I'm in the thick of planning lessons for my 7th graders about "forming friendships." All day today I couldn't help but to think about my own experience with forming friendships. I have friends from high school, college, church, as well as "friends-in law" (friends of my friends who I have consequently become friends with). I also have a lot of lost friendships.
Some lost because I never see them.
Some lost because of a disagreement or misunderstanding.
Some lost because of a friend-in-law situation (example, I made several CLOSE friends while dating someone, but when we broke up, the friends broke up too).
Some lost because I have been a bad friend.
Here are some of the things on my heart tonight... Sorry for the rambling.
To Ashley,
I'm glad we've remained friends through good times and bad. Sickness (car wrecks included) and health, richer (tunica included) and poorer. I love you, and even though we don't speak as often as I'd like to, I know we can always pick up where we left off. We've had some hard times individually and together, but I have so many good memories with you. I love you so much.
To ______________,
I doubt you even read this blog, but if by some chance you do, I miss you so much. I know that _________ and ______ were friends long before we were, but when I met you I knew instantly we'd click. You were always my favorite friend to be around, and I could always count on you (and ______) for advice. I am so sorry that my wedding invitation didn't make it to your house, and I am even more sorry that it hurt you. I never meant for it to and I'd give anything to re-connect with you. I pray for you, ________, and ______ so often. I hope you are so happy and doing well.
To Andrea,
You are one of the first people I met in Jr. High and I just didn't understand how you could be so nice to everyone. I was so glad when we got back in touch because you are an inspiration to me, even if you don't know it. You are a wonderful christian wife and I can learn so much from you. I love being around you and I miss our lunches together. I so wish I could see or talk to you more often and I feel like my excuse of "I don't have email at school" isn't good enough. I miss you.
To Melissa,
We have grown up together and I'm glad that we are still "cousin/friends" as adults. You are truly my kindred spirit, and I think it is too funny how alike we are, while being different too. I can't wait to meet your little baby (hopefully girl). I hope I can have a little girl too and they can be as close as we are.
PS I love the way you laugh
To Sarah,
Sarah, you are one of my very favorite friends. You are always there for me, and I am blessed to have traveled through the most difficult times of my life with you (NCIDQ included). Thank you for being my friend.
To _____________
I miss you the most. So much. I know we can't be as close as we once were (and yes, I understand why) but sometimes my heart physically aches because we can't. You truly helped me become the person that I am today and I didn't even realize it along the way. You always pushed me to be a better person, even though at the time I griped at you for pushing too hard. The memories I have with you are priceless. Sometimes I wish things were different...and that's all I can say about that. Thank you for being my friend, even now when it is really hard.
To Kristen,
We haven't been able to be friends IRL (in real life) for so long, but I'm glad we reconnected via the internet. I also have so many good and fun memories with you and Sometimes I wish we could go back to those days...the carefree ones. I hope we can continue to stay in touch, even if it's only online.
To Steph,
Oh Stephanie, you are truly my bestie (as my 7th graders would say). I can't believe that after all these years we are finally back in the same city and we never see eachother! I love you like a sister (LYLAS, for real) and I secretly wish we were next door neighbors. Thank you for everything you've been and meant to me throughout our 15 years (!!!) of friendship.
Tracy,
There was once a time when I thought that you and I would be joined at the hip forever. I don't remember what drew us apart, but I'm willing to bet that it was my fault. You are another that I have SO MANY fun memories with (going parking in sheridan and getting my mom's car stuck included). I miss your friendship...a lot...
Dear MMM,
Oh, we had so much fun together! You are another friend that I feel like we are so much alike. I miss our fun times and our long talks, and singing together. It seems as if we were both going through strange phases during the beginning of our friendship but we somehow understood eachother perfectly. I miss your friendship, but I'm glad we can connect through our blogs.
Love,
Charity :) / :(