Guy Friends are Awesome but...

I can't hang out on pillows on the floor and eat popcorn and drink wine and shout ridiculous things like I can with a girl friend.

It didn't go so well

Do you know what I find most annoying about this situation is that I'm spending my time feeling sad, I'm asking my sweetbaby if I'm the one being a bitch and he assures me that I'm very capable of being a bitch but in this situation, I really haven't done anything wrong, AND I'm writing about it.

We had dinner with the BFF and her husband, Ginger last night.  There was such an uncomfortable moment that went on way to long, even her husband tried to break the moment and she STILL went on for a good minute.  60 seconds is a long time.

We climbed into the safety of my car, Tallulah, and Dave assured me that he saw it, even her husband acknowledged the weirdness at the table, and I told him I'm on a break from her. Then we went to my neighborhood bar for a drink.

A gin and tonic makes me happy.

There are very, very few people that I truly trust completely and I've trusted her for over a decade.  Each contact that I've had with her lately has come down to stupid challenges in conversations, mocking my opinions, and comments in attempts to belittle me.

I'm puzzled as to what her goal is by doing all of this.  She knows that if I don't like what I'm experiencing than I will leave that experience behind. This means that I don't want to see her right now.

There have been some passive aggressive texts and emails with all of this as well.

I'm not saying that I'm losing another BFF but I'm not dumb enough not to know that people grow apart. I won't put up with being treated badly. I'm just assessing what the last half a year of bad manners weighs against the last 15 years as friends.

Checking in after the trip

I was planning on rehashing my trip to Colorado but I haven't had the best day.  I stayed home today because my stupid R.A. can't let me recover from all the walking last week.  My left ankle swelled up and it felt like a metal spike was swishing around in my small ankle and foot bones.  This is really inconvenient when you have a two story home. Icing my ankle has been lots of fun.  In between the icings, i've been preparing for my LAST CLASS that starts on Thursday, so that was a small bit of sunshine, anticipating my last semester.

I'm also getting more and more mad about the situation with the BFF.  I've talked to her twice since I got home on Saturday and she's pissed me off both times.  She's responding like its her job to take an opposing point on everything that we discuss.  I always get a little down when I'm in a joint pain situation because it reminds me how much this stupid condition has changed my life, and then she's a bitch to me today. Yes, I have told her how I feel. We are seeing each other this weekend for dinner. Sweetbaby asked if I really want to see her and I'm kind of thinking that I should cancel. I'm going to try and ask again what the deal is if she does the same argumentative thing with me.

On a related note, The ex-BFF was discussed in Colorado very briefly.  Steffie asked if I have talked to her lately so I assumed that she hadn't contacted her recently either.  Her? 6 months; Me? 2 years.  They used to work together and just didn't keep in touch after she left the company Steffie works for. I didn't get into what happened between us.  One thing about Caryn was that she was always fun and just funny as hell.

Anyway, I'll rehash the visit to Colorado sometime this week.  I will say that it was the BEST! I haven't laughed that much for a whole week for a long time.  Seeing David, Steffie and Doug meant non-stop fun. Old friends are awesome.

Tasks that will distract you from completing a 5 page paper due in 24 hours

• Have a cold that includes a sinus pressure headache
• Decide to do homework for another class that isn't due for 5 days
• Watch the Movie Waitress with the Commentary option on, on the laptop
• Look up the Wikipedia page for the writer and director of Waitress, who was murdered before it was released
• Have the 6 hour documentary of Monty Python: Almost the Truth on mute on the TV
• Deliberately try to run the battery down on iPhone by running the iPod on it
• Check to see what song is playing on iPhone over and over
• Help the husband make a list for Costco
• Check out Twitter
• Take naps induced by Non-Drowsy Sudafed