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Wed, Dec. 20th, 2006, 03:32 pmHelp a nigga out. Click the following image and vote for my band. If we win our area, we'll be playing Taste of Chaos w/The Used, Saosin, Chiodos, & Senses Fail. Clicking the image pulls up our battleofthebands profile, you can listen to one of our songs if you'd like.. then just click vote for the revival, fill out the 10seconds worth of info.. go to your email, and confirm the vote. Do it as many times as you want!  copy & paste to add to your myspace/lj profile! Wed, Dec. 20th, 2006, 12:15 am--: mood : concerned? --: music: The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Two months? wow.. its been a while. To be honest, i dont really have any use for livejournal anymore. Ive lost alot of friends recently and gone out of contact with alot of people.. so i doubt anyone really reads my journal or gives a shit, lol. Regardless, i haven't updated in a while and i suppose i feel the need to. I have a wonderful girlfriend who means everything to me. I've sacraficed alot of things to be with her.. but its a decision i made am thankful for. I dont live at home anymore, i'im living at her parents house. Weird, lol.. but true. I'm buying a house this summer, which is kind of exciting. I wanted to just rent one for like 1400 a month w/4 bedrooms so it'd be roughly 320 per person per room.. but i will be paying mabe 250 more to own my very own house instead.. so i figured i'd save up for that. I'm making over $12 an hour at blockbuster now, so things are going decent financially i guess. The band is going fucking awesome. Drew, my best friend of 13 years, joined as our bassist and fits in absolutely perfectly.. i couldn't be happier. Our new material is amazing... i cant wait to record. I just baught our van last week and we have a trailer, courtesy of mr. fooder, so we now have an authentic means of "bandsportation".. i totally just made that up. Speaking of band stuff.. WE'RE GOING ON TOUR!!! Thats right.. on fucking tour. Its nothing huge.. but its still tour. We'll be gone from December 26th till January 3rd. We're touring up to New England and back, we have all of our dates confirmed (excluding our last 1 that we want for Maryland). I couldnt be more excited. Well, thats about all i have for you... oh yea, and i made love to dan pickens. Check out our tour schedule..  Fri, Sep. 29th, 2006, 10:38 pmSo i haven't posted in this for a while and honestly haven't necessarily felt the need to. Typically i complain or trail off onto a pointless rant regarding where i want to be in life or who i want to be with.. and blah blah blah. For the first time in my life i dont care. I'm happier than i've ever been and it shows. Work sucks but i dont mind because its work. I have a girlfriend who cares about me and who i'd die for. I lost a "friend" and his girlfriend in the making, but he was never really a friend anyway so thats okay. I dicked James over bad.. which sucks because i love the kid to death. Things happened in ways that they shouldn't of and i wish i couldve changed the outcome.. but certain people opened their mouths before i could talk to him and shit hit the fan.. all is well on a verbal level but its obvious the awkwardness is still there. I can't help the way i feel.. and have felt for quite some long time. I get my car back this friday, after almost a year of being carless. Thank God for that. I've practically moved out of my house. I'm here maybe 2-3 times a week to stop in. I haven't slept home in a month. Its terrible but i need it, there's so much tension in the house and i'm sick of it. I still pay rent, ironically, but its the price i pay for freedom. Haha, sounds hypocritical. I have an incredibley terrible headache right now.. and i dont know why. I feel it in my entire face and its pulsating in the front of my head. Ugh. I NEVER get headaches. Oh well, here's a pointless post i guess to update all of you people who i dont talk to all the time. I may or may not delete this, haven't decided. I'm honestly rarely on it. Regardless, tootles. <3, shaun Tue, Aug. 15th, 2006, 09:27 pmi fucked up... i fucked up really bad. Leave it to me to make everything awkward.... Mon, Aug. 14th, 2006, 03:29 am--: mood : like shit --: music : Paramore, My Heart Time is such an unmeasurable component in life. It seems to move so slowly during times you'd rather not be in and much faster during the moments that you wish you could saver forever. It seems to pass you by so hastely when you want to hold onto something so dearly as long as possible. Its nowhere to be found in hopes of clinging onto memories or events in the past. Its a sinister joke, when you think about it. I almost crashed twice in the past two days. I've found myself staring at the back of the car ahead of me on the road and feeling like everything is so worthless. It honestly just felt like some kind of game or some kind of dream.. and if i were to crash into oncoming traffic that i'd finally just wake up and continue with my day. It was incredibly strange.. i honestly had to shake out of whatever daydreaming i was doing.. because i fell into a groove of driving and wouldn't of cared if i crashed or not. It sounds stupid to most of you probably, or some kind of emo-type suicide thing.. but its not, lol. I'm not that stupid.. i'd never intentionally take my own life. I'm merely saying that i felt like nothing was real.. and that i was so out of place.. and that if i just had an opportunity to pinch myself or make a loud enough noise.. or do something that would shock me i'd wake up. I dont know how else to explain it.. Tonight i was harassed about a bunch of things i dont like talking about, and every mmoment that passed made me so much more sick to my stomach. I just wish sometimes that this is all a dream.. and randomly one day i'll wake up to something less self-inflicting. Watch the movie Stay, its amazing. Later. ps- pickens, the shit did hit the fan. and you were right.. but it still won't work. Fri, Aug. 11th, 2006, 12:22 am--: mood : disgusted and bored --: music : Emery, In a lose, lose situation I've been so disgusted this week. I feel like everyone takes me for granted. I'm sick of people who call themselves friends but only call me when they need me or have NOTHING better to do and i'm like a last resort. I'm tired of people who classify me as this fucking "party-holic" when i party maybe 3 times a month IF THAT. I'm sick of people who rely on me to pay for everything when it comes to hanging out, regardless of what it is. I'm sick of my fucking parents who relentlessly argue, half the time about me because my stepmother is a psychotic bitch who thinks she's the most independant woman in the world but doesnt know two shits about supporting herself let alone helping support her own fucking family. i'm sick of being broke. i'm sick of relying on other people for a modes of transportation. i can honestly say that the group of people i considered my friends agitate me more than almost anything. there's a small list of people that i'm not annoyed with and its rather dissapointing. gimme a few days and this'll all pass as usual because its impossible for me to stay upset, angry, or hold a grudge. its just not me, i'm always the same old fucking happy go lucky shaun. but yes, i'm in the mood now and making it known. so if you IM me and i'm a dick, i'm sorry.. but that means you're probably one of the 29347209347032 people who have really been pissing me the fuck off lately. i love daniel pickens. Mon, Aug. 7th, 2006, 01:54 pm--: mood : antsy in the pantsy --: music : Silverstein, Your Sword vs. My Dagger So.. our recordings came out pretty awesome. We played the new songs live for the first time on Saturday @ Brenner's Brew, which was an amazing fucking show mind you. We had like 40-45 kids that came out to see us alone and a mosh broke out! lol, that doesnt seem like much.. but its Brenner's Brew.. which is a coffee house.. and there's like NO room at all..and all these people were jammed pack in there, and a mosh broke out.. it was sweet cuz i climbed over like two kids to get ON TOP of it, still performing in the pit. Haha, sounds stupid but its something i've always wanted to experience. Now we just need to play a show where i put the mic out and people recite words to my song. Thats my next goal! Things are looking up. We're averaging like 600plays a day on the myspace which is sweet.. and we just got an awesome show offer @ The Stoney Poney. We'll be playing with Shai Hallud, One Dead Three Wounded, Dead to Fall, and Twelve Tribes. Not sure if any of you guys are familiar with these bands, but they're all signed and 3 of them have awesome followings. Not only that, but if we do well, we'll be playing on the Saints & Sinners stage soon to come.. fuck yes. Life is the same shit, lol. I'm off from work all week which is awesome. Didnt have any arrangments to go anywhere, so i'm going to try to stay as active as possible.. rather than spending the entire week on myspace like i pretty much am assuming i will be. haha. The bands look for a bassist.. but its funny, cuz we just lost our bassist last week and already we have 3 kids wanting to try out. Its really starting to look up. I'm psyched as hell.. and will be posting again later. Until then, peace bitches. Tue, Aug. 1st, 2006, 10:37 am--: mood : excitingly unexcited --: music : The Revival, I kiss my sweetie with my first (nonstop!) So i'm in new york right now. Been having alot of fun. Its cool getting to know how it'd be spending all of your time with the same guys nonstop. Gives me a relative idea of how touring is going to be with these guys. I mean, pickens touches me inappropriately but thats okay, i wuvvy wuv him. lol. Alot has been on my mind for the past month or so and I'm confused on so many levels. I want to go back to school so bad but money is incredibley tight. i've realized that i've been in love with someone for quite sometime and there's absolutely nothing i can do about it. It makes me miserable half the time. I've kept my mind off of her for the past month or two which is good and i'm trying to totally eliminate speaking with her all together. it just seems better that way i guess. Connections made between males and females are so relentlessly confusing anyway. There's always a second means of interference and honestly i'm constantly under the impression that its all worthless. I've been talking to this one girl for the past week or so who I have like a schoolgirl crush on, but i dont think she really looks at me that way, which is fine. She's awesome to talk to and (hopefully soon) to hang out with. Iunno, i overthink things.. just like everyone else does. I need to get back into a groove of just kinda letting things happen opposed to pushing for em. Actually, thats what i'm going to do. It seems more logical that way and i dont know why i constantly overthink it lol. Look at everything as a friendship, and then perhaps if anything further comes along it'll be played by ear. Sweet.. sounds good? indeed. Also! I'm probably going to go back to writing entries like i used to. Half of you probably never saw how all of my entries used to be, but they were very metaphorical. They'd usually be in the form of story telling or just one long banter that doesnt make sense to you unless you know me fairly well or have an idea of what i'm talking about. Yea, so expect to never know what i'm talking about since most of you dont understand me anyway, lol. except cardo, cuz he = sex. Anywho, im going to get back to playing Super Smash while ryan is recording his guitar parts. Recording is going pretty good, i think the end product is going to be awesome. We tackled drums/bass yesterday and actually stopped recording at like 4pm opposed to 9 (which is when we have till). We'll stay the fulltime today and probably finish the entire demo. Not sure yet. We have as much time as we need so i honestly want to take this all slow and make it PERFECT. Expect more updates, considering that i'm doing nothing in this studio 99% of the time. Talk to you bitties lata. </3, shaun Sat, Jul. 8th, 2006, 01:39 pm--: mood : bored --: music : randomized iTunes mix Hmm. I've been putting alot of thought to what i'm doing right now with my life and i'm honestly content with exactly where i am. I mean, i have more bills than you could ever imagine.. and i'm sure that many of you guys think you have alot.. but trust me, i pay ALOT of fucking bills. Its my own fault, obviously, but it sucks. I'm 21 and already sucked into the "stuck working the rest of your life" lifestyle lol. Oh whatever. The Revival has almost decided on a drummer. We've tried out a few dudes and we're pretty sure on one, but still keeping our eyes peeled. We're recording in New York starting July 31st, i'm pretty excited. The quality should be awesome and we'll be able to send out presskits and start submitting for show entries (aka getting songs played on tv shows and stuff). We're psyched. I put my car in the shop yesterday. Its going to be a pretty fuckin penny to fix it.. probably about $3,000. lol, but whatever. I haven't decided if i'm going to resell it or keep it. Time will tell. I'm just excited to have it back. Three weeks or so and counting. School starts in a little over a month. I need money so bad so i can register. I REALLY want to go back, this sucks. I might even just get like one class or something just to get back into the shake of things. I'm changing my major so i dont want to rush into anything just yet before i figure out wtf i want to do. Whatever, i need to finish cleaning my basement. Its a fucking wreck. laaaaaate. Mon, Jul. 3rd, 2006, 02:56 am--: mood : curious as to why i bother posting on this piece of shit --: music : Poison the Well, Grain of Salt Awesome song. I don't know how it feels?! You think you're the only person who wakes up every day wishing they were someone else?? Another day passes by. Another attempt at love remains unrequited. Why do I even bother? I should have learned from the past. I am but a statue, impervious to love. This punctured heart is mine, Becomes a handful of dust. Dust. Hope has now wilted away, Wilted. Along with these dreams That became emptiness. A final exit becomes clear, I am self destructive. A product of this solitude, I am riddled with shards. One simple wish now dies. Was my request so great? One simple wish now dies. Once again I drown in its denial. Was it so complicated? Once again. I've been spit upon. Taken with a grain of salt, my life is. |
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