家

"家" 的定义，是避风港吗？

那个压力的家。。

好希望，有一天。。。家，是我的避风港。。。。

Undeniable negative recently

Undeniable, recently my posts always are negative one..
Thing that doesn't go well, is okay for me..If only happen once in  time..
But if there are accumulated that come at the same time.. raining is my only choice..

1. No mood to complete my "photobook" as getting sad already..
And, not really able to pass to her on the time promised.. so the motivation is getting low..

2. Rushing for the doc to proceed my family stuffs..... why.....If i am able..I rather do it my own...

3. Hello, u! please don't disturb me anymore..getting tired to reply u..

4. How will this thurs?? I really wish to go...But sudah macam ini.. macam mana nak bergaul baik lagi???

5. Sakit gigi........ WHY????? why u wanna come at this moment.. and tell me that u going to die... teruk until akar......... cannot save anymore... it is so painful!!! I dont want to keep consume painkiller to control.. It makes me feel so exhausted during working...

6. WHY WHY WHY.. I dunno what is going to happen tmr.. I just hope things get well........She will leave soon... what about me....???

fan.. fan .......

累了，泪了

开工了，刚开始会压力，怕做不来,
但相信这一切一切的过渡期，都会过去。
现在要学习的东西还很多，又害怕着跟伙伴有摩擦，
但愿这六个月一切顺顺利利~

忘记掉了多次的泪。
好像掉泪已经是个习惯，用来释放自己的管道。
泪啊泪，珍贵的泪啊。
难过的是，有时想嚎啕大哭的机会都没有，无声的嚎啕大哭更是加倍的痛。

星期四去上班时出了点小车祸，

导致阴影出现了。

害怕，无助，但又能怎样呢~

以前的事情不想去想回，只会让我更加有阴影。

你啊你，唉。

星期五又发生一些身体状况。

你可以健康点吗，至少为了自己也好。

这一个礼拜真的累垮了，放工的第一件事就是想休息

放工后享受着家里的便饭简直就是天堂。

要回去了，享受不了多久了，唉。

有时想想，现在这个阶段开始，人生就是充满工作。

工作到五点放工回到家，再吃晚饭，差不多八点了，

还有几个小时上网看戏，就够钟睡觉。

隔天醒来再是做工，放工，晚餐，睡觉。

每一天重复着这种生活，累。

所以说，找个你喜欢做，享受做的工作，是多么重要啊~

变质了吗？我不懂，也不想懂。。

逃避也不是办法。。

可是我能怎么办，放工回来真的什么都不想做，连打字都觉得累了

难道就这样吗。。

外面的世界，我的心里

在很久很久以前
你拥有我 我拥有你
在很久很久以前
你离开我 去远空翱翔
外面的世界很精彩
外面的世界很无奈
当你觉得外面的世界很精彩
我会在这里衷心的祝福你
每当夕阳西沉的时候
我总是在这里盼望你
天空中虽然飘着雨
我依然等待你的归期

哭了，没想到我竟然会因为剧情哭。。应该是从没因为看戏哭到那么从心里哭出来的感觉。
可能真的很心疼吧，也觉得的那些住在医院的病人都好可怜。
再想起爸爸，身边的朋友。。而且那么悲惨的歌。。

至于他，对不起，我任性了。

My december 2013

Bello everyone, I'm here! 
Always wish to update my blog with a lot of things to share, 
but end up not really know how to start. 

1-12-2013
Passed my birthday with family, my gang at usm, 38 gang and him. 
A very peaceful and warm birthday: 
- Thanks my family gather together to sing me birthday song~
- Thanks Christine bought me birthday present, as I always craving for short pant, and her lovely card~
- Thanks my gang for the secret recipe cake outing, although actually all end up paid themselves for their own cakes~ lol
- Thanks 38 gang for bring me out, bought me present which I craving too! A sweater and a accessory from Forever 21~ =D 
- Thanks him to come all the way from Ipoh, just to spent precious time with me and celebrate my birthday as well~ 
- My hometown friends, sadly that I couldn't able to meet you all, but you all always in my heart~ my ji mui and bsmm gang
- And those friends who wished me at FB, sms, whatsapp, wechat, thank you too~ 

19-12-2013
That few days, I was very worried about my health, coz I suspect I got appendicitis! 
I called few friends for advice and went checked up at usm clinic panel.
Luckily nothing happen on me, feel very grateful now~ 
If not, I need to undergo operation, sick, injection, money, time and most importantly my health!

20-12-2013 to 30-12-2013
Passed my study week at his home, met his parents and his sister.
Can't really able to focus but I still tried my best to swallow those chapters that I had not cover previously~
Thanks god I manage to done it on 1 day before I leave~ lol 

31-12-2013
How I pass my countdown? 
Went out with 3 other uni friends, we had a fine dining at Gala House, Georgetown. 
The food and ambiance there not bad though. 
Thinking to watch fireworks at Three Sixty sky bar but end up watching at a friend's apartment's rooftop. lol 
Having my favourite shandy, eating ice cream and grapes, windy and comfortable seats there.
This is our first year but sadly we couldn't count down together, 
but still the feeling was so sweet coz I didnt thought you will call me at the countdown moment, thank you~ <3

Here end my December 2013~
Officially 10 days left to say good bye to student life~
Will 2014 a good year to all of us? 
Let's make it a good one! =D