Sunday, October 10, 2010
DONORS CHOOSE!
So there's this website I heard about through people in my early childhood education classes this past summer! It's called Donorschoose.org and it is a website that teachers go and ask for materials for their classroom and people donate money to get the project funded! and do you know what? IT REALLY WORKS!!! I have already gotten one project funded and delivered and today i just got another one funded!!! Can you believe how wonderful that is?! That people care enough about education, my kids, what I do, everything to give to my projects! It gives me chills and shivers!!! I am just so amazed of how people will just donate to something so wonderful!! I am just so happy right now. Thank you to all my friends and family who believe in what I do as much as I do, the people who love my children as much as I do! Thank you all so very much!!!
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Old school poems shot outs haha
Take me back to yesterday let me breathe that air, nothing is what it seems to be and life is never fair. I want the smile of innocence to still be in the unknown, the more I know the more I crumble and just want to go home. Everyday is harder and leads me further from you, into the chaos of this ugly world with nothing trite or true. I want to recklessy love and hold nothing for myself, for my hands have turned so green with greed there's hardly anything left. Nothing left to want or need but only a need for love, to love someone ive never known or something I've never thought. One day my life will flash before my eyes and I hope that this is true, that my happily ever after ending was with only you.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
it's been a while.
life has been so busy and so full,
time has flown by and somehow i'm still keeping my head above water.
i take my ppr exam tomorrow then it's just finishing this class, hoping i pass the ppr, and taking a 10 day course in Commerce this summer and i'll be a certified teacher! Crazy what you can get when you get after it.
life is great everything is grand.... i've been dealing a lot lately with people and telling people lately you can't have everything but then again i mean can you really? the only person you i think is remotely close is Tiff, everyone else i feel could use something and the more i accomplish the more it is evident to me the thing i am lacking. it's never bothered me before, but now i wondering if some of the sacrafices i made once were what should have been sacraficed. I mean you can't have it all but what if the things i always wanted in reality wasn't what I needed at all? I guess you can't really complain despite the life I've been given somehow God always manages to lay out my cobblestone sidewalk minutes before i walk forward.
i've forgiven an old friend in my heart, one in which i never thought i could ever. but i did, and it came so naturally. I realized i learned this gift of forgiveness when i missed her. the hatred i once felt seemed stupid and immature, and i'm sure it was, but for the longest time it hurt me so deep I couldn't even look at her more less miss her. and the other day my heart missed her and i wanted to badly to call her to catch up.
it's funny the things that meant so much that don't anymore. I find myself wondering often to an old loves facebook page, technology can be such a burden at times as i see myself typing in his name just for confirmation that he is happy and doing well. and he is. staring back at me i see this man, this grown man, whom ive never known at all, but then i see the boy that i loved for five very long years, i never thought i would ever stop loving him, but the older i get the more he just seems so ordinary, so basic and simple. I think of the life i could have had if things would have been different, but then i quickly switch away like i've been caught and realize that he too is only an old friend that i have forgiven and would like to catch up with. i miss the boy i knew. the funny carefree boy i knew. but the man and the father i see, i do not wish to ever meet.
that's all i have that i'm moving and as i am the fog lifts enough for me to see the path in which God is leading me. and one day when that path comes to a gazebp, and beautiful it will be, i will have everything and i will look back on this post as i do many of my decisions and writings of the past and laugh at the immaturity that is myself.
time has flown by and somehow i'm still keeping my head above water.
i take my ppr exam tomorrow then it's just finishing this class, hoping i pass the ppr, and taking a 10 day course in Commerce this summer and i'll be a certified teacher! Crazy what you can get when you get after it.
life is great everything is grand.... i've been dealing a lot lately with people and telling people lately you can't have everything but then again i mean can you really? the only person you i think is remotely close is Tiff, everyone else i feel could use something and the more i accomplish the more it is evident to me the thing i am lacking. it's never bothered me before, but now i wondering if some of the sacrafices i made once were what should have been sacraficed. I mean you can't have it all but what if the things i always wanted in reality wasn't what I needed at all? I guess you can't really complain despite the life I've been given somehow God always manages to lay out my cobblestone sidewalk minutes before i walk forward.
i've forgiven an old friend in my heart, one in which i never thought i could ever. but i did, and it came so naturally. I realized i learned this gift of forgiveness when i missed her. the hatred i once felt seemed stupid and immature, and i'm sure it was, but for the longest time it hurt me so deep I couldn't even look at her more less miss her. and the other day my heart missed her and i wanted to badly to call her to catch up.
it's funny the things that meant so much that don't anymore. I find myself wondering often to an old loves facebook page, technology can be such a burden at times as i see myself typing in his name just for confirmation that he is happy and doing well. and he is. staring back at me i see this man, this grown man, whom ive never known at all, but then i see the boy that i loved for five very long years, i never thought i would ever stop loving him, but the older i get the more he just seems so ordinary, so basic and simple. I think of the life i could have had if things would have been different, but then i quickly switch away like i've been caught and realize that he too is only an old friend that i have forgiven and would like to catch up with. i miss the boy i knew. the funny carefree boy i knew. but the man and the father i see, i do not wish to ever meet.
that's all i have that i'm moving and as i am the fog lifts enough for me to see the path in which God is leading me. and one day when that path comes to a gazebp, and beautiful it will be, i will have everything and i will look back on this post as i do many of my decisions and writings of the past and laugh at the immaturity that is myself.
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