It's the last month of 2012, December 2012.
Everyone feels different about this, but for me, it's always HAPPY & EXCITED especially dec 2012,
because...
I'm gonna spend 4weeks and pass the new year countdown of 2013 in Tokyo, Japan!!!!!
Yes. This is the ultimate target for myself in year 2012.
When I bought the air ticket in Feb, I just wanna set a goal for myself whether I can really achieve it or not, just GIVE IT A TRY.
"Sometimes, you must do the thing which you think you cannot do."
I'm not sure whether I can communicate with them, whether I can survive going there alone, whether I can save enough money to go for 1month and everything. That's when you wanna work your best out and make it possible. I must say it's really not easy, it's hard, at least for me, but finally, I know and I'm confirmed going after I got my visa approved and money ready :')
I wanna post now because most probably I wouldn't be using computer over there until 2013.
2012 has been a really really good year to me. THANK YOU GOD THANK YOU EVERYONE EVERYTHING i could possibly think of. Always when it comes to year end, we wanna recall what we've done and what has happened to us in the whole year. I must say I'm always satisfied althou it's not perfect. there's nothing perfect in my life :) I just couldn't resist saying I'm so grateful for who i am, what i can do, what i am capable of and after living for 23 years in my wonderful life, it just gets better and better from my point of view :)
2013 is coming soon and as usual, I have targets and goals for myself :) They don't always succeed but at least i will work very hard towards them. I wanna improve and work for whatever i've set to do in my 24th year of life, never gonna stop, never gonna give up :')
Lastly, many ppl ask me, do i believe in 1221, dec 21st 2012. HAH! honestly i cannot tell whether I believe or not, but if it's gonna happen, then I will need to face it, no need to hide, nothing to fear ^^ In this case, I'm brave enough. I'm gonna pass the day in Japan Tokyo, away from my home country and beloved family, so? ;D wish everyone live to the fullest in the last month of 2012 <3 and="and" christmas="christmas" happy="happy" merry="merry" new="new" p="p" year="year">
New year, new hope.
E
Love dance, love life <3 br="br">
Saturday, December 08, 2012
Friday, August 24, 2012
2012 - so magical
the last time I blogged, 1 year ago, 2011.
What was the happiest thing for me that time? I have finally graduated after 4 years of hard work with no regrets at all fully using ALL the time I have in college to do everything I thought I could. So I have ended my study life with satisfaction :) The bonus thing is, I got to travel to many European countries, like... once in a lifetime thing.
Last night I read back my last few posts, and realized, 1 year can have HUGE changes, EVERYTHING is possible, good or bad. EVERYTHING. It all depends on... How do you want to live your live? :) take some time to think and start working on things bout that.
the year of 2-0-1-2
I have NEVER EVER expected, imagined, thought that all of these would happen. Kyle Hanagami said this during the Q&A session in UDC, 'I do not exactly set targets/goals for myself because it will be like a limitation. When you work/focus too hard to get to that, in the process of reaching there you might miss out something better, which might be good for you also.' I'm so glad when I heard that from him, because that was exactly what Im thinking, all the time. If you ask me what's my dream, I will tell you SOME of that, but it will never end, until my life ends :D
FEB - Masao sensei and his crew Mo-Blow came to Malaysia
This project was initiated by my big bro/leader, WC and he handed to me. To be honest I felt so pressured to handle this although I was excited at the same time, but I know I would learn sth as always. I never thought I would be so 'moved' / (that level of-)'inspired' before that, but right after they left, this definitely changed / improved so much in me, not only in dancing, a lot of others. Getting to know everyone of them, I felt truly blessed and lucky.
http://www.facebook.com/notes/elaine-chiam/the-memorable-masao-mo-blow-workshop-tour/10150608176382748
MAY - 8tv Showdown 2012
This is one of the things we've planned to work hard when we started in the early 2012. I have already expected it to be really tired / stressful but of course also enjoy the journey / experience / everything. But after it ended, it is SO MUCH MORE than that I swear. It's more than words can describe. Honestly? RM50k is never in our eyes. Urban Dance Camp is one of the main motivations for us, because we all know, UDC is like a dream to all of us dancers, especially in M'sia. Although at the final stage, we settled for the 2nd place and the dream of UDC crashed, we were totally grateful and blessed for everything about 8tv Showdown 2012 because it means everything, perfect moments & memories for Project Elementz with no regrets, I always love that. Still, UDC is one of my dreams to work towards and I tell myself I will be there one day if its not now :)
http://www.facebook.com/notes/elaine-chiam/the-amazing-long-run-journey-of-showdown-2012/10151008451332748
JULY - the dream of Urban Dance Camp 2012
When I got to know that I will have the chance to go UDC as sponsored by 8tv Showdown by some reason, I swear I teared like... nonstop for quite some time. I believe nobody could totally understand my feelings other than myself, it's not only happy, excited, lucky, blessed... to me it's about working so hard for years, from ZERO to something, each and every tiny bit counts, growing slowly step by step, and finally it is a HUGE thing to receive. Of course, I don't take credits to all of that, just a very small part of it, because I know i'm surrounded with good ppl, the right ppl, the ppl who love me so much and everyone matters. I really do. Just couldn't stop saying THANK YOU and I'm grateful to everyone, my heart does that. Again, without my forever beloved parents, it wouldn't be that much greater, as they have sponsored me to extend another 8days of UDC besides 8tv sponsoring 6days.
Besides learning dance from all the great teachers in UDC, I've learned / experienced and knew so much more about people, about attitudes, about lives, about thoughts. These teachers are not just awesome dancers, they are amazing ppl because of the way they think, the things they share. I must say, I am already a super positive and motivated person, but nobody will have an end, there are still so much more to learn ^^ and all these learning process are the important colors of my life, I'm so happy for that. This memory will be like... forever to me, whether there is sth better or no in the future.
http://www.facebook.com/notes/elaine-chiam/a-magical-dream-to-urban-dance-camp-2012-germany-lorrach/10151099116977748
8 months of 2012 passed, time is passing so fast everyone could tell. But fast doesn't mean that it is not enough. People always complain that they don't have enough time. REALLY? Each and everyone has the exact same amount of time in their lives, it fully depends on how you wanna use it. So there is no such thing as they have more time but you don't. That is... stupid lol I'm sorry. Unless you know you gonna die like exactly when, haha. BUT EVEN if its that case, YOU WONT KNOW FOR SURE. The world is here, lives are amazing, EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE. No one knows what happens next. Decide for yourself. Do it for yourself. No more wasting time. When you know you have really fully utilized all the time and everything you have in your life, whether its SUCCESS or FAILURE, don't regret :) smile and face it because you will DEFINITELY be better after that.
Whenever I read back whatever things that I have posted before this, it's funny as always :D you can laugh, but for all the things that I have thought and decided, I don't regret :) I always read back to all of these because until now and always I'm proud of what I have done, whether its good or bad, I just have to face it bravely and solve it right. I know I still have so much flaws. Everyone does. I love imperfection, because that's what makes our lives interesting and colorful ^^
Some have told me that, they wish they could be me, experienced what i have now. Whether or not it's sincere, I thank you for that ^^ I was once like all of you, there are always people I WISHED I WAS THEM :) which might be a good thing, because you know these ppl which you wanna live like, are ppl that you look up to, and you could learn lots of things from them. But think in detail, you only know what's good and positive about them, everything happy about them, you won't know what's the worst situation they've been into (unless they tell). They might be just like you before this, or even worse. So stop thinking bout, 'WHAT IF... I WISH... IF ONLY...' because this will not only waste your time, you will just stuck at the same point thinking things will not happen. Start doing things for yourself :) You will love yourself so much more and find the positive vibes in you!
4 more months to fight in 2012 ^^ continue to work all my heart out and chase my dream! I don't know when it will happen, it might happen it might NOT. So what? :P WORK IT!! When it comes to my dream, it's never ending and you see why this is so long :D all i want to say is, NEVER STOP CHASING YOUR DREAMS!!!
i love all of you. Love is all around <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">YOU ARE CRAZY if you really finish reading this whole thing!!! hahaha~!
Passion & love move me,
E
love dance, love life.
What was the happiest thing for me that time? I have finally graduated after 4 years of hard work with no regrets at all fully using ALL the time I have in college to do everything I thought I could. So I have ended my study life with satisfaction :) The bonus thing is, I got to travel to many European countries, like... once in a lifetime thing.
Last night I read back my last few posts, and realized, 1 year can have HUGE changes, EVERYTHING is possible, good or bad. EVERYTHING. It all depends on... How do you want to live your live? :) take some time to think and start working on things bout that.
the year of 2-0-1-2
I have NEVER EVER expected, imagined, thought that all of these would happen. Kyle Hanagami said this during the Q&A session in UDC, 'I do not exactly set targets/goals for myself because it will be like a limitation. When you work/focus too hard to get to that, in the process of reaching there you might miss out something better, which might be good for you also.' I'm so glad when I heard that from him, because that was exactly what Im thinking, all the time. If you ask me what's my dream, I will tell you SOME of that, but it will never end, until my life ends :D
FEB - Masao sensei and his crew Mo-Blow came to Malaysia
This project was initiated by my big bro/leader, WC and he handed to me. To be honest I felt so pressured to handle this although I was excited at the same time, but I know I would learn sth as always. I never thought I would be so 'moved' / (that level of-)'inspired' before that, but right after they left, this definitely changed / improved so much in me, not only in dancing, a lot of others. Getting to know everyone of them, I felt truly blessed and lucky.
http://www.facebook.com/notes/elaine-chiam/the-memorable-masao-mo-blow-workshop-tour/10150608176382748
MAY - 8tv Showdown 2012
This is one of the things we've planned to work hard when we started in the early 2012. I have already expected it to be really tired / stressful but of course also enjoy the journey / experience / everything. But after it ended, it is SO MUCH MORE than that I swear. It's more than words can describe. Honestly? RM50k is never in our eyes. Urban Dance Camp is one of the main motivations for us, because we all know, UDC is like a dream to all of us dancers, especially in M'sia. Although at the final stage, we settled for the 2nd place and the dream of UDC crashed, we were totally grateful and blessed for everything about 8tv Showdown 2012 because it means everything, perfect moments & memories for Project Elementz with no regrets, I always love that. Still, UDC is one of my dreams to work towards and I tell myself I will be there one day if its not now :)
http://www.facebook.com/notes/elaine-chiam/the-amazing-long-run-journey-of-showdown-2012/10151008451332748
JULY - the dream of Urban Dance Camp 2012
When I got to know that I will have the chance to go UDC as sponsored by 8tv Showdown by some reason, I swear I teared like... nonstop for quite some time. I believe nobody could totally understand my feelings other than myself, it's not only happy, excited, lucky, blessed... to me it's about working so hard for years, from ZERO to something, each and every tiny bit counts, growing slowly step by step, and finally it is a HUGE thing to receive. Of course, I don't take credits to all of that, just a very small part of it, because I know i'm surrounded with good ppl, the right ppl, the ppl who love me so much and everyone matters. I really do. Just couldn't stop saying THANK YOU and I'm grateful to everyone, my heart does that. Again, without my forever beloved parents, it wouldn't be that much greater, as they have sponsored me to extend another 8days of UDC besides 8tv sponsoring 6days.
Besides learning dance from all the great teachers in UDC, I've learned / experienced and knew so much more about people, about attitudes, about lives, about thoughts. These teachers are not just awesome dancers, they are amazing ppl because of the way they think, the things they share. I must say, I am already a super positive and motivated person, but nobody will have an end, there are still so much more to learn ^^ and all these learning process are the important colors of my life, I'm so happy for that. This memory will be like... forever to me, whether there is sth better or no in the future.
http://www.facebook.com/notes/elaine-chiam/a-magical-dream-to-urban-dance-camp-2012-germany-lorrach/10151099116977748
8 months of 2012 passed, time is passing so fast everyone could tell. But fast doesn't mean that it is not enough. People always complain that they don't have enough time. REALLY? Each and everyone has the exact same amount of time in their lives, it fully depends on how you wanna use it. So there is no such thing as they have more time but you don't. That is... stupid lol I'm sorry. Unless you know you gonna die like exactly when, haha. BUT EVEN if its that case, YOU WONT KNOW FOR SURE. The world is here, lives are amazing, EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE. No one knows what happens next. Decide for yourself. Do it for yourself. No more wasting time. When you know you have really fully utilized all the time and everything you have in your life, whether its SUCCESS or FAILURE, don't regret :) smile and face it because you will DEFINITELY be better after that.
Whenever I read back whatever things that I have posted before this, it's funny as always :D you can laugh, but for all the things that I have thought and decided, I don't regret :) I always read back to all of these because until now and always I'm proud of what I have done, whether its good or bad, I just have to face it bravely and solve it right. I know I still have so much flaws. Everyone does. I love imperfection, because that's what makes our lives interesting and colorful ^^
Some have told me that, they wish they could be me, experienced what i have now. Whether or not it's sincere, I thank you for that ^^ I was once like all of you, there are always people I WISHED I WAS THEM :) which might be a good thing, because you know these ppl which you wanna live like, are ppl that you look up to, and you could learn lots of things from them. But think in detail, you only know what's good and positive about them, everything happy about them, you won't know what's the worst situation they've been into (unless they tell). They might be just like you before this, or even worse. So stop thinking bout, 'WHAT IF... I WISH... IF ONLY...' because this will not only waste your time, you will just stuck at the same point thinking things will not happen. Start doing things for yourself :) You will love yourself so much more and find the positive vibes in you!
4 more months to fight in 2012 ^^ continue to work all my heart out and chase my dream! I don't know when it will happen, it might happen it might NOT. So what? :P WORK IT!! When it comes to my dream, it's never ending and you see why this is so long :D all i want to say is, NEVER STOP CHASING YOUR DREAMS!!!
i love all of you. Love is all around <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">YOU ARE CRAZY if you really finish reading this whole thing!!! hahaha~!
Passion & love move me,
E
love dance, love life.
Sunday, November 13, 2011
no one is perfect
Friends are really important in our lives.
Not to you? but yes to me.
It's not that i do not have enough friends, it's not that i couldn't find true friends that would share the pain and gain with me, but... I always get so tired so exhausted, did so much of things i THOUGHT that would show my support but in the end i get nothing. i know i know, life's not meant to be fair. u treat others the way u want but don't ever expect anything in return.
Disappointed? if i say no that would be so fake. what's all the tears for?
u know i've often heard that FRIENDS do not last. Those who believe are too naive. so maybe i'm one of those. that is why people should put family, bf/gf first. I don't know whether i'll change, but friends definitely matter so much to me sometimes i don't even know why i'm so silly doing things for them. well i'm not saying im good, no one's perfect, i'm just trying. trying to be a better friend. if u appreciate, thank you :) if u don't, it's okay :)
Not to you? but yes to me.
It's not that i do not have enough friends, it's not that i couldn't find true friends that would share the pain and gain with me, but... I always get so tired so exhausted, did so much of things i THOUGHT that would show my support but in the end i get nothing. i know i know, life's not meant to be fair. u treat others the way u want but don't ever expect anything in return.
Disappointed? if i say no that would be so fake. what's all the tears for?
u know i've often heard that FRIENDS do not last. Those who believe are too naive. so maybe i'm one of those. that is why people should put family, bf/gf first. I don't know whether i'll change, but friends definitely matter so much to me sometimes i don't even know why i'm so silly doing things for them. well i'm not saying im good, no one's perfect, i'm just trying. trying to be a better friend. if u appreciate, thank you :) if u don't, it's okay :)
Saturday, October 08, 2011
everyday is an inspiring day
I've not been blogging for ages.
I forgot for how long already, i don't have the time to online as long as i want without worrying what to do next and what i have not done or forgotten to do, until this few days :)
I'm in Bolton, UK now. staying with my long lost senior from my high school and also college, who was coincidently someone from TT also. I guess that is what ppl always says, 'each and everyone of us in the world are related in some way' i really believe this is true. Especially when nowadays u get to know ppl more just by getting their FB acc and POP! u see almost everything about them XD if they want to let u know.
UPSR, PMR, SPM, DIPLOMA, ADVANCED DIPLOMA, DEGREE -> Finally, I've finished my studies ^^ yes i am SUPER GLAD and PROUD of myself that i could go so far. i might have wanted to take masters XD IF i'm financially supported and also IF i don't love DANCING that much but unfortunately I DO. so forget it. s long s i know where i want to go to.
3 months of studying and living in Liverpool, United Kingdom
1 whole month of vacation in Europe countries Paris, Italy, Switzerland, Belgium, Germany, Austria, Spain...
1 month of extra RELAXING holidays in UK
these are things i NEVER thought i would experience, but I DID and i'm still experiencing now.
althou i would have to work my ass off to pay up all of these in d future, it's still totally worth it.
I can never be more grateful to have all of these in my life and i'm proud to say i've treasured every single moment of that more than enough :) no regrets.
that day my friend asked me,
when was the time or the period that you think it was the worst in your lifetime?
where you had all the bad things happening on you and what you did is never right.
you must have that time. everyone has that.
honestly?
NO.
again? still NO.
yes there were some bad times. just for that VERY SHORT moment. few hours? few days tops.
there are always TWO SIDES for everything.
GOOD SIDE and BAD SIDE.
when u're experiencing negative things, or things which u think its not happy not good. TRY to think on the good side. don't restrict yourself to think more than the bad side.
i know. u will start shouting at me 'OF COURSE U CAN SAY SO. BECAUSE NOW IT'S NOT UR PROBLEM. U ARE NOT THE UNLUCKY OR SAD ONE.'
well it's true. that's ur problem so u should be the one who think about it urself. i had my own problems too. i've done it and i think it works. it's up to u whether u want to do it or not. i can't help u if u don't want to help urself :)
because this is how i think and how i told ppl to think. it might not be right, but that's my way.
watched Bridesmaid just now. this is what i got ;)
'Don't blame the world for your problems.
You are your problem. You are also your solution.'
i also think it's hard to think like this all the time.
but i will try my best ^^ to be a better person <3
i enjoy walking alone in nice weather.
today i've walked to the town area alone, by looking through google map before going out, and then went wrong way once and reached :) coming back took the wrong way few times XD and i ended up at the same place 3 TIMES! haha. but at last i still manage to walk home without taking bus or cab.
i have less than a month left here in UK. i know i'm gonna miss this country SO SO SO MUCH since the first day i stepped in here because i love almost EVERYTHING about here. therefore every minute every second i'm here i feel happy and i would treasure that to the most because i don't know when would i come here again :)
about the last him. have i gone through it?
i think yes. but i can't help feeling not so good everytime i see his photo appearing anywhere.
does ONE AND A HALF YEAR matter that much?
or because its twice already?
or just because it is still consider recent?
after half a year already still recent @.@
most of the time i've gone over that. it's just the slight feelings.
when i see couples around me. whether they are super sweet or facing arguement, i think about relationship.
i know i will still want a bf. but sometimes i feel tired thinking about relationships.
i know i am still lucky to be loved from some. i know i should treasure ppl i have.
but i don't know when i will have the urge to start a relationship again.
i don't want to put all my love into this him and put all the future and hopes into him and then it breaks again :'(
but i know i cannot think like that. *sigh*
love myself first :)
i know hopes will always be there ^^
signing off.
i love everyone! ^^
E
I forgot for how long already, i don't have the time to online as long as i want without worrying what to do next and what i have not done or forgotten to do, until this few days :)
I'm in Bolton, UK now. staying with my long lost senior from my high school and also college, who was coincidently someone from TT also. I guess that is what ppl always says, 'each and everyone of us in the world are related in some way' i really believe this is true. Especially when nowadays u get to know ppl more just by getting their FB acc and POP! u see almost everything about them XD if they want to let u know.
UPSR, PMR, SPM, DIPLOMA, ADVANCED DIPLOMA, DEGREE -> Finally, I've finished my studies ^^ yes i am SUPER GLAD and PROUD of myself that i could go so far. i might have wanted to take masters XD IF i'm financially supported and also IF i don't love DANCING that much but unfortunately I DO. so forget it. s long s i know where i want to go to.
3 months of studying and living in Liverpool, United Kingdom
1 whole month of vacation in Europe countries Paris, Italy, Switzerland, Belgium, Germany, Austria, Spain...
1 month of extra RELAXING holidays in UK
these are things i NEVER thought i would experience, but I DID and i'm still experiencing now.
althou i would have to work my ass off to pay up all of these in d future, it's still totally worth it.
I can never be more grateful to have all of these in my life and i'm proud to say i've treasured every single moment of that more than enough :) no regrets.
that day my friend asked me,
when was the time or the period that you think it was the worst in your lifetime?
where you had all the bad things happening on you and what you did is never right.
you must have that time. everyone has that.
honestly?
NO.
again? still NO.
yes there were some bad times. just for that VERY SHORT moment. few hours? few days tops.
there are always TWO SIDES for everything.
GOOD SIDE and BAD SIDE.
when u're experiencing negative things, or things which u think its not happy not good. TRY to think on the good side. don't restrict yourself to think more than the bad side.
i know. u will start shouting at me 'OF COURSE U CAN SAY SO. BECAUSE NOW IT'S NOT UR PROBLEM. U ARE NOT THE UNLUCKY OR SAD ONE.'
well it's true. that's ur problem so u should be the one who think about it urself. i had my own problems too. i've done it and i think it works. it's up to u whether u want to do it or not. i can't help u if u don't want to help urself :)
because this is how i think and how i told ppl to think. it might not be right, but that's my way.
watched Bridesmaid just now. this is what i got ;)
'Don't blame the world for your problems.
You are your problem. You are also your solution.'
i also think it's hard to think like this all the time.
but i will try my best ^^ to be a better person <3
i enjoy walking alone in nice weather.
today i've walked to the town area alone, by looking through google map before going out, and then went wrong way once and reached :) coming back took the wrong way few times XD and i ended up at the same place 3 TIMES! haha. but at last i still manage to walk home without taking bus or cab.
i have less than a month left here in UK. i know i'm gonna miss this country SO SO SO MUCH since the first day i stepped in here because i love almost EVERYTHING about here. therefore every minute every second i'm here i feel happy and i would treasure that to the most because i don't know when would i come here again :)
about the last him. have i gone through it?
i think yes. but i can't help feeling not so good everytime i see his photo appearing anywhere.
does ONE AND A HALF YEAR matter that much?
or because its twice already?
or just because it is still consider recent?
after half a year already still recent @.@
most of the time i've gone over that. it's just the slight feelings.
when i see couples around me. whether they are super sweet or facing arguement, i think about relationship.
i know i will still want a bf. but sometimes i feel tired thinking about relationships.
i know i am still lucky to be loved from some. i know i should treasure ppl i have.
but i don't know when i will have the urge to start a relationship again.
i don't want to put all my love into this him and put all the future and hopes into him and then it breaks again :'(
but i know i cannot think like that. *sigh*
love myself first :)
i know hopes will always be there ^^
signing off.
i love everyone! ^^
E
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
病的感觉。。。
我终于都真的要blog了 XD
其实真的想blog了很久，每次很开心或不开心到很想发泄，又不想特地找人讲的时候我真的很想blog。
有时真的很懒写，但又想要写，就会post as fb status。
可能很多人觉得很假，但是不用紧啦我也不在意他们怎样想，
就是其实我真的很emo到要post status来发泄的时候，
我就是真的顶不顺了 >.<
我有时真的希望没有人看到，或者看到了假假看不到，因为我不是post来看有没有人关心我，哈哈。
我只是想post，please不要回我如果你觉得很annoying。
不然好像会很多人觉得我很可怜 XD
也不是不喜欢人家关心啦，就不喜欢好像因为我‘刻意’讲了出来所以来关心我 XD
我真的真的无时无刻都觉得我很幸运，很幸福了。
没有要埋怨谁，只是想自己讲话，哈哈。
近者两个星期我有时不时突然间emo一下，没有很不ok，不过就有emo到咯。
就刚才就有emo到一下了。没有很严重，不过有少少泪。
然后很不相关的，
我刚刚开始觉得身体很冷，有点没有力，身体有点懒懒，头也有点晕晕。
很明显是没有很舒服，好像过多一下就会发烧。
可是我还蛮肯定等下吃panadol再睡个很好的觉，想一想一点开心的东西，
明天就会正常得很 =)
可是我有点变态的觉得，
我少少emo的心情，加上少少不舒服的身体，
有一种很弱但有舒服的感觉！！
omg 有点变态可是是真的。
我很想讲出来但是我不要在fb讲，等下又很像要很多人关心酱。
其实我本来都没有酱的想法，
可是在我最受伤的那天，我很爱的人尽然这样子来讲我很需要人关心。
不只是因为我完全不是酱的人，
还有因为酱想我的人是你。
不过也不要紧，因为我还是讨厌不到你。
写到这里，我已经哭着了。
我完全没有把我们的照片delete掉，不是因为我还想和你在回一起，
是因为我会等到我克服了的那一天，再看回我们美好的回忆。
还有你那一百张不同的搞怪脸，我几乎完全不敢再看，
我怕我看了回到哭到睡不着的恐怖时代。
有人跟我说，我会越哭越沉迷那种很笨但又舒服的感觉，
我可以承认这的确是对的，因为我有少少感受到。
有人也说，‘这个男人可以追你酱久，抛弃你为了荒谬的理由，
再次很辛苦的追回你，又第二次酱放弃你，
这个男人连朋友都不应该做。
我的生命里还有很多很多的好男人。’
可是我有点可笑但是我觉得的是，
是我要和他在一起，发觉了不该在一起的理由可是我坚持给他第二次机会。
结果也让他第二次抛弃我，我还要好像傻婆酱哭到很丑。
可能因为我恨不到他，
所以我觉得他可以第二次放弃我是因为他认清了相处不到的事实，
而我才是那个不要面对事实，又觉得爱可以解决很多东西的人。
可能爱还是可以解决很多东西，
但是当我酱觉得而他又不觉得时，
结果就是要分开。
不想写酱多到最后也是写了这么多。
不想哭酱多到最后还是哭了满多。
平时我会很自然的打给几个我会发泄的对象，
但是今天我不想打给任何人。
也不想任何人懂我现在酱。
也是哭而已嘛，谁都会哭 =)
希望没有人看到这个post。
如果你看到了，不需要comment，如果你还是想comment， 就用anonymous吧
谢谢关心 <3 我爱所有人 ^^
其实真的想blog了很久，每次很开心或不开心到很想发泄，又不想特地找人讲的时候我真的很想blog。
有时真的很懒写，但又想要写，就会post as fb status。
可能很多人觉得很假，但是不用紧啦我也不在意他们怎样想，
就是其实我真的很emo到要post status来发泄的时候，
我就是真的顶不顺了 >.<
我有时真的希望没有人看到，或者看到了假假看不到，因为我不是post来看有没有人关心我，哈哈。
我只是想post，please不要回我如果你觉得很annoying。
不然好像会很多人觉得我很可怜 XD
也不是不喜欢人家关心啦，就不喜欢好像因为我‘刻意’讲了出来所以来关心我 XD
我真的真的无时无刻都觉得我很幸运，很幸福了。
没有要埋怨谁，只是想自己讲话，哈哈。
近者两个星期我有时不时突然间emo一下，没有很不ok，不过就有emo到咯。
就刚才就有emo到一下了。没有很严重，不过有少少泪。
然后很不相关的，
我刚刚开始觉得身体很冷，有点没有力，身体有点懒懒，头也有点晕晕。
很明显是没有很舒服，好像过多一下就会发烧。
可是我还蛮肯定等下吃panadol再睡个很好的觉，想一想一点开心的东西，
明天就会正常得很 =)
可是我有点变态的觉得，
我少少emo的心情，加上少少不舒服的身体，
有一种很弱但有舒服的感觉！！
omg 有点变态可是是真的。
我很想讲出来但是我不要在fb讲，等下又很像要很多人关心酱。
其实我本来都没有酱的想法，
可是在我最受伤的那天，我很爱的人尽然这样子来讲我很需要人关心。
不只是因为我完全不是酱的人，
还有因为酱想我的人是你。
不过也不要紧，因为我还是讨厌不到你。
写到这里，我已经哭着了。
我完全没有把我们的照片delete掉，不是因为我还想和你在回一起，
是因为我会等到我克服了的那一天，再看回我们美好的回忆。
还有你那一百张不同的搞怪脸，我几乎完全不敢再看，
我怕我看了回到哭到睡不着的恐怖时代。
有人跟我说，我会越哭越沉迷那种很笨但又舒服的感觉，
我可以承认这的确是对的，因为我有少少感受到。
有人也说，‘这个男人可以追你酱久，抛弃你为了荒谬的理由，
再次很辛苦的追回你，又第二次酱放弃你，
这个男人连朋友都不应该做。
我的生命里还有很多很多的好男人。’
可是我有点可笑但是我觉得的是，
是我要和他在一起，发觉了不该在一起的理由可是我坚持给他第二次机会。
结果也让他第二次抛弃我，我还要好像傻婆酱哭到很丑。
可能因为我恨不到他，
所以我觉得他可以第二次放弃我是因为他认清了相处不到的事实，
而我才是那个不要面对事实，又觉得爱可以解决很多东西的人。
可能爱还是可以解决很多东西，
但是当我酱觉得而他又不觉得时，
结果就是要分开。
不想写酱多到最后也是写了这么多。
不想哭酱多到最后还是哭了满多。
平时我会很自然的打给几个我会发泄的对象，
但是今天我不想打给任何人。
也不想任何人懂我现在酱。
也是哭而已嘛，谁都会哭 =)
希望没有人看到这个post。
如果你看到了，不需要comment，如果你还是想comment， 就用anonymous吧
谢谢关心 <3 我爱所有人 ^^
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