Changing Job

Journey begins with thinking, and with beliefs. This is my first post since after year 2017 and I don't think many people reading blogs in these years as there are many chatting or dating apps which can be downloaded and put into our devices today. 

Well..now is already the end of October 2019 which 2019 is going to be end in coming 60 days. What have I done this year only found out few new products for farmers, and learn to give good services to client. However, as people said "we learn from mistake, we know from experience".  I have been in  veterinary pharma field already almost 3 years and I do happy when I see my repeating order, which means results seen and satisfaction occurs. 

These two months have been not smooth for me not only on my business financial status, my public relations also affected or polluted. As this is economic downturn, I do faced challenges here and there by collecting and making payment so and forth to/ from parties related. Apart from that, as we chinese buddhist beliefs, "fan xiao ren" and "fan tai sui" is very tiring things. As my friend told me, next year "rat year" is going to be harmful for us"horse" zodiac. 

So, this putting me suddenly have something in my mind. I've been told by one of my former lecturer in uni, and I think he make sense. His statement is " Why not you try something new with your current age, and your qualification before is too late to be" . All right, I'm actually plan to work on it. I think it is time for me to change my environment and learning new things. Therefore, I've actually make up my mind instead of continue doing the same thing while seeing only thick cloud in front, I should turn the steering wheel to other pathway. But I know, I will miss my supportive client very much, and also few fellow supporters behind. 

Hii readers,

I'm back. Wow..here comes year 2017 and we are already about half from the journey. What happened this year hor? Hmm...let me think...err..for business, due to economy downturn and many other obstacles happening, my sales seems dropping compared to previous year. I do feel upset and stressful, but what to do? life goes on.

Ohh ya I knew a wonderful girl from my uni engineering field, let's call her Miss J. Miss J is a beautiful lady with kind hearted. I do impressed by her. I have a very good start with her as we chat almost every hour every day. When I realise, we already knew for almost 6 months but haven't meet each other and verbally for more than half an hour. Honestly, I fell into her as she is so adorable and with her good character. She is really a girl who any guy not afford to lose.

However, things changed when time tickling. Maybe I am really failed in tackle girl at first hand. Until recently I felt our distance getting further and further starting from this month. I can accept if she is moody due to exam and let's say if she really want to focus on her paper. Friendly speaking, I really dont know how to understand girl feeling. I only know I like, I care of her, I want her to be with me.  Yesterday she told me she dont want me to get wrong meaning from her. I feel sad as I really dont know what to say at that time. Maybe she got her Mr. Right and I do not know?

I really appreciate Miss J all these while and months accompany me in whatsapp. I really miss her now. I fall into her.

If God really read this, I will appreciate if God can give me the way to sort this out.

End up MBA 2016

Life goes on as we grow older, and people comes and go throughout our life in the sense that we have no excuse to ask someone or something to stay off with the proper reason.

I never think of I will finish my MBA in two and the half year time as I thought I will not manage to finish. As a single person of me, relationships really killing me during my first year of Master and I choose to put her off for our better life. Well here comes to end of MBA in Swinburne, memories of sweet and bitter still remain in my mind but to put aside as we move on. 

The death of my dad really change my life as I started his career which I never think of doing since I was a kid until his death back in beginning of 2015. From what I understand from this field here is public relations is important than anything from our education background. Therefore, to move in this field from a tiny pathway really challenge me as I do not have any guide from my late father anymore. So all these while I am doing it according to my late father PR, some knowledge from what I know and seen back in several years. 

Half working and study is not an easy task as time management is really important. As a starter of me, I ruined one of my subject because of family issues after the death of my father. I was empty, hopeless at that time until I slowly climb up from my fall. 

Hello readers, finally I have done with my degree life in Swinburne...let me see how many years i was there...hmm..1, 2, 3...wow..4 years....time passes very fast..we no longer 18 and no longer 21.and we grow older... Throughout this four years I have learned a lot...stress  a lot...cry and laugh a lot....although is a tough university life, but when think back...it is a great experience.

Honestly, I rather go back to study rather than work sometimes. Blogging I think is a good place for me to shout out...as hardly find a trustworthy person to talk to in this lovely city. Blog not necessary everyone will read, and not all my friends know i got a blog here.. but i don't know if "she" will read it sometime..i guess she will not..Talk about "she"...She is a girl who i know and admire since starting of my degree life...3 years..till now she is only my close friend...no development...u can imagine how failure i am.. maybe is my fault...

This month getting boring as all of us busy with our own stuff.. hope to get back here soon....

I like to write something here as my blog readers nearly zero compare to the others...so I can have no worry people will read or offended.

Human being nowadays are realistic and materialistic, especially in this IT world. One of my friend told me "you don't have to be too kind sometime..just let them be...they will not remember you" this sentence although i know..but I do not practice always...

I have step into my uni life in Swinburne by year 2008. Due to some reasons, my duration of study become delay. So my groups of friends who go into with me now most of them have graduated. Therefore we have less time hang together and meet each other around campus and also outside the campus. Because they have their own work to busy with, and I have my study to busy with. 

What I found is that some people tend to stay away from their uni mates after they have graduated. Maybe is the mindset of different people, which we cannot think of. But they will come and find you if they need you, they will not come to you when they don't need you. Therefore I have get use to this culture already in this city. I have learned what is realistic and who are my friend. Everyone of us got  value and need feel being respected, neither do I. So if people feel like not to share with us, we are not necessary to be included. 

my friend...Mr Chai...he tell me something which I think is quite true. He told me that if the girl is so close and familiar with u...u probably will not tell her that u like her (if u like her) At first I asked why? But when I think back...it is quite true...because we tend to not hurt the second party or both side maybe..

The brief explanation is that if I tell her, there is two possibility. First, she likes u and accept u as her lover. Second, she only treat me like best friend...and she might escape from me. Here comes a decision making when I reach the custom.. Shall I go? Or just stay? Many encouraged me to tell her..the problem that I faced is I do not know whether she likes me or not? and what is the position of me in her heart...thats what confusing me.. I can be sure that I am not her cup of tea.. She likes western restaurant while I am not very like. I like coffee while she not interested in drinking coffee.

I just need a girlfriend who simply care about me..share together everything...cute and kind enough to talk to.

I don't think got people will come to my blog here and read anyway..since I quit blogging for quite some time....and Im bad in blogging...my blog is not as colourful and nice as others.

Well , talk about my life recently. Still as usual, busy...busy...sleep..hang out...boring.....
This semester seems like tougher than previous semester a lot as I am doing my final year project, tired and stress to the max...only left 2-3 weeks to final exam...OMG...how am I going to do? Think about it* hmm....

So far all the assignment going quite well and smooth, I am leader for 4 assignments in 4 subject....clever le? hiong le? Actually I am not...I rather dont want be a leader...many to busy a bout...workload is heavier...but so so far my members are well communicated and co-operate with me...except Capstone got some barriers...which is "Superwoman".

Talk about "Superwoman", its not good to expose her name...lets call her Superwoman then. She is smart and steady..but anyway, she is very pattern la....She is like proud of herself that she is pro and clever, plus think that she is the prettiest in the class...Nothing can be denied that she is smart, but I don't like her style...make me sick ...If I know that I rather ask her to be a leader then...at least she better than me...haha...I totally shoot by her....
Ok..nevermind, that day I messaged her that ask her whether want to be co-leader for the team...i told her she can lead better than me...why don't u lead? Haihh...what funny thing is that yesterday we supposed to held a meeting regard project plan.....but she can't attend...one of my member knew that she is absent...she happy like hell and said "she cannot come? wow..thats nice..." I speechless...lol...but so far we managed to catch up....time does not wait for us...

Tomorrow will be friday...as usual...will spend the night with badminton...nothing much special...boring...sometime i wonder how to make our life so that we not feel boring?