The return of Florence TAN!

ok, after being lost for so so so long,

i am back,

it has been a while~

time flies ei...

hvnt been blogging for the past 1 month, well, nearly!

omg!!!

this is freaking bad!

GUYS AND GIRLS!!!

I am at kuching!

hahahahah~~~

getting used to the hot and humid weather..

But,

i am sick now~~~

flu, cough cough cough~~~~

omg...

i hate this!!!!

but, thank god everyone;s by my side,

as if i am dying, hahahah

omg.

but, life is good!

love my life now~

about the tax return!!!

i got some money back!!!

woohoo!!!!!

praise the lord!

=)

to all those ppl!!!!

ello~~~~ i miss you~~~~

to my dearest Kok Wee:

YOU ARE THE BEST!!!!!

THANKS FOR BEING SO SO SO SO SO ORGANIZED AND WHATEVER....

YOU ARE GOOD!!!

things to do in ADL:

(1) practise my piano~(My brother is playing so much better than me, not happy)

(2) keep partying!!!! bring it on~(by partying, i mean, singing, ok???)

(3) keep eating~~~~~cherries, plums, avocados, whatever, come!!!! to my tummy!!!!

(4) get my IELTS outta the way!!!!!

(5) facial!!!! (gotta be pretty for your own graduation ei?)

(6) Melbourne!!!!!!!! not buying LV this time....

(7) keep missing my fellow high school friends~~~ (why why why!!! cant we all meet????)

(8) full time job! (hate working, but thank god I still have something to do)

(9) PR application (fan!!!!)

(10) keep missing Kok Wee.... oh my Kok Wee~~~~

sometimes

有时～我就只想什么都不要想。 ～～～我就只要牵着你的手。 ～～～我就想呆呆的看着你。 ～～～我就想牢牢地抱着你。 ～～～我就想对着你发呆，至少，我知道你在我身旁。 ～～～我就想做我想做的事，不管别人的眼光。 ～～～我就想一个人走很远，很远的路。 ～～～拿着我的相机，一个人慢慢的拍。 ～～～我就想跟一帮朋友吃喝玩乐，没有忧虑，没有烦恼，没有金钱，没有地位，没有利益的存在。 ～～～躺在沙滩上，让暖暖的海水拍打自己的身体，暖暖的太阳晒在自己的脸上。 ～～～有时～ 还是～做自己好～

可怜～～～～

（1）这几天，睡眠不是很好，晚上很累，真的很累，以躺在床上，失眠，每天5点多自然醒，哇靠～我不用那么早醒的。。。今天，特地请了病假，想好好休息，但，就逼自己睡了好多次回笼觉。精神紧张。。。压力大。。。{:4_136:}

（2）大学生涯的最后两篇论文交了，应该无事一身轻才对吧？但，又忧郁了。老师，我们被你折磨了好一段时间了。你，就放过我们把。。。{:4_143:}

（3）周二，要考osce。真后悔，后悔上我的大学。。。人家，都放假了，我们，还在实习，还在考什么笨osce.omg~~~~还说什么这个topic是non accumulative,就算总分70，一向没过关，就不能毕业。坑爹的。有三项，我两项过了，现在就等osce.每天活在这种高压的环境下，我会被煮得很熟的。。。{:4_177:}

（4）6个笨scenario，考过了又考，老师，你都自己说你没有在医院上班很久了，你，还会了解外面的世界吗？为什么一定要我们死背那6个scenario啊？不会烦吗？而且，那6个scenario，你有确定会发生在我们身上？唉。。。服了你们。{:4_147:}

（5）考一个笨20%的quiz，要不要让75%的人都当掉啊？你们是要让75%的人不能毕业吗？又说non accumulative，到最后又说去实习吧，到最后再看怎么样。哇靠～实习了，过关了，quiz不过，你不让人过关，他们不就白白实习了？{:4_193:}

睡觉～～～～～我要逃避～～～～～残酷的现实～～～～～{:4_129:}

Blessings in Disguise

(1) Amy is a 57 year old lady who used to enjoy working. She worked as a cashier in Big W for several years. She is widowed at a very young age, having to raise 3 children is not an easy task for her. Amy has 2 daughters and 1 son. They thought live could not be that hard with mum around them, loving and caring for them, giving them emotional supports and preparing lovely authentic Italian and Aussie crusine. However, life is cruel at times, she was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis at 50, and with that disease, there is no cure for it at this stage. She went in to the stage of grieving and denial. She was asking God, “God, why does this have to happen to me?”…. At the same time, she was rejected by her family, her sister didn’t want to accept the fact that Amy has MS. Thank God her children are always there for her. At the age of 54, she was admitted into a nursing home, for she just could not do anything for herself, she could not even move, at all. Let’s think about this, we have been doing things for ourselves since we were taught how to shower ourselves properly at the age of 4(That’s my case, anyway), eating by ourselves at the age of 2, maybe? We have our own ways of doing things and some people just take things for granted, buy hating her and thinking that she is a nuisance by ‘being demanding’. Amy is a lovely lady who attends mass regularly and I always talked to her when I was discouraged and she would encourage me, saying that the Lord has his plans for me. There are several times where I spoke to her and she told me about her MS, she told me her MS is a blessing in disguise as if it wasn’t for the MS, she would not met me and a lot of other pleasant girls. I was almost in tears as I really felt that I am being appreciated, not abused. She showed me her hand, last year, she could barely move her hands, and today, she can actually move her hands up and down as she desired, and she told me, that is the power of prayers. Amy kept encouraging me to pray, I pray a lot myself, believing, hoping and having faith in HIM and I know that he will provide, he will never forsake and forget me, His Daughter. God’s love never fails, it never give ups, it never runs out on me, through the fire and the sea, his love is constant, and it never changes… The facts of Amy’s MS are defeated by God’s truth. People, I know there are times when we are struggling, financially or whatever, but, please believe that there is someone there for you. I was a girl with low self esteem and all those crap in my teens despite having good grades and such, if it wasn’t for God, I think I am still living in depression and lack of confidence. Joy, faith, hope, love, blessings have filled my life ever since I surrendered my life to Him, the only saviour.

God is Great!

I now realised God is great (not that i've never realised before), God 's blessing is falling down like rain in my life and I am grateful that God love everyone of us~

A few days ago, i got another position in Perth, asking me if I am interested, I was like, I thought it's over. God work in his mysterious ways. I thought after that rejection letter, everything is over! practically over. He has his own timing, sometimes, I am just too impatient to wait for the right time to come, but I know God will provide the best.

At this stage, I am praying that I wont have to pay so much tax... according to a few accountant friends of mine, after they tried doing my tax return, i owe the taxation office AUD $2500, i was like, omg!!!! half of my chanel is gone and i hvnt even buy it~

going to church, going to pray~

Hello~~~~

assignments are killing me~

omg~~~~

but thank god i am writing them on placement.

bit naughty of me doing that,

but~~~ who cares?

there;s nothing for me to do anyway.

hahahah~

it has been good~

i wrote a lot while i am on placement.

2 more points and i am done~woohoo!!!!

with my assignment anyway, sucks~

我喜欢～

我喜欢～阳光晒在我脸上，我背上的感觉，觉得很温暖，很幸福。幸福，其实很简单，金钱，地位和我的幸福扯不上关系。

～很粗鲁的大笑。。。记得高中比全国赛的时候，老师都叫我自律一点，不要大大声笑，因为老师说我笑的时候像在哭～我晕

～一个人走在匆忙的街道上，看着人们穿着不同的衣服，手里拿着不同的东西，忽然间，推动我努力向上的原动力来了。。。

～听听音乐。。。每天开电脑的第一件事，就是开qq音乐。下载qq的原因，也是为了qq音乐。。。听听不同音乐人的作品，顺便写写一些词，一些曲。。。有机会上传给大家。。。

～上班，帮助那些需要帮助的人。。。不管是吸毒的，贩毒的，动手术的，老的年轻的，我能够帮的，我就尽量。人家会认为我为什么要帮洋人，问回你一句：洋人，不是人吗？为什么要分种族？文化背景？就算跟我们不一样，我们也得尊重啊。。。

～一个人呆在家里，我一周7天，每天都有事，生活，被上大学，实习，上班论文占据。不上学，上班，实习的时候，就写论文，上教堂，教堂小组聚会。无论多忙，都会去教堂，跟耶稣约会。哈哈哈。

～买名牌！！！大爱啊～就那种快感，回到家就不是很喜欢了。用不到半年，我就腻了，所以最后呢都给了妈妈，妈妈就好咯，名牌包都很新，就给她了。=）然后，就买另一个。

～到处走走拍照，虽然～～～技术不是很好，也没有太多专业的仪器。就相机一个，lens两个换换用。

～弹弹钢琴，技术退步了很多。。回马来西亚的时候要找弟弟四手联弹。

好啦，要去教堂了。今天天气很好，大家出去走走吧～=）

From addiction A to B

guys~~~

i guess it's pretty easy to get addicted to Facebook right,

say yes!!

i was addicted to Facebook, once, i just cant live without it i think.

Then, Adelaide BBS came along,

i got addicted to it to the point where i dont even use Facebook at all!!!!!

Since the "new facebook" came in place,

i kinda like it and there's noone else in Adelaide BBS anymore...

and i was like, gosh~~~~~

Here I am again, back to Facebook.

Can anyone please save me from myself?

omg~~~~

My assignments are killing me,

Placement as well.

I hate this placement...

I have to admit the people are so so so nice, but the place is just too boring...

doing the same old thing all over again.

listening to people complaining the same old thing,

over and over and over again.

Omg!!!!

yo yo yo~~~

Hey guys,

i am back,

guess what?

i got a job offer in sydney...

cant remember if i have actually blogged about this?

but, it's a permanent position, full time starting march next year.

that means....

i will have to move there, with kok wee

we looked at an apartment that the both of us liked,

so yea...

it's gonna be exciting

however, there are still a few things that we actually need to figure out before we move in together.

I will have to decide if i really want to go there and life there permanently,

after all,

it's a rehab centre....

My workplace actually wanted me to stay as a RN1...

but, i dont think i am confident enough to do that...

that is because my ward is very very specialised.

I will need to do post grad in order for me to feel confident to work there.

everything is still very vague....

However,

i thank god for what he has blessed me with.

Getting that position is really a miracle.

A Pure Miracle.

God, thank you and please continue to lead me...

Lead me to the place you want me to be...

Letter to Kok Wee

Hey hon, i really wanna thank you from the bottom of my heart for going through all these shit with me. Monday, i got my assignment back with only a pass, i felt devastated!!!!!I felt as if the whole world is gonna end. Tuesday, i got those 2 stupid documents mixed up, thank you for not scolding me, but helped me look through those shit, convincing me that everything's gonna be ok, fingers crossed cuz those 2 bloody documents are pretty similar. Wednesday, I got rejected by SA Health, how is that even possible? I have got good grades, I have got the relevant experience, I have got 2 good reports from both my Clinical Nurse Consultant and the nurse who was coordinating my while i was on placement, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY~~~~~ I AM EMPLOYED IN THE PUBLIC HEALTH SECTOR!!!!! FAR OUT!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS CRAP!!!!!!!! how am i going to tell my colleagues tomorrow when i go to work? it's gonna be hard, but, the facts will have to be revealed, I am waiting for the truth from God. Thursday, today, I got rejected by Western Australia, there goes our dream, to live in perth, where you are most likely to find a job, I am so sorry.... I cant help being in this shit mood... Friday, I hope i can tell you the good news.... I hope I am able to tell you that I got accepted in NSW.

Anyway, thanks for going through all this shit with me, being there for me, talking me through, Facebook-ing me even though we are both extremely busy with our work and studies, and my placement. Thanks for believing in me when i cannot even believe in myself, thanks for telling me that i am great when all these rejections come in everyday. I believe with my experience and such, i will go far, and by the grace of God, everything will be ok.

Take care kok wee, I am going to bed, I am sick of everything... really really sick of everything, I know it's not the end of the world as I should be happy that at least I still have 2 jobs to keep me going and afford a Chanel, hahahah, (I will get one when i graduate), but, it just sucks to see everyone going through the right and normal path while i have to either work in clinics or a nursing home or with the drug and alcohol service. SUCKS!!!!!!, but at least, i've got an income. FML TO THE MAX!!!!!!!!!!

careless me!!!!!!

omg~

i am so so so careless!

should have used document A to complete my assignment.

then i used document b.

omg~~~

i was panicking like hell!!!!!

omg~

thank god for kok wee!!!!!

and wilfred!!!!!

i find that kok wee is the one clean up the shit when i am in deep shit!

he is the one who will be there with me,

instead of saying why are you so stupid?

omg~~~

thanks kok wee!!!!

after cooling down for a while and looking back at it,

i think it was not too bad though....

still waiting for replies for my GNP!!!!!

GNP!!!!!!!

commitment

i promise i will make blogging a commitment~

hahahah~~~~

ok, what to write for today?

the weather is getting a bit better?

well, it is so much better than yesterday's for sure,

=)

i miss miss miss kok wee~

ok, done~

more to come tonight/tomorrow morning

diet-ing~~~says me~~~~

i dont know why i just feel fat!!!

i never had any body image problems at all!!!!

when i was in high school,

i guess i was way toooooo skinny then!

till now~

wow!!!!!

i felt like a big fat balloon~

omg~~~

i really wanna cry ah~

look at the food i am eating~

gasp~~~

i promise i will eat less.

omg~~~~

chicken breast and brocolli for the rest of the week.

I really like brocolli~~~

hahahah~

ok~ food time~~~~

naan bread~~~

大盘鸡～新疆美食～～～

happy bday bulb!!!!!!!!!

bulb!!!!

to come to think of it...

we have been pals for a long long time~

i remembered it all started with-----

our all time fav band-----

simple plan!!!!!

and!!!!!

avril lavigne

out friendship grows from there...

this is supposed to be a bday post,

but i will make it as sweet as possible!

i remembered those days when you were so so so popular cuz you are so brainy~~~

and i was so stupid~omg!!!!

hahahah~

remembering those discouraging words teachers told us

omg~~~

that really struck me!

i thank god for leading me to this path,

i thank god for what i have today,

i thank god for giving me a chance to know lovely ppl at high school like you and the others.

I thank god for all the blessings.

I thank you for going through those harsh moments in my life,

I thank you for being there to share my joy, moments of triumphant,

I thank you for being such a good friend till today, (even though we hvnt met since we gradusted)

I thank you for all the encouragements,

I thank you for believing in me when i doubted myself,

I really cherish our friendship~

you are our cutey bulb!!!! you were, you are and you will always be!!!

a big shout out to SS3A 07

I miss you all~~~~~~~~

thanks for the memory.

Teachers in CHMS No.1~~~~~

we are all doing good in wherever we are!

even though i dont have good grades in some subjects,

but i am doing well in what i am doing now.

I am graduating in 2 months' time!!!!

little pressie for you bulb!!!=)

eat~~~~

doing an experiment...

i wanna find out if it's easier to put on weight or loose weight...

hhahahah

the answer is obvious, but, out of curiousity~~~

i wanna know

I am pretty~~~~~

Omg~~~~

this is going to be such a vain post!!!

i am saying i am pretty in order to brain wash my brain,

hahahah...

so my brain can produce more good hormones and make me pretty!!!

this is what i call,

the power of brain washing!

I am procrastinating,

again, aduhai....

I was thinking to go to the shops to get something,

I dont know what am I getting,

but, suddenly,

i was hit by this sudden laziness.

and i was like,

ok, whatever,

i am going to melbourne soon,

I dont need all those crap!

anyway,

melbourne on sunday!

soon kok wee, here i come,

why am i shouting to him when he does not even read my blog???

omg~~~~

this is pathetic...

anyway,

people~~~~~

I AM COMING OVER TO MELBOURNE

dont know what to buy this time around,

aduh...

alright, i think i'd better start doing some serious stuffs before i go for my placement, ei?

cheers!!!!

have a great day~

People, I am back, for a good post, Alcoholics Anonymous

Yesterday marked my 12th day of my placement.

I had the great opportunity to attend Alcoholics Anonymous. I came across this "organization" when i was watching "Ugly Betty" when our beloved Will tried to know the son of Claire, bla bla bla~~~It all started at an Alcoholics Anonymous(AA) meeting.

This is a very special organization where ex-alcoholics has become volunteers and give talk to people in need, such as those in alcohol detox centers and community groups. They talked about their own experiences in relation to becoming an alcoholic and the path they went through on becoming abstinence. It was heart breaking to listen to their stories. It all started with loneliness, low self esteem, marriage break down, post traumatic stress disorder, not having a target in life, feeling of worthlessness, hopelessness, helplessness, terminal illnesses, and the list goes on......

Drinking started to become problematic where they do not see that their drinking habits had become a major problem and had has a huge impact in their mental state and physical wellbeing. Being denial and trying not to face their problems made things worse.

I am going to write about things that made them change their lives~~~~ok~~~

when you find out that you are spending $900/week on alcohol and smoke, you know you are going to be in deep trouble, not having the money to pay rent and eat healthy and yet having the money to buy alcohol and smoke. A gentleman has been living this lifestyle for more than 5 years and he suddenly realised that he has made a huge mistake, he could have bought himself a unit with the amount of money spent on drugs. He made a decision to stop drinking~~~ His story amazed me.

Nat used to be an alcoholic, she decided to stop drinking for her liver function test(LFT) is outta whack when she did her routine blood test, as you know, liver has the ability to form new cells to repair itself, however, if the liver is damaged to a certain level, it will not be able to do it~~~~she is very lucky!!!!!however, she has sustained some brain damage as a result of her excessive alcohol consumption. Nat is now a member of AA, a volunteer who gives talk and trying to help people to be free from alcohol.

In short, if you need help, please seek help, there are a lot of people out there who seeked help and got help, knock and the door shall be opened.... Cheers~~~~

I am a bad bad bad girl

sorry for not coming~~~~~~~~~ will update more.

Day 5

I have got the awesome opportunity to visit 2 different venues that focus on rehab(Drug/alcohol) up the hills today, it's a shame that i did not bring my camera~!!!! (New rule: I Will BRING MY CAMERA EVERYWHERE I GO!!!!! I WILL WEAR MAKE UPS AS WELL!!!!)

Those places are quite rural and remote, we had to drive 1 hour to get there, omg!!!!! but the scenery was awesome!!!! looking at the sheeps, horses, cows, trees, hills, omg~~~~~ That was breath taking. How i wish i could live there, how i wish i could just put down all my responsibilities and go up and live up the hills, with my little farm, little house, well, i guess i will have to work on it and work for it, dont i?

We had our lunch at a little bakery, the food was so damned cheap!!! omg!!!! I bought a few things from a vintage shop. I'd really like to visit those small towns one day. =)

Alright, enough crap said, those 2 venues are rehab as i have said earlier. so, what is the difference between rehab and detox? Detox, is where you go to a place where the symptoms of your withdrawals are treated and managed whereas rehab is a place where you spend a longer period of time trying to engage with the society and do what people do normally in a day. both places are voluntary. You can leave if you dont want to stay here and you are asked to leave if you break their rules.eg, smoke on the premises, stealing, having sexual relationships in the premises.

Some people may be homeless and being violent, aggressive(verbally and physically), demanding is how they get things done, they may have got used to it and it is already a habit to them that by being the "superior" one, you can actually get things you want. However, the society does not function this way, you have to be polite and ask for the things you want. We are not to be abused and must be respected, this is how the society works, right? say yes, hahaha.

In Australia, I felt that the government is accepting that the fact that drug and alcohol addiction is a big issue and actions need to be taken, plans need to be implemented, therefore, we have got a lot of programs being implemented, eg, the clean needle program was implemented, this is to prevent/minimize the chances of people getting blood borne diseases like HIV/Hep C. This is not happening in my country at this stage, people go to detox, not because they want to do there, they are forced to go there. These group of people are stigmatized and stereotyped as the community does not accept them, hello..... who do you think you are? you are not a saint, you make mistakes, why cant you accept these people, support them and make their lives better so they can actually fit in the society and have a better future.

I am really amazed with the health care provided in Australia, I can say that its health care system is leading the globe. Alright, enough said, hope you guys enjoy reading this long passage and please accept those people, people make mistakes. I have done stupid things as well. I am sure that's the same with you.

Little things i bought,

a small bottle of green tomato pickles.

some soy wax essence for my housemate. =)

很久没来这里说话了～

大家近来如何？不懂要说什么。。。。觉得日子一天一天过。我很像什么都没有弄这样～但这学期很开心的。我在上课前都把东西弄好了，哈哈哈。好学生对吧？说是。哈哈哈。

Day 3+4

got myself familiarise with loading dose and all those crap.

i was like,

WTF is loading dose???

for antibiotic, I am fine, but, diazepam loading dose?

omg!!!

so confusing la

BITCH SPOTTED!!!

FU bitch!

i was at the driver's assessment clinic today

cool stuffs!!!

omg.

and most importantly,

the doc is so so so handsome!!!

190cm,

gentle,

professional,

with that smile on his face, omg!!!

nice perfume

omg!!!

I am fainting~~~~~~

and he is easy going as well

i am melting.

穷人为什么穷？富人为什么富？说的精辟

1、富人爱创业；穷人爱打工。 ­

2、富人有投资意识；穷人则无。 ­

3、富人看趋势做事；穷人看结果做事。 ­

4、富人做事雷厉风行；穷人优柔寡断。 ­

5、富人有博大的心胸；穷人心胸狭窄。 ­

6、富人知道只有付出才有收获；穷人期待不劳而获。 ­

7、富人做事前先看积极和光明；穷人光看消极和失败的一面。 ­

8、富人不安分，有赚钱的野心；穷人吃饱、喝足、安逸"ok"。 ­

9、富人字典里没有"不可能"；穷人字典里常常是"不可能"。 ­

10、富人生活节俭，常被人认为吝啬；穷人大方，却常一贫如洗。 ­

11、富人热爱工作，工作并快乐着；穷人则热爱休息，工作并痛苦着。 ­

12、富人喜欢与人合作，为了壮大力量；穷人怕合作，怕吃眼前亏。 ­

13、富人知道财富是一点一点积累起来的；穷人渴望一夜暴富（如六合彩或内地的各种彩票）。 ­

14、富人眼光远大，因此不会计较眼前一点得失；穷人目光短浅，斤斤计较眼前得失。 ­

15、富人有感染力、有激情、精神抖擞；穷人大部分连自己都感染不了--世界末日。 ­

16、富人做事珍惜时间，总觉时间不够用--创造财富；穷人总觉得时间富余，无所事事。 ­

17、富人做事有永不服输的精神；穷人做事遇到挫败就放弃，很多穷人还没有做事就失败了。 ­

18、富人从不觉得自己富，因为看到比自己更富的人，所以很谦虚；穷人稍一有钱就觉得是富人，于是趾高气昂。

I Hate applying for job!!!!

I remembered when I finished my Diploma,

I applied to one hospital and i got the job,

even though I am not a permanent resident

now???

omg!!!!

I have applied throughout OZ!

FML TO THE MAX!!!!!!

GRADUATE YEAR, YOU ARE KILLING ME

FML FML FML FML!!!!

stop asking me if I am a permanent resident!!!

I DO NOT NEED YOUR FREAKING SPONSORSHIP!!!

I wanna Sleep

Tired. =)

We are the Champion

We won!!!!

we got the highest position for the hand hygiene thing in the whole hospital!

the nurse manager is super happy, bla bla bla...

and this is our little present!

we are doing the JUMP'N thing every shift, omg!!!

it just sticks to your head!!!

J-no Jeweries (i can never spell that word right, anyway, you get what i mean, dont you? hahaha)

U-Use of hand gel

M-5 moments of hand hygiene.

P-patient education

N-short and clean nails...

poor nurses, no nail polish, bla bla bla...

but, it's cool to be a part of such a cool nursing team, cheers!

love you all!

be back soon, =)

What the future holds???

我的前途无量，但却看不见尽头～

Yes, I am graduating in no time~~~

happy and sad at the same time.

happy-no uni~~~ woohoo!!!

no stupid assignments and such,

sad-I dont know what the future holds?

I dont know where will i be?

I dont know what should i do?

GNP?

Mental health?

Cardiac Nursing?

drug and alcohol service?

stay in adelaide?

go interstate?

haiz~~~

fan ah....

i am starting to get sick of ward nursing.

all you freaking do is stupid obs, bla bla bla.

patient care? well, sometimes it's not HOLLISTIC at all!!

you do what the doctors tell you.

you give what the doctor told you.

well...

I will keep on praying,

Jesus take the wheel~

"Rolling In The Deep" - Adele (Sam Tsui + Tyler Ward Cover!)

Day 2

Detox inpatient service...

I had the opportunity to spend 8 hours in a detox unit for drugs and alcohol.

When it comes to detox, we will think that ppl are really stoned and drunk right???

WRONG!!!

people are there to receive treatment,

as health professionals,

we should treat them with dignity, not giving them that "are you crazy" look.

on the other hand,

we should also make sure that we do what we can to help them.

After staying there for a day,

i started to think of my future career.

should i do cardiology still???

or mental health~

Dilemma...

the nurses there are great!!!!

i thought i am going to be very lost as I am not used to community nursing,

I am used to routine,

I am used to being 'used' as free labour!!!

but...

things will get better ey?

=)

had an unsuccessful attempt at taking blood today, wanna cry ah... TT

gave an IM injection, omg!!!

i hate IM!!!!!!!!

Day 1

I will start a new chapter.

A series of new and interesting chapter in my life.

Alcohol and drugs~~~~

I was shown pictures of drugs,

heroin, ice, speed, cocaine, methadone and others.

I was shown how to inject drugs.

I was shown how to filter drugs.

It was overwhelming....

I got to know a few programs,

eg. Clean Needle program-people are given needles to prevent AIDS/Hep C and other blood borne diseases.

This is one of the project the government is doing.

everything is locked,

we need a card to go everywhere.

I have to get myself familiar with the drugs that are used to control symptoms of withdrawals.

More to come~~~

Eventful Sunday~~~~

Hey Peeps...

After calling in sick and being sick yesterday.

I went to church this morning,

had lunch with Windmill.=)

It was great...

Then, that special someone called and said he was running late,

and asked to postpone our hiking...

and i was like, well, ok....

but, after 15 minutes,he called and said:"let's hit the beach"

and i was like, I am already in my hiking clothes. hello... you dont expect me to walk on sand with shoes right?

omg....

When he arrived, he told me he just woke up and i was like, Hello boy~~~ it's bloody 1330hr,

in the afternoon.

anyway, he is cool.

we had a walk down the beach.

We didnt talk much about our future and things like that,

but we had an enjoyable day.

this is west beach, didnt know it's so close to my house... aduhai...

the sky.

Dinner-bread roll, and i am going to have that for the next few days.

woops... I will be sick of bread, ham and cheese soon..... very soon....

orientation in drug and alcohol service tomorrow.

wish me luck,

my final clinical placement, =)

I miss you, special friend of mine,

I will introduce him one day.

stay tuned. =)

生病记-友谊-家庭-坏弟弟。

生病了。。。流鼻血。。。失声了。。。咳嗽咳得很厉害，觉得我的肺快被我咳出来了。今天上好早班，下午就不上班了，请了病假，原因很简单-我累了，我不想在我不喜欢的地方上班。虽然说不应该跟钱过不去，但我觉得如果我今天下午上了班，老奶奶老公公的家属会用带有色眼镜看我，怕我把病传染给他们。我没病啊，只是饼干吃多了，歌唱太多了而已。。。

医院上好班后，天气很好，就打了个电话给我一位大哥，问他有空出来散步吗，很意外的，他说可以，（没想到他会答应）因为像他那么忙，很难约他的。等了好久哦。。。等到我澡都洗好了，果汁也弄好了，糕点也烘好了，表格也看过了，呆也发了一会。电话响了，大哥来了。大哥今天心情不错嘛～～～哈哈哈，看见他开心的样子，我也很开心。原本今天又有很迷茫的感觉，快被迷惑的感觉淹没了，我就把烦恼和不懂的问题都告诉了他，他听了听了，也说了一些。我觉得有些问题的答案很简单，为什么我要绕一大圈呢？哈哈哈。搞不明白啊～总之，我觉得大哥很靠谱。说他刚刚在开会，今晚又有饭局，中间的一点点时间他也陪我出来散散心，感动啊～～～

拍拍他的肚腩，说：帅哥，是时候减肥了哦，他反过来拍我的肚子，你没肥肉吗？我理直气壮地说，本小姐就是没有！！！他不信，偏说我吸气，我就真的没啊。。。有说到了做饭这话题，问我是不是天天吃方便面?我说不。。我问他，他说他都吃takeaway。可怜的大哥。。之后就劝他烟少抽，酒少喝一点。=）

朋友，不在乎认识时间的长短，在乎的是他能不能在你最需要的时候推你一把。朋友，就算我很累，知道你需要我陪，我一定会第一时间赶到。朋友，当我知道你经历不愉快的事情，我肯定会想尽办法让你开心。

堂姐要结婚了，在想要不要到新加坡代表女方参加婚礼再回马来西亚，还是直接回马来西亚，因为马来西亚老家也要办一次。

说到我那坏弟弟，我就快疯了！！！幼稚啊！！！我很讨厌他每次得不到自己要的东西时，就会把全家人的心情弄得很糟糕。很庆幸的是，我不在马来西亚了，不必受他的气，但可怜的是我的家人。。。作孽啊老弟！！！我真的希望你可以成熟一些，连我的小弟都比你成熟一百倍！你自己好好反省吧～

The Corrs- Summer Sunshine Music video

I Miss them....

I am going to sing this in KTV this friday!!!

yeah!!!

Blogging in Uni

Firstly, it is so uncool to blog in uni, and that means that i am so freaking bored!!! Thank god MC was with me and i am so glad that we are doing the same elective topic and that is-----------COMPLEMENTARY THERAPIES AND HOLLISTIC NURSING. I believe that a person falls sick because their wellbeing is not being taken care of. Since the western world is so influenced by the biomedical model which is practiced by most of the doctors, people do not see the importance of the wellbeing of people. For instance, if I have a headache, I will take panadol, not wanting to care about what causes the pain. This is not really good, but this is what happen in the real world.

Ok, enough said, the class was really boring, till the point that I can almost fall asleep.... Bad news to me, I can only get my transcript certified on friday and that means I will not stand a chance to apply for Royal Melbourne Hospital... Sad, however, I will try my best to apply.

Congratulations to Mr.Soon who is going to have an interview tomorrow as a lab assistant in an engineering company, good luck my friend and you know I will support you!!!

Mr. Zhou, I hope you will be stress free after reading the book i gave you as your birthday present, =) Cheers, you are so so so special!!!! Although we dont know each other for a long long time like i know Mr.Soon, but, you are someone special that will always understands me and know what i want without me having to tell you. Looking forward to our trip on Sunday, my day off!!!! yeah!!!=)

Mr.Wong, you are someone special too, you are 3 days younger than Mr. Zhou, but you are someone that I really want to hang out when I am stress, your sis is awesome too!!! Dont stress too much ok? We have the same personality and I really must introdice Mr. Zhou and ii am sure you two owill be great friends. =) 2 WORKAHOLIC, PLUS ME, 3. You guys are cute, STOP DRINKING AND SMOKING TOO MUCH!!!

Ok, i guess i have to attend my meeting now, first day of uni and I have to stay till 7pm, sad... SORE THROAT!!!

Say Hi to my no-life life...

Hello everyone,

I am back...

well, i had a few crazy nights...

omg...

but it was enjoyable,

I enjoyed myself (excluding yesterday night)

I went shopping yesterday with Jen,

hoping to get that pair of high heels i saw in Rundle mall which they do not have my size!

i ended up buying more...

bought a few dresses.

Sexy Clutch from Review.

Sexy and beautiful heels from wittner.

I am a winner!!! hahahaha.

a lot more to tell, but i am lazy to type...

got heaps of clothes to fold...

uni things to prepare for next monday, TT

uni is starting, omg!!!!

an those stupid applications.

gotta get a JP to certified as well.

ma fan ah ppl....

after talking to Brie yesterday,

I think I will do another degree that i like...

and that will be Public Relations

I work as a nurse to earn money,

I work as a PR cuz that's what i want to do when i was young.

i guess reality kills all our childhood dreams yea?

hmmm...

Shyt happens...

Well,

Shyt happens...

.....

Was not very happy at work yesterday morning.

I mean, Dear director, PEOPLE make MISTAKES!!!

I am just an ordinary Level 2 Nurse....

with a kind heart and passion for nursing, of course, hahaha.

Well, long story, i DID NOT give the wrong medication.

Why do you have to solve something that's not even a problem to everyone.

I dealt with that situation maturely, i think, hahaha.

I explained and said what my stand was in that situation.

Fix the problem(that's not even my freaking my problem...)

I smiled.

I did not cry,

I did not break down.

I think being by my own really helped a lot in making me a stronger person.

Well, there goes this very right phase---what does not kill you makes you stronger, right???

hahahha.

Well, i guess I just need a break from work and catch up with more friends.

God, thank you for all the wonderful friends I have got.

FRIENDS,

you guys are awesome!!!

Bulb(I miss you and your lame jokes)

Yun(I miss you and your eye liner)

Janet(I miss you and your hotness)

Beehoon(I miss you and your crazy dreams)

Livia(I miss you and your lotion)

Martin(I miss you and the wall)

KimChi(I miss you and your laughter)

MeiRu(I miss you and your hahaha)

Jin(I miss you and your white watch)

Chloe(I miss you and saying i was 'chu')

AhFi(I miss you and you telling me that i should calm down)

miss you all...

be good wherever you guys are now...

Moral of the pic---when shyt happens, give it a smile and focus on other good things..

Love

Love,

Makes one happy.

Love,

Makes one content.

Love,

Makes one forgive.

Love,

Makes one strong.

Love,

Makes one beautiful.

Loves,

Makes one wonderful.

It was love that changed me,

It was love that brought me this far,

It was love that taught me to love.

It was love that taught me to forgive.

It was love that got rid off hatred.

I feel good to be loved.

Love you all~~~

Miracles happen, WITH LOVE

I have been wanting to write about this long long time ago,

But I was just toooooo busy,

till the point that I have no time to cook(i survived on wholemeal bread and fruits)

some people think they know everything by saying:

why didnt you apply earlier? you should have applied in march,

HELLO!!!! YOU ARE A FREAKING ACCOUNTANT WHO DOES NOT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT NURSING OK?????????(THIS STATEMENT ONLY APPLIES TO THAT ONE STUPID ACCOUNTANT)

and thank you very much for asking me to correct your recommendation letter full of mistakes!!!

and worst of all!!!! he asked me to mark his friend's essay which nearly killed me!!!! omg!!!!

I said no promises cuz i know i will be busy working

and he thought I am obliged to help him!

LOOK INTO THE MIRROR!!!

WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE????

FREAKING IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!

ok, good things now...

MIRACLES HAPPEN, WITH LOVE!!!!

MR.B, had a heart attack and was sent to the hospital,

the surgeons decided to do an emergency case on him...

however..... he had a stroke after that...

he was sent to several ICUs (pls note that we have different ICUs in our hosp)

and when he was sent to general ICU, his family was told that he would die there

nursing staff were handed over that he was there to die!!!!!!

TO DIE!!!!!

the doctors could not do anything at all.

after a few weeks, he came to us, I looked after him for several days...

for the first few days,

i hated my life and i hated him...

I admit that i was being mean and unprofessional for not liking him...

but i did not neglect my duty of care for him

I did what i need to do for him, perform suctioning, regular mouth care, pressure area care..

then before i left for melbourne, he had 2 medical emergency~~~~~

FML TO THE MAX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WITH BLOOD TRANSFUSION, FLUID RESUS, bla bla bla..

he came back to us...

the family was there all the time, supporting him

i didnt like the

family at first,

but after a while, i got used to them cuz i thought they were tooooo fussy...

WHen i came back from melbourne,

he was able to talk...

After a week, he was able to walk!!!!!!

and talk!!!!

IMAGINE THIS...

a person, who was sentenced to death by medical officers, not 1 medical officers, but a few of them

can actually talk and walk and was thinking about rehabilitation sometime soon...

He wouldnt be what he is today if it wasnt for the support of the family and of course, our good nursing care!!! hahahaa, from super nurses in our ward, =)

our team leader(super senior nurse) thanked us for the excellent nursing we provided...

I nearly cried when I heard that he is able to walk...

I nearly cried when the team leader thanked us...

Well, i guess nursing is the right decision after all,

though i meet a lot of idiots throughout my career....

NURSES ROCK

AND I AM A SUPER NURSE!!!

I drink, so what? Dont judge me!!!!

It has been a while ei~~~

Hello Lovely People,

Hello my Lovely readers.

Hello my beloved fans...

wow, it has been a while since i last blogged.

ok, a summary on what i have been up to last week,

=)

27/6

It was my big day!!!

i went to Melbourne!!!

flight got cancelled, had to go home and catch another flight to Melbourne,

meet Annie at the airport, we talked a lot!!!!

then, had Chinese with Janet and Kok Wee.

28/6

Went out with friends from high school and primary school

it was really AWESOME!!!!

Even though we werent that close in high school and primary school,

but i felt that somehow, it felt really nice to be with them,

shopping, eating, talking bullshit!

omg, these ppl are AWESOME!!!!

After shopping at DFOs. we headed to have some chinese after that.

29/6/11

This is a very important day as we went hunting for labels!!!!

Went to David Jones (Women's Department) to look for DKNY bag...

spotted the Langchamp plastic bag that 70% of uni populations has.

Miu Miu-Too old...

DKNY-Too old...

Jimmy Choo-Too Old...

Juicy-Too Princessy.

Fendi-Too local

Oroton-I can actually get it in ADL.

at the end, we decided to go to----------------GUCCI,LOUIS VUITTON,RALPH LAUREN,PRADA.

enough said.

This is very special eh, fruit tea...

30/6(Bye Bye melbourne...)

Reached ADL late at night... hopped in bed to sleep cuz I had to work the next day.

Hello ZARA!!!!

Enjoyed my last day of being 21!!!!

I told myself that I will always be 21!

Vietnamese food----supper yummy, omg!!!!!

1/7

Happy bday Florence!!!! I am 22. so sad...

I went to work early in the morning,

came back home and slept!!!!

I wanted to do something special on my bday-by not doing anything,

no celebration whatsoever,

Kinda happy, it was like other ordinary day, =)

home made spag bol

2/7

Work 12.5 hours.

3/7

kena "fong fei gei" by someone,

I did not feel a thing at all cuz i am used to him doing that to me,

well, it's your loss cuz i seldom have my sundays off.

Went to have lunch with my lovely LG Friends, we went for Vietnamese again, =)

Yum YUM!!!!

Then i went to work.

4/7

Work, again.

went out with friends for yum cha,

it was really good!!!!

omg!

5/7

just got back from work

I am going to call in sick for tomorrow's afternoon shift,

working in the morning again.

spoke to hana for more than 1 hour, you rock woman!!!! hahahahahahah.

I miss you!

Thanks for the encouragement...

Thank you Julia for the uniforms...

I think i like nursing~~~

我，成熟了？

我有很多坏习惯，脾气不好，没耐心，说粗口（上班学来的，哈哈哈）等等。。。如果计划好的东西不能如愿进行，我会发飙，对每一个人都这样。最讨厌爽约的人，除非有很重要的事，例如：工作。（我明白做我这行的时间很不定，we have got bills to pay, so we need to work）

原本定好机票今早到墨尔本玩。一大早就想飞过去，所以我一到达那里就可以开始逛collins street。工作压力太大，责任也很大，所以，我必须离开阿德莱德几天让我的心静一下，而且，现在假期，在墨尔本的高中同学很多，想跟他们叙旧叙旧一下。而且，重点是这个礼拜有个很重要的日子，想叫朋友们一起聚餐，我呢，就准备弄肉粽。有志者，事竟成。加油，没弄过，也没看过婆婆弄过，但听她告诉我做法，我应该会做啦。好吃不好吃就另外一回事了。哈哈哈哈。

今早，3度，我穿了短袖加外套（小西装外套)等车，结果了。。。到了机场，班级被取消。我第一个反应：完了。。。有人会很不高兴，我有小生气，但担心另一个人生气的成分更多。另一个人等我等很久了。。。我很冷静的排队，问柜台小姐怎样解决，她说下午有一班飞机，你可以坐那一班，你也可以退钱,(我跟护士长说，如果我的班机被取消，我就打电话给你，因为我们病房严重缺人，但我还是说，我坐下午那班飞机，因为事先答应好朋友了，我们也计划了不少东西。君子一言既出，驷马难追啊～～～虽然没去墨尔本能赚很多钱，去墨尔本会花很多钱，但是我不想上班了。I need a break from all those crap and responsibilities.

以前的我，应该会当街说粗口吧。没有邮件，没有短讯，什么都没有，到了机场flight cancelled,就这样，哇靠。。。朋友啊，publicity和reputation对一间国际的航空公司很重要的，你不知道吗？很不爽的就是我要那么早起来，我睡不到6个小时啊。但没关系啦，至少我下午能去，但就这样浪费了一天的时间。。。一天可以买很多东西啊！！！

好啦，班机取消，就回家咯，在巴士站看见一位不是很开心的女生，男朋友过来之后，就很男朋友吵架，当街吵架啊！！！而且讲得很大声，跟他们有同样的肤色和发色，我恨不得想找洞钻进去，虽然我听不懂他们说什么，说的是韩语。。。之后吵得更厉害，那女的拿行李丢那男孩，不只是一个噢，三个！！！哇靠，虐待狂。然后那男的把地上的行李捡起来。女的生气啦，不懂往那里走去，行李也不拿，可怜的男孩拿了所有的东西，往女朋友那里走去，也够有风度的。。。

女人啊，你可以长得不漂亮，你可以不有钱，你可以长得胖，但你的脾气一定要好，你的态度一定要好，你一定要有气质啊~我的感想啦。脾气好，不漂亮的女人其实很美丽，拥有一颗善良，美丽的心，不耍心机，是男人喜欢的（至少我遇见的都这样）。就算你没有钱，态度好，我相信你能成大事没因为你态度好，不傲慢。女人的气质比你穿金戴银更突出，比你一身名牌更高贵。

男人啊，你的毛孔可以很大（只限于那某一个男人），你可以不浪漫，你可以不有钱，但你一定要为人正直，你一定要脚踏实地，不要纸上谈兵，眼睛张亮一点，不要见一个爱一个。你可以不浪漫，但你一定要对你的女朋友好。举例吧，女生很怕冷，血液循环不好的她，连夏天都是手脚冰冷，更何况是冬天呢。男生因为女朋友到他家过几天，特地为女朋友买棉被，说衣服没带够没关系，太冷的话我买衣服给你。（两人不住同一个城市，气候不一样）你可以不有钱，但你要愿意干活，再苦的活都干，不是每一个人都含着金汤匙出生，也不是每一个人都肯做苦工。但，肯做苦工的，会有出人头地的一天，绝对有白手起家的潜能。。。不要见一个爱一个，听过化妆品和化妆术吗?听过假睫毛吗？听过粉底吗？内涵，才是最重要的。。。

虽然说人算不如天算，但我相信命运掌握在自己手里。‘命’字上面一个人，然后‘一’，下面是个‘叩’，说明了人，一旦低头（不傲慢，肯听人的意见），命运就能改变，你相信吗？多有智慧的中华文化啊。。。会意字，我喜欢。！！！

好啦，我去吃饼干，家里又闹饥荒了。大家have a good day at work, say no to monday blues, =)

A Ring's Tale

Ring,

Is something I adore since young,

Seeing my mum wearing rings meant a lot to me.

I remembered asking dad to buy me a ring,

I remembered myself buying a ring.

However,

the sad story is....

NURSES ARE ADVISABLE NOT TO WEAR A RING!!!!

In some cases, you can wear an engagement ring OR a wedding ring.

No pretty manicure...

No multicoloured nails...

I can only wear a ring,

when i go out with my friends and I will have to take it off before going to work..

Sad life of a nurse...

I will wait for that ring to arrive,

and i will wear it, forever.