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Thursday, September 5
Baby #4 : Hassan Abraham
Who knew this day would come? Haha. Me writing a post of the newest member of our family, our 4th baby boy. Hassan. Oh how, I missed blogging too. I would need a time like this, to be able to sit down peacefully & start writing. This is rare! I am not complaining, coz I think busy is good too. Also the fact that, I am ultimately grateful to be able to take care of my kids 24/7. Special Thanks to Amin :
Bie, thank you so much for working so hard to provide for us all. Semoga Allah berikan ganjaran, pahala, kesihatan yg baik for you. InsyaAllah.
So, here it goes.
We couldn't believe when we found that we were pregnant again. Just a couple weeks earlier, we went diving in Sipadan. Gosh, it was a not a smooth sailing one for me coz I got vertigo underwater on every dive. So that explains, I was pregnant.
Masa mengandungkan Hassan, I was not as strong as I used to be. Maybe the age factor. Haha. I easily get tired and wish to be in bed all the time. Alhamdulillah, all my boys were so understanding. I told them, "Sorry, boys. Mommy is not feeling too good. Please let me rest/sleep for a while & then I'll go cook/help with homework/send mengaji/etc". Then all of sudden, they would sit down and gave me massages or send me a glass of water. oh God, I'm so blessed for these boys in my life.
My due date was supposed to be on the 9 September 2017. I thot that's just perfect as my birthday is on the 6 June. So 9/9 = 6/6 :) We went to see Dr Siti at first, but was so heartbroken when the nurse informed that Dr Siti doesn't deliver anymore but she's ok seeing us until 24th week. So yeah, we did that and then change to seeing Dr Noor Aini. Who is also my SIL's gynae. We came to like her too. Everything was great, Hassan was growing so well, we knew it was a boy even before the 5th month detailed check up, definitely not so shy to show his 'thang' during ultrasound scan. Haha.
Then Dr Noor Aini gave us the news that she wont be around during my due date. She had planned to go for her annual hiking trips with friends-in one of the Himalayas trails! Yikes! But we wanted to deliver naturally, no plans of inducing so yeah we said nevermind. Please just refer us to another gynea. She was also expecting us to go earlier as it is my 4th child but that didn't happen! haha.
Amin pun canceled his NY trip coz doc was worried that I would deliver earlier. That didn't happen! (Sorry, Bie!)
I was nervous to go see this new gynae as I've never heard of her before. All I knew was she was new, 2 years in SJMC and previously in HKL. Her name is Dr Pauline. So, our appointment with her was so nice & simple. She was thorough when checking and it turned put that Hassan was already 3.4kgs. 1 week before due date. We were shocked coz Hassan was only 3kg the last time we checked, 1 week earlier. She advised that I get myself induced by Monday if there wasn't any natural signs, we told her that we wanted to have it naturally. She was worried if the baby goes beyond 3.5kgs if we were to wait any longer, even to our due date. Meanwhile, I went on doing alotta walk & housework to help or cepatkan la nak beranak tu.
Our appointment was on Saturday, 2/9/17.
*Ok, sambung tulis cerita as dah letak on hold for a long time. 12 January 2019.
Hari Raya Haji went by, punya lah kita dapat rasa that he will come out then. Haha. Also super hoping then sebab Dr NoorAini masih ada di KL. Seperti yg dijanjikan... Malam, 4th September 2017. If there's no signs I should just check myself in and get ready to be induced. We dropped Rayyan, Aydan & Jordy at my parents place. Antara sebab yang berat jugak was I sedih tak dpt be there for Jordy's orientation day & 1st day, where I would normally akan sibuk setiap kali for my other 2 boys. But hey, Jordy was in great hands. So I told myself to just focus on myself & Hassan.
We arrived at the hospital. Nurse told us to go get something to eat & come back by 10pm. Makan nasi ayam & went back upstairs to see whats next. Tukar into hospital gown, I was already 3cm diluted but if not mistaken my cervix was still not 'soft'. So it wont be anytime soon lah.
Nurse told me that there wasn't anything that they will do that night. I just rest and wait for what will Dr Pauline suggests. They kept telling me that the baby is big, by the look or when they manually measured my belly! I started to get more nervous with that , as I am already have so many thoughts like I wasn't familiar with the gynae. Overthing, I know! :P
Continuing this on Hassan's 2nd birthday.
I went out to get some walk... to help induce the labour. Though I wasn't experiencing any pain or even signs. I got tired (of not having any signs haha), I went back to our room to rest some more. Then the nurse came in to tell me that she would induce me then, but supposed to be a slow process which means... I will only be in labour in the morning. Texted my family to tell them that they baby will not be out anytime soon, so better that they go to bed.
So I changed, got ready. Did the 'empty-tummy' thingy and all of a sudden, I'd say 10minutes later.... I was already having contractions. It was ok at first but it got worse by the minute. Asked for the epidural straight away, coz hey honestly I was so scared of the pain. Haha. The doctor came & putting the epidural was not as easy as during Jordy's time. I was also already in pain. Palking teruk is the whole entire time, the epidural did not work. Which means, it was already too late.
My contractions was really high & the nurse suggested that I take the gas to help with the pain. I wanted to pass, it did nothing to me preciously too. But thank god, ntah la sebab dah jadi diver... the breathing was better that the gas actually helped! Hahaha phewwww...! Its all about the breathing baby!
Amin was there every step of the way.. My gynae came to see me, I told her I was so much pain. Epidural not working. I was already 7cm at 3am. The details are already blur to me now, Geezz, my fault for now writing sooner. Hehe.
All I remember, sangat sangat sakit, but the breathing technique which I just learnt then helped to manage my pain. Alhamdulillah. All of a sudden, at 4am they told me that the baby is ready to come out. Ooohhhh earlier when checking how much dilated I was... the nurse accidentally burst my waterbag! And that made it lagi la sakit. Uwa!
The nurses & the gynae was excellent. Coach Amin, takyah cakap la kan... haha. Not long after 3 pushes, Hassan made it out! Alhamdulillah. Syukur semuanya selamat & mudah.
He cried, and cried.. but all calm when I held him. Aww. He weight at 3.5kg, the heaviest among his sibliings. We name him Hassan Abraham. Hassan tu memang dah set even when at 6mth lagi, deciding earlier. This time Amin chose both 1st & last name. Mommy takde idea sgt dah.
Hassan = handsome' or 'good', or 'benefactor
Abraham= also known as the Prophet Ibrahim.
Hassan was expected to arrive during Hari Raya haji, so hence the name Abraham... plus we love the name too. We also thought of Adha but mehhh..
Semoga menjadi hamba Allah yang taat, beriman dan berguna sebaik namanya. InsyaAllah.
We love you Hassan! Thank you for choosing us to be your family. We are so blessed and grateful having you around. You're simply one of a kind .
Much Love,
Mommy
Daddy
Abang
Aydan
Jordy
Happy 2nd Birthday.
5 Sept 2019
Today, you insisted to follow send Jordy to class & instead of going back to the car after, you want us to head on the canteen for breakfast. Not today, baby. We got you nasi lemak for breakie, you mandi right & Now taking a nap in front of the telly.
Tuesday, December 23
Baby #3
Syukur Alhamdulillah. Welcoming baby no #3 to the family.
Our 3rd son, introducing Jordan Arfan bin Amin Ariff Asha'ari.
He was born on the 15th September 2014 at 3:41pm. Weighing at 3.09kg & height 47cm.
Before I forget, baik lah tulis the labour experience here. Just like I did with the 2 abangs.
I was very lucky to have Amin & my dad to help send, pick up Rayyan to school & therapy a week before the due date. At that point memang dah tak larat. Lg ke p) Doctor Siti was worried since I have active daily routine, I wasn't gaining so much weight. I only gained 3/4 kgs throughout. Baby pon was also under weight. Bagai nak gila jugak la makan anything I could. Tho not much coz I wasn't craving anything or have the selera to eat at all.
The last appointment with Dr Siti, which was on a Friday, I was 2cm dilated & baby was already engaged. No wonder I was having contractions a few days earlier.
So, we were excited to know that the baby was on his way. We brought the boys to makan & play at Jkids on the next day. I took the opportunity to find socks for myself & jalan-jalan hoping to get dilated lagi. Hehe.
By the time we got home, everyone was exhausted. Kids fell asleep in the car. Then, Amin & I pulak dah lapar, so Amin went out to get burger tepi jalan for us. While he was out, my contractions was getting intense. Lepas makan, I started to monitor & record the consistency. Oh yeah, it was sakit betul. Disebabkan dah baby number 3, I didn't want to take any chances la of tunggu2 lama lagi. So we decided to go to labour ward straight away.
Dah sampai hospital, met my parents there so the boys boleh tidur at their place. The contractions pulak dah tak kuat sangat. Adui. I was already 3cm dilated then anyhow.
Waited thru the night, but nothing happen.
I had strep b infection (you can Read here), so I needed to start on the antibiotics right away. The antibiotics course was every 6 hours. So that was it, I couldn't get out anymore.
Doc Siti came the next morning, Sunday, to see me. I told her that I'm planning to take the epidural. Hehe.
So all the while in the ward, I spent my time duk jalan-jalan keliling to naturally induce lah, but I was still at 3cm with no major contractions. Manja manja je contractions dia.
So Dr Siti yg dekat counter tu pun panggil la as dia tgk I jalan-jalan dari tadi. She suggested that I induce since I'm planning to take epidural anyway.
I was against inducing coz SAKIT! but what she said made sense la sebab takde la sakit pun kalau nak amik epi! Hehe.
Around 4ish, my parents came & with the boys. Gosh, I missed them so much. Made me feel so much better. I was worried. I can't lie. Aunty Anin came with Uncle Lili too. Alip & Haziq came around after lunch. I was no where near labour. Hehe.
Amin & I decided to wait till Monday morning if the baby Tak keluar by then & only then we will induce. We were hoping it will be all natural.
Sunday night yang membawa ke Monday morning, I had kind of strong contractions. Amin said "tunggu dulu" when I asked if I should tell the nurse. This time nurse dah tak jaga my Contractions rate sebab dah takde lama dah since warded. Yeap, it went away just like that after a few hours.
Monday morning it is, so dah confirm la induce. Dr Siti came & told me that she has 2 czer operations in the morning which means she will only be free by noon. Suggested that I get the epidural done by 10ish & induce by 11ish.
I decided to get epi anyhow coz I remember how painful it was. Omg! Haha no joke man! No joke! Crazy painful. But the doctor who did it this time around was awesome, he was alot better that the precious doc.
Doctor ni buat cepat & tangkas! Omg. Sebab saya adalah nervous time tu.
All done by 1130am.
Doctor Siti came by 1230am. I was still at 3cm dilated but she said the baby dah in 'lock' position. She predicted that it will be a fast one since this is my 3rd baby. "By this evening, you can hold your baby already", she said. Hehe.
Around this time jugak, the epidural has already kicked in. Can't feel my legs. I was like wow! Nurses had to help me to move. I wasn't comfortable with it, not able to move on my own.. Ohh man. Resah semacam rasanya. Somewhat dizzy jugak. From the ctg scan, my contractions was strong but I don't feel anything at all. Huhu, I cheated labour pains. So while waiting til the time I have to push, Amin slept, while I tried to get the resah feeling outta my head & get some rest. Had my fone while me, listening & reciting to Surah Maryam, Surah Yasin, Ayat Qursi & selawat2. Lights had to be switched off coz it made me all dizzy.
By 3pm, nurses pon dah tukar shift & coincidently the nurse who 1st greeted me on Saturday night, came in to check on me. To see how I was doing & the 'opening'.
While doing all that, another nurse came in. She then said to her colleague, "Can you pls call Dr Siti, its time".
I was like "What now? (Hahha sounded so rude kan but I couldn't believe it!) Am I fully dilated now?" she smiled, nodded & said "Yes" Oh wow, ok.
Dengan pantasnya, dia pon set up the room, while the other nurse tried to call Dr Siti. They couldn't get her. Aku dah cuak Gila! Haha.
In my head, macam baru saja doc kira 3cm, in about 2 hours Dah buka lagi 7cm. Wow. Seriously. Masa Rayyan pon induced, but rasanya setiap jam 1cm je. Memang sangat terkejut.
Epidural was switched off. Nurse helped me to push. Couldn't remember how many pushes till they can see the baby's head. Doc came sometime at 3:30pm. Thank God, I had a lot to energy then (the beauty of epidural hehe). Doc pon set up, Letak all the linens or blue plastic around my legs... She told me that she would give baby straight to me for skin to skin contact... Well, I loved it! The 2 abangs tak buat macam ni pon. Different doc different style kan?
Again, I can't remember how many times I had to push till baby came out! Maybe it was just 3 strong ones.... Thanks to my coach aka Amin! ;)
It was an easy delivery... All went well, syukur Alhamdulillah. Doc passed the baby to me straight away. Baby was crying. Nurses were busy cleaning him up and sedut2 nose & mouth area, while I was admiring our little baby, in my hands! amin potong the umbilical cord like he did with Rayyan & Aydan. After that they took him away to weigh, did all other tests & Amin to Azan.
Just love the feeling. It felt surreal. I love the feeling of post delivery. Just so blessed & thankful to be given the chance to experience this. I would do it again, definitely! With epidural of coz! Haha.
Doc said, it was just a small tear, but it's ok. It was a great experience with Doc Siti. She was very gentle, caring & superb gynea lah.
Baby was given back to me to feed him. It didn't took him long, he got it after a few trial! Alhamdulillah. They then brought him to the nursery while I waited for a ward. Before moving to our room, the nurse got me cleaned up. I don't remember they did that before this. It totally made me feel better & 'cleaned'.
Nek Nin & Jessie came just in time. They were the 1st ones to see baby Jordan.
Time ni jugak, I experienced the after labour pains for the 1st time. Omg, cheated labour pain but didn't know that the after pains was cray cray too. Due to the placenta shrinking, trying to get back to its original size. It was even worse during breastfeeding! (Coz while breastfeeding, it helps the placenta to shrink faster naturally) Ponstan every 6hrs is no joke! They said that it takes about 4 day to 2weeks! omg! It normally accours when or after the 3rd baby. It gets painful after each baby. Yikes! Can't help thinking of my grandma who has 11 kids!
All was ok except that we had to stay longer. Jordan were still not peeing since Day 1. His Pead was on leave so the paed ganti said, they will let us discharged but have to come back if baby was not still peeing. Alhamdulillah, he peed once we got home that same night.
The 2 abangs was so happy to receive his baby Adik at home. Alhamdulillah.
Syukur Alhamdulillah untuk rezeki yang telah dikurniakan. 3 amazing boys.
It took us forever to find his name. But we are happy & humble to name him Jordan Arfan.
JORDAN = The country/river
ARFAN = Gratitude
Arfan is also a combo of Amin, Aydan & Rayyan's second names... ARiff, Faris & ilhAN. Ok, ni baru perasan haritu. Just nice!
Monday, March 31
3rd Pregnancy
Saturday, January 25
Update on Aydan : 7MONTHS
I wish I can write as much as did masa Rayyan dulu. Sorry Aydan, masa sangat mencemburui kita. Hehe but I will still try as much as I can.
Aydan is 7months old now. He has taken all his jab sampai takat ni, termasuk la the optional ones. The last time we checked he was 7.5kg at 6months old. Growing so well this little one.
Masih sama seperti his usual self, manja teramat. Hehe with me especially, now he likes to play with daddy too. He loves his Abang, that's for sure! Of course, Abang is so in love him it him too. They make each other laugh, boleh main sesama. I hope & think that they'll be best brothers til the end. InsyaAllah.
Bab makan, he's still on breastmilk. Still feed at night tho I'm planning to wean him off. He's eating well too, Eats everything that we prepare for him... Servings pun dah bertambah. His favourite are bananas, sweet potato & porridge with carrots, chicken and broccoli. Least fave pulak is apple. I'm thinking to write another post about his home made purees.
At 6months, he can sit unsupported. Now he's learning how to crawl. Slowly, he's getting no the hang of it. He now can Pick up small things with his tiny fingers and straight into his mouth. Tho maybe a little more practise would be better.
Well, that's all about adik for now. Till next time!
Wednesday, September 4
Potty Training for Rayyan
Rayyan is officially off diapers! Yeay!
We started way before... but I wasnt consistent because I was heavily pregnant. Then, he kind of got the idea of going to the potty. By night time, I dah pakaikan dia diaper, takut dia tak pandai nak control masa tidur. Masa siang pulak, the distance from our home to his school could take up about an hour, memang tak berani nak ambil risiko.
Then tak lama lepas tu, when Aydan arrived... Rayyan didn't want to cooperate. He insisted on diapers. Aiyak!
So recently, a week before he started going back to school again, I decided to train him one more. He had a few 'accidents' and then terus he asked for diapers. We encourage him & told him that he's doing a great job :) Kasi la semangat. Memang betul, just go all out je terus. This time, walaupun waktu malam tetap dia tak pakai diaper tapi dia berjaya! Only on the 3rd night ada 'accident' sikit la on OUR bed! hehe Masa keluar jalan-jalan pun, I took the risk to not let him wear the diaper. Ada jugak sekali je accident dekat Mothercare. Tapi lepas tu dah takde lansung.
I still keep on reminding him if he wants to go "shishi". It annoys him! Haha. He would normally reply "No Thanks!" My silly baby!
Nowadays, he doesn't need me to assist him any more. He can do all by himself. Even his teacher told me that he can go to the loo himself. Wow kan! Im so proud of him!
I've been teaching him to shishi while duduk, well I forgot that he's a boy and boys pee while standing. Just yesterday I saw him doing it... I was like "Oh gosh, he is a big boy now!" Amin said he didn't teach him that, I figured maybe he learned in school(?)
He has no problem with 'No 2' too :) While doing 'No 2' just now, I went in to prepare mandi for Aydan... he suddenly asked me "Hey, where's my newspaper?" Hahah mana la dia belajar, budak bertuah tu!
Untuk keselamatan tilam, I put a layer of the laundry plastic cover on his mattress & on top of it is a muslin towel to serap air kalau dia shishi dalam tidur.
I know its a little too late to potty train him but I'm so proud of him! Within days, he can go completely without the diapers. +proud mummy+






