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Im using this livejournal again just because my dad keeps looking at my other one and i dont feel like starting a new one all over again.
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[11 May 2004|07:11pm] |
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i got my septum pierced and its crooked so cody has to fix that shit. yeah im bored 
ps i fight bears and joe video tapes it.
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[07 May 2004|10:28pm] |
I AM 96% ASSHOLE/BITCH!  I am one of those people that love to hear the sound of their voice. That and my lousy attitude make for a mixture as toxic next-day-mexican-dinner-ass-drip. |
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| bears drink my chlorine pool water and i beat their asses while joe laughs and video tapes. |
[04 May 2004|12:35pm] |
testing today... no school for me tomorrow. hanging out with the tubular brad today i need pictures for photography, Mr.Crigler was nowhere to be found, i dont think ive been this happy before, really, i can't remember when i was this happy, i actually cooked my dad lunch and stuff even though he yelled at me and made me a bit angry this morning, but i forgive him. cleaned my room now people can come in and not die by something attacking them. :D i talked to my joann today only for a little while, my rice is done i must eat. <333333333
tyler raines <3333333
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[03 May 2004|04:40pm] |
girls that get jealous and theyre supposed to be your friend and then make you choose between them and a guy is not really a friend at all. that explains why i've been so scared to go back out with tyler, that fucking kevin kid swears we're a fucking couple. fucking douche bag, someone called me during fucking testing and my teacher started singing my ringtone (boys dont cry) and i stared and laughed but i turned it off and she was like I WAS SOOOO INTO THAT SONG!!! and some other kids rang and she took his away hahaha i scare her so she wont take mine away. i scared this pom pom girl yeah i told her id eat her.. i dont eat animals i eat people!! me and casper hungout at lunch then someone kept fucking calling me..ok if i dont answer the first time leave a fucking message thanks.
i got bored so my lame ass photoshop emo picture.
"advocate cannibalism, eat shit!"-skinless.
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[02 May 2004|12:15pm] |
JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by
kindness. Polite and
soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive.
Active mind. Hesitating, tends
to delay. Choosy and always wants the best.
Temperamental. Funny and
humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills.
Talkative. Daydreamer.
Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able
to show character. Easily
hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up.
Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom
shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt.
Brand conscious. Executive.
Stubborn.
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amazingly true.
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[30 Apr 2004|03:26pm] |
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yesterday he bought me flowers she got jealous and shes making me choose between friends. heather might be pregnant and i told her if she needed anyone im always here for her. :) i need a job so i think im gonna get a job at heathers work. i got 2000 yes 2000 extra credit points fuck yeah now im passing history. :D i talked to tyler last night and yeah i told him how i felt. i hope he understands that i do love and care for him.
i thought of all the things he did to make me happy and even through tears and sorrow he always found a way for both of us to laugh and smile.
oh how i truly miss him.
im fucking tuff like throwdown.
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[30 Apr 2004|12:45am] |
im in love with a boy but yet i hurt him so, i don't know why i do i just know that everynight we end up fighting and crying ourselves to sleep. my tears still fall, its been one week since i've seen his beautiful smile eyes and his warm arms around me. his kiss still lingers on my lips but its slowly fading. i need to change for the better with or without him by my side. i need to find the meaning of my life and comfort myself instead of looking for it in boyfriends or girlfriends because i know that they will never comfort me enough. maybe its my dads fault maybe its my moms maybe its both there faults maybe its just my fault. i need to open up more. i need to express my emotions with my voice. i want him to know that i will love him forever and nothings going to change that. he's put so much in to this relationship and so have i but i didnt try hard enough. i dont like living without him, he thinks that he's just a comfort for me but he's not, he means more to me than just a comfort and a good fuck, i never thought of him that way. ive cried for too many days im tired of crying myself to sleep. the hardest thing for me was when he couldnt say "i love you" anymore, i knew in that moment of silence that i had fucked up, i know i did and i can't change that. it seems colder without you here, everything isnt so pretty and perfect like it once was, i thought i'd never care or love anyone again but i found you and i fell hard but i loved every second of it even though i didnt seem like i cared or showed it around you, but around my family and my friends you were always the topic whether it be good or bad you were always and still are on my mind, you made me feel like shit somedays i know i've done that to you i know im not perfect and you know you arent either, but if we didnt fight things would seem too perfect. im sick of us firing mean ass comments to each other and then fighting im sick of the fighting over petty things and this is probably the most sincere thing i've ever written i swear i will try my hardest to change i will change for you. you mean more to me than anyone has ever meant than anyone i thought could mean. i seriously am in love with you and i'm really sorry about the things that i have said and done to you. im glad that you didnt let you're friends words get to you and then ended it a long
time ago. thanks for being great to me and thank you for trying your hardest to keep us together even thought we arent anymore.
tyler prove everyone wrong. i know in my heart that you're gonna be someone everyone will remember.
i love you so much.
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[29 Apr 2004|11:01pm] |
so i become the bad person and you become the fucking victim once again.
you never really loved me at all. these tears wont stop falling. this week has been nothing but stress and i took all my anger out on the one person i do care about and now he's gone forever. its going to be hard to know that he's going to forget all about me and replace me. ive got friends fighting ive got no one in my life to love or hold anymore.
maybe im not worth the fight.
i wish i could find the root to all good.
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[26 Apr 2004|11:41pm] |
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horrorpops. wow. i had the best time, i saw sean crigler and johnny bravo. we had to leave while they were playing horrorbeach but hey its ok, jimmy kimmel tomorrow, i bought a new shirt. i drew out a new tattoo earlier which looks fucking sick. i found out that im not pregnant and i cried because i was happy and i made kim nekroman laugh. :) ill update later i feel like crashing.
i love tyler raines.<1233334
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[16 Apr 2004|03:57pm] |
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so i decided to kill this livejournal
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i mgiht update on here once in awhile out of habit.
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[10 Apr 2004|03:51pm] |
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im going to a mental institution. joann stopped talking to me i really thought she was my best friend but fuck it she got too fucking cool and she forgot about me. when i come back im going to be homeschooled and i won't have to deal with all these retards and their bullshit drama.
fuck you.
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[06 Apr 2004|12:29pm] |
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if you want to kill yourself get a fucking gun and pull the trigger. im tired of watching people come to school with fucking neat little baby cuts on their arm, heres an idea drink bleach if you want to die.
he makes me feel complete.
i wake up every morning alone
i dont want to be without him
i want to have him in my arms
i love him
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[28 Mar 2004|01:40pm] |
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doin good today, i get to re-paint my room and get a new bed cause mines too small cause me and samantha tried sleeping on it together and it didnt work. i just fell off of it. i miss tyler, he told me his ex was like touching him and stuff last night which doesnt really concern me because i know tyler wouldn't do me wrong. this stupid cornball goon ryan kept like rubbing my arm and i finally was like quit fucking touching me fag i dont like you and i have a boyfriend!!!! and he was like oh you know you like it and shit like that, and i went and sat with my friend kevin and he kept fucking touching me i swear it was the most annoying thing in the world so i told kevin and he told him to stop or he'd kick his ass and he STILL wouldnt stop, so kevin (is ryans's best friend) punched ryan in the face and kevin said, "you're lucky Tyler isnt here, he'd fuck you up" then i asked him to take me home and he agreed he apologized to me for hitting ryan. so i got home and kevin was said he'd call me and we'll go to another party this break where ryan isnt there and i said ok. yeah so thats my whole night's story.
i miss my hunnie. <333
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[26 Mar 2004|10:09pm] |
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i saw tyler today and i kept falling asleep cause i was on medicine to make me feel better and i had 4 cups of green tea so yeah tired i am, he's my love andim glad its that way.
blah i think ill update more later.
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[18 Mar 2004|03:25pm] |
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__diepretty who stole from hilary xhilaryx
S - You are very broad-minded.
T - You have an attitude, a big one
E - You are a very exciting person
P - You are very friendly and understanding.
H - You are not judgmental.
A-You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
N - You like to work, but you always want a break.
I - You are always smiling & making others smile.
E - You are a very exciting person.
i found A L L my mp3s and my cds oh man i finally found my converge cd im exited.
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