The thoughts of "Mango" - a 30-something wife, mom and friend...who is learning to take one day at a time.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
See Mango Run!
Just type my name and voila! Kind of reminds of me of the "dot races" at the Spurs and hockey games...without the dots.
Here's been my motto for my entire training: "I have competed well; I have finished the race; I have kept the faith." 2Tim4:7
Thursday, November 13, 2008
50 things...
Check it out.
Friday, November 7, 2008
9:30 p.m.
However, I am watching "Dallas Cowboys Cheerleaders: Making the Team 3." Who knew that seeing women vie for a spot on the most famous cheerleading squad would be so entertaining? I haven't been able to watch it lately due to Moco's football schedule. Now that football season is over...I might have time a few nights a week to watch some regular T.V. Yay!
Not a whole lot has been going on as of late. As mentioned before, finishing up Moco's first season of football. He had a lot of fun and it's something I know he will miss. I know I miss the 3 nights a weeks of 2 hour breaks that I had while he was at practice. Yet, I think I will enjoy some freetime with him as we get ready for the holidays. (Side note: I had to re-type "holiday" over and over again because I am now programmed to type it "h-o-l-l-i-d-a-y." Why? Well, that's how Ms. Lindsay spells her last name. heh.)
For the past 5 months, I've been training to run a race. Now the San Antonio's Rock 'n' Roll Half-Marathon is next weekend! I'm super excited. I'm even more excited that my very best friend in the whole wide world, Moe, might make it down to see me race. Nothing is set in stone just yet, but there's a possibility. I was there when she ran the Dallas White Rock Half-Marathon last year. She and her hubby are my inspiration for beginning to run in the first place. So I'm hoping I do them proud and make it happen! :) I'll keep you posted on how it goes. Moe's already given me a time to beat. ;)
Signing off for now...
Monday, October 27, 2008
How to Save a Life
I hope you will visit my web site often. Be sure to check back frequently to see my progress. Please pass this email on to any of your friends and family. Every effort counts.
*Did you know that Mary Travers, from Peter, Paul and Mary, has been battling Leukemia since 2004?*
Thank you for your support!
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Random quote
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Tweets...
Anyway, become a follower and have fun learning Web 2.0.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
4-0...
| 1 | Team Tarantino | 4-0 | W4 |
| 2 | Team Biggers | 3-1 | W2 |
| 3 | Team Patterson | 3-2 | L1 |
| 4 | Team Wiedower | 2-2 | W1 |
| 5 | Team McCurdy | 1-4 | L4 |
| 6 | Team Holliday | 0-4 | L4 |
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Updating the numbers...
Tomorrow will mark another month that has gone by. I know, I know. I probably promised to do a better job of updating my blog in my last post. No excuses here. I let time slip away from me.
Instead of powering up the computer at home, I go lay on the couch while the hubby designs; slip into some comfy PJs and open up a new read (which just happened for the first time this week); or I wander around my house looking for something to do that will satisfty my need to be doing something. When I do power up the computer, I log into ebay and just look for some random things or read blogs about design, music or paper. Always amazed at the prices people will pay for things. Always amazed at how certain blogs can capture my attention for hours. I should be emailing people about making donations to my Team in Training website (only $1270 to go!)...but I suppose it's my time to decompress. But hey, no excuses. ^_^
I know I will get better with it in due time. Perhaps when I become a stay-at-home mom (my dream job), I will be able to create a schedule that will allow me time to blog. :)
Enough about my blogging...
Today, a healthy, little 6 pound, 9 ounce, baby boy was born to my bestest friend in the whole wide world! While childbirth is something I have yet to experience (and there's a slim chance I ever will), I look upon it as the most experience a woman can ever go through. The miracle of life is just that...a miracle. Bringing a life into the world...whoa! (Sure, you can tell me that adopting a child is like giving them another chance at life, but it's a different kind of miracle. The miracle is that you don't kill a kid for being a booger. heh.) So today, all my love goes out to Moe and her family. May God continue to bless & protect them. (She always wanted to be surrounded by men.)
Friendship...
What is one to do when the phone goes silent on the other end? Wait for the dreaded disconnected signal? Continue to wait thinking it will be a matter of moments before the other comes back? Eh. It's hard to say and it's hard to tell that person waiting what to do. There's a reason certain people are in your life, and there's a reason why they are in your life at a certain time. It might not make sense now, but looking back you'll figure it out.
The kid...
Moco has had some amazing moments during the last month. We took a visit to Goodwill to find items to make his costume. We found them all and are now working on the details of the costume! Getting 4 A's and 1 B on a progress report...he had never done that before "in his whole life!" It brought a tear to my eye as well as to others because he was so amazed at himself. His first visit to a pumpkin patch. Talk about craziness - he couldn't contain his eagerness to run all over the place. We got into a car accident last week and I thought the kid would be tramatized. Still doing great in football. His social schedule is just as bad as our's. :)
The wrap up...
October is very much the doorman to the holiday season. The foliage begins to change colors, the temperature lowers (a wee bit) and I begin to go through my closet trying to find clothes that might make it past the fashion police. Pfft...I've got some serious work to do there.
In the meantime, I'm off to bed to dream of what may come tomorrow. Peace out.
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Points...
Other weekend match ups included Team Tarantino vs. Team Holliday. Team Tarantino dominated the game with 203 points compared to Team Holliday's mere 105 - the lowest of all the teams.
Teams McCurdy, Andrade & Wiedower all received byes this week.
What happened in the Biggers versus Patterson game? Well, Team Patterson had some bad luck with Brady injuring his knee and going out for the season. In a recent Facebook interview, Team Patterson owner Heidi stated that she has " some other tricks up [her] sleeve." The UCB Fantasy Football league can't wait to see what she plans to do.
Again, this is Mango with League UCB's Fantasy Football Follow-Up.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
30 days...almost
- Moco started football! It all started Aug. 1st. I didn't post anything because I didn't know if it was going to stick. Day one of practice had my kid dancing instead of doing a grapevine. (He really didn't know what they were talking about!) A month later and the kid is still going strong. He is on the defensive line. Impressive since he is the youngest and shortest on the team. He's been tackling others that are much larger and have had more experience than he does. Sure - he's got days when he looks more like a tackle dummy than an actual football player...but he's out there. Our first game is on Saturday. I'll keep you posted...
- Moco's first day of school! He started his first official day of school with us on Aug. 25th. Yes, he started school last Spring here, but like he said "It's not the same. I was just the new kid. This is first day of school!" Two weeks into it and we're doing okay. Just started homework this week and no major issues...yet. I'm thinking those issues have passed, but he's still an 8 year old kid.
- Labor Day weekend was spent with me being sick the entire time. It was the first weekend in I don't know how long that Mike took the entire time off...and I was sick. Horrible. We did manage to go out on Friday night to celebrate his 37th birthday. We had tons of fun with friends and family. :) Other than that, we spent the weekend watching T.V. and resting. It was awesome!
Friday, August 15, 2008
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
2,500
See. Right-handed people think I am kidding when I ask for products designed for lefties. It's a serious thing. I could be killed. If not me, then any one of the following left-handed actors (just to name a few):
Dan Aykroyd
Tim Allen
Amitabh Bachchan, Indian actor
Matthew Broderick
Bruce Boxleitner
Carol Burnett
James Cromwell
Tom Cruise
Matt Dillon
Olivia de Havilland
Robert DeNiro
Fran Drescher, comedian
Richard Dreyfuss
Peter Fonda
Terri Garr
Paul Michael Glaser
Whoopie Goldberg
Jim Henson, puppetteer
Kermit the Frog
Angelina Jolie
Nicole Kidman
Lisa Kudrow
Shirley MacLaine
Andrew McCarthy
Kristy McNichol
Steve McQueen
Howie Mandel, comedian
Mary Stuart Masterson
Sarah Jessica Parker
Anthony Perkins
Luke Perry
Bronson Pinchot
Joe Piscopo, comedian
Robert Redford
Keanu Reeves
Julia Roberts
Jerry Seinfeld, comedian
Christian Slater
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Randomness...
Lifetime
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime."
God has His ways....
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
07.28.08
So today is the 29th. It started early as Moco woke up at 3 a.m. We really don't know why except for the fact that Moco said "it's a new day." I went back to bed and he stayed up to just play in his room for a while. When I came back out at 7 a.m., he was serving himself breakfast and chatting it up with Grandma. He finished and asked if I had to go to work. I told him I did, but we would be able to play when I came home. That satisfied him. I walked with him to his room and much to my amazement it was super clean! I mean, everything was put back in it's proper place. The bed was done too! It's not everyday that your kid cleans his room without being told. I praised him for the surprise and that made him happy.
The hubby and I sat down towards the end of the day and talked. We talked about Moco and his new attitude. We've been through a lot with him...so we are not sure what to expect. We hope and pray that the tantrums and everything else will improve now that he is an official part of our family. We know our lives have.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Random Quote
51.54 and more...
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It's time for another road trip to Dallas! Moco and I are going to see Moe & Co. Yay! Even more fun is that Moe & I will be running in a race. I'm not doing anything big, just the 5k. (I had originally wanted to do the 15k, but I didn't have anyone to watch Moco while I ran.) Moco will be "running" with me. I'll keep you posted on how it goes. ;)
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The hubby has been working some serious hours to finish a project. That means that he really hasn't been spending any time at home...leaving the kid and I to hang out together. Since he finally finished the project yesterday, he figured that he would take the son to work today. Moco was really excited and I was ecstatic that I could get ready for work without someone asking me a million questions. They cleaned up the shop and then went for a "working man's lunch." Two grilled cheese sandwiches with fries and sweet teas. The hubby said Moco loved it, especially since he was paid a dollar for his workday. ;)
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Training for the half-marathon in November has been going well. Last week, I ran 6 miles in 1 hour, 45 minutes. It's a horrible time of 17 minutes per mile. I didn't do so hot because I stayed up late the night before plus I drank one too many beers. I'm still not believing that I'm a runner and nights like those can not happen with 6 a.m. run times. I've been running around the neighborhood, but haven't done much practice work. This weekend is what I need to get motivated again. I've got lots of work to do! Argh!
Friday, July 11, 2008
Thursday, July 10, 2008
6 months...
The days of checking in with our caseworker will be gone. The fear that a bruise he received from being a typical boy will turn into a a child abuse investigation will cease. His asking if whether or not we are going to keep for another month will be answered (although, there are still days when we stop to think about it).
Small changes have begun to take place. He will no longer have a multitude of last names to choose from (he's been in 13 foster homes, and he would use whatever last name the foster parents had; which made school work fun). The three of us sit together to have talks and make decisions. He no longer fears the thought of being alone. He looks forward to the future and the thought of being with us until we die. (His words, not mine.)
Adoption is by no means an easy road. It's a very difficult one. The closer we have get to finalizing it, the more the kid throws tantrums. Testing us with every fiber in his being. He thinks "this will be one that sends me someplace else"...we think "how can he scream for 3 hours non-stop? what were we thinking with this kid?" The journey is by no means over. We've got plenty more road to travel. Now, whether it's going to a smooth or rocky one is the question.
Saturday, June 14, 2008
47 minutes
Coach Moe (as Moe is now called) even called to track my progress for today's run and gave her motivational wisdom. In her ongoing efforts to keep me motivated, we are doing the "Too Hot to Handle" 15k in Dallas on July 19th together. I'm excited, but intimidated. This woman is doing more miles than I am in a week and she's preggers. Bleh. It drives the inner competitor in me, so her goal has been accomplished. I'm definitely going to make sure I get more training in as I only have 1 month and 5 days before the 15k.
Most of the women on my team were able to go home and rest. Yeah, not me. Moco was ready to play and I am his playmate of choice. We took Daddy breakfast, then hung out at Hobby Lobby for a good two hours picking out craft projects to do while on vacation next week. Then we came home and worked in the yard, etc. It's been a full day and I am ready to crash. Not just yet though, doing laundry and getting ready for the first Father's Day for the hubby. :)
So I'm off...
Monday, June 9, 2008
Random Quote
Friday, June 6, 2008
Random Quote
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Listening to: Bob Schneider - Flowerparts
via FoxyTunes
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Infinity
On Memorial Day, Moco & I stayed home. Sounds lame, huh? Well, I cut the grass while the kid jumped the backyard fence to play with some new friends. Then we got a surprise when Daddy (a.k.a. Hubby) called and said he would be coming home early from work and be ready to hit the road. We got super excited. Daddy is always, ALWAYS, working. (We have our own business - you get the idea.) As soon as he came home, we hit the road and drove to Corpus Christi. It was tons of fun!
For Tuesday's treat, I picked up Moco and told him if he finished his homework without whining I would drive him to Boerne for dinner and swimming. It was by far the fastest and non-complaining homework session ever! We packed our gear and made it to camp just in time to see Moe driving towards us in a golf cart with the kids. I stopped the car to greet them...all you could hear were cheers of "Munka!! Moco!! You came!!" That's all it took for Moco to jump out of the car and onto the cart. Moe explained they were going on a "dinosaur hunt" and off she drove with 5 kids laughing and singing. Again, we swam, ran, chased fireflies, sang silly songs, rode bikes, and roasted marshmellows.
A quick quote from Moe's email to me this morning:
"The boys were sound asleep all night long. I think we wore them out. They had so much fun last night. I loved to just watch them interact and laugh so purely. It made my heart smile. Moco was so adorable when he got here. You could see how happy he was to be here. That made me feel good that he is relaxed around us and can be comfortable enough to just be himself. Thanks for bringing him."Moco crashed on the way home...the only way I knew was because he stopped talking. He loves going to camp, but especially being with his two pals - JJ & GE. There's something to them not seeing each other for months and then just being the best of friends. No worries, no motives - just pure fun & friendship. It makes me happy to know that my son is making friends that will last him his lifetime.
I absolutely love Moe, JJ, Brit, Alex & GE...and so does Moco.
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Now playing: The Shins - Turn On Me
via FoxyTunes
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Random Quote #3
$2000
So, visit the following link...Mango's Team in Training Site!
Come on now...what are you waiting for?!
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Listening to: Kim Virant - Constant Motion
via FoxyTunes
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
13.1
That's why I joined The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society's Team in Training. They provide you with training for 4-5 months, group training sessions, clinics, and other fun stuff. Everything I need to begin this new adventure. All I have to do is raise funds to go towards cancer research on their behalf. How cool is that?!
Tonight was the information meeting and let me tell you...I'm SO PSYCHED!! Just talking to some of my new "team mates" has totally energized me. They are also pushing me to do the full marathon. Pfft!? Are they crazy?! Then again, it's early in the training and anything is possible at this point.
Pre-season training begins this Saturday at 7 a.m. Early, right?! As God has planned it, I am now used to rising early on Saturdays, so nothing new. (With the adoption of Moco, I have not had a day to sleep late; and Moco wakes up Saturdays at 6:30 a.m. on a regular basis.) It's a simple 2 mile run through Brackenridge Park. The official training season begins June 7th. As of today, I have 5 months and 26 days until the gun goes off!
I ask that you keep me in your prayers as I begin training and to block out Nov. 16th on your calendar so you can see me cross the finish line! ^_^
Monday, May 19, 2008
5 days
"A friend is someone who gives you total freedom to be yourself-and especially to feel, or not feel. Whatever you happen to be feeling at any moment is fine with them. That's what real love amounts to - letting a person be what he really is." - Jim Morrison
"A true friend is one, who sits next to you without talking, who makes you feel comfortable." - Sundeep Reddy
Friday, May 16, 2008
1 month, 12 days: an Interview of sorts
(9:13:12 AM) Lindsay H.: :)
(9:14:31 AM) Monica : reporter hat on here: with 1 month and 12 days to go, what are you feeling about your upcoming wedding day?
(9:15:24 AM) Lindsay H. : lol
(9:16:04 AM) Monica : This is a serious question, that hundreds - okay, tens - of people woud like to know the answer to. Don't you feel like you owe your public an answer?
(9:16:26 AM) Monica : So again, I ask Ms. ...how are you feeling about your upcoming nuptials?
(9:16:38 AM) Lindsay H. : you're making me lol
(9:17:23 AM) Monica : Aside from being all giggly, do you feel nervous?
(9:17:49 AM) Monica : Do you have any idea what your last meal as a single woman would be?
(9:17:50 AM) Lindsay H. : I'm hungry!
(9:17:53 AM) Monica : lol
(9:18:01 AM) Lindsay H. : hahahahahaha
(9:18:09 AM) Monica : Perhaps, cheese pizza and a diet coke?
(9:18:48 AM) Monica : Ms. , I feel like you are avoiding these questions because you are hiding a deeper story...is there anything you would like to share with the online public?
(9:19:17 AM) Monica : OR is this a public relations tactic to keep us in suspense for the ceremony on 28 June?
(9:21:00 AM) Monica : Hmmm...silence...well folks, it looks like we are going to have to wait for a second interview with Ms. - soon to be Mrs. Holliday.
(9:21:19 AM) Lindsay H. : you're good
(9:22:13 AM) Monica : Until next time then...this is Monica with WGBE channel 7 reporting live inside the offices of Granberry Hills.
(9:22:37 AM) Monica : p.s. this is going into my blog. i'm just sayin'
Listening to: Lily Allen - Everything's Just Wonderful
via FoxyTunes
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Thursday, May 8, 2008
18 years...
I just got a phone call from my ultimate best friend, "Moe". When Moe became a mom, it was hard for us to keep in contact with one another. I mean, we used to write letters on a weekly basis just because we both have a serious love of stationery and pens. Then I became a mom...that's when all time escaped from us. We do our best to call one another, but we are very lucky if we get to leave a voice mail. :)
So a phone call in which we actually get to talk to one another is definitely a blessing. That woman can make me laugh and cry like no one else. Most of the time, we're on our way to our offices or just about to enter a meeting so our calls last no more than 5 minutes. That just goes to show you that we are always thinking of one another. We understand each other without having to complete a sentence. We just go "uh-huh" and then we start laughing...knowing exactly what the other one was thinking. Now once I'm off the phone, I can spend the next five minutes trying to regain composure.
I suppose that goes with a friendship of 18 years. I love it.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
4
Everyday I go to work. Since becoming a mom (about 3 months now), I dread walking into the office. Even thinking about work makes me cringe. I'd rather be a stay at home mom and spend time working on crafts, on inventing new ways to teach my child fractions or research the latest findings on ADHD. Yes, that makes me a bit envious of those moms that are able to do so, but I'm happy for them at the same time.
That brings me to the heart of this post. On those days that I do walk into the office...I anxiously await the arrival of two co-workers. No, that's wrong to say. These women are two of my closest friends so they are not just co-workers. Sure our office brought us together in a random way, but I have surely been blessed by this circumstance. Not a day goes by without my randomly walking through the office to see if they have arrived. (Believe me, I'll make up some excuse to walk to the other side of the offices - "oh, your mouse is broken?!" or "let me clean that keyboard for you.")
Since then I have introduced them to my sister and "voilà " we are the four Musketeers! We listen to one another's gripes, talk about everything going on around us...and mostly importantly support one another. Okay, we're not the ladies of "Sex and the City" - but we are pretty damn close.
Therefore, when I begin to bitch about work...I simply think about the awesome people I have been able to meet because of it. Then I get the warm fuzzies. ^_^
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Listening to: Wilco - Should've Been In Love
via FoxyTunes
Monday, April 28, 2008
I'm around...and just for Sandrine...5
It just sucks the life out of me at times. I'll write more soon, so to remind myself - here are some snippets:
- Moco's 1st Parade
- Moco's 1st gymnastic class
- Hubby & I go to NIOSA
- A Beach Adventure
- Lack of training
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
No. 2
Last night, while jotting down notes about the day...I stopped and took a glance at my pencil. It's your run-of-the-mill Mirado Black Warrior No. 2 HB pencil. It's one of the smoothest pencils that I have ever written with. It even smells good, especially when freshly sharpened. A slight whiff of Cedar. Ahhh....
I get to work and pop out my two "work instruments" - the Mirado Black Warrior and my Bic Crystal Ballpoint pen. In a day and age of gel inks, etc. I still prefer the formers.
It's just how I roll...er, write. :)
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Now playing: The Old Haunts - Volatile
via FoxyTunes
Sunday, April 20, 2008
3
Three nights of "chick flicks". All by myself; with no one else in the room. Just me and my cat Zoe.
I must admit it was quite nice. I don't think I've been able to do that for a while now. It allowed me to relax ... to not think about the trials and tribulations of parenting an 8 year old.
;)
Edit: For those who asked, I watched the following: Juno, The Jane Austen Book Club & Lars and the Real Girl :)
Thursday, April 17, 2008
15/1
I also did the following:
- 3 reps of pull-downs
- 3 reps of lateral fly
- 3 reps of pectoral fly
- 2.5 reps of drop hang knee lifts (for lower abs)
- 3 reps on the hip abductor machine
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Now playing: Survivor - Eye Of The Tiger
via FoxyTunes
Random Quote
"It is human nature to think wisely and act in an absurd fashion." - Anatole France
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
7 months
My New Year's Resolution was to get into better shape. My best friend "Moe" decided to up the ante. She decided that we could both run a half-marathon together. "Great," I thought...only Moe had already been training & completed a half-marathon. Being the friend that she is, she encouraged me that it would be a good thing and we could do it together.
January comes along and I begin researching running. I check out books, search the Internet for good training programs, and Moe buys me some running gear - now we both have matching socks & caps. [Side note:You may think me crazy to "research running" but there are a ton of things that one wouldn't know about the sport if you had never, ever attempted it before. So there!]
We're finally into February and I've dabbled with working out & running - nothing serious. Then I get a phone call from Moe. She delivers the message as such:
Moe: hey there...what ya doing?There went my training partner and coach. Selfish, I know...but I had these dreams of a glorious accomplishment as I crossed the finish line. Then again, I thought to myself, I hadn't started training so nothing was lost.
Me: At Moco's soccer practice. What's up?
Moe: Have you started training for the marathon yet?
Me: I wish. Moco has consumed my life and I haven't even truly started.
Moe: Well, it looks like you are going to have to do it alone.
Me: Huh? What do you mean?
Moe: If I did run it, it would be with a baby stroller.
Me: WTF?! Are you trying to tell me you're preggers?! *jumping up and down*
Moe: *laughing* Yes.
Towards the end of March, our new family was getting into a rhythm and Moco wasn't taking so much of my time. That's when I finally decided that I needed to do something for myself. I once again set my goal to complete a half-marathon. I'm going to gym, cracking open the books again, and trying to stay motivated. It's going to be a long journey for me - the novice runner. However, I am sure it's one I can do. :)
After all, I have 7 months to make it happen. Right?!
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Now playing: Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends
via FoxyTunes
3
Honestly, there are days when I am unsure on what to blog about. I don't read the news enough to give my opinion about what's going on. Although I should. I love new, indie, alternative music, but don't listen often enough to my Independent radio stations to report what's going on there. Bleh.
I just have to find my blogging rhythm and make it work. I'm sure once I've got some other contributing stresses out of the way, I will be a better blogger.
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Now playing: Q And Not U - Wet Work
via FoxyTunes
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
6.5
The boss frequently forgets about the new addition in my life and how it has impacted my work schedule. He calls me into meetings minutes before I am to leave to pick up "Moco" (aka my son) from school. Luckily, I have plenty of co-workers who are not afraid to run in and remind me (and the boss) that I have to leave.
However, he's not the only one at fault. I, too, am guilty of not leaving on time. I used to be "that worker." The dedicated one who would spend hours at work, whether or not I really needed to. I would help out in other departments...even hang out in the office during the weekends to help with weddings (my office happens to be located at a reception facility). I was just always there.