Looking Back

Assalamualaikum,

Looking back the year 2008 has been a very fruitful year for me. I managed to score every goal that I've set in late 2007.

1. Buy a new laptop - bought
2. Downpayment for a new car - manage to buy in late October 2008
3. Flight to Ireland - went to Dublin, Paris & London in mid June 2008.

There were a few surprises too,

4. Gotten engaged - but has ended & there will be no wedding bells anytime soon.
5. Enlisted in Masters program - quite surprised at being accepted as I was doing it on a whim actually.

But the ending of 2008 and 1429H was quite a horror that are beyond words - the bombing of Gaza, Palestine. I imagine that if was there at this point of time, I will not survive. Having living in 'luxury' in Malaysia, I think my soul is not strong to face the adversity there. If I were in the middle of the bombings, I tell you I will just stand there rooted to my place without moving as if thinking this is just a dream. I can't read the papers or watch the news - my tears will fall. A glimpse of pictures tells me how despicable & monstrous the Zionist are. I condemn all of you to HELL!!!

Class Has Started

Assalamualaikum,

My first class started today about 6.00pm until about 8.30pm. At certain point of the lecture @ discussion I was getting droopy. Too tired & tensed. The class was about Organisational Behaviour (OB) and it was very interesting.

I suppose I'm beginning to enjoy learning this time because the major factor that I took up Masters was for the knowledge itself and not so much on the qualification. Much different from when I took up my Diploma & Degree.

Well I can say that I'm a UiTM student through and through from 1997 until now.

UiTM Di Hatiku..hehe

AngeL

Assalamualaikum,

There were times that songs explained my feelings better than words. Up until now there were only 2 songs that I remember so much due to the emotional ties it has to it. And now I have another to add.

ANGEL - WITHIN TEMPTATION

Sparkling angel I believe
You were my savior in my time of need.
Blinded by faith I couldn't hear
All the whispers, the warnings so clear.
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door.
There's no escape now,
No mercy no more.
No remorse cause I still remember

The smile when you tore me apart.
You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke a promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.

Sparkling angel, I couldn't see
Your dark intentions, your feelings for me.
Fallen angel, tell me why?
What is the reason, the thorn in your eye?
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door
There's no escape now
No mercy no more
No remorse cause I still remember

The smile when you tore me apart
You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke a promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.
Could have been forever.
Now we have reached the end.

This world may have failed you,
It doesn't give you reason why.
You could have chosen a different path in life.

The smile when you tore me apart.
You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke a promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.
Could have been forever.
Now we have reached the end.

Angels - Within Temptation

Twilight Series

Assalamualaikum,

I must confess when I saw the movie poster for Twilight I was intrigued but not so fascinated as I had seen the books in bookstore many times but never have the urge to buy.

Then Aini posted in her blog links to e-book and I saw Stephenie Meyer name was on it. That piqued my interest so I downloaded all 4 e-books. And whoa! was I hooked. You see I have this fascination for English Fictions. It as if the language draws me into the story as a 3rd person point of view. This time I was obsessed with the Twilight series. How obsess?

Let see I started reading Book 1 on Thursday at 11 am and by 5.00am Friday morning I was half way through Book 4. Yep, I've been reading for 18 hours non-stop! and I had to go to work by 8.00am Friday! By non-stop I meant not eating or drinking except for prayer time (my weight hasn't depreciate though..haha) I finished reading Book 4 after I got home.

Yep, I'm bonkers all right and I set my own record at reading non-stop, Yeay! for me (my eyes can't stand the monitor anymore)

No, I have not seen the movies. Lets not spoil the imagination in my mind now shall we. :)

Jimat Duit

Assalamualaikum,

Cara-cara menjimatkan duit anda bagi mereka yang kerja makan gaji dan tiada pendapatan lain (ini hanyalah cara saya sahaja, kerberhasilan tidaklah dijamin :D )

1. Banyakkan menderma.
2. Bayar zakat pendapatan (peringatan pada diri sendiri sebelum tahun 2008 ini berakhir)
3. Banyakkan puasa sunat Isnin & Khamis.
4. Jaga amanah kerja anda.
5. Banyakkan berzikir & solat sunat.

Sekian sahaja. Tidak percaya? Oh semua ini benar belaka pada saya, setelah dicuba selama setahun :D . Yang penting ikhlas kerana Allah S.W. T ye.. nanti sia-sia pula kalau semata-mata kerana duit.

Computer > Cars

Assalamualaikum,

Other houses has more car. More than 2 cars.

My house has more than 2 computers. 5 computers to be exact. 2 PCs and 3 laptops. Internet is mostly 24 hours if all my siblings are home. If the internet is down, they all will be like a lost sheep looking for its owner..ngeh..ngeh.

No, I'm not on the internet or facing my laptop when at home. Maybe because I find it only pleasing to face the computer only when in office. But for personal purposes I do log in the internet from home, like blogging for instance.

Oh yes, my house has 3 - 4@5 cars at one time. The permanent no is 2, my father's and mine.

Aidiladha 2

Assalamualaikum,

As requested from my far-away brother Haidar, this is for you, memory of home

The nephews - Taareq Zayyad (left) & Marwan Syaheed (right)

Hasif boiling the 'ketupat'

The cow after slaughtered

Pieces of the meat & the head

My dad chopping the bones

P/s: Haidar ada gambar tengkorak lembu kena lapah tapi tak nak la letak sini, nanti ada yg tak mampu nak tengok :)

Colours

Assalamualaikum,

I remember 13 years ago my favourite colour for 5 years was purple & dash of pink. My pencil case, school bag, pens, book cover, etc was purple & pink.

During my Diploma years my choice of colour included blue & green and a lot more pink. Although some say that pink is the colour for insane people. Wonder where my lecturer got that info..

Anyhow I maintain a lot of blue, green, pink & purple throughout my degree & working years.

Approaching year 2007 I added a lot more colour - maroon, brown, black, red and aqua. Now this year I added the colour that I avoided for so long - yellow, although you won't see me wearing yellow in the office. I usually wear it for wedding functions - I have 3 yellow kurung!

The last colour that seem to eluded me is white, though I do have a white skirt and a white pant which I usually match it with coloured blouse or jubah. Since I'm 'fat' right now, the white skirt & pant has resign to being only in the closet since it doesn't seem to fit.

Now I can't say I have a favourite colour anymore. My clothes are the colour of rainbows!

What's your colour?

Aidiladha 1429H

Assalamualaikum,

Aidiladha last Monday has been a blessing for my family. My father & aunt shared the Qurban. This time around from slaugtering, 'lapah daging' & weighing is done 100% by family members. These pictures tell all :)

Granada Trilogy 1 = Rindu Andalusia

Assalamualaikum,

Harga: RM 23.00
Karya: Radwa Ashour
Penerbit: Telaga Biru

I happened to chance upon this book while browsing the English Fiction novels. It was tucked in between the English novels & nicely wrapped in plastic so I had no knowing of what the story is about except for the synopis at the back of the book.

Anyhow, the book that I bought is an Indonesion version published by Telaga Biru. I Googled for Telaga Biru but couldn't find the book in their catalogue. Perhaps because it was just published in October 2008.

This story is by Radwa Ashour, an Egyption novelist. She even took first prize with her Andalusian trilogy, whose component novels are named after a place, a person and an event: Granada, Manama and Al-Rahil (The Departure). All are set around 1492, when the fall of Granada marked the end of Arab hegemony in Spain (See Aramco World, January/February 1993). Ashour was cited for her lyrical approach to the lives of ordinary people during a turbulent century that, said the judges, "also evokes present events." The work was published by Dar al-Hilal, Cairo. (source: Saudi Aramco World)

Review of the book can be read here.

The synopis of the book is (according to the back cover of the book):

RINDU ANDALUSIA menyelami penderitaan keluarga Abu Jaafar di tengah keruntuhan kota Cordova. Ratusan kitab kesayangan beliau dibakar oleh tentera Castile di laman Bab el Ramlah. Badan Inkuisisi Granda merampas semua kitab berbahsa Arab dari masjid, pusat sumber, sekolah & orang perseorangan Masjid diubah suai menjadi gereja & Katedral. Kalau ingin selamat minta sahaja dibaptis menjadi Kristian. Anak cucu Abu Jaafar bertahan menjadi Muslim. Di dalam rumah mereka solat dan berkomunikasi dalam bahasa Arab tetapi di luar rumah mereka berbahasa Castille, menggunakan nama baptis dan menghadiri "misi suci" pada hari Ahad di gereja.

Sampai bila Saleemah, Saad, Hassan, Mariama dan semua keturunan Abu Jaafar sanggup mempertahan iman? Suami Saleema, Saad, dipenjara. Dia sendiri difitnah mempraktikkan sihir kerana menyimpan ramuan herba tumbuh-tumbuhan dan biji-bijian yang didapati dari perlbagai kitab berbahasa Arab. Dia dihukum bakar hidup-hidup. Bagaimana nasib Saad? Bagaimana Saleemah berhadapan dengan kehilangan nyawa di tangan penguasa biadab? Bagaimana pula si kecil, Aisyah yang dibela Bibi Mariama? Mampukah mereka bertahan daripada kekejaman yang bersembunyi di sebalik "misi suci" itu?

RINDU ANDALUSIA merupakan buku pertama daripada 3 novel dalam Tsulatsiyah Gharnathah (The Granada Trilogy). Dua buah buku lagi akan segera terbit.

Can't wait for the other 2 books to come out. Oh yes, I got 10% off from the bookstore for novels bought there. :D

Bookie..books

Assalamualaikum,

I went to the office bringing this book, a translated Swedish crime novel.


Then I went home bringing along this book after reading in the newspaper that he has been fired from his political party.

When I still have all these on my desk at home (plus other books that has been bought but has not been read)
And this Swiss Cheese...eh, Swiss Ball exercise book (I wonder when I'll start exercising?)

Hannah's Cupcake

Assalamualaikum,

This is a cupcake baked by my youngest sister (no.10), Hannah. She'll make cupcakes for me anytime I requested for it. She baked this cupcake last night about 4 dozens. It is actually a chocolate chip cookie mixture, but somehow she modified it into cupcakes mixture. The outer crust look as if it is very hard, but it is not. It tastes yummy!

This is a close up. The size is actually very big

Tag - Office cubicle

Assalamualaikum,

As tagged by Mynie (apologized for being late due unavailability of cameras) this is my workspace. Mynie, Aini & Aida, if you think your workspace is messy, wait till you guys see mine!

I could win an award for the most messy workplace..ahaha

My workspace is the most 'backward' area in the office. Meaning that I have a vantage point of all the going ons in the office. My space is also near all the amenities provided. Thirsty? Just lean back and press the RO water dispenser. Headache? Just lie down in the Surau. Sticky hand? just wash by the sink. Need to find documents? Just lean to the left to the file compactor.

I don't know when I had 2 chairs at my workspace. One is for me to sit and the other for anyone just to sit by me.


See..my workspace is messy. The large table on the right side is used for opening large drawings. The 5' high partition give me some privacy and at the same time be aware of everyone (the viewing panel on the top right). The partition is also to paste all that I information of work, Raya greeting cards & some quirky sign. Oh yes, there's more under the table : drawers, box file & more drawings.

Now I want to tag Nuha & Wanie.

It's Really Hard

Assalamualaikum,

I just got back from Mersing, Johor after a 5-day holiday in my mother's kampung. Really the holidays does give me some respite from the realities I'm facing.

Coming back, I do feel there are some issues that are not resolved.

It's hard actually. Now I'm not sad, I'm just plain angry at those who cause me this distress & hurt. I really am.

I'm angry at Mr. M who started this mess who says that he had no intention of hurting me, but his action is the opposite (then what was your intention really?), I'm angry at Mr. R for lying to me (you are one big fat LIAR - May Allah repay your deed on earth very soon!).

There.. I said it.

Ok now I'm sad...

Thank You

Assalamualaikum,

To all my friends out there, thank you for being supportive & praying for the best for me. All of you have been a very good friend to me in this time of emotional need & fragility.

For those who don't know yet, my wedding has been 'postponed until further notice'.

I still believe that I will reach the end of the tunnel to find a beautiful place that will fill my heart. Insya'Allah

Lili Buat Najah - versi Drama

Assalamualaikum,

Ada sesiapa tonton cerita malam tadi di TV1? Saya rasa cerita tu sama macam novel Lili Buat Najah terbitan Jemari Seni tu. Atau betul-betul novel Nazurah Aishah ni sudah diterjemahkan ke TV?

Saya tidakla menonton sepenuhnya, sesekali tukar saluran TV tertengok cerita tu. Tajuknya seingat saya Gelora Di Hati Sara slot Astaka dan pelakon utamanya Rosyam Nor & Fauziah Latiff. Sinopsis drama tersebut sepert di bawah:

Fauziah digandingkan lagi dengan Rosyam Nor selepas telefilem Kudrat Iman mendapat sambutan

KEMUNCULAN Fauziah Latiff sebagai pelakon semakin mendapat perhatian daripada penonton menyebabkan produser menjadikan penyanyi ini menjadi antara sebahagian daripada barisan pelakon dalam produksi mereka.

Selepas mempamerkan lakonan yang baik dalam telefilem Kudrat, Fauziah atau Jee sekali lagi ditawarkan oleh Rosyam Nor ynag membintangi drama bersiri Gelora Di Hati Sara.

Drama menarik ini disiarkan menerusi slot Astaka di RTM1, jam 10 malam setiap Selasa, Rabu dan Khamis, bermula malam ini.

Plot cerita Gelora Di Hati Sara ini berlegar mengenai kisah cinta dan kekeluargaan yang menuntut pengorbanan wanita dalam mengecap kebahagiaan dalam rumah tangganya.

Selain Jee dan Rosyam, drama 26 episod ini turut mengetengahkan Datuk Rahim Razali, Aida Radzwill, Hisham Ahmad Tajudin, Watie Sadali, Ismail Yaacob, Mahmud Ali Basha dan Balkish Samundur Khan.

Jee memegang watak utama sebagai Sara dan digandingkan Asrul lakonan Rosyam.

Drama bersiri Kisah Gelora Di Hati Sara bermula dengan kepulangan Asrul dan Sara yang baru menamatkan pengajian dari luar negara ke Malaysia. Di luar pengetahuan keluarga masing-masing, mereka sebenarnya sudah bernikah namun perkara itu terpaksa disembunyikan kerana bimbang sikap keluarga Asrul terutama ibunya, Datin Maria yang tidak suka anak berkahwin dengan pilihan sendiri. Apatah lagi ibunya menghidap penyakit jantung.

Asrul meminta Sara bersabar dengan situasi mereka itu yang terpaksa menjalani kehidupan suami isteri secara sembunyi. Namun kesabaran Sara ada hadnya apatah lagi apabila membayangkan tempat isteri adalah di sisi suami. Sara mula mencari jalan bagaimana mahu mendampingi Asrul. Kebetulan syarikat keluarga Asrul berdepan dengan kes saman daripada sebuah syarikat pelanggan.

Hinggalah Sara dilantik syarikat bapa Asrul, Datuk Taufik untuk mengendalikan kes itu. Kehadiran Sara itu mengejutkan Asrul yang begitu bimbang Sara akan membongkar rahsia perkahwinan mereka. Sebaliknya Sara bersikap selamba dan hanya menjalankan tugas yang diamanahkan.

Dalam diam, Diana adik perempuan Asrul turut menyembunyikan rahsia konflik yang berlaku dalam rumah tangganya bersama Zaidi. Zaidi pula ialah menantu pilihan Datin Maria. Namun malang bagi Diana, apabila Zaidi suka menderanya tetapi Diana takut untuk mengadu kepada keluarganya. Tambahan pula di depan keluarganya, Zaidi mempamerkan sikap sopan santun dan menyayangi isterinya itu.

Hakikatnya Zaidi yang diberikan kepercayaan menjawat jawatan penting dalam syarikat Datuk Taufik menggunakan kesempatan untuk mengaut keuntungan di belakang ayah mentuanya itu. Kehadiran Asrul dalam syarikat pula menimbulkan rasa kurang Zaidi kerana kegiatan jahat secara senyapnya terganggu. Begitu juga dengan kehadiran Sara yang ditugaskan Datuk Taufik menyelesaikan masalah syarikat.

Kejayaan Sara mengetepikan kes saman tersebut menggembirakan Datuk Taufik yang kemudiannya melantik Sara menjadi peguam syarikatnya. Dalam diam Sara menyimpan dua misi iaitu untuk mendampingi suaminya dan menyiasat sesuatu yang dirasakan tidak kena pada Zaidi.

Sementara itu, Datin Maria begitu beriya-iya mahu menjodohkan Asrul dengan Tengku Marina, anak Tengku Malik kenalannya. Perkara ini menimbulkan perasaan kurang senang di hati Asrul yang menempatkan dirinya dalam dilema kerana dia menyintai Sara sepenuh hati tetapi pada masa sama perlu memenuhi hasrat ibunya yang tidak sihat itu.

Datuk Taufik pula dalam diam menyimpan hati terhadap Sara. Perkara itu diberitahunya kepada Asrul. Asrul marah dengan tindakan ayahnya namun masih setia menyembunyikan statusnya dengan Sara daripada pengetahuan keluarganya itu.

Namun sampai bilakah rahsia itu berjaya disembunyikan?

Komen anda?

Desperate Measures

Assalamualaikum,

Desperate action needs desperate measures. How do you locate a person/persons that is incommunicado?

Go to the address as given?

Search the internet? (as in Criminal Minda - Penelope Garcia role. That would be super cool!!)

Or, pray very hard to Allah to hint the person/persons conscience to CALL ME!!!?

Ps: I write this as I'm getting stressful. If I were to find the person physically I would like to attach a GPS on that person so it will be easy for me to locate them wherever they are (some wishful thinking)

Pps: OK, THE INTENDED PERSON IS MY FIANCÉ AND HE HASN'T BEEN IN CONTACT WITH ME SINCE 09/11/08. YES, HE KNOWS THE DATE OF NIKAH & WEDDING BUT THERE ARE OTHER MATTERS THAT I NEED TO CLARIFY. AND I'M REALLY, REALLY SCARED.

YES, DESPERATE MEASURES NEEDS DESPARATE ACTIONS.

Ppps: CAN ALL OF YOU MAKE A SINCERE DUA FOR ME PLEASE...?SO THAT HE WILL CALL ME..(his handphone broke down and he isn't buying a repalecement. And I'm not sure whether he's in Ipoh or Kuantan. As for his sister's no. I think she has change it and I don't know her new number)

Alhamdulillah

Assalamualaikum,

"We are pleased to inform that you have been offered a place to study in UiTM, as below:
Student No: 2008312855
Programme: Masters in Facility Management
Mode: Part time"

Just got home today and saw a big fat envelope sticking out the mail box and wet (due to rain just now).

Alhamdulillah...

This is indeed a good news. Registration will be on 13th December 2008.
Ummu Auni has just graduated and I'm just getting started.

Book 3 for Novermber 2008

Assalamualaikum,

Book no. 3 for November 2008.
Book 2 was Derap-derap Tasbih (an Indonesian book).

Will update on this later.

Love Hate Relationship

Assalamualaikum,

I must confess that I have a love hate relationship with Malay novel. I love it because nowadays you get good quality Malay novels but I hate it because those novels never fails to make me cry (sometimes my eyes get swollen) and I can't put it down because the story lines are good.

So what I do is, I read it at night when everyone has gone to sleep so that they can't see that I'm bawling my eyes out (sob..sob) At times I have to stop reading Malay novels for a while and read other genre.

Oh! I do read English novels. But those are mostly mysteries, detectives & adventures. So no crying there. My favourite authors are Mary Clark Higgins (Queen of Mysteries), Patricia Cornwell (Kay Scarpetta series), Clive Cussler (NUMA series) and Ann Chee Min (Empress Dowager series). Somehow I'm not into family & chic lit genre for English novels.

I Miss my Brother

Assalamualaikum,

I never thought I would say this, but "I miss my brother!"
After YM with him yesterday during lunch, I wanted to cry actually. Well it is very rare for me to be emotional for my brother, but I do miss him. He is currently in Mansourah, Egypt studying Usuluddin. (Haidar, don't laugh at Akak ok? Sedih la nanti Haidar takde masa akak kawin. Takpe nanti akak lawat Haidar kat sana ye. Kita pi tengok Piramid :D )

Book for November

Assalamualaikum,

Book for November 2008.

UPDATE:

Tajuk: Bukan Yang Pertama
Karya: Salina Ibrahim
Terbitan: PTS Milenia
Harga: RM34.00

Ulasan:

Watak utama dalam cerita ini adalah Yasmin Zulaikha, seorang graduan universiti yang berusaha sekuat mungkin mencari kerja di Kuala Lumpur sesuai dengan kelayakannya. Takdir menentukan dia akhirnya menetap dan bekerja di desa mengusahakan projek homestay dan makanan tradisional kampung.

Watak pembantu terdiri dari mak Yasmin, abang Yassin, Anis & Azlan (anak sepupu mak Yasmin), Jason (seorang kacukan Cina Inggeris yang akhirnya memeluk Islam selepas menetap di homestay Yasmin), Mak Long Zaharah (rakan baik mak Yasmin), Ustaz Mustakim, Hasniah, Pak Isa, Alang Karim (ketua kampung), & Umar Khalil.

Setiap watak diberi perkembangan yang baik. Dari satu bab ke satu bab ada debaran yang menggunung. Mungkin kerana Salina Ibrahim sebagai editor majalah Karangkraf, maka gaya bahasa, penceritaan dan penggunaan perkataan digunakan secara baik.

Secara umum cerita ini biasa sahaja, namun yang luar biasa kerana apa yang diceritakan dapat dikaitkan dengan kehidupan kita dengan penggunaan ayat-ayat al-Qur'an, hadith & kisah Nabi & Sahabat yang banyak tetapi tidak terlalu sarat.

TADAA!!!

Assalamualaikum,

TADAA!!! Presenting to you my new best friend. Her name is Minah (that's what I call her anyway). The love of my life & my companion. She should be, cause she has to go with me wherever I go.

To all my friends, sorry for the teaser if you've thought it was about me getting married. That will be announced later. Oh! You can email me your address (huda.mahmud [at] gmail.com). I want to send an invitation card for you!

The story goes like this:

I saw an advertisement in the paper about the launching of the new Myvi SE schedule on 12/10/08. The picture was this orange coloured Myvi. I remarked to my brother, this colour looks ugly.

That same night, my father asked me if I wanted to see the launching of the new Myvi SE as he has a friend working in Perodua Showroom (this was after we saw the teaser on TV).

So the next morning off we went to the showroom. All the way there, my father said there is no obligation for me to buy (of course I had another car in mind).

After about 2 hours at the showroom, I decided I wanted to buy. Then came the colour choice. At first I wanted Pearl White. Then after I took another round looking at the car, I decided for black color. Then after yet another round, I finally decided on Tangerine Orange (after much thinking and making the salesman 'pening' with my indecisiveness)

When we arrived home I asked my brother to guess the colour that I chose. He laughed at me for choosing the orange colour. For it was just the day before that I said it was an ugly colour and I said that I will never choose that colour!

But in real life, it is a nice colour. It is a brighter shade than the Proton Gen-2 but not as dull as the Picanto.

After driving for a few days, I can say that I like it. But the smell of leather is still strong. Gives me headache sometimes.

COMING SOON

Assalamualaikum,

COMING SOON!!!

THE LOVE OF MY LIFE!

MY COMPANION!

MY BEST FRIEND FOREVER!
(well of course until something happens that is)

Assalamualaikum,

My sister & I were at our friend's open house this afternoon (we came separately, I with my parents and she with her family). We were talking about something, when our former teacher, who was also there, remarked that we both talked as if we haven't met for a long time.

We both pause, and my sister said that it has been a week or so that we haven't met. I told her that I have been living in the same room with my sister for almost 25 years. We're roomates for so long, that we have shared so many things between us. The longest we haven't met nowadays is 2 weeks.

I used to fight with her on nitty gritty matters, we share clothes, she's the one who cleans the toilet  & I cleaned our bedroom. We were even in the same faculty. She in Quantity Surveying while I were in Architecture. We also share the same transport. Although some of my friends doesn't believe that she's my sister. We both look different enough and some even assumed that she's the elder sister and I'm the younger ones. Well, she does looks more mature than me.

I was very worried when she was near to giving birth to her first born. I didn't sleep well until dawn because at that time our parents were performing the hajj. It overwhelmed me so much to see my first nephew. On her second born, she also called me to come to the hospital as at that time my parents were not around too. From time to time now I do called her to get some advice, to talk to my nephews and to just ask how she is.

True, after you have been together with someone for so long, and now you don't live together, you will miss them even for a short while. After all, she is my sister forever here and the hereafter.

My Other Facts

Assalamualaikum,

I've been tagged by Aini. But since I can't think much now, I think I'd just write the fact that I remembered (not relating to any nos.)

1. I don't drink carbonated drinks except when nothing is available. Even in fast food restaurant, I'll order juice.

2. I like designing my own clothes. Currently I'm designing my own wedding dresses (3 of them). Plus I do the beading work myself. But of course, for the normal dress (baju kurung, blouse, skirt, etc) I'll buy it off the rack.

3. I like shoes. I have too many shoes and like to buy some more. I like to watch what people wear on their feet too. Call me weird, but I' like know what is the brand, where to buy it, what is the price, etc..but of cause, all those questioning doesn't really make me buy shoes straightaway. Its the satisfaction I get by looking at shoes that matter most.

4. When people asked me where I come from, I would normally ask back does the question means where I live now or where I was born. You see my birthplace is in England, I used to live in Wales, in Shah Alam and now Klang. So how do I answer that?

5. I'm obsessed with details. Currently I enjoy beading work. I like sowing thousands of beads to my clothes. I mean, who would like to sit and select beads and sewn it to clothes for hours or maybe days on end. But thats me. When I'm finished with this obsession, I sure will look into other things and leave this beading work behind.

6. I started blogging because my sister and brothers have it. Although much what was written here is just a glean on the surface of myself. I don't write what I really feels, what my heart yearns or anything that is deem personal. Though I do have a private blog for these things, still I don't write 100% about those stuff.

7. My first encounter with the fast food restaurant was when I started university. Although I attended normal school (not boarding ones), I didn't frequent those places even if I had the time. So when I first went to McD, I just followed my friend on how to order foods.

8. I love all electronic gadgets. I like PDA, DSLR, MP3, Computers and photocopying machine. Yes, you heard me right, photocopying machine. Hey! you should look at the photocopying machine nowadays, so 'canggih'. When it broke down or people having difficulties photocopying, I'll be the 1st person to see what's the problem.

9. Pineapple Tart is my favourite Raya cookies. So if you want to give it to me as a gift, I don't mind a bit. Oh! don't forget to throw in chocolates with it. I'd appreciate it.

10. My adventure with travelling started during my university days. Although I should think it started when I was born :D Although I don't quite plan my yearly holidays, it just happened that I travel yearly. Next year I'm planning to go for Umrah and the year after to Egypt and the year after that to South Africa and.....(I'm daydreaming a lot aren't I? - but one of my wish is to travel to all continents of the earth)

Thats about it I guess. No one to tag. But of you read this and want to do it, please inform me. At least I can get to know you guys better. For those who have done it, do you find it difficult? Well I do and from what you can summarize, I'm just gleaning the surface aren't I?

I Feel Down & Out

Assalamualaikum,

A storm is brewing at Teluk Buih, Mersing, Johor

I feel down & out today. I'm down with the flu & out with a new kind of migraine the whole day. I feel like my head is going to explode anytime. Ican't sit or sleep right. I feel like vomitting and at the same time a terrible runny nose. Unfortunately I had no car to go to the clinic so I had to endure the pain & the flu the whole day. Plus the next door neighbour is doing some renovation work, so the knocking, banging & drilling took its toll on me. By nightfall I can't stand it anymore. With my head still in pain, I drove myself to the clinic and got my medication. Now I feel better alhamdulillah. Hope I'll be fine for tomorrow's Master Program interview in the morning.

Corat-Coret Raya 3: Gambar Raya

Assalamualaikum,

Taking family photos has been my family traditions for many years. I think it started about 8 years ago. These photos sometimes remind us of those who has passed away, of childhood memories, of 'dulu kurus sekarang dah gemuk', of everything.

Anak-anak dara keturunan Allayarham Hj. Ibrahim

Mak-mak dara termasuk 2 yang muda (baru kahwin tahun ni)

The Mahmud Ibrahim's clan

(minus: Haidar di Mesir & Hafsa di Perak)

The Mahanum Ibrahim's (Mak Long) Clan

The Mahisham Ibrahim's Clan

The Mahadi Ibrahim's Clan

The Mazidah Ibrahim's Clan

(minus: Ammar - playing PS2)

The Maznah Ibrahim's Clan

(note: The sunglass guy is 'Tokey Ladang' to-be ahaks!)

Missing in action during the 1st day of Syawal are Marhalim Ibrahim's & Mahadum Ibrahim's clan.

Corat-Coret Raya 2: Kuih Tart

Assalamualaikum,

Rumah Nenek: "Takde kuih tart la"

Rumah 2: "Ada kuih tart tak?"

" Macam takde je"

Rumah 3: "Eh! Ada kuih tart, tapi sikit je ni. Boleh la nak rasa".

Rumah 4 (360km keesokan harinya):

"Wah! Ada 2 balang kuih tart la!"

Corat-Coret Raya 1: Kereta

Assalamualaikum

Aku: Banyaknye kereta kat rumah nenek. Ada 12.

Sepupu 1: Kalau orang kampung lalu ni, mest kata bila masa Nek Pah ni jual 'used car' nih.

Pakcik 1: Habis tu, pakcik makcik 1 kereta, anak-anak sedara 1 kereta, mana tak banyak.

Kegembiraan ku dalam memberi

Assalamualaikum,

Kegembiraan ku adalah dalam memberi. Walaupun ku gembira juga menerima, tapi nikmat memberi adalah lebih terasa.

Ku gembira jika adik-adik ku & ipar ku gembira dengan hadiah baju raya yang tak seberapa tu. Rasa terharu sangat-sangat.

Kegembiraanku lebih-lebih lagi kerana mama paling suka hadiah-hadiah dari ku. Walaupun baju murah je yang dapat ku hadiahi buat mama setiap kali raya & hari jadi, tapi mama gembira sangat bila ditanya kawan-kawan dia yang baju dia pakai tu anak dia yang beri.

Ku bersyukur ke hadrat Ilahi kerana memurahkan rezekiku.

Ayuh kawan-kawan ku sekalian, banyakkan memberi dengan ikhlas kerana nikmatnya tak terkata.

Eid Mubarak

Assalamualaikum,



Di hari-hari akhir Ramadhan ini, saya merebut peluang untuk meyumbang sebanyak mungkin. Saya sangat percaya kepada kuasa memberi dari menerima, kerana saya amat yakin Allah menggandakan apa yang kita beri secara ikhlas pada orang lain. Secara umumnya, orang memberi duit raya semasa hari raya, kali ini saya ingin mengubah tradisi. Jadikan duit raya sedekah di bulan Ramadhan. Moga ada bahagianku di akhirat nanti.

Oleh itu, kalau sesiapa yang berjumpa dengan saya selepas cuti raya ni, maaf lah ye takde duit raya :D Ooopss..untuk bujang-bujang dan kanak-kanak sahaja. Mak budak & ayah budak tak dapat ye :D

Apa-apa pun di sini saya ingin mengucapkan Eid Mubarak kepada semua pembaca blog saya. Moga Syawal ini kita akan teruskan amalan di bulan Ramadhan ini. Jangan lupa puasa sunat Syawal. Mohon maaf atas segala kekhilafan jika ada. Sesungguhnya yang lemah itu datang dari saya hambaNya yang lemah dan segala yang baik itu datang dari Allah S.W.T jua.

Kisah Ini

Assalamualaikum,

Kisah ini dikirim oleh netters alumni sekolah saya. Walaupun saya tidak mengenali arwah, tapi dia merupakan junior di sekolah saya. Tak silap satu batch dengan adik saya yang ke-5. Baca kisah ini yang disalin dari Anak Bapa.

Puteriku Siti Hajar - Permata Hati Ayah Dalam Kenangan

Hati mana tak akan pilu apabila anak tersayang diambil di kala kasih sayang sedia terbelai. Perasaan mana tidak hiba apabila permata hati dirampas ketika dalam dakapan mesra. Emosi mana yang tidak terganggu apabila insan harapan ghaib dalam sekelip mata. Mungkin rintihan ini dek kerana “emotional outburst” yang melulu dan tidak terkawal. Tetapi hakikatnya itulah perasaan seorang ayah yang kehilangan anak tercinta ……

Tanggal Isnin 8 September 2008 , di kala umat Islam sedang asyik mengerjakan solat sunat Tarawih , puteriku Siti Hajar dalam diam-diam dijemput menemui PenciptaNya. Umurnya yang baru menempuh 23 tahun , pelajar tahun 1 UIA di dalam bidang Bahasa Arab dan memiliki tubuh badan yang sihat bukanlah merupakan alasan untuk memanjangkan usianya. Saat dan ketika puteriku dah sampai , dan sebagaimana janji Allah swt , 1 saat pun tidak akan ditangguhkan apabila ajal dah tiba. Aku pasrah kepada ketentuan Ilahi …….

Kakak , begitulah ia membahasakan dirinya , tidak pernah sakit lebih daripada 2 hari lamanya sebelum ini. Itu pun jarang berlaku. Kakak seorang yang sihat dan aktif di dalam kerja-kerja jamaah dan pelajaran. Secara tiba-tiba Kakak terkena sakit ruam di seluruh badan lebih kurang sebulan yang lalu. Aku ubati Kakak sebagaimana biasa. Ruamnya sembuh tetapi sendi-sendi kakinya pula rasa sengal dan sakit. Ujian darah di SJMC menunjukkan Kakak mengidap “Rheumatoid Athritis” yakni radang sendi di peringkat awal. Menurut doktor yang mana juga aku persetujui , ia hanya kecil , mudah sembuh dan tidak merbahaya. Kakak mengambil ubat-ubatan secara alopati , homeopati dan juga rawatan secara Islam. Hasilnya Kakak hampir sembuh 2 minggu kemudian. Apa yang peliknya , kebiasaan manusia apabila penyakitnya makin sembuh maka tahap kecergasannya pun semakin meningkat. Tetapi tidak dengan Kakak. Kecergasannya semakin menurun walaupun penyakitnya semakin sembuh. Ini yang membingungkanku dan semua orang ……

Lebihkurang 1 minggu yang lepas , Kakak tiba-tiba demam. Demam biasa saja , suhu tinggi sikit dan diiringi dengan batuk dan cirit-birit. Walaubagaimana pun keadaannya tidaklah begitu membimbangkan , musim demamlah katakan …..

Hari Isnin , ketika aku sibuk bersiap untuk ke tempat kerja pada sebelah pagi , isteriku memaklumkan bahawa Kakak merasa sedikit penat hari itu. Aku jenguki Kakak dan mendapati ia sedang berbaring relaks. “Nampak biasa saja , ” bisik hati ku lantas bergegas ke tempat kerja. Di sekitar pukul 6.30 petang aku pulang dari kerja dan terus menjenguk Kakak. Pelik hari tu kerana Kakak tidak berbaring di biliknya sebaliknya memilih berada di bilik tetamu. Sebaik aku masuk , terpandang keadaan penat Kakak yang agak melampau sehinggakan kepala dan tangannya tergoyang-goyang di luar kawalan. “Ini sangat serius , ” bentak hatiku. Saya cadangkan kepada Kakak supaya kita ke klinik tetapi Kakak menolak dengan lembut. “Kakak tak taulah ayah , Kakak penat betul hari ini. Boleh tak esok saja kita pergi klinik?” , ujarnya dengan nada yang amat memilukan. Hatiku bagai disiat-siat melihat keadaan Kakak. Aku angguk kepala tanda setuju. Aku duduk di sisinya lantas memegang dan mengusap tangan dan muka Kakak. Suhu badan normal , sendi-sendinya pun sudah tidak sakit lagi dan batuknya pun telah ghaib entah ke mana. Kakak berkata ia semakin sihat. Peluhnya keluar mencurah-curah dan ia berselera sekali makan. Walaupun ketika aku amati wajahnya dalam-dalam kelihatan seolah-olah ia seperti nazak tetapi aku cuba nafikan hakikat ini kerana keadaan fizikalnya tampak semakin baik. Baru aku sedari kemudian bahawa Kakak bukan penat biasa tetapi nyawanya semakin pendek dek ditarik perlahan-lahan oleh Malikul-Maut.

Aku berbual-bual mesra dengan Kakak sambil ia memegang erat tangan ku. Apabila aku menarik tangan untuk pergi bersiap berbuka puasa , Kakak merayu supaya aku tunggu sekejap lagi bersamanya. Aku berjanji akan kembali menemani Kakak selepas berbuka puasa di masjid. Sekembali aku dari masjid aku dapati Kakak semakin ok , siap senyum lagi dan meminta ayah pergi bertarawih ke masjid. Dia dah sembuh , katanya. Aku pergi bertarawih dengan agak ceria apabila mendengar pengakuan Kakak. Telepon bimbit pun tidak “bervibrate” ketika solat bermakna semua ok di rumah.

Ketika aku berada 100 meter dari rumah waktu pulang bertarawih , tiba-tiba telepon bimbit berbunyi. “Cepat bang anak kita tak mahu bangun!” , jerit isteriku. Menurut isteriku kemudiannya , selepas aku ke masjid , Kakak minta nak solat segera selepas azan Isya. Selesai solat ia meminta kebenaran maknya untuk berbaring relaks buat seketika. Maknya pun bersetuju dan membiarkan Kakak berbaring sambil ia sendiri menunaikan solat tarawih berhampiran dengan Kakak. Selesai solat witir isteriku berpaling ke belakang dan mendapati Kakak sedang berbaring tidak bergerak-gerak. Ia lantas cuba membangunkannya tetapi Kakak tetap membisu…..

Aku periksa nadinya , cuba mengesan bunyi nafas dan degupan jantungnya , tapi tiada. Aku cuba lakukan CPR , dan sebaik saja aku tiup di mulutnya udara mudah saja sampai ke paru-paru seolah-olah aku sedang meniup melalui straw ke dalam belon. Ini membuktikan bahawa Kakak sudah pergi , pergi selama-lamanya …..

Aku tidak mahu menghampakan isteriku. Lantas aku ajak abang ipar ku untuk mengangkat Kakak ke dalam kereta dan segera menuju ke pusat perubatan berhampiran. Sebaik tiba di pusat perubatan berkenaan , doktor di bahagian kecemasan hanya mengambil masa 10 minit untuk mengesahkan apa yang kami amat takuti , yang Kakak telah pun meninggalkan kita lebih setengah jam yang lalu. Air mata semua berguguran tak tertahan-tahan lagi. Aku cuba gagahi bertahan. Sebagai ayah aku kena pujuk ahli keluarga lain. Bagaimana dapat aku lakukan tugas ini jika aku turut sama terheret di dalam pesta air mata. Berterusan doaku semoga aku diberi kekuatan untuk menghadapi ujian yang amat hebat ini. Alhamdulillah makbul …..

Doktor tidak tahu nak tulis kematian mengejut ini disebabkan oleh penyakit apa. Umur muda dan tidak ada sejarah sebarang penyakit merbahaya. Dia meminta saya bersetuju dihantar ke hospital kerajaan untuk dibedahsiasat. Aku merayu dan merayu supaya jenazah puteriku tidak disiksa begitu rupa. Berkat doa dan pertolongan semua , sekali lagi Allah swt makbulkan doaku. Jenazah Kakak sedia untuk dibawa pulang ke rumah. Di saat itu pusat perubatan sudah dibanjiri oleh saudara dan rakan yang datang untuk berkongsi sedih. Di sekitar 1.30 pagi , jenazah Kakak sudah ada di rumah menunggu esok untuk dikebumikan. Ayah dan makku di kampong sudah luluh di dalam tangisan hiba. Mereka segera bertolak dari Perlis untuk bersama berkabung bersama keluargaku. Rakan taulan dan saudara mara tidak putus-putus berkunjung ke rumah ku sehingga ke subuh. Pukul 11 pagi Kakak dimandi , dikapan dan disolat jenazah (yang aku imami) sebaik saja selesai solat zohor. Menurut sorang Pak Aji yang tinggal berdekatan masjid mengakui bahawa ini adalah sejarah kehadiran paling ramai makmum bersolat jenazah sejak masjid ini mula dibuka. Rezekimu Kakak ……

Kakak selamat dikebumikan di Seksyen 21 , Shah Alam sekitar jam 3.00 petang. Ayahku sendiri yang membuat tazkirah dan doa selepas selesai upacara pengkebumian. Kami sekeluarga pulang , pasrah kepada ketentuan Ilahi bahawa Kakak telah pergi buat selama-lamanya menemui allah rabbuljalil.

Ramai teman bertanya bagaimana aku boleh begitu “cool” menghadapi saat-saat kematian puteri sulong tercinta. Jawapannya mudah , kerana kekuatan yang Allah beri kepada ku. Kakak pergi dalam keadaan yang paling baik yang boleh kita minta. Ia anak yang sentiasa patuh kepada ibubapa , berakhlak mulia , sentiasa menjaga kehormatan diri dan ibadat. Malah ketika berbaring , lidahnya tidak lekang membaca Al-Qur’an dan berwirid. Kakak adalah insan yang mudah bertolak ansur dalam bab keduniaan. Jawapannya sentiasa , ”Ikut suka hati ayah …..”. Walaubagaimanapun , Kakak begitu tegas dalam bab agama. Berapa kali bapa saudaranya ditegur kerana masih merokok. Kakak diberi pendidikan agama sejak kecil sehingga di Universiti , samada di sekolah atau di rumah. Kakak seorang yang rajin di dalm kerja-kerja jamaah dan memang memiliki jiwa pemimpin. Kehadiran ramai temannya dari UIA membuktikan hakikat ini. Di samping itu Kakak sangat cemerlang di dalam pelajarannya. Beberapa hari selepas meninggal dunia , kami menerima sepucuk surat daripada UIA memaklumkan Kakak tersenarai di dalam Senarai Dekan kerana kecemerlangan akademiknya. Saya menyaksikan sendiri banyak tanda-tanda kurniaan Allah kepada Kakak. Bilik tempat Kakak meninggal dunia harum semerbak bau bunga-bungaan (sehingga ke hari ini) walaupun kita tak pernah bawa masuk sekuntum bunga pun ke dalam rumah. Waktu dimandi jenazahnya oleh maknya tak ada sedikit najis apa pun keluar darinya. Wajahnya puteh berseri-seri , lembut ayu dan tersenyum seolah-olah seperti sedang tidur. Kombinasi semua ini dan banyak lagi memberikan seribu alasan untuk kami lebih gembira daripada bersedih di atas pemergiannya. Namun sebagai ayah , kehilangan Kakak tetap dirasai dan dirindui. Kakak telah membawa bersama secebis hati ayah yang tak mungkin dapat ayah perolehi kembali di dunia ini. Ayah sayang kepada Kakak dunia hingga ke akhirat ……..

Anak Bapa: Moga Allah cucuri ruh Kakak dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang yang solihin …….

Nota: Menurut adik ku yang Dr, kemungkinan ruam itu telah menular ke jantung atau paru-paru yg memang boleh menyebabkan kematian. Wallahualam

Shoulder Ache

Assalamualaikum,

Is there such condition? All I know is that my left shoulder hurts so much. I can't lift my arms, I can't exert myself using my left arms, I can't lift heavy objects, bla..bla..bla.

Point is, I have to use my left arm. It complements my right arm and it makes my work done faster. Now I know how it feels to be handicapped. Thank Allah for the reminder.

Now, where can I see someone who can massage my shoulder?

Books During Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum,

Isnin lepas sementara menunggu ayah saya menjemput pulang ke rumah, saya singgah di kedai buku kat bawah ofis. Niat di hati hanya nak tengok-tengok saja buku-buku yang ada. Alih-alih beli juga buku. Bukan satu tapi 4! Buat pertama kalinya saya beli semua buku non-fiction.

Tajuk: Dilema Melayu - Islam; Kurang Fikir Atau Kurang Zikir

Pengarang: Pahrol Mohd Juoi

Terbitan: Telaga Biru

Mukasurat: 350

Harga: RM 30.00 / RM 32.00 (S/S)

Tajuk: Kemuncup Dalam Perjuangan

Pengarang: Tuan Guru Dato' Nik Abdul Aziz Nik Mat

Penerbit: Anbakri Publika Sdn Bhd

Mukasurat: 228

Harga: RM 17.00 / RM 20.00 (S/S)

Tajuk: Kisah Cinta Sejati Khadijah

Pengarang: Abdul Mun'im Muhammad Umar

Penerbit: Kharisma

Mukasurat: 363

Harga: RM 28.90 / RM 30.90 (S/S)

Tajuk: Alex Goh Baking Class - Fruity Cakes

Pengarang: Alex Goh

Penerbit: Seashore Publishing Co.

Mukasurat: 158

Harga: RM 30.00

Tagging Game

Assalamualaikum

As tagged by Nuha, here are the questions:

1. What is the most important thing in your life? - Family, trust, honesty & love
   
2. What is the last thing that you bought with your own money? - books
   
3. Where do you wish to get married? - my hometown
   
4. How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love? - till the I reach the Other World
   
5. Are you in love? - dunno...
   
6. Where was the last restaurant you had dinner? - Bites Cafe, Damansara Perdana
   
7. Name the latest book that you bought? - Fruity Cakes, Kemuncup Dalam Perjuangan, Dileme Melayu Islam & Kisah Cinta Sejati Khadijah
   
8. What is your full name? - H**A
   
9. Do you prefer your mother or father? - both
   
10. Name a person that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time. - Habiburrahman El Shirazy
    
11. Christina or Britney? - who are they?
    
12. Do you do your own laundry? - yes!
    
13. The most exciting place you want to go? - Egypt
    
14. Hugs or kisses? - both. I get them often from my mother, aunt & cousin
    
15. 8 things I am passionate about - work, clothes, shoes, photography, design, gadgets, books & travelling
    
16. 8 things I say too often - suka hatilah, terpulanglah, malaslah nak pikir, ookaaayyy, macam mana awak tahu?, awak pasti?, buktikan, thank you
    
17. 8 books I’ve read recently - Bagaikan Putri, Cinta Sang Ratu, Hijab Sang Pencinta, Cinta Niagara, Kuseru Namamu Kekasih, aA+Bb, Tunas & Dilema Melayu Islam
    
18. 8 songs I could listen to over and over again - Satu Rindu (Opick), Maulay (Muhammad Al Husayn)m Andai Ku Tahu (Ungu), SurgaMu (Ungu), Ya Rabbibil Mustofa (Haddad & Sulis), Ruang Rindu (Letto), Ayat-Ayat Cinta (Rossa) & One In A Million (Bosson)
    
19. 8 things I learned last year - patience, perserverence, hardwork, trust, honest, sharing, inner peace, forgiveness
    
20. Tag 8 people: Wanie, Aini, Aida, Najah, Ryehannaz (kata tak suka tangguh tag kan? :D), Mynie, Hanif & Hanis
    

Selamat Belajar

Assalamualaikum,

Hari ini saya ambil cuti sempena hendak menghantar adik saya yang ke-6 ke KLIA. Alhamdulillah dia berjaya mendapat tempat sambung belajar di bumi Anibiya', Mesir di Mansourah dalam bidang Usuluddin.

Kami (mana adik beradik yang sempat iring) ke KLIA pagi-pagi lagi memandangkan penerbangan dia jam 12 tgh yang akan transit di Bahrain sebelum ke Mesir.

Hmm..raya ni kurang lagi sorang. Selama 6 tahun adik yg ke-3 merantau sekarang baru pulang, bepergian pula adik yang ke-6. Ialah masin-masing sudah besar, merantau ke sana ke mari menuntut ilmu. Setakat ni kami adik beradik tak cukup lagi 10 orang berkumpul kalau waktu Raya. Tapi OK la sebab ada dua ipar & 2 anak sedara. Coming soon in 5 months tambah lagi sorang anak buah insya'ALLAH.

Kepada adik ku, andai kemudian kau baca ini, pesan akak belajar rajin-rajin. Jangan timbul rasa jemu & ambil segala peluang belajar dengan alim ulama di sana. Kadang timbul rasa hendak putus asa, ingatlah dirimu pergi dengan memikul amanah orang. Tunaikan amanah itu insya'ALLAh ilmu itu pasti berkat.

Ku Berfikir 2

Assalamualaikum,

Dalam keheningan malam semalam, aku berfikir, sekadar lintasan di hati, betapa aku sememangnya bertuah dilahirkan Islam. Aku sememangnya bertuah diberi Allah hidayah untuk terus mengamalkan Islam.

Dilahirkan Islam, aku berfikir, Allah itu Maha Agung, yang telah memberi hidayah kepada moyang-moyangku dahulu untuk beragama Islam. Kalau tiada hidayah Allah ini, mungkin juga aku kini beragama Hindu, warisan kerajaan Majapahit ataupun Buddha warisan kerajaan Mataram (sebelah ayaku keturunan Jawa & sebelah ibuku keturunan Banjarmasin, Kalimantan)

Kadang-kadang dalam hidupku ada tersasar, tapi Maha Suci Allah yang tetap memeliharaku dalam Iman, Maha Agung Allah yang sentiasa memberiku hidayah mengukuhkan akidah. Ku pohon begitulah agar bila tiba masa aku pergi menghadapnya biar aku kekal beriman kepada Tuhan Yang Esa, Tuhanku & Tuhanmu. Dan kerana tuah itulah, aku berusaha membaiki diri. Berusaha meninggalkan dosa & berusaha membanyakkan pahala.

Sekadar renungan masa hadapan aku juga risau, mungkin anak keturunanku ada yang tersasar. Bak lirik nasyid Raihan, "Iman tak dapat diwarisi, dari seorang ayah yang bertakwa". Semoga Allah pelihara akidah ku & meningkatkan taqwa ku.

p/s: Masih terkesan dengan watak Laksamana Sunan dalam trilogi Ramlee Awang Murshid (Bagaikan Putri, Cinta Sang Ratu & Hijab Sang Pecinta)

Ramadhan Kareem

Assalamualaikum,

Hari ni dah masuk hari ke 5 Ramadhan. Moga kita terus berusaha untuk mengurangkan dosa, menambahkan pahala, membanyakkan amal, menguatkan iman & mengukuhkan takwa.

Hmm..dalam bulan puasa ni la saya suka makan. :D bukan sebarang makan ye, tapi masakan ayahanda tercinta. Kalau abah takde kat rumah, saya dan mama macam mati kutu je nak masak apa. Tapi kalau abah ada, wah! dari 'nothing to something' la dia masak. Memang sedap masakan abah. Semua 10 orang anaknya akui itu..cewah..puji abah sendiri ni :D

Berbuka puasa setakat ni masih di rumah & masak sendiri. Belum lagi beli juadah berbuka (tak teringin nak pegi pun pasar Ramadhan ni). Keluarga saya senang je makan. Kadang-kadang berbuka dengan 'french toast & nugget' je, kadang-kadang lauk ayam je, kadang-kadang nasi goreng, kadang-kadang 'tartlet'. Kami tak kisah semua tu asalkan yang masak di rumah. Kami makan pun sampai takat nak solat maghrib. Lepas tu tak makan dah. Abah kata kena kurangkan makan, banyakkan minum air.

Setakat ni masih belum berkumpul semua adik-adik & ipar-ipar berbuka di rumah. Cuma hari pertama puasa yang memang tradisi keluarga berkumpul di rumah nenek bersama keluarga pakcik & makcik yang lain. Meriah sungguh. Satu keluarga bawa sikit-sikit juadah berbuka, bila kumpulkan jadi banyak juga. Cukuplah untuk jamu lebih kurang 30 org yang berkumpul kat kampung tu.

Of Learning...

"Assalamualaikum. Awak kat mana?"
"Saya kat Parit Buntar, baru balik kerja. Merdeka, merdeka. Kerja, kerja. Nanti bila-bila saya naik KL, kita uruskan hal tu. OK?"
"OK. Awak, saya nak bagitahu ni, saya dah mohon sambung belajar. Tapi part-time. Kalau dapat sambung, masuk kelas bulan 12 ni kelas malam selama 2 tahun. Takpe ke? Kalau awak tak bagi saya tolak la nanti tawaran tu".
"Eh takpe, lagi bagus awak sambung belajar. Saya ni nak sambung belajar pun takde masa".
"Awak nak sambung belajar apa lagi? Awak kan dah ada PhD?"
"Nak sambung belajar bidang engineering la, sama bidang dengan kerja saya sekarang".

Aiseh..malunya saya bila mendengar dia berkata begitu. Sungguhlah dia memang mencintai ilmu.

Saya berfikir..

Assalamualaikum,

Semenjak 2-3 bulan ni, di ofis saya sudah ada perangai-perangai yang tidak senonoh. Sebetulnya saya tidak berapa gemar bercerita tentang ofis saya, walaupun tiada di sana yang tahu mengenai blog saya ini, tak salah berhati-hati.

Tapi kali ini perkara-perkara yang berlaku depan mata & yang didengar dengan telinga amat menyesakkan dada. Ini gara-gara kemasukan staf-staf baru yang pada pandangan saya tidak memahami visi bos-bos saya yang memang Islamik dan mendukung ciri-ciri cemerlang sebuah syarikat.

Staf lelaki bawah saya gemar menceritakan masalah rumahtangganya pada staf perempuan yang dah berkahwin juga. Bukan sorang dua, tapi saya kira hampir satu ofis dia bercerita. Saya tidak terkecuali tapi cuma di peringkat awal. Sejak itu, saya tidak ingin dengar kerana hal rumahtangga adalah rahsia. Oleh kerana saya sebagai kaunselor ofis tak bertauliah tidak lagi melayan masalah dia, maka dia bercerita pada orang lain. Sebab saya tidak mahu dengar mudah, kehancuran rumahtangga bermula dengan bibit-bibit beginilah. Sudah ada isteri org di ofis saya yang sudah berani pegang-pegang laki orang. Astagfirullah! Sungguh mereka ini tidak takut dosa!

Tidak hanya itu, malah boleh ber'chatting' lucah sesama sendiri dalam YM. Lebih menggemparkan sudah ada yang berani melayari laman web yang tidak bermoral pada waktu pejabat. Ini saya saksikan sendiri. Terkedu dan tergamam saya ketika sehingga timbul resah dalam jiwa saya beberapa hari. Akhirnya bos saya tahu sendiri. Sungguh memalukan kerana yang melakukan perbuatan ini orang yang sudah berkahwin!

Tugas dan amanah sebagai pekerja sudah ada yang abaikan atau buat tidak peduli. Kadang-kadang mahu saja saya luku kepala mereka dan katakan bahawa keberkatan rezeki hadir bila kita amanah dalam bekerja. Macamana nak berkat rezeki kalau waktu pejabat digunakan untuk ber'chatting', melayari laman web, bergayut di telefon bercakap hal peribadi, dsb. Lepas tu mengadu pada saya duit sentiasa tak cukup, hutang banyak, gaduh laki bini. Malas saya nak layan orang-orang begini.

Saya akui kadang-kadang saya juga terbabas, tapi tidak sampai mengganggu kerja saya. Sebab tu saya lebih suka tidak buat 'claim' perihal urusan kerja dari syarikat kerana saya yakin, saya tidak layak 100% atas gaji saya. Mungkin dalam sebulan tu, produktiviti saya hanya 18 hari. Yang selebihnya buang masa. Saya tidak mahu rezeki yang saya dapat sekarang tidak berkat. Itu lebih teruk walaupun banyak duit. Biarlah sedikit tetapi berkat.

Saya perhatikan dalam ofis saya, yang gaji kecil tapi amanah bekerja sentiasa merasa cukup dengan apa yang mereka dapat. Malahan masih boleh menyimpan. Ada juga yang walaupun gaji banyak, masih lagi berhutang. Ya Allah! Aku mohon dijauhkan sifat tidak amanah dalam bekerja ini.

Maaf jika catatan kali ini membuat anda pembaca tidak senang. Ini sekadar luahan rasa hati saya yang terlalu kecewa dengan kelakuan staf-staf di pejabat saya. Buat pengetahuan, apa yang tercatat disini memang dibincang antara saya (sebagai staf lama) dengan bos saya. Mesyuarat staf yang diadakan oleh bos saya tadi telah menyebut isu-isu diatas. Siapa yang makan cili dia yang rasa pedas. Penggunaan internet akan dihadkan kepada staf senior sahaja (termasuk saya) agar perkara ini tidak berulang.

Itulah, bila kemudahan yang diberi disalah guna, baru nak menyesal bila ditarik balik. Tapi usah salahkan orang lain, yang salah itu diri sendiri.

p/s: Walaupun catatan saya ini tidak dibaca staf-staf pejabat saya, saya anggap ia sebagai peringatan buat diri saya sendiri.

Tilt Shift Photos

Assalamualaikum,

With time in my hand, I tried to edit some photos. After looking into CLICK! (magazine on digital photography) I tried my hands on tilt shift photography blurring effect which is featured in Finishing Touches section. Alas! The guide was either too hard for me to understand or there was some step missing.

Then I decided tp Google for Tilt Shift technique and I found this very good tutorial. After some time editing photos using this technique, I present you these photos. Looks like a miniature model right?..

Actual: A house in front of our hotel in B.B Bangi during my brother's wedding

Actual: View of a building from atop Eiffel Tower in Paris

Conquering my fears

Assalamualaikum,

I have lots of fears or phobias. I have phobias on height, ants and scary movies. I even have phobias of drivers (with me as the passenger) coming up to close to the car up front, in which I will press an invisible brake or cover my face with my hands.

I used to have phobia against my design lecturer years ago, but when I met him again few years later, I've conquered the fear and make amends with him. It was so bad, that I used to take detour if I saw him walking towards me, hide in the toilet if he is in my class, pretend to be sick just to be away from him and so on. But that's settled now and am friends with him.

Of the other phobias above, I have conquered my fear of height. When did it disappear? When I went up the Eiffel Tower in Paris. As my Site Manager would say, to conquer your fear of height, you must climb up a high space. And it sure did. Otherwise I feel that I would fall.

Now I'm trying to conquer my phobias of scary movies, ghost story @ thriller. I watch with open eyes now even though the volume is turned down to zero..ahaha. Usually I watch those kind of movies between my fingers or behind a pillow. You see, those kind of movies affect me so bad that I will dreamt about it & have difficulty sleeping for days. Maybe because I'm an INFJ it affects me so much. Those kind of movies sound & visual don't go well together for me.

As for ants, I leave it be. I have phobias not against the one ant, but the whole swarm of it crawling on walls / floors during those time when ants lay eggs. I feel like ants crawling all over me from head to toe..yuck!!! *geli*

Wedding Reception 16.08.08

Assalamualaikum,

Here's my family photo's during my brother Hanif's wedding reception at our house last Saturday.

Very front: Marwan Syaheed (crying his heart out wanting to watch Wonderpets)
Front row from left: Imran (Hafsa's husband), Taareq Zayyad (my 2nd nephew), Hafsa (2nd sister), Hanif (3rd brother-the groom), Aneesa (Hanif's wife), Hannah (10th & youngest sister) & Hasif (7th brother)
Middle row from left: Haarith (4th brother), Hanaan (9th sister) Abah, Mama, me (eldest sister) & Husna (8th sister).
Back row from left: Haidar (6th brother) & Hanis (5th brother)

And there you have it the 10 siblings with 2 in-laws, 2 nephews & parents. Happy family together :D

UPDATE: Here is the actual picture that I wanted to post. This photo is before the above.

Of Recaps & Awards

Assalamualaikum

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Sorry for no updates lately. I've been very busy with my brother's wedding last Saturday, 16/08/08. Cleaning the house, running errands and not to forget my work which is getting busier by the day.

I will insya'Allah update the wedding photos later.

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I got these awards from Aida

Thank you very much Aida. Never thought I'm a creative & brilliant blogger :D.
And with this I'm awarding these two awards to:

1. Norhazwanie
2. Ryehanna
3. Reaihsan
4. Nuha
5. Muadz

The rules are:

1. The winner may put the logo on her blog.
2. Put a link to the person you got the award from.
3. Nominate 5 blogs.
4. Put links to the blogs.
5. Leave a message for your nominees.
   

Taareq Eating Cake

Eating his Pak Lang Hanif 'hantaran' cupcake & 'roti canai'