Bong Natal!

*I saw Mummy kissing Santa Clause* Literally!!

Well.. Bong Natal is actually Merry Christmas in Portugese. Christmas Chirstmas time is ere.. Woo hoo! The Alvin & d Chipmunks song is stuck in my head. haha.. Well.. Its 2 days after Christmas. N i'm having the worst cramps! Starting to relax a lil after havin a really hectic december but just d days b4 Christmas.Had carollin,last minute shopping.... N i broke my own record for not botherin 2 do my hair,my nails or gettin my new dress done. N because of that,I had to use an old dress,my bday dress,tie my hair up & go 2 church wif short & long nails. Oh well.. At least i had new shoes. haha.. Wasn't really filled by d Xmas spirit i guess.

But of course.. Christmas Eve dinner was good as usual. Good food,good drinks & gamblin. Haha.. N not forgetting presents! Well.. A few but good i guess. D funniest part was i had more presents from Scott's side than my own family. I had 3 presents fr my side & 9 from Scott's. Haha.. But wat d hell.. Not complainin thats for sure. =) He's family's nice.. Nice & friendly ppl,down to earth,chatty etc etc. N of course our usual Xmas lunch. Went to Monte's this year. Good food we had. Never felt this full until i had 2 reject Salmon & grilled Lamb. *Surprise Surprise* Well... 2 n a half dozen of escargo & really good sparkling wine explains it all. Besides that, i went for a high school class reunion today. A few of us but i'm glad i got 2 meet all my dudies. N tomolo i'm headin to Malacca for d usual family Christmas celebration but a bigger one this year. Can't wait! For the 1000 sticks of satay babi! *tummy growling* Putting on weight but wat d hell.. Its Christmas!

Ok.. I'm gonna go.. My eyes are starting to ache. Dunno why.. Staring at too many small screens i guess. Plus i'm in agony without painkillers. Starting 2 get pist off at just about everything.. Haiz.. Off to bed i shall be. (try) Got 2 get up early for church too. Toodles! Nites! N A HAPPY NEW YEAR! (just in case) XOXO

I'm back!

I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaacccccccccccccccccccccckkkkkK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Woo hoo! haha..n I'm back from a random trip to Cameron Highlands which was 2 weekends ago & I just came back fr singapore yesterday! hehe.. Its pretty good to be on holiday but i being away from home feels a lil funny too. Enjoyed myself wif the strawberries,Vege & honey in Camerons! It was freaking cold however. A thick jacket that was used in Australia couldnt even keep me warm. How bad is that? But d awesome steamboat & choco fondue was good enough 2 keep us warm for a nite.. Thank God i didnt spend lots of money there because.......

Singapore was CRAZY!
Guess why! Obviously it had to be Shopping! Now i feel bad for spending greedily. But who cannot go crazy when the designers for Charles & Keith which is Mr.Charles & Mr.Keith or Ms.Charles & Ms.Keith are from Singapore. Plus they were on sale. So Irresistable! However, because we spend an hour in every Charles & Keith outlet.. Of course we had to buy somethin. So guess how many pairs of shoes we brought home! Well.. Not more than 21 pairs dun worry. It was just TWENTY. Well.. It was twenty thats all. *Innocent smile* Nothing much rite to carry 20 pairs back.. I noe.. haha.. Freakin 20! Gosh! I hate to say this but we spend over a thousand bucks on shoes! OMG! This just came to my mind. Now i'm freakin out myself. Part of it could have been for charity or somethin especially since my parents are meeting Mr.Timothy fr SEMOA this weekend. Gosh i definately over spend on shoes. Other than that it was just a few tops, a Zara jacket & food (NERDS!). Gosh i need to start thinkin positive now! D after effects of splurging is horrid. ='( but nvm! I've got new pairs of shoes! haha.. My dad had to stop us by scaring us that we would be taxed so we had to stop buying after 20. If not we would have gone to 25 i'm sure. N it even came 2 d extend where i willingly surrendered my money to my mom so that i would not spend. But it back fired cuz i took her wallet & bought a blouse. haha.. Shopping in Singapore is DANGEROUS! Especially when d hotel (Novotel) is next to a shopping complex wif yummy Italian sandwiches & a japenese food court. Plus it was at Clarke Quay. *boo hoo* I need to abstain from shopping! I shall TRY.. hehe..

Life without college

My first week of life without rushing to college. Feels like the 2nd week though.. I cant really decided if time is passing really slow or really fast. Well.. For a start, we've not even put up our Xmas tree and all d other deco. I'm goin singapore next week and before i know it, its Christmas already!!

My weekend however, was superb! Did lots of normal things but it felt superb.. =) I love making memories. Ok.. That sounds kinda nonsensical and weird but u noe... Well.. I hope u know.. hehe.. I went to the curve 2day my usual hangout spot. haha.. Tats cuz i've got Daim cake and Wonka candy! Checked out the deco there.. Pretty cool but i have to say that it is extremely colourful. hehe.. All the colourful balls. I've got a new fav shop there. Debenhams!! Pretty reasonable and very nice. Love the bags especially the dinner bags. Love the dresses! If Su Ling sees it, she'll say, "This is so Edeline". haha.. IIIIIII LIKE IT!

Actually.. I went 2 the curve during the weekend too! On sunday actually and it was Ikea to be exact just for a meal.. To eat my usual and my favourite. Daim cake and meatballs!!! Those stuff makes me superbly happy! Well.. I was extremely stuffed at the end of the day. Couldn't even walk cuz I was in nice but unstretchable jeans. As usual thx to my darling. I went walk walk too.. Lots of walk walk. But in short, I enjoyed my weekend. =)

Well.. Back to today, I went & did my passport today. Waited for freakin 3 hrs and we gave up so i've 2 go back tomolo to get my ready passport and my sisters's & mom's. I have to say that roads in Malaysia SUCK! And so are SOME of the drivers. Jeez! They drive me up my sleeves. I mean what happened to the thank you & the signalling and lookin before shooting out from a junction?! Pissing me off big time! Selfish bastards i tell you. And impatient too.. I was stuck in a freakin 45 minute jam after the Subang Toll to the Federal Highway just because selfish & impatient drivers were cutting in from the left. Where's d respect for other drivers man?! Jeez. The worst part is, they got no choice but to squeeze you up and when you give way, they just glare at you! They've got the guts to glare thats the worst part! And they shoot out from a junction & u've 2 jam break and they glare at you too! Fuckers i tell you. Just because u're drivin a fancy car or a huge bus or truck does not mean that u've the license to just cut into the line without even signalling! Gosh! Damn its making me mad!

And now the stupid mosquitoes are gettingme irritated! AARRRGGGHHHHHH!!! Well.. I'm gonna get back to munching Ovalteenies now. Some where mosquito free while i leave my laptop to charge. Yummy! Toodles!

Alas!

At last!! Exams are over! I'm starting to feel the freedom kicking in already! haha.. being online for more than 3 hrs checking websites and chattin, uploading pictures in facebook and not because i'm downloading notes from the blogs. Feels like i've not done this in years! Well.. My back is starting 2 ache a lil though cuz of d lying down but its all worth it.. haha.. Exams are finally over.. Can't believe it. But i'm glad that for once i'm free on the 29th.. After years of unwanted memories. But my beloved Scott however is working till late on that day. How tragic is that? Oh well.. Guess work comes 1st even though its yr bday.

Well.. Now i dun really noe what 2 do.. Except for blog cuz Nitasha ditched me for d bathroom, Alvin for Kevin, Purithat for work & Gen i've no freaking idea. Asking me bout credit card sales. Jeez.. Neways.. Now i shall list down what i shall do durin my days of freedom.. haha..

1. Appreciate time
2. Find a job! (Shopping & tattoo as my inspiration)
3. Visit places
4. Workout (B4 i grow fatter & dig my own grave)
5. Eat Japanese wif Su Ling,Jess & Jane
6. Go for Shern's play (16th-28th Dec)
7. Find a job!
8. Find a job soon!
9. Find a job immediately!

Wee!! Now I shall start on Scott's birthday countdown..hehe.. Me luurrvveee me muscleman.. Nitez!!

BUSY BUSY BUSY!

It has been pretty long since i've even visited my blog. Plus the last post was posted up last minute after a strong rush of adrenalin was rushing through my body. hehe.. Well.. Why haven't I been updating my blog.. One word would be able to explain everything.. ASSIGNMENTS! Few more weeks till the semester is over. Its starting to creep me out. So many more assignments to go. PR done and was indeed a success to the eyes of those that came to support our charity event. But definately not for the organizers. Well.. All I can say is lots and lots of dissatisfaction is running through the hearts of many of us. All the anger that is being kept inside. But oh well.. I shall not touch on that any further. Film assignments halfway through, e-media documentary is halfway through too, Media Law EXAM! , Advertising another 2 assigments to go and lastly PR post mortem happening this monday. Not forgetting exams starting this tuesday.
Gosh! I've got this whole calender in my head. Plus Scott's Bday coming up too! And christmas next.. This is the time of the year where I officially go broke.. haha.. Oh well.. Its ok.. As long as i spend within what I have... I really should start workin! Haiz.. Need to fill in something in my resume next year thats for sure. hehe.. Well.. I hope to get paid 100 bucks for half an hour again though.. hehe.. But 50 would do too actually.. Ok.. I sound like a brat for getting paid highly and being choosy. I shall live the life like any other person who usually get paid about 5 bucks an hour! hehe.. I shall.. =) I need a job.. Anybody need a P.A? hehehe...

Anniversary!

HAPPY 41st month ANNIVERSARY B!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WWWWWWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

MUAXX!

Tired!

I'm E-X-H-A-U-S-T-E-D. Y? Because i've been dancing for 8 and a half hours. Sounds almost inhuman 2 me honestly. Well.. The five of us did it! We started of at 8.30am with "Everybody" till bout 10.30 am then continued with "Thriller" when everyone else came.Then lunch at 12 then back 2 coll at 1. Continued with "Thriller". Stopped at 3. The rest went home and we continued with "Everybody" at 3.30 till 6 pm. Honestly it was a really good workout. Feel like exercising still though. I still feel not satisfied because I did not go to the gym. Kinda known as torture chamber to me. But good & effective torture chamber because without it, i don't think I would have managed dancing for that long. =D Not bad.. Hehe.. I'm starting to see results already..
I'm gonna sleep now. Eyes are all painful already. Tomolo going trick or treating!
Mua hahahaha.. Ok.. I think i'm going crazy. Plus.. B4 I go..I've 2 say that somethin is annoyin me.. There a blister at the back of my neck! *Boo hoo h0oo* Thx to halter bra straps.. Ouch! Ok... Toodles.. Nitez.. XOXO

Daddy's Surprise Party

Yesterday and today were the most hectic days i've ever been through! And I know its gonna get worst during the week cuz the Halloween Event is in 3 days time! SHIT!

Sunday, 26th October 2008

We've been planning daddy's birthday the whole week. Pretty last minute because we couldnt find a proper location but with God's Grace, he gave us the BEST. Ben & Nick's Diner! I LUURRVVVEE this place. They have the best food for a very reasonable price. N the BEST Hospitality ever. Trust me.. They're the nicest people on earth. Example: They give you free Orange Juice and Coffees even though the kitchen is closed and without a cost. Well, we booked the whole restaurant because we wanted privacy of course. hehe.. And the worst part of all was that this was a SURPRISE party. Which means... SHHHHH to everyone that received the invitation. Thankfully everyone managed to keep their mouth shut because daddy definately had a shock of his life. Unfortunately, it wasn't capture on camera but it definately will remain in our memories.. haha.. The second surprise however was as good. We managed to get one of Malaysia's Elvis Presley to perform for daddy. How we got him? He's related! Or somethin like that.. haha.. Tats the prob wif large families. Well.. The plannin for this party was MAD. Thankfully there are 4 of us to plan the party and mummy of course so that makes 5. We had to rush to the party shop to collect the balloons (11 of them) and tried to stuff it in the car. (I popped the prettiest 1! :'( ) Then to the restaurant to decorate it and then collect the cake. Sounds easy but nah-ah. Deco itself took 2 hrs +. I had my cousin Kelly's wedding rehearsal in church so therefore we couldn't be there any earlier. Oh yeah.. Talking bout the rehearsal.. I've got something to bitch about.

My youngest sister Michelle and I arrived early in church (Assumption, PJ) and observant Michelle said there was Starbucks in Assunta Hospital. So obviously greedy me, when i heard Starbucks i decided to just try our luck and see if it was really true and yes indeed. There was Starbucks there. So we walked in, decided on our drink and was greeted by the workers there. Two of them only actually. And so happen one of the workers there knew me and decided to avoid me. (Due to certain unknown reasons) Stupidly,she decided to make it really obvious like showing a panicked face when she saw me,covering her face with her hand while she swift past the counter and running straight to the back leaving the all the orders hanging behind for the other poor guy to do. Well.. I would be fine with it if the guy that was left at the counter turned into a Robot and moved superbly fast but obviously he DID NOT! I had to wait for him to take another person's order after me (took 5 mins), microwave a sandwich and then he started on my drink which took ages. We were standing there impatiently for 10 freakin mins just for a cup of Grande Caramel cream. Which turned out to be Caramel Frappachino instead. ARRGGH! Pist me off! Michelle was pastering me to turn back and change it. Thankfully i was too pist off cuz of waiting and came to my senses to just leave those two behind. Plus,i shall be nice and forgiving for that moment since we were suppose to be in church. I was tempted to go in and throw a Bitch Fit and see the hilarious panic scene all over again though. BUT as everyone knows.. When Edeline is unsatisfied, she's capable of humiliating anybody. (Just like the workers at Bubbagumps and Baskin Robbins). I'm nice as long as i get what I'm paying for. Sowwee.. I learnt Consumer Behaviour. Plus, I'm a Mass Comm student. I believe in freedom of speech.

Lesson: Never go to Starbucks at Assunta Hospital unless you dun mind staying there till dawn.

I can't fight this feeling any longer.

Well.. This title as some of you may know,is from a song. A very old song bout love. Mine however, turns out to be hatred. Tragic.. I know. Well.. I just can't stand whats happening at home any longer. Since this is the only place where I can express my thoughts and whats in my heart without boundaries,i'm gonna spill out as much as i can. Many people believe that home is where the heart is. I can't see that phrase being logical to me. To me,being at home is when i'm being shut from the world and my minds turns into a totally different mode which is depressed. Since young, i found it easier to keep hurt and anger in me rather than to express it. But only because when I do so,I would receive comments or get scolded by which then made me afraid and I did not want to trouble others with my behaviour and pretended to act like it doesn't bother me. Having that kind of thought since young,I started growing up with it. I kept every unhappy moment in me and still manage to laugh and smile widely. A lot of people do this too but what happened was my family saw the wrong me. The Me that is alright with getting stepped over and that eventually gave them the key to take things for granted. If you think about it,who would be delighted to be stepped over?

Oh well.. All my dissatisfaction and anger has been kept in me for too long until there ain't anymore place to keep them. Being the 'Ugly Duckling' in the family generates a lot of hurt and anger. Imagine.. Living with the same people for 19 years and yet they do not have a clue on who you are because they cannot accept the real you. I made a vow to myself to start being my true self so that people would love me for who I am. But i guess it is not turning out so well when it comes to my family. It hurts a lot.. They don't know if of course because they cannot even accept me being angry. If i were to show my temper,I would be given the cold treatment or also known as 'whatever'. What happened to parents looking after the heart of their kids? If they are given everything they want but when it comes to emotions,parents do not have a clue. Whats the point?

I talked to emily yesterday because i'm planning to move out as soon as I can. She disagreed to it giving me the impression that my parents are supportive with every choice i make so I do not need to move out. Hoping that one day that would come true, I had a pretty positive mind after our conversation. But when I arrived home,everything came crashing down. It may seem to her and the rest of my sisters but when it comes to me,the only true support I get is mainly from Scott. This is because everything I do is wrong in their eyes. Even to going out shopping with friends,watching a movie and going to the gym. Imagine being secluded like this at the age of 19. Where everything I do,I'm being haunted by questions and thoughts about my parents hating it. Actually I do not want much but just equality. If my parents can think equally when it comes to all four of us,that would be great. But because they can't, someone has to be the victim. The one that gets the breast meat without being asked because her sisters would make noise if they got it. The one that does not get the compliments but the criticism. And worst of all,it hurts most when you try your very best to make yr parents happy and not let them down. But what they do is to judge you wrongly and everything goes back to square one. Being open minded when it comes to me is like the end of the world to them. But when my sisters do it,they might show dissatisfaction at first,but would eventually accept it. I'm not only saying this, I've seen it with my own eyes. Which to me, is excruciating.

This is bringing tears to my eyes because the thought of it breaks my heart. In short.. Therefore,my only solution is to move out because having tears roll down everyday because of the family that is suppose to have everything is not worth it. I'm hoping it would someday because i would definatelr change my mind immediately. But if I were to kill myself, It would not be because of anything else but this. ( I won't)

Lots & Lots

I've got so many things to write since my last post which was 5 days ago.. Dunno where to start! Well.. Lets go day by day...

Monday

I went to the curve today to get Jess's present from Su Ling and Janey. Really fell in love with the Me <3>

Love Scott & Me

Tuesday

Went to Taman Tun Park to find out location for film. Su Ling fetched me and as a 'good' start, we got lost thx 2 me.. hehe.. Kononnya i know the way. Guess not after all. However,we did reach on time and earlier than the rest in fact. We went through the jungle like trail. It was pretty alright and the worst part was seeing a millipede and getting bitten by mosquitoes. Other than that it was giving me a pretty good impression. UNTIL..... We finished the trail and we were at the lake trying to get Ken to walk across the stream when... Ravin saw a SNAKE! OMG! SNAKE!! Not a bird,not a dog,not a caterpillar but a SNAKE! I couldn't move. Not an inch. The snake was on the pavement slithering,gliding,whatever it was doing and went into the lake.Gosh.. i was pretty relieved and so were the rest when it was out of our sight. Just when we were all cooled down, we went back to the lake to look at tortoise when the SNAKE jumped out right in front of Jess and Ravin. I ran as fast as my legs could bring me despite my muscle aches. So did the rest.. That was horrifying! I was so afraid that i was close to tears.. Haha.. *Shy* We then decided to leave and head for some food. At Nite was Jess's bday party at Chilli's. We definitely had an awesome time there. =) A very nice way to end the day since I'm still terrified of what happened in the morning. However,when I arrived home, my whole street was BLACKED OUT.

Wednesday

Being a public holiday,daddy decided to take a drive to Tanjung Sepat. On the way,we passed by Banting. Which was where I lived for 3 months while i was in NS. The trip brought backs TONS of awesome memories and some bitter ones (Which was when we passed by Banting Hospital). From the bubble tea shop there to food and the awesome sky. It was really great to be back there again. Can't believe i'm sayin this. hahaha..

Where r u??

Today has been a boring day.. I've done pratically nothing besides hearing Abba cuz daddy has been blasting it out loud since he went for a disc hunt & found his Abba cd after watchin Mama Mia. Other than tat.. Only 1 thing that has been in my mind.. I have not heard fr scott d whole day & still cant get him.. :( Worries me.. Don't think so he knows that it does.. Feeling rather sleepy now but i dunno how 2 sleep.. Therefore d only thing 2 do at this first hour of the day is to blog. Well.. I've got nothing much in my mind except just "Where is Scott?".. I mean its 12.14 in d morning & i've not heard fr him since 10am when i called 2 wake him up from his sleep.. Haiz.. How can a gf not be worried for not hearing from her bf for so long? Can't think of anythin else that he can be doing that requires him 2 keep his phone somewhere out of sight cuz even working its in his pocket. If ciggies can go in the pockets then there's no excuse that a phone cant.. So where can he b??!!! Sigh.. =( Hate it when this happens cuz my paranoid self would take over me..... Worried...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Gosh i'm pist off.. Ok.. I seem to get pretty pist off and sensitive bout certain things in particular lately.. But its only cuz i'm sick and tired of it already. I don't get it.. Sometimes i really wish for stuff to be different so that it is way easier for me to be happy and to achieve my dreams and to live life to the fullest. U noe.. I always somehow believe that i should treat people with respect and allow them to act freely as long as its appropriate and legal. Wat goes around comes around rite... But i guess not for me when it comes to this.
Each individual has their own freedom. Each individual is given the freedom to think,act and say what they want to. Just as long as they're responsible for their actions. So why can't others respect the freedom that the people around them have? It doesn't matter if they're young or old. It does not matter if u're a man or a woman,a girl or a boy or in between. Who cares? Everybody is free. Everybody wants to make a free decision and to act freely. A kid would want to pick the candy that he or she loves most and not be forced to eat celery sticks. A teenager would love to mingle with his or her friends,to socialise and not to be grounded at home. An adult would love to pick a spouse of their choice. And a retiree would love to spend his or her money and time according to their choice. Each of these choices are signs of achieving dreams. So why can't we? WHY CAN'T I?? Why don't those that do not respect this think about it? I mean seriously man.. Have they never hear about putting yourself in the other person's shoes?? But i have to say that the worst of all is when your choices are made by your parents. That sucks!
But one thing I know is that everyone is free to act. What you do,what you say, its your pick and no one else. Just because some one has a quiet personality does not mean that everyone around that person has to be as quiet and anti-social as well. Everyone has different personalities so why can't people not be so selfish and accept that? Why can't people allow others to achieve what they want to achieve. How can one be succesful when all one is allowed to do is to stay at home and eat. NO ONE can live alone in this world.
Each generation grows and becomes different. It grows smarter and smarter by the years. Just because in the year 1979 TV use to be a luxury, it does not mean that TV is still a luxury now. Things change.. So why can't the minds of people change to? Why is it that they're still stuck under a rock?

Our story

Our story.. From our 1st pic together (pretty obvious wif extra innocent faces...hehe) till now.. Rather drastic changes through out the years.. haha.. Besides from me going BIG to BIGGER than smaller than to a lil bigger again and it goes on and on.. haha.. And from Scott going buffer and buffer.. Oh well.. The changes.. But its alright.. :)
Muaxxx!

Dare to act,dare to face it

Well.. Saturday especially at nite & d wee hrs of sunday morning was something that i would not want to go through in any phase of my life ever again. It was the results of an action that was done but could not be faced. However,It was something that made me change and realise a few things about myself. Things that I was blind to see and maybe didn't bother seeing. But i'm glad that incident became an eye opener to certain things in my life. A few things but the few most important things. Thankfully, it is never too late to make a change. It made me realise and emphasized even more on treasuring everything i have as anything can take away wat is most precious to me. It is not to say that i didnt know that.. Its just that sometimes, we take things for granted. It made me understand things that i could never understand and even changed my point of view of certain things. Plus, it made me see things that i never knew.

It is when you loose something valuable to yourself,something that means a lot to you and something that shows a lot of who you are, it is then that you would start realising what that one thing actually means to you. To me, those that are most valuable are the ones that I love. The ones that gave me a hand in climbin the steps of life and the ones that made a change in my life. But this time,I'm talking about just one particular person that changed me a lot. That one person that through out the years has been my back bone, my inspiration, my cheerleader, my comforter, my best friend and my one and only. (And of course definately fit enough 2 be my bodyguard. *shhh...* =P) My one and only that went through hell because of me and yet, I am treated with love straight from the heart at the end of the each day. What more could anybody ask for? NOTHING! Nobody is perfect but its so amazing how a person can be at times. At times i can't even get it how someone can act so selfishly. And at times I really don't understand how someone can be so close to the word PERFECT. Close but not close enough because everbody has their own flaws. Well.. My laptop battery is dying.. I was not able to learn anything at first because of ego but in the end, I chose to face the fact, to step up to what I did and I realised that it is the most valuable lesson that I could ever learn. And if i chose to be proud and put my nose up high and to be a coward inside, I would have been the biggest looser because I never would have realise the most important lesson out of my actions and I would have lost something nobody in this world wishes to loose. In short, LESSON LEARNT! *Chop Sah* And I love my piggy baby more than anything money can buy cuz this is something we all know that money can't buy. (Even though Ms.Christine claims that girls are very materialistic... Mayb just a lil *;)* )

XOXO

Its only in d morning..

You had a bad day,

You're taking a walk down,

You sing a sad song and you turn it around,

You say you don't know,

You tell me don't lie,

You work at a smile and you go for a ride.

So early in the morning and they're playing this song already.. Wat a turn off.. Makes me even sadder.. Something has been bugging me throughout the week.

EGO is similar to a 4 letter word to me. Not sex but more of a foul language. In short,EGO is self centeredness. It makes ppl insult each other,generates hurt,hate and WAR. War in a relationship,war in families,friends,neighbourhoods and the list goes on. And this is wat really pisses me off.. Wat happened to learning about humanity and moral values and applying it in our daily lives? Everyone KNOWS wat is right and wrong. All of us were taught by our parents on what is sinful and what brings us a step closer to heaven. Everyone talks about morality. Everyone emphasizes on the importance of morality being practiced but do they only look at the actions of others or do they look at themselves too? Well.. Maybe they're just too busy lookin at the actions of others that they don't even have time to evaluate their actions! Everyone is not perfect but what do u get by hurting others just to please the egoistic side of us? Hurting others just so that one's pride and ego would be maintain? That's pure stupidity! Even the blind can see such self centered actions. Breaking families up, breaking friendships that lasted throughout the years because of just 1 stupid poisonous attitude which can be found in everybody. Even Adam & Eve! E-G-O. However, everyone has to the freedom of choice so its just up to everybody to decide and evaluate which action shows maturity and humanity.

Come to think about it.. Wats the point at the end of the day? It does not gurantee anybody a lifetime of happiness. In fact it is equivalent to loaning money from a loan shark. The joy of having cash in yr pockets but the responsibility and the guilt drilling you constantly at the back of yr head that might eventually lead to just the Rope & You. Its just pleasures that can be kept only on earth and probably buying yourself a key to the gates of hell. So why do it in the first place? WHY?

Any other day...

I can't study media law! It just doesnt seem 2 get stuck in my head. Thankfully its 50 objective questions and not 10 essays or something but i still need to have d knowledge. Which is wat i'm worried about most.. Cuz dont! Scared.... Why are there laws again?? They are effective but only to a certain extend. Anything is possible..

Well other than that,today was pretty alright.. I'm glad that i had 1 of the things on my favourite list of food which was sweedish meatballs. And NERDS ROPE was on sale in Party House! Of course i had to get it cuz that is 1 candy that can make me extremely happy. Or at least i'll be happy until it all ends up in my tummy la. Which it already has.. =( Wanna get more nerds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No mood..

The title says everything.. Oh well.. Feeling rather gloomy 2day... N a lil lost.. Was watching Australia's next top model for d past 2 n a half hrs.. Got kinda bored of it n thought i could sleep but dun feel like sleeping either now.. Haiz.. =(

Pretty frustrated (cont.)

Saturday

My dad decided to go down malacca for my granaunt's bday so my 2 younger sisters and I followed down because it would be rude to not visit yr relatives if you have nothin on. I noe,its stupid but thats family. Thankfully my dad was in a good mood so my youngest sis & I had mcd for breakfast and we were munchin on chocs the whole journey. It was pretty fun and for the first time,no1 slept in the car! hehe.. We reached malacca,got to my uncles hse in Ujong Pasir to fetch my grandaunt and all of us headed to the chicken rice ball shop in town as the start of our usual eatin marathon in Malacca. Malacca rules cuz they have the best food that cannot be found anywhere else in the whole wide world! Hehe.. After lots of yummy chicken rice balls,Krystal,Michelle and I took a walk along Jonker's street. While the rest went somewhere else searchin for some uninteresting stuff. However,this is where i went broke.. :( Got 2 t shirts,1 for me and the other for scott. Then i did somethin really silly. I bought 10 bottles of some kind of fruit juice. I couldnt help it! The bottles were so so pretty so i bought all of them. From the iced tea range to some other fruit juice range and some mix mix juice.. hehe.. Seriously the colours were all so nice and pretty.. It was a torture though to carry all these bottles back to the car. hehe.. Didnt think about carryin it.. haha. We dropped by the orang utan shop too b4 headin back to the car (Krys's shop). We each had a tshirt fr there. I like mine but after tryin it on,i kinda hate the cuttin..
After Jonker's and all,we decided to go for satay babi. (Pork Satay) More yummy food! They were so so so so gooodddddd! With the pineapple peanut sauce. Gosh.. It was awesome! Something really funny happened while parkin the car though.. This guy that i think just walked out of some saloon nearby,decided to check his hair out using the car window without knowin that we were sitting in d car. So when he came to my window, (I was sittin at the front passenger seat), i put my face directly at the window and gave him a very weird 'wats-wrong-with-you' face expression. U noe then one where 1 of yr eyebrows go up. It took him a few secs to realise and when he did realise it cuz his friend saw us in d car,he jumped and walked off really fast without turning back. haha.. I noe.. I'm evil. But thanks to him,there was something to laugh about at the satay shop and until now in fact. hehe.. Well,after satay,we walked a few doors away 2 get some miles crepe. Its cake and its seriously yummy! its way yummier than the ones ere in KL. I dunno why but the quality of the choc and cream is way betta and so are the strawberries. We bought the all time favourite chocolate & strawberry crepe. N my itchy mouth made my daddy buy a choco mint moose cake too.. hehe.. It was awesome!
After all that,we headed back to Ujong Pasir to rest as we definately over ate and we couldnt eat anymore. We rested for awhile and left at about 6. But of course when i say we left, it means that we're headin back to KL but of course stoppin to bring back food along the way as usual. So we dropped by the 1st coffeeshop for some really good and crispy yar char kuey and to take home some yummy juicy oysters fried with egg which we ended up finishin a packet in the car.. hehe. Then we headed to the next coffeeshop and brought home chee cheong fun,honey roasted chicken wings,more fried oysters with egg and wan tan mee. I noe.. My family is mad. We eat a lot seriously.. haha.. After buyin packets and packets of all those food, we headed to another shop to buy pau. Lots of them.. Then we headed to tengkera as our last stop for putu piring (rice four steam with lots of gula melaka in the middle) and char tau kuey. I dunno how 2 spell so i'm spelling it based on my own pronounciation.. hehe.. After literally fillin every empty space of the car with food,we headed home at last with me sleepin right through the journey. Oh yes.. Plus my grandaunt decided 2 follow us down 2 KL. I'm mean but *boo hoo hoo*!! Tats cuz i've 2 sacrifice my bed for a week!! Tat is torture seriously. Sigh.. Now i'm all unhappy cuz my nice bed is given up and i've 2 sleep on some bed that feels like a plank. I know.. Its unfair! :( Anyway.. I reacched home and slept b4 12 again cuz i was really really tired.. XOXO

Pretty Frustrated

Friday evening.

When i was in the car stuck in a very very bad 2hr + jam with my sister on friday,she said, "Eeyin,i think u're ready to be a mother" and my immediate reply was "NO! I'm not having any kids!". I think it kinda shocked her cuz my tone was serious.. hehe.. N at the same time she was thinkin,B-I-M-B-O. I can imagine cuz she would have guessed that d reason would be cuz i dun wanna grow fatter & fatter. And to end the awkward silence after my answer,lil miss smart me had to add that i would only have kids if they still had nice cute shoes at that time. Which i think would have added to her bimbo assumption. And F.Y.I, she said it cuz i was tellin her about my whole day of driving up & down and after college responsibities on a friday which is to send my 3rd sis & her friend to tuition in USJ 2 then to fetch my eldest sis from work in PJ then to get my 3rd sister fr tution at 7.20 and to send my youngest sis to tuition at 8 in USJ 2 again and to fetch her at 10.15.. And that is practically the reason why i dont wanna have kids. I mean seriously.. This whole thing is killin my soul. And plus if i were to have my own time with my friends or with scott in between coll and the tuition hrs of the 2 pest,it would mean non stop sms-es or phone calls fr my beloved queen bear.
Gettin back to the friday,i reached home fr 1u,dropped my bag and books in d hse,fetched my sis & her friend,sent them, headed to fetched my eldest sis & reached at about 5.45 at Jaya 1 and we reached Subang at 8. The jam was horrible! Plus is was rainin.. We had no choice but to reach home as soon as we could because my mom was callin us every 10 mins as she didnt want my 3rd sister to be waiting very long but we couldnt help it either. I mean nobody would want to be on the road fr 5-8 during the whole of this month cuz every1 is rushin. Sadly we didnt have the choice.. Even though we wanted to divert to Food Foundry to sit and wait for the jam to subcide as my ankle was hurtin and my eldest sis's was startin to hurt after takin over the wheel from me we obviously didnt want to take the risk of gettin deaf through the phone. The fact that we were sittin somewhere out of the car would have killed my mom. Therefore we sat through the jam, munchin (we dropped by Wendy's for Frosty & Mcd's for fries n nuggets) and surprisingly reached Usj2 at 8 to fetch my 3rd sis. Thank God my mom arranged for my youngest sister's friend to fetch her fr tuition. We reached home all tired with achin ankles. Had a nice hot bath,watch tv and i went to bed at 9 somethin cuz i could barely open my eyes. I fell asleep really fast and was deep in2 sleep cuz i didnt even wake up to Scott's after-work sms. The bed felt really really good.. BUT.. *boo hoo* My mom woke me up at 10 to fetch my sis from tuition. Feelin EXTREMELY frustrated and tired,i dragged my feet out fr bed and to the car without a choice. Driving with my eyes half closed and 3/4 of body was still asleep,i fetched my sis and we reached home safely thank God.
These responsibities that has been passed 2 me without any questions nor acknowledgement has frustrated me and even Scott till the bone. Imagine,tat is only 1 day out of 5.. Sigh.. I'm not usually like this but i seriously am frustrated because i would definately prefer to be more relaxed when i need to and not to be drained off my energy cuz of tuition and the work that people do not even appreciate at the end of the day. Therefore,i'm not gonna be thinkin of kids. Nah-ah..

* Mayb just not for now* hehe..

Somewhere over the rainbow

Its so gloomy today. Its been raining so much! Makes me wanna listen 2 Aselin Debison's 'Somewhere over the rainbow' d whole day. Its nice & cold but i cant go 2 d bazaar down d road either. But i'm glad i had some really good chicken rice at damansara perdana just now. It was AWESOME! Actually i dunno y am i still thinkin of food when i'm so stuffed. hehe..

College was pretty cool 2day. PR was actually really good 2tell d truth. This is d 1st time i'm gonna admit tat class was really fun & we've got a really good lecturer at last. Hope i dun have 2 take back my words.. Ms. Christine is seriously hilarious. If only all lecturers could follow her footsteps i think people would most probably think more highly of KDU's standard & its lecturers. E-media on d other hand is pretty alright also i guess. Mr.'Cool dude' made us act out some mystery murder scene. Our group cracked our heads for some really confusin story while d rest just had a simple 1. Damn.. If only we knew.. hehe.. But its ok.. I'm glad ours was nice & rather different cuz we had a whole lot of people 'dyin' instead of just 1. hehe.. N it was cool cuz Shakey was a good ' sick father/grandfather' & all of us dropped down one after another. I couldnt c the rest though.. Sowwee.. U noe.. I think all of us would agree to this.. Its really fun when yr whole group works together & laugh together & come out wif a really cool result or even close to a cool one. But on d other hand, it really sucks when group members take things for granted which makes me really annoyed & at the same time u dun have d heart to be mean. Sometimes i think to myself and i still dun get it. All of us are capable of it but i dun get it how people can close their eyes & pretend when d people around you are in need of help. Guess its the same like buyin lunch or tea fr starbucks almost everyday which cost bout RM30 +- when you can make yr whole ice blended coffee or chocolate drink and sandwiches at home & instead give the money you save to someone tat needs it more than you or use that money to buy somethin betta that would help someone or something. Ok.. I'm definately diverting into another topic d. But anyway,I gonna try n make some dim sum! Hopefully it works out then i can make some for every1 else. Talkin bout food.. There's pesto in d fridge. Anybody for pesto?

Sigh.. I'm bored la. dunno wat 2 do. Wanna go gym also cannot cuz d car is not at home. Sigh.. Sigh.. Sigh.. Its makin me depressed cuz i dunno wat 2 do d.. N Jason Mraz's Stranger in d sky is makin me feel more emo for some apparent reason. D tune is just so gloomy ooommee. Haha.. Ok.. Changin song. Sigh.. Ok.. Wats next?? Wat 2 do?? Wat 2 do??? WAT TO DOOO??? *boo hoo*!!

Birthday

I'm so happee! So so happee!! So so very very very happeeeee!!!!!!! hehe.. I think i'm really drunk wif salmon jess.. I enjoyed myself so much yesterday. All d oysters & salmon & salmon roe & mushrooms. Gosh.. Tat 4 things were good enough 2 make me wan 2 unbutton my jeans cuz i couldnt breathe. I was really eatin like a glutton. Plus i had bubble tea b4 tat. Which means lots of pearls went in my tummy b4 i could even start on d salmon. Even though my bday started out a lil rough at first,Scott made it end up being really good which is d most important. N i ended up at d mamak wif his friends but i couldnt b bothered cuz dinner was awesome n i was too happy 2 feel unhappy bout not seeing any fireworks so it didnt really bother me. Dun have pictures though.. :( Cuz i wasnt really dressed like a bday girl.. But its ok cuz even d pictures cant show how happy i am i bet. =P N my birthday pressie.. I noe somebody has somethin 2 do wif it.. =P Soft soft huge red patrick i had. I like! now i dun wan my bolster d.. haha.. N guess how i had to get tat present. We had 2 do a lil 'acrobatic stunt'. Hehe.. Since we both couldnt reach d dog cuz it was way way on top,Scott had 2 lift me up at my hips & hold still while I had 2 jump really high 2 grab tat lil bit 2 pull d dog down. Thank God i didnt pull down d whole shelf. haha. Awesome stuff we get into sometimes! hehe..

N now i cant wait 2 have lunch wif every1 else! WEEE!!!

XOXO

Pre Birthday

I went to Desa Park City today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So happy! haha.. D weather was surprisingly good.

Even though we were under d sun at 3. At least it was better than it rainin cats & dogs.Thx 2 alison's abrupt msg in d middle of last nite,we suddenly decided 2 make plans & come up ere. I definately had a good time & i'm sure su ling,jane,alison & joshua did too.. My pre-birthday celebration. hehe.. Hopefully it'll b as fun as my birthday itself. Kinda wish d afternoon didnt have 2 come 2 an end cuz i was havin so much fun spinnin & blowin bubbles wif them.. & of course lookin at those cute lil puppies. I'm really glad tat i got together wif alison & su ling & jane tagged along. Love u guys! But we're missin jess..:( But i'm sure she's having as much fun in sarawak too.

I dunno wat 2 do tomolo though.. :( or more like i dunno which plan to choose. Hopefully this year's bday wont b such a turn off like last year. Dun wanna eat 5 bucks chicken chop & sit at d mamak. I would rather pay for my own birthday meal.. Rather pathetic but its betta than being tortured sitting wif a tube top in some coffee shop in SS3.. haiz.. hehe.. Ok ook.. No more sad frustratin stories.. Well.. I'm hopin 2 c d fireworks tomolo & it betta be a very very nice weather. D sad part now is that i made plans & so did Scott & everythin is clashin cuz we both didnt tell each other anythin.. so big hoo haa goin on now. *boo hoo* but nvm.. It'll b ok.. Jesus loves me. hehe.. If not i can always spend my birthday pamperin myself. I wouldnt mind tat.. ;D For now,i'm pretty happy. Cuz i ate nice yummy chocolate mochi. Those marshmellow-ish japenese dessert. Its awesome! Had cocoa powder all over my face though.. I dun really feel like my bday is tomolo honestly.. Not prepared yet..hehe.. Imagine,tomolo will mark d last year 2b a 'teen'. After this,d big 20. haha.. I dun wan any white hair yet!! but at d same time it indicates more freedom!! Wee hee! I think i'm gonna go & bath.. I've not had my bath yet... Shhh... I'm not smelly ok. hehe.. Had 2 do my sisterly duties which is to send & fetch them fr tuition.Imagine.. I dun even have kids yet! I think next time b4 i pick my soul mate one of my specific requirements would be 'able to afford a driver for a lifetime'.. hehe.. N shhhh.. tat too.. =P

Ok la..I really think i need a bath. All sticky & icky already. Hope everyone has a great day tomolo! I hope i do too.. hehe.. Love ya guys.. Nites... Oh oh.. N btw,Su ling, if u're readin this.. U left yr shawl in my car! haha.. Just in case u're searchin high & low for it clumsy clumsy girl.. =P Love ya!! XOXO

Its the weekend! - Saturday

Tats Najib posted on d building

Dataran Merdeka

My 1st proper post in my blog. hehe.. Its pretty late already but i'm not even close 2 tired plus plus i'm left all alone because my beloved bf decided to devote his time to the computer game in d CC. ='( But its ok.. We shall leave tat aside. =D

I went KL this morning to buy breakfast with my dad. We took pretty long 2 get 2 the place cuz there was no carparks so it eventually became lunch. Boo hoo... But its ok.. Its was pretty yummy Nasi Briyani. Just pretty yummy.. Wanna noe y?? Well.. Tats cuz i got rather disgusted cuz d guy used his hand 2 pick d chicken 2 b packed together with the rice. YUCK! Plus d place was some weird lorong so i doubt hygiene is in their vocabulary over there n i definately do not expect him 2 be washin his hands every 5 mins. D worst part was.. A pair of tongs or thongs (however u spell it.. hehe) was lying right on top of d pile of chicken! Talk about blind-ness. Thankfully shoppin make me get over stuff like this pretty fast. Hehe.. Headed 2 The Curve in d afternoon since i've got nothin 2 do & Scott was busy attendin his convocation. My favourite weekend spot. Decided 2 go shoppin wif my sis while my youngest sis heads 2 d cinema wif my uncle & cousin. I love d flea market over there cuz u can find really cool stuff over there if luck is on yr side. But it definately wasnt on my side 2day cuz it was raining cats & dogs! Thankfully i found somethin really cool in this IT hyperstore place. I bought a mini vacum cleaner for my laptop! hahahaha... Its so cute & its really cool. It sucks up stuff (like duh..) & it makes those vacum cleaner noises too. Love my new gadget! Feel like using it 2 clean my whole hse.hehe.. And besides tat,i bought a new blouse too. ahaha.. Going 2 The Curve definately managed 2 paste a smile on my face. And oh oh.. 1 more thing. I had a really yummy cake too! It was suppeerrrbb! It was mouth waterin chocolate & cream tat melts in yr mouth. Topped with yummy cream & lots n lots n looaadds of chocolate powder & chocolate curls. Woo hOo! Shortly after tat i went 2 church & headed home.

But tats not how my day ended. I've got more! I went 2 KL again at nite. hehe.. Actually it was mornin.We left d hse at 12 am cuz daddy suddenly decided 2 bring us for a ride around KL 2 see d lights for merdeka so we all hopped in. Nothing great actually cuz there was a massive jam around BB being a saturday nite & d amount of holes d roads have are unbelievable. But i've got a few pics still which may not b perfectly clear cuz d car was movin. Wat i enjoyed most however was d detour tat we took 2 go & get some dim sum fr Jln Ipoh. hehe.. Yummy! Of course when it comes 2 Edeline.. Its nothin else but food. haha.. But tats about it.. N d best news for d day is that petrol price went down! yay.. (Even though its not tat much..)

Ok.. I'm feelin pretty tired now actually. hehe.. Gonna load a few pics & 1 very fascinatin pic in particular. Makes me angry! GRRRR!! Which u'll c in awhile. :) Okkies.. Nites! XOXO

Proud!

Woo hoo!! Check this out ling ling,Jess,Jane & Li Wern! Alas.. I decided 2 get myself my own blog.. hehe.. Now i just have 2 remember 2 write on it every now & then though.. haha.. Might need a lil help fr u babes for tat.. :D Sorry.. A bit jakun.. I've not blogged for years tat i feel kinda lost & a lil weird. Dunno wat 2 write, where 2 start.. Oh well.. Now i've got somethin 2 fill me in when i'm bored. :) haha.. Hopefully this will eat up all my complains about being bored though. *grin* I'm so exciitted! But i dun really noe wat 2 put in yet.. :( hehe.. Nvm.. U guys would be hearin fr me soon tats for sure as i've found myself a new hobby. =D
Wanna go & hit d bed now.. Feelin kinda sleepy especially since d weather is nice & cool.. I noe its kinda early for a friday nite.. But tryin 2 kill those eye bags that are makin me look like a panda. Not a very cute panda either.. Nitey nites.. XOXO