I have a friend who just had baby. She has all these cute pictures posted of her holding her baby right after he was born.
I missed that.
My girls were rushed to the NICU as soon as they were born, both put on ventilators (for only 12 hours), and lived in incubators for the next 18 days. I had a C-section and was on the table for a couple hours after the babies were born. I got to see each girl for a split second when the doctor pulled them out and then I didn't get to see them... UNTIL THE NEXT DAY. It was horrible. My sweet husband went to the NICU about once an hour and took pictures of them and got updates for me, but as you know, it wasn't the same.
When I did finally get to see the babies I had to practically beg to get them out of the incubators. I definitely wanted what was best for the girls, but this Mama needed to hold her girls. I got to hold Jemma and my hubby held Jaycie. Let me tell ya, there isn't much to prepare you for a 4lb baby. They were so tiny. I just wept.
My girls are fine. I am blessed that they only had to stay 18 days considering they were 6 weeks early. I was told to prepare for 6 weeks, but my little rock stars showed everyone they are superstars.
I still miss it though. I hate I don't have those first pictures.
I have a different story this time around.
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
Number 3
After we settled on the previous shocking events when we found out we were having twins, I started thinking about "what kind" we would have. We already knew we were having fraternal twins so we could have boy/boy, girl/girl, or boy/girl. My mind started turning and turning with names! I honestly didn't care at first what we were having - just wanted healthy babies. I think though that the second level of thinking gets most Mom's and Dad's wishing or thinking through what combo we would like. Anyway, we already knew that if we were having girls we could name them Jaycie and Jemma. We've had those names picked out for quite some time. In fact, Jadyn was almost a last minute switch to Jaycie! If I'm being totally honest I should also tell you that I really thought that "Jemma" would be the baby that we adopted. I smile now because God knew all along!
We were having a much harder time with boy names. We have lots of names we like, but none that we love. Henry Alan, Leo Alan, Kyle Neil, Jackson Kyle, Griffin Neil. We really hadn't settled on boy boy names but were leaning toward Henry and Kyle. I really don't know what would have happened!
For boy girl names we actually were not in agreement. I wanted to stick with J's and have Jaycie and Jackson. Greg really loves the name Griffin so he was doing whatever he could to work that in. :)
Before we found out I really just began hoping that they would be the same - that we would have either boy boy or girl girl twins. In my head that just made everything easier - they could share a room longer, share clothes etc. I had totally convinced myself that we were having boys! And with just cause - I had totally different pregnancy cravings and feelings.
At the ultrasound I was basically holding my breath while we found out our exciting news. The tech said well, baby A is a girl! We all started texting... "Jaycie's coming!" and then we had to wait and wait and wait to find out baby B, but finally she said "it's another girl!" and we got to tell that Jemma was coming too. It was a lot of fun.
I'm so blessed with all 3 of my girls. And I love he fact that God knew along what we were having!
We were having a much harder time with boy names. We have lots of names we like, but none that we love. Henry Alan, Leo Alan, Kyle Neil, Jackson Kyle, Griffin Neil. We really hadn't settled on boy boy names but were leaning toward Henry and Kyle. I really don't know what would have happened!
For boy girl names we actually were not in agreement. I wanted to stick with J's and have Jaycie and Jackson. Greg really loves the name Griffin so he was doing whatever he could to work that in. :)
Before we found out I really just began hoping that they would be the same - that we would have either boy boy or girl girl twins. In my head that just made everything easier - they could share a room longer, share clothes etc. I had totally convinced myself that we were having boys! And with just cause - I had totally different pregnancy cravings and feelings.
At the ultrasound I was basically holding my breath while we found out our exciting news. The tech said well, baby A is a girl! We all started texting... "Jaycie's coming!" and then we had to wait and wait and wait to find out baby B, but finally she said "it's another girl!" and we got to tell that Jemma was coming too. It was a lot of fun.
I'm so blessed with all 3 of my girls. And I love he fact that God knew along what we were having!
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
another thing
The next thing that I think we thought of once the "shock" of finding out there are two babies was where on earth will we put them?
I bought the house we live in before we were married. It was a perfect house for a single girl. It got a little more crowded when the hubs moved in but we figured out how to make it work. When Jadyn was born (and even now) we had to move a lot of things around but no biggie, and we knew it would be tight to add another but figured cozy could work. However, we didn't have room for 2 more babies. We couldn't fit 2 cribs in the baby room.
Moving isn't an option. The real estate market has killed our value. It's not practical to move. We have a giant back yard and have always figured that we will add things to the back but we weren't expecting to do it so soon!
To make room for the babies we ended up converting our garage to a new master bedroom and moving the baby room to the old master. It easily fits two cribs and will eventually manage twin beds. I miss our garage but I LOVE our new bedroom. I got to make it how I wanted it - something I've never been able to do before. We still only have 1 bathroom in the house, but we do have a few more years before that just won't work anymore (although I hate it now... I'm trying to make the best).
The third major thought???
What will the babies be???
but more on that next time.
I bought the house we live in before we were married. It was a perfect house for a single girl. It got a little more crowded when the hubs moved in but we figured out how to make it work. When Jadyn was born (and even now) we had to move a lot of things around but no biggie, and we knew it would be tight to add another but figured cozy could work. However, we didn't have room for 2 more babies. We couldn't fit 2 cribs in the baby room.
Moving isn't an option. The real estate market has killed our value. It's not practical to move. We have a giant back yard and have always figured that we will add things to the back but we weren't expecting to do it so soon!
To make room for the babies we ended up converting our garage to a new master bedroom and moving the baby room to the old master. It easily fits two cribs and will eventually manage twin beds. I miss our garage but I LOVE our new bedroom. I got to make it how I wanted it - something I've never been able to do before. We still only have 1 bathroom in the house, but we do have a few more years before that just won't work anymore (although I hate it now... I'm trying to make the best).
The third major thought???
What will the babies be???
but more on that next time.
Thursday, September 6, 2012
1 thing
You know -
There were a lot of things that went through my mind when I found out we were having twins.
The first thing was absolute praise. I haven't told many people this (so I thought I'd start with the internet - haha) but we had a really hard time getting pregnant the second time. We went to see my doc to confirm we were pregnant and she sent us to an ultra sound that afternoon to check for a due date. Greg had to go back to work so I went for the ultrasound alone. On the way there I prayed that it would be twins because we knew we wanted more that 2 kids and this way we would get double with one pregnancy. But, as soon as I prayed it I felt ashamed and asked God to forgive me and thanked Him for the baby and prayed that we would have a healthy baby and pregnancy. I felt totally at peace and the notion of twins fell out of my head completely.
I went in for the ultrasound and the lady started asking me a lot of questions. I didn't think anything about it because I had never had an ultrasound at 6 weeks so I wasn't sure how much she needed to know. She got super quiet and said "I'm not sure how you are going to react, but you are having twins." I burst in to tears immediately. I was sobbing because The Lord blessed me. The lady asked if I was happy and I told her yes and went on my merry way.
He has blessed us indeed and some other day I will tell you another thing that went through my mind when I found out we were having twins. :)
There were a lot of things that went through my mind when I found out we were having twins.
The first thing was absolute praise. I haven't told many people this (so I thought I'd start with the internet - haha) but we had a really hard time getting pregnant the second time. We went to see my doc to confirm we were pregnant and she sent us to an ultra sound that afternoon to check for a due date. Greg had to go back to work so I went for the ultrasound alone. On the way there I prayed that it would be twins because we knew we wanted more that 2 kids and this way we would get double with one pregnancy. But, as soon as I prayed it I felt ashamed and asked God to forgive me and thanked Him for the baby and prayed that we would have a healthy baby and pregnancy. I felt totally at peace and the notion of twins fell out of my head completely.
I went in for the ultrasound and the lady started asking me a lot of questions. I didn't think anything about it because I had never had an ultrasound at 6 weeks so I wasn't sure how much she needed to know. She got super quiet and said "I'm not sure how you are going to react, but you are having twins." I burst in to tears immediately. I was sobbing because The Lord blessed me. The lady asked if I was happy and I told her yes and went on my merry way.
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
there it is
I need to get this off my chest and I need to do it in a hurry because if I don't
B-O-O-M
I might explode.
I am not:
-less of a woman
-less of a mother
-less of a human being
I am not:
-stupid
-selfish (my favorite)
I am not:
-trying to harm my child(ren)
-only thinking of my immediate needs
because I had to have a c-section.
I had to have my first one because Jadyn was stuck in my ribs AND it hurt like none other when they pulled her out. Ya'll, she was stuck. If you have never seen pictures of her at birth then you have NO idea. She was basically folded in half.
With the twins my doctor felt more comfortable doing a c-section because of my previous and a few other reasons. She did not force me, but I chose to believe what she told me as being right. So yes, I knew at 6 weeks we were having a twins and they would be a C and I wouldn't change it for the world especially if you know my birth story.
I think it's great when ladies have an all natural birth. You go girl. BUT, don't judge me because I didn't. My babies are just as healthy, just as happy, and just as beautiful. And a c-section is NO CAKEWALK. Especially when the babies had to stay in the NICU and I had to walk from the parking lot to the NICU 5 days post surgery if I wanted to see the babies.
so to myself I say:
you go girl.
and to everyone else I say:
think before you speak.
B-O-O-M
I might explode.
I am not:
-less of a woman
-less of a mother
-less of a human being
I am not:
-stupid
-selfish (my favorite)
I am not:
-trying to harm my child(ren)
-only thinking of my immediate needs
because I had to have a c-section.
I had to have my first one because Jadyn was stuck in my ribs AND it hurt like none other when they pulled her out. Ya'll, she was stuck. If you have never seen pictures of her at birth then you have NO idea. She was basically folded in half.
With the twins my doctor felt more comfortable doing a c-section because of my previous and a few other reasons. She did not force me, but I chose to believe what she told me as being right. So yes, I knew at 6 weeks we were having a twins and they would be a C and I wouldn't change it for the world especially if you know my birth story.
I think it's great when ladies have an all natural birth. You go girl. BUT, don't judge me because I didn't. My babies are just as healthy, just as happy, and just as beautiful. And a c-section is NO CAKEWALK. Especially when the babies had to stay in the NICU and I had to walk from the parking lot to the NICU 5 days post surgery if I wanted to see the babies.
so to myself I say:
you go girl.
and to everyone else I say:
think before you speak.
Sunday, September 2, 2012
Fruit washing.
Isn't it funny the things we get our feelings hurt over?
Sometimes I just can't seem to wrap my head around why I'm bent out of shape. I tend to blame this on the fact that I'm a woman. I think we tend to get bent out of shape a little easier than than men-folk do.
I know I tend to get upset if my sweet hubby doesn't notice something that I've done, or if my kiddos don't appreciate that I've picked up everything...again. I get my panties in a wad when I'm left out or not noticed in situations. It's just crazy. The thing that keeps coming back to me is that I cannot control anyone but myself. I can't make my hubby do things to appreciate me in the way I think he should. I can't make my young kiddos appreciate me, and I certainly can't make other people notice me or not leave me out; but, I CAN control how I respond.
I can respond with love, joy, PEACE, PATIENCE, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.
I have noticed that most of the time when my feelings are hurt the other person has no idea anything has even happened.
Instead of sulking around about it I can instead choose to let the fruits of the spirit wash over me and respond in a different way.
Sometimes I just can't seem to wrap my head around why I'm bent out of shape. I tend to blame this on the fact that I'm a woman. I think we tend to get bent out of shape a little easier than than men-folk do.
I know I tend to get upset if my sweet hubby doesn't notice something that I've done, or if my kiddos don't appreciate that I've picked up everything...again. I get my panties in a wad when I'm left out or not noticed in situations. It's just crazy. The thing that keeps coming back to me is that I cannot control anyone but myself. I can't make my hubby do things to appreciate me in the way I think he should. I can't make my young kiddos appreciate me, and I certainly can't make other people notice me or not leave me out; but, I CAN control how I respond.
I can respond with love, joy, PEACE, PATIENCE, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.
I have noticed that most of the time when my feelings are hurt the other person has no idea anything has even happened.
Instead of sulking around about it I can instead choose to let the fruits of the spirit wash over me and respond in a different way.
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- We are the Franz's. Greg and I got married July 22, 2006 and Little Miss Jadyn came along in October of 2008. She has been an amazing addition to our lives and we love spending time with her! Now, we are adding two more lives to the mix. Jaycie and Jemma will be here Spring of 2012.
