me? It's better to be sad for once than being tortured mentally. And people worry I might not accept it but instead of worrying then why not talk to me? It's been so tired to get ignored and yeah I am a really sensitive person, so what? I am just who I am and I don't understand why no one is willing to tell what's wrong with me. Just keep on saying 'I've changed", 'I don't understand' wouldn't help a single thing at all. Instead all that will just make me more miserable and screwed up. I think I just got to take the fact that people comes and goes.

Am I starting to get 'blind' or what? I become more and more less aware who's trying to play a game with me. Or I'm just too tired to even care of who's doing so? No point of reminiscing old time when it bring so much pain ! I love you all who stay with me when I needed you all the most. God bless you all !

First paper

Cloudy afternoon- Well tomorrow is my first paper for final for this semester. Time flies though. It was like so short ! I entered class on the first day of last month like some nerd since I got no friends or companions to talk to. The moment I stepped into the class, I was like 'Yeah I'm in the class and everyone take a short glance of me'. Oh come on, Soo Jin is not that shy type but still they make me feel awkward. So all I did was putting a grin on my face.

As of now, I'm much more bubbly in the class..Have a bunch of new friends which is so nice to me..I guess I just love to meet new people regardless of their races or background. It's so fun getting to know people's culture and stuff. Though I took 3 subjects this semester it's not that pressurized since 2 of it is about language. English and German. Well for English it's not exempted as this time it's equivalent to IETLS 6.0 so I must take it before doing my other degree subjects. As for German language, I think it's so fun ! At least now I have a little knowledge in German instead of zero knowledge before this.

Initially I am suppose to continue preparing notes for Saturday paper but the weather really makes me feel so sleepy. Too bad, I think I'm going to continue later with the notes later on ! *giggles*

Have a nice day everyone! Good luck for those who are sitting for finals !

Is that normal to feel so..?

Fine night- I was so happy last night when I'm having dinner but today I don't feel the same after my dinner. Got to know that I'll have a new roomie next semester. Though I've seen this coming but I didn't realized that I would be this sad/down. I have thousand of reasons to console myself but the truth is often more cruel than we could think of. Seriously got so distracted and lost concentration with my assignments.

Fabulous trip !

Fine night- Just came back on the 28th Aug from China. The trip was pretty fun indeed. As usual meeting new people, going great places to relax, and having good food as well ! Basically I was doing the same thing every day but in a different place. Got the chance to go spa, reflexology, manicure & pedicure, karaoke, night club and clubs. All I can say is never underestimate what the China people can do ! I'm fortunate to go to the places whereby the way they serve the customer is superb. Looking forward to go back when I'm allow to. So sorry people I can't upload any photos in the blog as the connection back in my hostel is too slow ! feel free to check out my Facebook for the pictures but can 't promised when I'll be finish uploading.

I just enrolled myself into International Business for degree level. Is pretty bad to hear various comments from third party regarding this course. I'm starting to doubt the decision that I made but still I still hope I can pull it through. Gosh I'm taking law again in this semester. God bless me ! It sounds so much harder with the one I did in Diploma. Well I'm thinking what else to update here. Guess that's all for now. Have a nice day people.

As promised !

Fine night- I'll update my blog today so here I come. I'm officially on holiday now. Though there are only 2 weeks I'm sure I'll fully utilize it. My final examinations which had ended on 13 Aug 2009 has definitely been remarkable to me as it was not any usual final papers it was the four last papers that I'm sitting for to graduate in Diploma for Business Administration. Though people may not agree with the major I chose for degree but I think I'll probably will be good in it. Just hope my decision to major in International Business won't be a huge mistake. *grins* Through my personality, strengths and weaknesses I think International Business will suit me the best as compare to any other majors available in Degree courses.


The post that had been delayed for quite some time was the charity performance on 1st of Aug. It was quite successful I presumed ! I was so worried as I didn't attend the stage rehearsal since I'm away for the Sabah short trip. It caused me to have few days of insomnia before the performance. I even started to feel no energy at the moment I'm stepping on the stage for my first number for the night. It was really nerve wrecking but I think all of us managed to pull it through and did a great job.
So let the pictures do the talking.




Sister and Mum !






Me and Mandy ~



Final pose for Safari Dance~



Umbrella (spot me ! ) =P



Michael Jackson (Beat It)



Superb Teacher Celeste(Middle)



MJ of the night ! (Yim Wai Lup)














ME and RACHO !



SMELLY ~~



Candid ~

P/s: More pictures are available in my FB

Upcoming post should be trip to China ! =)

Fun trip !

Cold night- I just came back from Sabah yesterday. Well well the plane got delayed for about an hour due to the weather. When I reached hostel it was already 9.30pm. This trip was really fun as in there are great people, good food, and fantastic beaches. Though I didn't went down the sea for snorkeling but just stay on the sandy beaches were worth enough ! The first day when we reached KK International Airport we were picked up by Sam, Ming and Hing and we sit in the car for next 2 hours to get to Kuala Penyu. The first impression when I saw the condition of that place, I was wondering, 'What? Are we really going to stay in here?'.. *giggles* But got really used to it an hour or two after that and the scenery from the deck is really relaxing ! That night was really a fun night with games that are real funny and the dinner was awesome since it were like home cooked dishes.

The second day we went down to Labuan for duty free merchandises. Around 4.30pm we're leaving to Klias river for fire flies and proboscis monkeys. Proboscis monkeys are monkeys with a large fleshy nose. Well pictures taken with my camera were not clear since we are too far away from the monkeys. That day Ah Fook (main chef) was barbecuing chicken wings, squids, hot dogs, and so many more as our dinner. Seriously I was way too busy enjoying the food and I forgot to take a picture of it. *grins*

The third day we were leaving Kuala Penyu and headed to KK city. We are staying in a service apartment. There was a sense of relieved when I reached the condominium ! But I still misses Kuala Penyu for it's simple and basic environment. We rest for a little while and we headed out to a restaurant for seafood. After dinner, we went to a local supermarket to get some mineral water, chips, serviettes and some other necessary stuffs. We went to a local bar for a drink but I forgot what's the name of that bar. An hour after that we went to another bar for live band. This bar I could remember the name since it was a little funny, Cock and Bull.

The fourth day of our trip we went to Manukan Island. We went to the jetty around 10am and reaches there around 10.15am so we could board on the 10.30am boat to the island. We reached the island around 11am and we left around 3.45pm. The island has clear water but the sand is not that good though ! It hurts my feet ! We went back to condominium to bathe and get ready for dinner. This time we went down to another restaurant nearby Sam's house for seafood dinner too. Not bad overall at least cheaper than the restaurant near KK city. After that as usual we went to RED, mixture of pub and disco whereby they got a live band over there. Seriously, their singing ain't that bad but due to they're screaming most of the time it made it sounded a little too over.

The fifth day we went to Mamuntik Island. This island is so much smaller than Manukan Island. The sand is better than Manukan Island but there are a lot of corals nearby the shore which made my feet pain too ! Me, Uncle Wah, bro-in-law, and my sister went for jet ski ! It was fun if the waves were not that high. It was a little scary at the same time since I worry I might Just fell off when Uncle Wah drift across the waves. But lucky enough I'm safe and sound throughout the whole skiing process...! Went back to the beach half an hour after that and munch on some sandwiches that my mom made and some duck meat that Ming packed nearby his house.
We went back quite early this time for seafood in Salut and sunset in Nexus Resort.
Night time we went down to FireFly a newly opened bar for a drink ! That night was the last night we had fun ! The club in Sabah is way much different than KL clubs.

The last day I woke up around 9am since my lovely mom woke me up to PACK MY OWN STUFF ! After she woke me up only she asked, by the way what time you slept yesterday? *faint* Obviously I slept late since went down to bar and supper ! But anyway we headed to Kok Man a typical local kopitiam (coffee shop) that serves hand made noodles ! After that went to Tanjung Aru which is nearby the airport for coconut ! Darn missed the places that we went across the six days in Sabah ! And voila we reached airport around 3.30 pm to check in.. I felt a little sour when saying goodbye to Sam, Yan, and Ming.. Hopefully can meet them next month when they're coming over to KL !

Here are some pictures !































P/s: The photos are not in descending order, so sorry ya ! People, use your intelligence to figure it out which is which ! =) Leave me a comment if there's confusion ! Feel free to check out my FB for more photos ! Have a nice day !

A Brief Update

Stuffy night- Well as a promise to Shiong2 I got to update my dead blog tonight so here I come. The last post I posted up was 2 weeks ago and I got no time to update since then. Since the second week or so of last month I've been starting my rehearsals in Kajang and Danau Desa for every weekends. That's when I declared I got no life every weekend ! All I have is just four walls and mirrors around. Well I bet it's going to be worth it since I'm doing this for charity. Time, effort, and money had been all in for me to make this happen.

Recently I've been not talking much, surprise? Soo Jin not talking much, had something gone wrong in some way? *grins* No worries pals I'm fine just that a little stressed out and exhausted. I'm so glad that I can dance some dances choreograph by a reputable teacher and choreographer. Yes it was hard to accept the harsh comments throwing to us but I know you just want us to be flawless. I hope we don't disappoint you on our performance day.

I'll be going off for a short trip next week which made me a little excited for it since is a family trip. With our financial situation it is like so impossible to go for any trips but I'm glad that there's a real man in our family, my bro-in-law for making the effort to bring us along. I got to skip the stage rehearsal just for this trip but I hope others will help me out when I'm back from the trip. Sometimes true friends will just appear when you're in need. This is a great opportunity to see what friends I have. *grins*

I got to complete my assignments, quizzes and test by this week. Thus,I am busy again so please bear with me everyone ! =) Will probably update after my next month performance..Come and support if anyone who are interested in..The tickets are selling at RM 70/80/100. Venue: Xi Lai Ton, Sg Chua Kajang Date: 1 Aug 2009
Is a charity performance in conjunction with Wendy's Dance Center 25th anniversary. All kinds of dance related performance are up on that day ! =) I'm performing too.
Thanks again for those who have already bought the tickets !

Changeling

Fine night- Well I just got the chance to watch last year's movie as title mentioned. I thought this was some normal one and a half hour movie. But to my surprise, as I watched the movie, it slowly makes me realized a lot of stuff. The hidden meaning of this movie was really meaningful. What a mother can do for their son is really unimaginable. Huge sacrifices are made just for something that the mothers believed in. Those who are not mothers could say stop being so stubborn and move on with your life but for mothers they will still depend on the little HOPE that they have. This is really an inborn mother spirit I guess.

I just done with my STA test today which I think there are 4 marks gone ! *sigh* And MY DEAR lecturer said 'you larh didn't study'...OUCH, shooting me in a so direct way...! but SIR, I DID study though ! Next week I'll have a debate and a test ! Oh gosh is already week 8 ! *scary*

Possibility for me to take International Business is slightly higher now as compare to finance. I'm quite attracted with the internship provided in INTI-UC program whereas for UH program there will be no internship. People are worried that INTI-UC program doesn't have recognition as high as UH program but as far as I'm concerned INTI-UC program does offer dual certificates though. I got to know on my average for my previous semester and it was really a disaster. *sigh* This semester I got to do well in order to make it at an optimum level again. Wish me luck, people !

After the final thought

Stuffy noon- These months been a pretty struggling month for me in most of the way. Things are throwing to me as if I'm superwoman ! Sorry guys got to use this kind of example ! I got two tests and one assignment due next week ! Seriously yesterday was a speechless day for me though. Start with my presentation. After a dozen times of presenting, for the very first time I got to re-do my slides in the computer lab since my thumb drive couldn't retrieve the file. So sorry to my group mates for the minor 'heart attack'. And yesterday was the day I realized I'm a little late to do SOMETHING. Gosh ! Even though changes will be at any point of time, but it won't be the same anymore. I got a message from my DEAR FRIEND abroad which was another shocked thing for me. Out of no where I got that message and voila-that's it. I don't feel like explaining after what you've blurted out. I felt much more relieved in some way. Is just that the burden has just disappeared ! The decision I made last year was a pretty good one I assumed. To someone: I rather you have no feelings for me after few years from the day I told you we should remain as friend, then started it and ended it in a harsh way. You're my mind reader, remember?

With all kind of friends I got sometimes it is so hard to justify which one of them is a truthful one to share with your personal problems. I got those you tell them now, and the very next minute the whole gang will know about it. And with what I've talked with WWS, if there's anyone would ever came to know about the content then I shall say you're just the same ! I don't mind to bear the embarrassment if there is, but make sure it is worth for me to do. Would anyone kind enough to leave me some guides? Things are getting out of my control. I just don't know why I got the guts to tell you !

I'm Just in the mood

Fine midnight- I was sitting in my cozy room with an unexplainable mood that I feel like blog it out. This whole week I was procrastinating with my work. And I got to start on my CSC work real soon as I left 2 weeks time to complete it. I was rather pissed off that there are at least two classes to be replaced soon. And these two weeks I've found back my long lost interest-watching basketball match ! Reminds me of so many good old memories !

This week is not a pleasant week for me as well. I started to have some so called decision on Monday and everything was back as before on Tuesday. After I reviewed the meaning of putting it on hold. Within this few days I got constant headaches, nausea and drowsiness ! My friend asking in a joking manner 'are you pregnant?' ! *sigh* I stunned there a moment before I could grin a little. Today I got another so called decision and talk with the person involved. He was disappointed and moody after he got what I've said. But it doesn't really matters to me as I got the right to voice it out. Stop complaining to me about your situation over there instead you should approach the matter in a less complicated way. I can't help a bit on any of your complications. The very first day you made that decision I think you should able to know these are few of the consequences. People might say I'm being bad and inconsiderate enough but do not judge me when you don't know the whole truth !

I just got the instinct that everything is not going to be the same anymore. As a human I think we should know how to give and take in our life. Things are not always worked as it planned. I'm ready for anything throwing to me right now. Wanted to thank the someone who recommended great songs to me whenever there are some ! The moment you played out the song from your mobile phone to me I still can recalled. Perhaps the timing is not right yet. I bet if both of us still got the fate and chemistry when you're back from abroad, we definitely won't be just friends.


I left exactly 8 hours to rest before I'm heading out to Cheras. I guess I should hop onto my cozy bed...!

P/s: Thank you for people who are constantly reading my blog. Is not the matter of how many visitors I got. I just felt so blessed that there are actually people who cares about me. I really appreciates that !

Update !

Fine night- Well been not updating for more than a week. Last Friday was really a good experience for me ! I went down to Phuture, a club next to Zouk K.L. without having any manager's contact number with me. And I was a little shy to get the number from Kevin, a friend of my bro-in-law. And I was a little regret as well for not getting to know him when I was in De-Lux. But anyway, I manage to get through after 'begging' the bouncers for letting me in as all my other friends are actually over 21 ! As usual, they hesitated to let me in at first, but after that I got in ! *hooray* Guess I was having a little fever not long after that which makes my back pain enough to get out of the club and look for a wall to lean on ! As the club doesn't provide any chairs if you didn't make a reservation. Overall, the music was average but the environment was good and standard. I realised there were a lot of foreigners from all over the place going to that club.

On last Saturday I'm suppose to go for a movie with a friend of mine, and he couldn't make it at the VERY LAST MINUTE ! I've missed the steamboat session with my buddies and he only told me he can't make it ! What a day ! Anyway I still joined them for the bowling session! And till now my dear little friend still didn't realise I was actually a little pissed off that he being so irresponsible for not replying the message I sent to him on the next day ! Even though you're sick I bet you're not that sick till you can't press your phone AT ALL !

Sunday was a little scary for me ! I drove back to INTI as usual but the unusual thing was it rained heavily till I could hardly see the road ! I crossed over to the road side divider when I was turning left without realising I'm actually loop sided to the left ! *sigh* I just got to be extra careful next time. That's for now ! I'm excited for this weekend as I'm going out with my friends! See, told you Soo Jin can't stick still at home ! Family and friends are my top priorities ! Without them I'm nothing at any point ! Love you all to the max !

Is been different

Windy night- Recently I realized that you can't harm my feelings anymore. Wow that sounds a little great in some way!Finally I've fully recovered from fever, cough, flu and allergy which attacked me last week after the celebration of my best friend's birthday.I'm glad that I didn't faint down on the very happy moment or else I'm going to miss whole lot of fun ! This was the very first time I went to club with the whole gang and it was fun even I'm not feeling well at that time.

I wanted to thank Joann so much for sending me out to the clinic early in the morning!! The very touched moment was 'You should have called me earlier'...~woooo~ That was sweet and not to forget about Chee Seong too. I can't find any clinic when I was out with Joann at first so ended up CS fetch me to clinic around ten plus. I'm glad that this birthday boy on that day willing to send me out to clinic ! Thank you very much to both of you ! =)

I'm currently watching a good series of Hong Kong drama, Rosy Business. The characters and the story line of the drama are marvelous ! TVB is really improving drastically all these years !

Hot months !

Hot night- I just can't stand the heat nowadays. Is been quite some time since I last used my blanket ! Oh gosh ! I'll start to sweat again not long after I got my shower! This is extremely irritating ! *sigh* And I just read the newspaper and got to know that the current temperature will remain till September ! I'll be a dry corpse by that time. Time flies since is already second week of the semester already. The other day I felt so left out with the whole gang since I joined them slightly later. Maybe I was just too sensitive but God knows huh..

I can't wait to go back home! I think this phrase seems extremely funny and weird if it is coming out from my mouth ! *giggles* But yes I do wanted to go home for the exciting event coming up this Saturday. And I feel like going to the cinema really soon ! I want I want !!!

Demotivated on the very first day !

Fine night- I just came back from having my dinner not long ago. Today was a total bad day for me I assumed. I don't have the excited mood to even go for classes yet I still went for classes today. And I'm officially broke after I've paid the extra 300 bucks of resource fee using my own pocket money. *sobs* These few days things been running around my head and make me had a disastrous sleep session ever. And I got no idea why this feeling is coming back to me again? It seriously haunt me over and over again which makes me can't really concentrate on things that need to be done. And these two weeks of holiday I still can't make up my mind on what to major in degree yet. All I'm thinking is how to fully utilize my SHORT holiday so that I can have a great start for this semester ! i don't think I got a great start for this semester though. How sad was that?

As time goes by, I realized I'm still turning in the same circle that I've been turning for quite some time. Thoughts and things that are in my mind I can't really figure out definite answer which is so distracting ! What am I thinking lately I hardly can't figure out myself. Oh yea maybe I'm being emo AGAIN ! well well who knows better than myself huh. Hard time is coming soon !

short !

Fine night- I realized that my two weeks holiday seems EXTREMELY short and is ending tomorrow which makes me so demotivated to crawl back to my four walls hostel room ! But anyway this two weeks holiday was the first time ever I've truly ENJOYED it.

Well the thing is I did went out for a drink at Jaya One on a random Friday night which was so cool since I haven't drink for quite some time. And the time that I spent to talk with great companion is the one thing I can't get it from anywhere else. And fast forward to this week I went to my sis's place which is in Rawang for anyone that have no idea. I'm there on Sunday afternoon where I drove my old car all the way down there and get it checked.

And the very next night I went to the newly renovated pub, Rock Wild with my brother in law. And I did some singing with some uncles and solo too, of course. That night was a marvelous night whereby I got a little bit tipsy and I hit the bed after I brushed my teeth ! And I got hungover the very next day ! Brother in law went to Vietnam on Tuesday while me and sister came back to Kajang on Wednesday after we went to do some shopping at KLCC. Basically she's the one who shops and I just give opinions since I'm too broke to even get myself a discounted GAP T-shirt ! *sob*

Actually for this week the most fabulous event that I'm waiting for is on Friday which was yesterday whereby, we're going to night club for someone's birthday celebration! Even is not the first time I'm going but I still have a real good 'feeling' of going to chill out there ! And sometimes, I even felt that am I doing the right course since what I interested in is normally social and networking and not business administration where all the subjects need constant memorizing work and thorough research to complete assignments.

There are always contradictions happens on me for doing something I'm interested in or doing something that seems to be more profitable. This question has puzzled me for quite some time and makes me confused. I felt some kind of pressure hitting me hard as the tuition fees is shooting up high and money for me to spend is going low. May god bless me so I could get a part time promoter job as soon as possible. !!

I am ALIVE !

sunny evening- After the mad week I got last week finally I'm fresh and alive to update my dead blog of my daily routine ! These few days I've been sleeping a lot till yesterday I started to feel blur and dizzy. And not to forget I've accompanied mom to go out to one of the dance center which I presumed it would be so bored yet I still went out. As expected it is bored with all those highly uncivilized people talking loudly and staring at you for hours. Now I realized Rawang has so much more to offer better than this. Wonder how the owner can survives and manage her business. When I'm so free now no one is there for me to get in touch with and when the semester starts people will start bugging me. seriously speechless though ! And now I'm a little sleepy so perhaps I should get a short nap and stay up late again tonight ! I just got to appreciate these two weeks holiday as much as possible since after this I got to start to have WAR with the subjects again. Time flies !

Beautiful morning

sunny morning- I've been awake pretty early today which was an hour ago ! Is another 48 hours before my very first paper starts ! I'm quite nervous though since there's two subjects in a day ! But I'm blessed since my revision is making good progression. Even I can't study for 3 to 4 hours continuously but at least half of it ! I was talking to one of my mate in Ireland a moment ago. And to my surprise, he's left Malaysia for 7 months ! When he told me I responded by 'are you serious'? Oh gosh ! Time flies huh? Despite I'm having finals, problems did not stop hunting me where my phone cannot be activated after i restored the settings. It seems that it require another type of authorized sim card to activate it! I was blurred and pissed off at that moment but anyway I'm still glad that my old phone is around. Well mom told me she's worried that she no longer can secure her job since the committee wanted to change company to handle the property management tasks. The moment I got her message I stunned there for a moment before I started replying. God bless us !

This is the very first time I'm in INTI that I can sense 'silence' and 'peacefulness'. The corridor outside my room is different with other days ! Guess my neighbors are not back yet or they are staying silently staying in the room to do some revision. I'm glad that my little diary over here can at least let me burst off or even jot down some happy memories since there's not much people that I can really talk to and understand my situation. I have ton of things to write but due to time constraints I'll do it after my finals..Good luck to everyone who's sitting for finals ~~ Have a nice day...

A solution

Fine evening- I got a solution for the situation that made me pissed off. Even is a bit costly for now but I think is worth it to solve both sides problems. Well my solution is not an intangible thing though. Is a cupboard to be more precise. I bet you guys wouldn't want to know why this can solve my problem ! Another 7 days to go before my very first final papers hit me! And I'm thankful that Soo Jin has started her revision. Even though I feel like puking each time I'm doing short notes but I don't have other alternative to study besides doing small notes and going through them.

Time flies in academic part but my normal routine life is still sucks and at the same slow pace. I should be very blessed for having good people around me yet I still feels that there's something wrong with me. Totally don't have much idea how this could happen. I wanted to go to the cinema to watch so many new released movies but time doesn't allow me to do so ! I'm really going to appreciate the 2 weeks holiday I got after my finals as when the next semester starts again I got to work it all out all over again. *hectic* I've been sleeping a lot lately despite my final is just next week. Gosh ! Is that what we called 'lazy'? God knows. Got to start revision again after my dinner. God bless me !

What a good weather

Fine afternoon- I love the weather right now the most ! Is been so hot last few days finally I can enjoy some afternoon without the superb hot sun ! I've just celebrated Pow Ping's birthday yesterday and it was marvelous ! The greatest moment of life is to enjoy. You can enjoy when there's good food and great buddies around ! Is been really long I did not celebrate with them ! And this year celebration should really make it HUGE according to one of my buddy, Phang Chun Kin (P.C.K.). The reasons behind of it are quite lame so I don't feel like telling. *giggles* I left another 11 days before my final examinations start. I'm not sure is it due to over working for all the course works and now I don't really seems to nervous. But nevertheless I'll do my revision soon ! I don't hope that I'll neither resit for any papers nor getting bad grades for it. Well I should believes that nothing comes easy. Good luck for all my friends who are sitting for finals ! =)

Here are some pictures of my girlfriend's birthday ! If you guys want to see more then kindly drop by my facebook profile. =) cheers ~

After completed all the courseworks !

Fine night- Relieved that I've completed all the tests, presentations and assignments. Life has been a little better yet stressful period will hit in another few days as need to prepare for finals already. I just left 10-13 days to get ready for the finals where the two BELOVED marketing papers are on the very same day. *sigh* I should start my revision pretty soon. Today's test seriously I've not been putting a lot of effort as I'm still pretty distracted here and there. I'm a little worry for my dear mum as the consultation of the doctor sounds a little serious. I just hope she can relax and does not get tense up easily. When I asked her what is going to happen after June since I'll officially not receiving any cash from my dad ! She just said WE'LL SEE HOW. By the given answer, I know she can't figure out anything yet and I don't want her to get worry yet I got no alternatives. Oh gosh ! My sensitive skin is hitting me again as I got all these rashes over me now. So itchy...I'll be sleeping soon before I get emo...Sorry guys I've been posting a lot of emo posts lately, I'm trying to be happy but I just need a little more time. Be patient ! =)

The very last few moments ~

Fine night- I've just back from the airport few hours ago. I packed up my things and went to dinner with mum. The mixed feelings in the airport made me feel extremely BAD ! I've hold my tears for so long and at the end it still burst out. *sigh* Deep down my heart I seriously feel so *sour*. We know each other is not as long as a mother and her son, but is long enough to have emotional attachment with each other. I'm suppose to study for my test tomorrow but I feel so tired right now and I feel like hitting the bed now. Holding on doubts and guilty feeling of doing so. Oh gosh ! sleepy me !

24 hours

Hot afternoon- 24 hours from now I should be in the airport saying goodbye to someone who is close to me. And saying goodbye is not an easy thing where basically people will have all kinds of mixed feeling hunting over them over and over again. I guess this year is the year I'm going to say 'goodbye' the most. Perhaps to other people, saying goodbye is an easy stuff but definitely would not be me. With all those mixed feeling hunting me over and over again really killing my concentration on my notes. But I'm trying my level best to balance up the stuffs which had already threw to me. I don't know how long I can take all this before I burst out. God bless my OM test and finals which will be around the corner. I seriously need a good buddy to talk to right now ! *sigh*

The 'first' phrase

Fine morning- Surprisingly, today ECO test I think I did better than my previous test. *applause* I was so worried when I slept last night since I didn't really study much but what to do since I'm so tired to get my brain functions I just hop onto my cozy bed...*giggles*

I've had a hectic weekend last week and is a total fun night I had on Saturday. I was glad that I can joined in that event ! I wanted to upload picture on that night but I haven't got the pictures yet so be patient everyone ! Is normal clubbing pictures BUT is a little different in terms of people I'm going with. =) When I had my breakfast just now, I was like 'testing' you by saying I need to buy something important and the first phrase you said have indeed proof to me that you're different from what I expected. Different as in negative side. I thought you could be a little more supportive as my buddy. But the very first phrase has already disappoint me. *ouch* I need a dose of reassurance and supportive assurance from my buddies not doubts and chaos. I takes friendship and understanding as the most crucial part in us, and I really really disappointed that you've blurt out something that you think there's no big deal but it means a lot to me. I'm not angry or being sensitive, no worries we are still BFF. !

Hectic week

Fine night- I've been quite busy the whole week since I managed to complete my last 2 assignments and 2 tests. Late night like now makes me think a lot of things that made me so emotional ! That type of emo which makes me feels like crying. *sigh* I'm so speechless now that my tears are rolling down my cheeks. I feel like talking to someone that knows me pretty well right now ! I still have an economics test this coming Monday and Operations Management test on Thursday. Oh gosh I'm wondering can I ever study for so many chapters for a test ! I have loads of things that I felt like burst out but where to start and how to start I'm totally out of idea. God bless me !

Busyness !

Fine night- I'm suppose to be busy these two weeks but hell no with what I'm doing and wondering here. I've completed my last two assignments and now all I got to do is start my revision for 4 tests which are coming on this week as well as next week. Since next week, I'll be busy back at my place, so I guess this weekend is so crucial for me to do some revision. But to study 8 chapters for next Thursday test somehow make me thinks, that's so impossible. And guess what the 8 chapters given, I don't really know what's mainly about even though the extra guideline has been given..I'm glad that I can finish my assignments ahead of time but I'm sad to know that I can't really ask my little brain to 'digest' the notes that I've been reading through..

This whole week it seems I can't get some 'alone' time with someone who is leaving pretty soon. As in so soon..It reminds me of what someone told me before. And this is the time both of us are going to lead the different path of our life. And I wish the someone good luck and all the best. Actually is been kinda emotional here since many people who are close to me are leaving me one by one. And it really feels so bad to adapt with it ! I cry myself to sleep all these night and I'm really really sad ! If not mistaken, Joann is leaving this year too which means I can't loiter with a good buddy for quite some time ! All close friends are leaving ~ Sad sad !

My two tests for this week seriously I'm going to flop it if I still can't concentrate on my revision. Maybe you guys will think,'come on what's the big deal'?..No worries you will know it when you have the same situation happen to you. I really really wanted to go out for a drink and a dance session ! I WANT IT BADLY ! That's my dose to at least let me feel a little better...HELP !

Do something you like or something you should?

Fine night- I've been doing quite a lot of thinking stuffs lately. As I'm hesitating shall I continue to pursuing a degree or do something for a job that I've been thinking since I'm young. Sometimes by weighing the pros and cons itself can tear me apart ! At first I was thinking I can take up a three days job for the coming PC fair but is just days before my finals. I'm worry I can't cope that's why I've gave up the chance to work. Which means I've lost an opportunity to earn some extra bucks. *sigh* Seriously I need to have a get-a-way real soon to ease all this kind of thinkings. I don't need an expensive trip but I think a good spot to clear up thinkings would do ! The very last time that me and Joann went to the airport seriously was a good one to talk things out! I think I shall call it 'the moment of reminiscing' ~~ *giggles*

Another semester to go to think what course that I really wanted to do for my degree. And I'm weighing the pros and cons whether to do IB or Finance...Actually I've already have a pre-decision on taking IB..Perhaps I need a little longer time to do the confirmation...Hectic week ahead next week where there are two tests and assignments deadline. This semester I seriously don't enjoy much with the workloads yet I still have to complete it ! God bless me ! Good night !

You shouldn't have said that to me

Fine night- After I've told you what's going on I somehow think that you shouldn't have said that indirectly harmful phrase to me. I take you as the closest friend I have and I didn't ask for much and even though I know you didn't really mean what you've said but there's possibility for misinterpretation to happen. And I'm glad that I just burst it in here to soothe my emotions. And while looking through the photos of my so called dad, there are a lot of mixed feeling haunting over me. He's so irresponsible yet he's the one of the involved people to bring me into this world. I'm not sure what I'm going to do after next semester but I'm sure I won't give up ! And you dad, you totally made your little girl frustrated and upset. You all may blame me for being inconsiderate and disrespectful but I got nothing much to say besides doing what I should.

I am trying really hard to balance up everything and I just realised that I'm not doing so good in balancing. The days are near and I hope you have a safe journey ahead and good luck for you future endeavors !

I'm bored !

Cold night- I'm suppose to have better thing to do instead of telling everyone I'm so bored ! I have another two assignments to be completed for this semester. Tests and presentations are killing me ! And on the other day I did a personality test in Facebook where the result seems to be quite accurate.

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

- Can be accepted

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

- This sounds a little 'WOW'....

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

- I doubt about this one

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

- ?? Flirt and behave seductively? Oh Gosh, since when?

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

- so true !

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

- wondering still...

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

- Should learn on this...

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

- I'm concerned about my image but I think I'm not over doing it ~

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

- This is another so true fact of me ! *giggles*

Some of it seems to be quite accurate yet there are some that makes me wonder to what extent it is true....Anyway I think life changes a lot these days.. Sometimes I doubt that is God looking too high on me by throwing obstacles I probably could not handle? God knows ! =)

Pissed off morning

Fine night- Today my day started off with getting screw and ended up that particular someone did not apologize even though I think he should. Come on we're leaving in what century now? We are not studying in a military class so I think he shouldn't reacted that way. What happened today made me recalled the old memories when I was in secondary school. *giggles* Basically I don't mind he barked like a dog but what for? The circumstances were far more serious than you can imagined of. I'm wondering why that particular person did not finished up reading before screwing people. I'm so sorry for K as I've misunderstood what she written. Seriously I have yelled back if I'm still in secondary school. *grins*

And to another someone, don't take people for granted. You're busy with your stuffs, so do I. But somehow I think that's very nice of me to ask how are you and so but you didn't seems to appreciate any of that. That's good ! Wait till I say, hey you F**k off ! Basically the mixtures of every incidents happened today made me so screwed up where I skipped one class without reason for the very first time in these ten weeks of studying. That's why Chinese often believes that morning should not have any unpleasant situations where it might influence people for that whole day. Called me SUPERSTITIOUS as you wish . =)

So sick of it

Windy night- I'm supposing to start working on my two last assignments which are going to due in 2 weeks time. But somehow I got so distracted perhaps I'm so tired till my brain can't function properly. I'm not distracted because of I'm watching dramas though. I'm distracted on many other stuffs which had been bothering me for a quite long time. And it was pretty obvious that I look different nowadays where I seldom will have a friendly smile on my face. I got to know it through the replied of one of the Facebook's notes. *sigh* Anyway I'm still trying my level best to start on my assignments so I won't have any problem when the due date is near. This month is really a crucial one for me in managing my precious time. I'm currently so sleepy where I wish I can just hop onto my cozy bed !

Owhhhh YES !

sunny afternoon- Well well i finally did it! I guess you guys will wonder what I want to brag about this time. And i want to say I've finally donated blood for the VERY FIRST TIME ! I've been hesitated for 5 semesters whether to donate or not as I worry I'll gained weight after that ! Which makes me selfishly consider for such a long time. Anyway,I'm happy and a little disappointed at the same time. I'm happy because I'm finally doing it and a little disappointed since is only 180ml ! I think that's the amount after taking out some for samples purpose. The target according to my weight was 350ml though. The nurse can't help much since she said my blood flow is slow and not willing to flow out. I was giggling there when I heard what she said. Since my blood flow was slow, I actually need 3 nurses to help me in the whole process. One need to keep pumping 'the thing' which will squeeze my arm hard enough to create pressures while another one is holding the packet where my blood is flowing into it to make sure whether the blood is entering or otherwise. The third nurse is tapping my arteries and adjusting the hose to see which position is the easiest for my blood to flow out. She even turned the 'blue thingy' to adjust the flow which made me feel the needle is turning here and there ! *scary* Anyway when the nurse asked 'Is this your first time' ? I replied 'Yeah' and she said no wonder maybe I haven't get used to it. And I felt a bit relieved since I thought is abnormal to have a slow blood flow.

After getting about half of the packet the nurses finally stopped everything and said it was enough and not to force the blood to flow out since it may cause my arm to become swollen. She asked me to rest a while and pressed the cotton firmly where they poked the needle in. While resting, the nurse told me my blood will expired pretty early as in 14 days since the amount of my blood is not enough to merge with the contents inside the packet which cause it to be imbalance. But she did said no worries we'll use it before it gets expired. Well after getting enough of rest, the nurse walk over with a plaster and a cream thingy. After she had placed the plaster, she applied the cream thingy too as my arm already started to swell. My arm felt numb for quite a while though. I asked my classmate, Yew Hong to take some pictures for memory sake. *grins*










P/s: Come on everyone, overcome your fear and help people by donating your blood.

Sports car+ Hot dudes= ?

Sunny afternoon- What you think when a sports car is driven by a handsome dude? And not even one maybe 7? At first I'm so glad that I might joining them up but in the end I just don't feel like joining. Well I guess if I join in I think I can go to somewhere I never been before and the expenses are covered ! So nice huh? But too bad I just don't have the mood to cancel off everything and just go like that. And I don't want to play for 3 days and 3 nights without having 4 hrs sleep at least. There are so many reasons for me to take the offer but well I've been quite steady this time after a short consideration and I declined. Perhaps the previous 'me' I'll cancel off classes to go to have some fun but now it doesn't work that way anymore I guess. I'm still particular on my garments and high heels where I don't like to loan to anybody,I just don't understand but each time it happens my blood will just 'shoot up' IMMEDIATELY ! Especially when I want it, and is not there ! God damn me, for being a disrespectful daughter but is this a challenge for me to overcome it?

Each time when I tried not to burst it out I can feel the 'inside' of me, feels EXTREMELY bad. Just like you're so pissed off and you need to smile and continue with your work. Oh gosh ! Please don't ever happen all this thing I can't take it for so many times and what my dad said it sounds so IRRESPONSIBLE to me. There's no difference where a chicken left all the chicks dying off. I know my examples are sucks but you will know what is it feels like when you're in my shoe. Oh gosh I seriously NEED A BREAK after a hectic week !

What else can I say?

Raining evening- Today I finally got to know the fact that my so called friend is in the same institution as I did. And I'm rather pissed off that he denied that when I first confronted him. That's why I was wondering how come there's two person that can look so alike? Oh gosh ! I can't think of any valid reason for him to pretend that we don't know each other. I've shared with another friend of mine which happen to know him as well, she was shocked and pissed off too ! Well I bet there should be other better ways to tell us he don't want anyone knows it besides pretending don't know us ! *speechless*

I'm suppose to have a test tomorrow but it has postponed to Friday since some of my classmates said there are a lot of chapters to study. Well I agreed partly on it since the chapters are quite lengthy and any part of it can come out for the test. Another part of me was thinking, we still need to sit for it no matter is on Thurs or Fri so why not settle it earlier? Anyway it was already set to be on Friday so no point bursting here now. But anyway I do appreciate that W asked me not to piss off. Maybe my 'aunty' haven't pay me a visit yet which makes me have quite a high unreasonable temperament.

Anyway I don't think I can manage to do five chapters of revision for the test ! Each part of it seems to have the possibility to come out as a question. *sigh* Why can't he be a little precise ? What a RESPONSIBLE fellow. Should get my mind started !

Stress + Assignments + Tests + Coughing

Fine night- I think my title can somehow summarize what I want to share about. This whole week I've been so busy with my work and one of the macroeconomics test which I've screw up most of it. Can't blame anything as my preparation is not sufficient enough. Upcoming tests are operations management and retail marketing. My life these days seems to be really immune by all these workloads I'm having. Well I consider myself as lucky enough if I'm comparing with other people who are taking courses like law or any other similar difficult courses.

I'm coughing again ! I just don't understand why all this sickness can't leave me alone ! And god damn the ants ! Bit my thigh which makes it swollen and pain right now. I am suppose to do some revision right now but I've started to feel sleepy. Oh man Soo Jin is getting lazier and lazier as days goes by. *giggles* When I think about the assignments due date it even make me more demotivated to finish it up ! oh NOoooooo !!!

Dead busy

Cloudy evening- These few weeks I'm so busy with the assignments that are throwing to me ! Really hectic compare to last few semesters. Too much work to work on anyway, which causes unnecessary stress for me since I need to finish it on time so that I won't cause any delay to my other group mates. Frankly speaking I just got to know that the 60% coursework marks are actually suggested by the students. *sigh* It seems that 60% on coursework really helpful but the workload has been doubled up. *speechless*

This year it seems that so many friends and closed ones are leaving though. And I'm a little unhappy to know that my dad's leaving too. Well I wonder after May, is he not going to pay any single thing for our living expenses anymore? And he expects me to stop my studies and work first. Well seriously I am so pissed off when I heard about this because if I stop now and work first, who can assure me when is the time that I'll earn enough money to continue on my degree? And if I stop at diploma level, I need to pay up PTPTN loan starting 6 months after I've stop. Is that a good idea after all? These few weeks I'm still thinking over a better solution or maybe alternatives to all this.

And right now I'm having some kind of mixed feeling that distracted me on what I'm doing. I just got to focus I guess !

All in progress..

Fine evening- Hey everyone sorry for not updating my blog for so so long ! Frankly speaking I've been a little lazy to update and of course I'm busy as well. After enjoying for weeks I think this is the time to get back on track and start to work on my assignments. So far I've started Operation Management both individual and group assignment. Besides that, I've started a little on my retail marketing assignment. Well well I'm really lucky I took 4 subjects for this semester since there are 2 assignments for each subject starting from this semester for all diploma students. Oh gosh seriously need time to cope with the workload. But by the time I'm able to cope I've completed diploma. *speechless*

With my current health condition, is really a little hard for me to stay focus to continue work on my things. I got fever last week and this week I'm hit with something new- coughing. And I really hope I can recover by the time I'm back to INTI next week. But it seems that it won't happen..This year Chinese New Year is really an enjoyable one for me as I got the chance to visit all my close friend's house. From the first day of Chinese New Year I've started going out every single day non stop. I guessed that's what make me sick. So I've stayed at home and rest on Sunday and get ready to go back INTI.

Anyway I got to start doing my work again, which is so boring ! I'll update my blog pretty soon again hopefully.. *giggles*

Have a wonderful year everyone !!
love you guys and girls out there who had been so good to me !
~xoxo~

Near to Chinese New Year

Sunny morning- Well well even though Chinese New Year is just around the corner I still can't have feel the 'feeling' yet. I guess is because of the works I got to do even I have a so-called one week holiday. *sob* But anyway, better than nothing! Not to forget the extra 3 days we're having, we need to replace it back ! *wondering*
Luckily I'm taking 4 subjects this semester or else I'm so dead. I'm looking forward to loiter around the airport with Joann. *giggles* There will be tonnes of things we going to talk on, something like a never ending stuffs.

All these days I'm still thinking what is the right decision to be made or there's no right or wrong is just the matter of perception? Well perhaps I've been thinking a little too much on unnecessary things. When I got the news, I didn't seems to be happy as I should. But I have some kind of mixed feelings...Soo Jin emo again ! *giggles* nah just joking I got no time to be emo as I have 8 assignments waiting for me to put my hands on them...=(

When confusion strikes.

Windy night- Till now I'm still questioning myself am I making the right decision? And I've been thinking it over and over again and it seriously do make me emotional easily..But this time I can more or less control it too. But deep inside me right now there's so much thing that requires me to think about. Everything happens for a reason? well this was what someone told me before and I seriously appreciate his appearance in my life. =) I admire your personality, knowledge and talents and I'm pretty sure there's someone out there who will really deserve to have you.

Besides being emo nowadays I'm being stressed up too. The same old thing again, fees...
I would like to thank Joann for being so so so good ! I really didn't expect you will say so, and I really appreciate it deep down from my heart. I am sure even friends who have the capability to do so they wouldn't tell me that. And I feel so blessed despite I am stress up and full with confusion in my mind. I hope all my friends around me can have a great year ahead with less problems to be taken care of. Soo Jin feels upset and confused yet she's trying to be happy and live life to the max !

Love all of you !
xoxo

the Sixth !

Fine evening- today as usual went to MPH to enroll for this semester, checked in for hostel and check on PTPTN loan for degree. Well it is a little tougher this time as everything need to settle through online. I will only submit required documents if they approve my loan. I did something 'bad' just now which ended up I'm suffering it now. I went through something and to my surprise I read something I shouldn't. I got a little shock when I saw it. Well I guess I'm right to be protective though. You're not as good as I thought. I don't need to feel guilty now if I did something which I will feel guilty before this.

This semester I'm not sure will be as hectic as the previous one but I'm sure I'll go through as best as I could. I'm thinking for alternatives on how to get the first payment for my degree. It is so near that it make me a little miserable to think of alternatives. Plus the thing I read through just now, it already made me moody and upset enough to spoil my mood. What the hell wrong with me right now? At one point I do really feel I'm blessed but at some other point I felt I was so screw up. Well well is just life. Have it's own ups and downs. I'm trying to go with the flow. *may god bless me*