breathe in

God knows how long had i neglected. ok i meant Abandoned this little cutie place. xP

had a loonngg day. too tired to blabber.

yet i insist to sign in here, my long-lost friend.

Cause, for the record, I HAVE COMPLETED HIGH SCHOOL.

ta-ta SPM =)

more of me coming up. ;)

when you ran so hard and realize that you're going backwards

It's amusing how true it is that we humans only start to turn around and look at what we've dropped on the way when we got crashed down, Hard. after weeeks n weeks of not feeling the urge to blog, i am here signing in again and reading through the elements in this little space of mine that seem so cheerful and light, i learn how to spell c-o-n-t-r-a-s-t.

Being me and me again, it's always the same old issue, the same lame thing but sadly, the same old stuff that literally decides my whole state of mind. ouch. i nearly forgot that "state of mind" is a sore wound in only-god-knows-how-much-i-screwed-it-English paper today.

You might be guessing now. Yes, you're right. It's just-kill-me exam issues again.it seems like i never learnt my lesson after all. things don't seem to work and now i dun even know what's my problem. great.

you expected, she expected, they expected and at the end even i expected.

Once again, expectation = disappointment. did i actually found a constant theory?

I always thought that thinker is so uncool, till i ponder upon and realize that i became a thinker without knowing it. do people have chats with themselves inside?? maybe i am turning into a freak. hmm how cool is that??

ohh i hear maths screaming for me!! wish me lucck~ and it better works :p

c:

ciao!~

there's a junction without a signboard =/

Go up and down.Go up and down.Go up and down.Go up and down.Go up and down.

Go up and down.Go up and down.Go up and crushed.Go up and down.Go up and down.

Go up and down. Go up and down. Go up and down. Go up and down. Go up and down. .

When the storm comes,

Let it cry till there's nothing left to flow.

Stop caring ; Stop bothering

The toughest thing to do; The truest lie to tell yourself.

The best shield??

yeaa. if it's as easy as that =[

whenitfeelsfaraway

stop n stare

"Tomorrow'll be the last day of CNY."

Hmm yea looks like i gotta start registering that thought in my mind. Yours truly planned to blog about my awwesoome CNY this year but found that the memories, sweet or bitter (i mention sweett first cause its the major one :] ) , are simply too much n too tedious to put them into words. A.k.a I'm laziee to write laa xP Lotsa things, feeling, thoughts that would take me a long time to find the best words to describe cause they're all unique in their own way!!

dinner with in-laws,movieess,back to muar,lobster dinner,pink panther party,

BR iceecreaam,loud open house fiesta,angpau from teachers.

Hmm see!! listing them down and figure out that it's only a shorty list makes my precious memories seem pathetic :S Amazing huh, things that seem so meaningful to one, might be just 2 lines of crappie words to some others..

Hmm it was our school's sports day too. It was definitely more grand and more up to standard this year but it wasn't really a feel-good day for me while everyone seemed to be enjoying it so much. Something just seemed to be missing and I definitely missed out a lot this year. Sometimes you realise that when you don't find your face in any photos. Pathetic, but that seems to be a kinda ongoing trend nowadays. Anyhow, our threesome gang of gals managed be the top 100plus seller!! *bangga* xD

Hmm i started all my paragraphs with "hmm"!! Could that be in some sorta "my boulevard book of records" or sumthg?? xDD

Hmm perhaps it's time to stick my face back on my books..

Just to ensure tissues would not be needed when the upcoming exam haunt spreads its claw. :S

ohh HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

there's 29hours left before it ends so its not a belated one. bah~ x)

till then peeps! :)

timesiwishu'dbthr

dewdrops sparkling on ze hearts

Sometimes

a song, a melody, a line of lyrics

could just strike you

and it feels so right.

And you ended up wandering in your own thoughts all day

wondering who's that brilliant person who wrote it

and hit just right there.

"Make it all better when Im feeling sad
Tell me im special even when i know im not
Make me feel good when i hurt so bad
-
Piece me back together when i fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends"
-Plain white tee-

"For the way you changed my plans

For being the perfect distraction

For the way you took the idea that I have

-

For the way you're something that I never choose

But at the same time something I don't wanna lose

And never wanna be without ever again

-

My accidental happily
The way you smile and how you comfort me"

-NeYo-

"when you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away

So i try to find the words that i could say"

-Simple Plan-

"Who would have ever knew

That we would ever be more than friends
We're real worldwide, breaking all the rules"

-Iyaz-

"There's always that one person

that will always have your heart

You never see it coming cause

you're blinded from the start"

-Usher-

"1.2.3.4"

- C -

And when they're all collected

It becomes a story.

A story that tells all and

have your fingers tapping along

and head swinging around

to the rhythm of the key that struck your <3

When the dewdrops sparkle on the hearts

you believe that magic's never been that true

And they do fit perfectly.

Happy Valentine's Day!!

specially for you.

cheers with shrimp hearts!!

:P

♥

Accidentally In Love by Counting Crows

say HEY!!

It has been a crazy week.

No.

Maybe not physically but it's like tornado inside.

Say hi to my newly-born word.

Emoism.

Haa..guess what, after staring at my screen to think of how to sort out my thoughts for like 5minutes?? I ended up realising my introduction's somewhat cool weh. ;P

okaay. I am being weird. Real weird. Don't shoot me that *ceh~* look. I just can't help it.

It's been a weird weird week.

Randommoodswings.chasingtimelikemad.slavinghardtosettleleoVdaysales.

Decipheringyourmind.Bombardedbycrazilyplungingexamresults.Lubricatingtensions.

Overcomingnumbnessofbrain.Survivingsuperlackofsleep.Sufferingtiredandpainlimbs.

baaahhh!!~ theere they're ouutt..

phew~ sorry peeps, strain your eyes a BIT if you're interested xP

oohh i almost let the most important one out..

REALISING THAT IT'S FEBRUARY ALREADY??!!!

which is synonym to..

SPM is 9 months awaay??!

wth 9 is like so small a number

O.0!!

tension tension weh. >.<

okaay the good news is CNY is just 1 week awaayyYAY!!

Can't wait to wear my new clothes ;P and eat tonnes of nice nice fooooddd..

Now this is tempting me even more..but i still gotta get past the 4x400m competition next week.

Torturous. How on earth am i going to run against zahra and those gilely fast gals without Raja Nurliyana in our team??!! gosh gosh fainting anytime soon. >.<

Okie it's late and need to get my heavy body back in school tomorrow..for gotong royong!! =..=

painting fiesta!~ I'd at least try to enjoy it. =.=

Cheers peeps!!

signing off.

youshowmemiracle

justwhenitsneeded

smiling till the world could not be seen ;D

It's time out from the cage agaainn!!~ xD

a.k.a we just finished another one of those countless examss.

it's just intervensi 1 but still i can't figure out why i was having a harder time than last year's final. I'm not so satisfied this time round and let's just wait for the red numbers on the exam papers to do the talking next week. they'll be falling down like bombs and i'll try my best to stick in one piece. U.U

School has never been this great actually, at least i am feeling good. ok, ignore zee exam part ;P. People are getting more n more fun and dunno why gossips are getting more n more juicy also (i guess that's supposed to be a bad thing huh). Different things keep popping up and it's really like going through the void, unraveling the unknown surprises.

One thing i like most about exam period is that no one will come knockin on your door bringing jobs or chores or make any fuss with you cause it's exam time n any slight emo-ing o fussing will "affect your A-s performance"!! LOL. And even teachers will try to avoid lecturing or being too strict with us~ buahaha..So I am gratefully happy that problems are kept out of my boundaries and worries are made sure to be kicked away cause we're so delicate and exam is the king here, yea!!~ now i sound like an exam-nerd-freako xD

Life goes on for me as usual, laughing hard, thinking hard, teasing hard and talking hard..in fact i think i got even louder and crazier + more random now. gosh i dunno whether it's a good thing but yea at least it's a no fuss period. Hmm..but nowadays staying back ain't suffering anymore ;) guess that's one of the best things that i am ever granted ;D heehee.

Ooh and I went sleeping over at my eldest sis's place and had baking time again!! wee~it's so fun spending time together. Trust me, seeing the cake coming out from the oven is exciting but bitting on the warm soft cake on a rainy afternoon with people i love, is simply heaven-like. We did coffee crumble and apple crumble, i wonder what's next. hmm so gonna do it more often and we're gonna have our own baking collection hehe. I tried my hand on my B-I-L's Xbox 360 too!! car racing. crashed non-stop and my BMW Coupe looked totally pathetic at the end xP

It's one of the inspiring periods too.

I never truly believe that when our life is calm and peaceful and feel so so RIGHT, others might be having turbulence and undergoing a real hard time. Maybe we simply just got too much of ourselves and tend to forget about others. I come upon this rare chance to reach out and boy! I discovered and learnt so much. Hoping that I did use some help for u all. Don't worry, the storm will pass =)

Some humble thoughts to share.. ;)

Things always cross paths with a reason and sometimes,

maybe we just have to look away and release our grip so we can see better.

Need to keep going!! wugaga~ ;D

Enjoy life peeps!!

TheySimplyFittedPerfectly

GreatThingsAlwaysHappenUnexpectedly

youmademebelievethat.

buckle up and off we go

It's the first week of school....

Gosh i've stared at that line for 5mins and don't know how to continue it. So yea The tonnes-of-thoughts-to-tell-but-wth-i've-no-idea-where-to-start-feeling is officially making its grand debut again. *slap me* xD

okaayy. let's see what i have..

*drums roll*

i am in back in 5sc1 with everyone!!

ohh there's 2 new members too, Siti and Kenny.

We're on our mission to corrupt Siti while I am on my very own mission to save aqilah sayaang back from kenny. xDD

our seats in class is almost exactly the same. feels like deja vu weh.haha but still no complains cause i got my favourite seat baacckk!! heehee :) ooh and really really happy + excited + delighted to see the gila2 ones, someone/that one and everyone!! :DD

It is just the first week of our fateful Form 5 and we already got terrorized by the teachers about how freaking near is SPM =..= well at least they're right about the 1st test being very very very near like 1 week awaayy?? hate it when we have to survive an exam 1st before CNY and the ULTIMATE 1 is having our mid-year exam falling on my bday!!! =..= that proves my bday's a good day?? haha.

Clubs and prefects stuff are same ol' packed and endless.......

ooh i've got a funny thing to share!

there's this guy who scolded me the F word at the canteen when i asked him to takeaway his own plate and what amused me was the fact that i wasn't angry. Instead, i felt a sudden urge to say YERRR!!~ *LOL* it's ok if you don't get my joke, not many do. hehe.

oohh and after not training for so long, taekwondo's breaking my bones, >.<. but still it makes me feel good everytime after training. that's what make it special =D And did i mention that friday was my best ever day this whole week?? especially in the afternoon. heehee.

The last laugh of the week in class?? water and soluble substances can be coded as Wong Syok Sendiri. =..= so we can remember the bio facts easier. LOL i am yet to find out who suggested that to the teacher.

hmm i think that's about it. Macam very loonng essay hor?? well actually the main main point is..

how's Form 5?? So far so good laa.. x)

afterall..what will be, will be, right right??

It's the last last year i'll be in school. I know i better cherish and enjoy it till the last drop.

and yea i'll make sure of that. so no more :( faces ppl!!

so what now?? TV time?? xP

signing off.

=)

neverknewthataheartcudbesosweet

iguessthatswhy

thereisawordcalledsweetheart

Our wildest dreams could be so easy

(check that out, the kids aren't leaping over the other side,

they're actually just laying on the road. ;D )

Now, relate that.

Dear self reminder,

yea, sometimes all we need is to be

a little braver ; a little tougher,

a little more confidences; a little more faith in ourselves

and

a little nudge from someone.

and tadaa!!~ we're there already without us knowing it.

It's a new year so it's time to get our hott butts ;P off the couch and start fighting for what we want.

Just do it peeps!!!

And when things gone wrong, just remember to Laugh.It.Off.

The world doesn't end there. =)

oohh a freaking long time ago,

i always thought that black nails are simply insanity.

But check that out, that's my own freaking nails freshly coloured a week ago!!

(the right toe's flowers' nicer. heehee.)

Ha Ha..that proves people do change huh?especially girls ;P

Belum cuba belum tahu,

Sekali cuba hari-hari mahu, kan kan??

*LOL*

ok ok i know u're doing that "adui~" look,

come on, just gimme a thumb up!! =D

(see..i am good. i ain't asking for 10 thumbs ;P)