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Sunday, June 17th, 2007
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2:47 pm
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So this year isn't any better than last year or the year before.
I'm spending this year sitting in my room watching tv.
my supposed "boyfriend" didn't even call. Yah right I'm the love of his life...my ass
I'm not having a birthday next year...I'm done with this crap.
And the only person that remembered was Bri
THANK YOU sweetheart...it meant more than you'll ever know
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2:20 pm - Fuck this I'm going on a fucking diet
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So I just stepped on a scale for the first time in a year and HOLY FUCKING CHRIST!
I am absolutely disgusting.
I knew I wasn't tiny, I knew I was overweight but I didn't know it was this bad.
Seriously I have spent the last few hours online looking an anorexia sites and trying to find out EXACTLY how many calories I am required to eat per day just to keep breathing.
I'm sick of being this way.
So I've decided that I'm just...not going to eat. I'm fat enough that I could probably live for at least a month just on my stored fat. And honestly...if I don't get my period because of it..THATS A FUCKIN BONUS! So I'll be thin AND I won't have to wear a tampon...YAAAAY FOR ME!!!
The only thing going in my mouth the next month is: water, a multi-vitamin, a calcium pill, ice (sucking on ice keeps your metabolism up...yah didn't know that did you) and possibly some chicken. YES I will be eating a very small amount of protein only because I get the shakes if I don't eat.
Yah so if you hang out with me in person and you see me pick up real food of any kind ESPECIALLY anything in the sugar/carb family. Shoot me, slap me, punch me...just don't let me eat it
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| Monday, June 12th, 2006
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11:07 am
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I hate my birthday.
Last year I moved down to cali a few days before. Then I spent my ACTUAL birthday at the Anaheim House of Blues with Lynn. She supposedly bought tickets for us to see Static X as my birthday present. But I spent the night making sure her drunk ass didn't get kidnapped by this crazy mexican. Then I got to drag her to the car because she was so drunk she couldn't walk. Our friendship was NEVER the same after that. I haven't talked with lynn in over 10 months.
This year doesn't look like it'll be any better. All of my friends live on the east coast except for Thannia who I haven't even talked to in the last two weeks.
I'm pretty sure most people don't even remember that it is my birthday anyway. I have to work, so at least I'll have something to do.
Fuck birthdays...I wish Justine hadn't reminded me that it was my birthday. I would have been happy just forgetting
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| Tuesday, May 30th, 2006
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1:44 am
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So its been requested by an old friend that I update more
mmmmmmkay
This is safer anyway because a certain "group" of people don't know this exists and can't lurk it!
I'm moving to a new apartment in Huntington beach in about 2 weeks.
I'll be moving in with Sara (a girl from work)
And I'll be sharing a room with one of my BEST friend Thannia and Monika is gonna be staying with us for the summer. In september she goes up to LA to attend school.
It'll be loads of fun!
I just got back last week from a trip to the East Coast.
I flew out to Philly with Thannia and met up with Monika.
We went directly to the Venue...which was outdoors and I thought that was weird.
Went back to the hotel and got a little...and by little I mean like 2 hours...sleep then headed BACK to the venue.
Waited in line for what seemed like nine years. Got rained on. Thannia threw a fit due to some magical bugs only she could see...right infront of the bus mind you.
FINALLY we got in. SOMEHOW security let Me, Thannia & Monika in before a few kids that had SLEPT outside the night before. I am fucking CONVINCED that my deathbat tattoo has magical powers.
Front row...wheeee
18V fucking ruled all I love those boys. Screamed like a lunatic and bounced around.
Avenged Sevenfold...went onstage...and there was sunshine...whut? huh? I'm confused...IT BURRRRRRRRRNS!
Anyway...Matt pointed at me during burn it down..apparently thats my song now. Cool beans I love that song
Zacky saw my tattoo...and almost fell off the stage. SWEET!!!
They were great the end.
Met JB, Steve & Matty after the show...nice boys I love them!
Left for New york
Arrived in new york at 5am
Got inline and fell asleep on the ground...ow
It rained..A LOT...we got REALLY WET
they filmed it all for a dvd...shit
FRONT ROW
Matt called us out ONSTAGE...fucking stopped the damn show to talk to us
"I've seen you girls at a lot of shows...how many shows?"
"21"
"21 avenged sevenfold shows...you know with girls like that we have some pretty hardcore fans in the crowd tonight"
*crowd goes fuckin crazy*
uhhh lessee...crawl back to hotel and pass out
Saturday..front row again...crazy show...wheee
Hang out after...show zacky tat and he flips out
YAAAAAY
Come home...booo
The boys go to europe on wednesday..sad
I hate Kate on saturday YAAAAY
Warped tour starts june something or other
Ozzfest July 8th...devore...ooo here comes the sunburn
Avenged & Bleeding thru in North Carolina..I think...August 8th-10th wheeee
I need more tattoo's
Any suggestions...because apparently I'll tattoo just about anything on me
I should sell space on ebay
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| Wednesday, May 10th, 2006
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2:22 am
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Brandi you owe me $100
Please pay it back before you move out of state
Kay
thanks
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| Friday, April 7th, 2006
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4:03 pm
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Okay I'm back
I'm sorry I disappeared for about a month. I had no access to computer/internet, but now I have a laptop and wireless internet...I LOVE IT!!!!
Okay so to update everyone on whats up
Moving at the end of May (thank FUCKING god)
Going to see A7X like a billion times this month (yippy)
Getting a puppy in the next month or so (probably right before I move) so help me name him (its gonna be a boston terrier)
Going to Vegas on April 29th to go to "Extreme Thing" (I hate kate is playing with A7X holy fuck!!) and Lenore and I are going to get inked at "Hart & Huntington" ...of course it'll be A7X related but you'll just have to wait and see
uhhh..yuh thats it
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| Wednesday, March 1st, 2006
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2:21 am - Concerts
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This is a list of every MAJOR concert I've been to in the last 4 years Everything before 2001 was deleted and I can't really remember them, and there was also locals shows pretty much every weekend inbetween all of these shows.
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Wow I've spent a LOT of time at Zebrahead Shows...and as you can all see I'm now obsessed with A7X
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| Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
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9:03 pm
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Jealousy's an ugly word, but you don't seem to care
Converse behind my back, but now I'm here
Need no one to comply with me though everyone that I defeat
Don't need you, fuck camaraderie, this rage will never go away
Hatred fuels my blood, I'll burn ya down (you can't help me)
One king to watch the horsemen fall, I'll fight 'til the end (I won't help you)
I can't trust anyone, see it in my eyes
Now I can understand, it's sorrow that feeds your lies
You're on my back when the water gets too deep for you to breath
A crutch for you that won't always be there
Hide in the dark another day, the fear in you is here to stay
So keep the fuck away from me and learn to trust the words I say
Hatred fuels my blood, I'll burn ya down (you can't help me)
One king to watch the horsemen fall, I'll fight 'til the end (I won't help you)
I can't trust anyone, witness and see it in my eyes
Now I can understand, put faith in you for the last time
It's sorrow that feeds your lies
Run from me before I tear you down (be afraid)
You chose the wrong side (it feels so right)
I won't help you, let you rot away (despise what you say)
Run towards the light exposing your soul (we won't be there by your side)
Salvation's dying (somebody's crying)
We're all gone in the end, sweet child we'll miss you
No, so far away, far away
I can't trust anyone, witness and see it in my eyes
Now I can understand, put faith in you for the last time
It's sorrow that feeds your lies
Falling away, can't buy back time
Burned it down anyways
Shads know's....I fucking hate the world today
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| Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006
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9:05 pm
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Hard news, taken harder, don't look to me
Disappointed, we don't agree, I don't need your praise...
(don't look my way for help, from the beginning you came to me)
Never asked you to like me,
I don't want your praise (we won't play your games)
Look down on me, spit in my face,
you're nothing to me; not to me
Darkened eyes you'll see,
there is no hope, no savior in me
(don't look this way, don't breathe this way, don't stare this way, anymore)
Learned from years gone by, no one will care, what happens to me
(don't look this way, don't breathe this way, don't stare this way, anymore)
My presence won't be ignored, no not today
Don't walk in my direction, turn the other way
(don't look my way for help, from the beginning you came to me)
Asking questions, predetermined answers,
you won't find them here (we don't want your opinion)
And I don't want you, I won't let you think,
compromise is near. 'Cause it's not near.
I'm alone in here
No more feelings
Killed my fears
Don't ask
you'll never know
you're left behind and I'll be exposed
Far away, you keep on trying...
Holding me down, breaking away,
trying to distance my life.
Not one in the crowd, but one with the answer
the one that could change your mind
But it's not true, I don't need you
Don't waste your time, and don't waste mine
I'm not your friend, I won't soothe your soul
And in the end you're all dead to me...
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Shadows is one smart boy...good with the lyrics too
There is only so much pain, betrayal and heartache that one person can take. And I'm pretty sure I just stepped over the line of "too much"...at this moment I really don't feel like even bothering to wake up for work. What the hell is the point. There isn't anything I'm looking forward to. In th e past weekend I lost my best friend, I found out I was lied to about EVERYTHING and I had my heart broken when I realized that I will NEVER be good enough for the guy I like....it hurts too much just make it stop
current mood:  melancholy
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| Tuesday, February 21st, 2006
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7:51 am - List of lies
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HAHA
dumbass
that was NOT Jimmy's brother Jacob...
and that was NOT Johnny's "Best friend" Jeff
I can't believe a word you say...everything out of your mouth was a fucking lie.
You didn't leave Fresno because your mom had emergency surgery...you left because you got caught and you were either too embarrassed to stay and face it. Or because you were afraid I might actually beat the living shit out of you. And you're lucky you DID leave...because I really don't know what would have happened if you stayed.
Your life sucks because thats what YOU made it.
You have no friends because you fuck with them and they can't stand to be around you.
I'm loyal to my friends till the death..but you fuck me over and I'll make you wish you were dead.
And you fucked with my friends Matt, Zacky, Jimmy, Brian and Johnny.
Oh and if I were you....I'd skip the next few A7X shows. I had a nice long chat with Mr Sanders after the Fresno show and he's not too happy with you right now.
HAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAAHA...apparently getting a really cool tattoo and going to a bunch of shows makes him a little protective.
You thought your life sucked before...well welcome to hell ya whiney little bitch
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1:37 am - I hurt all over
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Bri flew down on thursday, met up with her on friday and started our little A7X weekend. Had Stacy with us until Sunday...when the shit hit the fan and she's gone now.
Random Memories from the shows
Gibson Ampitheater:
-Granny Panties being thrown onstage and ending up on Johnny's head
-watching the security beat the shit out of the crowd surfers
-the torrental rain before the show
CHICO
-Getting my picture taken like a million times for 2 different magazines, 2 websites and some promo for Jimmy's Drums (I dunno what that was about)
-Matt pointing out my tattoo FROM THE STAGE
-Talking with Brian after (you noticed the knuckles but NOT the deathbat?)
-dumpster fires
FRESNO
-Cops in FULL riot gear, shotguns and a fucking helicopter BEFORE the show even started
-johnny's bass pick
-water from the bullets & octane guitarist
-MORE pictures from a website or magazine (nice lady in the zacky v tshirt)
-everyone thought my tattoo was fake
-gene singing drunkenly with M Shadows
-getting knocked out infront of Brian & johnny
-zacky laughing at me beating the crap out of some guy behind me
-"I WANT TO PUNCH HER IN THE FUCKING HEAD...Hi Jimmy!"
-Watching Jason tackle some random fan that got up onstage...he'd made a great linebacker
the shows were fucking amazing. I love those boys more than anything and I'm so glad I got to see them with my best friend Bri.
Unfortunately I found out some shit about another ex-friend of mine..after all the shit I've been through over the years I'm still amazed at how painful a betrayal can be.
Oh well...I guess I'll get over it
current mood: Heartbroken
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| Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
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2:14 am - Tattoo
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I went down to El Cajon with Stacy on sunday. We just hung out, went to the mall and oh yah...got me an avenged sevenfold tattoo
Yup...finally got it...not the sleeve cuz I was to impatient to wait for them to draw it out blah blah blah...Only three more days until the little A7X roadtrip with Stacy & Bri...I'm way too flippin excited
Bri I have a surprise for youuuuu!!
Avenged Sevenfold is going BACK on tour when they get home. Its shitty ass arenas and they are playing with Coheed and Cambria (gag me) but..its avenged fucking sevenfold so we're fucking going.
I'm going to get you a plane ticket and you're coming down to see them with me...we'll be roadtrippin (again) to San Jose to see them on the 27th..and then down to San Diego to see them on the 28th.
You just have to come! By that time I'll be in huntington beach so you can see the new place after its all set up (hell you can bring some of your stuff and leave it here if you want)
And San jose is only 5 hours from HB, and San Diego is only 2. So we HAVE to go!!!!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!
We can stop in Escondido and get you a tattoooooo on the way to San Diego if you want!
current mood:  excited
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| Tuesday, February 7th, 2006
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12:38 am
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My work schedule
Sunday: 6pm-9am 15 Hours
Monay: 6pm-9am 15 Hours
Tuesday: 6pm-6am 12 Hours
Wednesday: 6pm-6am 12 Hours
Thursday: 6pm-6am 12 Hours
Friday: 6pm-8am 14 Hours
Saturday: 6pm-8am 14 Hours
um...does anyone else see something VERY VERY VERY wrong with this???
There are only 168 hours in a week and I'm working at least 94 of them in any week.
Originally I was not supposed to work Sundays...that was my one day off and I was fine with that. One day to clean the house, do laundry or just veg infront of the tv if I wanted. They fired Kasey because she was stealing so I offered to take over sundays for a few weeks until they could hire a new person. 2 and a half months later I am not only still working that shift...but they added to it.
Basically at this point I'm nearing a nervous breakdown.
The worst part of this was that they added to my shifts without telling me, I figured it out because no one else showed up and I checked the main schedule in my managers office (yah yah so I broke in big fuckin deal)
FUCKING BASTARDS!
I work the most hours and have the least amount of time off.
Everyone else works like 6-8 hour shifts and has at LEAST 1-2 days off...and I work 12-15 hour shifts and have zeeeeeerrrrooo days off.
FUCK THIS!!!
One day I'm going to go nuts and just burn the place down...(you'll laugh if you've seen office space)
Anyway
Anaheim hills and it looks like yorba linda is on fire
"The day has come for all us sinners.
If you're not a servant, you'll be struck to the ground.
Flee the burning, greedy city."
The Cities of evil are burnin to the ground!!!
Kinda weird because "Beast & the Harlot" was released this morning...right around the time the first fire started...hmmm
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
current mood:  pissed off
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| Monday, February 6th, 2006
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1:46 am
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Okay people
help help help
I want an a7x tattoo but I can't decide on what to get
my IDEA was to get the cover art from cities of evil drawn up into a sleeve
Anyone with a better idea?
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| Friday, February 3rd, 2006
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7:05 pm
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*SHRIEK*
I just got an email back from my tattoo artist...and I can get my ink!!!
FINALLY
I'm getting the A7X sleeve that I've wanted for ummmm ever.
He said 5-600 for the drawn on, outline and all the shadow work. And then another 5-600 for the color depending on how long it takes.
I'm gonna go in on friday (Feb 10th) to get the drawing, outlines & shadows
So I'll most likely have only that done before the show...but maybe I can talk them into letting me get the color on the 16th
I have no idea how long I have to wait to get the color after I get the outline. Hopefully not long
I AM SO FUCKING EXCITED!!!
current mood: excited
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| Wednesday, February 1st, 2006
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2:38 am - I'm so fucking emo.....its disgusting
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Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one
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| Monday, January 23rd, 2006
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9:48 pm - I'm bored
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1. Who are you?
2.Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4.Do you or did you have a crush on me?
5.Do you have a nickname for me and explain why you picked it?
6.Would you change anything about me?
7.Describe me in one word?
8. What was your first impression?
9.Do you still think that way about me?
10.What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12.How well do you know me?
13. When was the last time you saw me, or/ and talked to me?
14.Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to post this to see what I have to say about you?
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| Sunday, January 22nd, 2006
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| Wednesday, January 18th, 2006
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2:52 am - A7X is taking over the world
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Working too much...not sleeping enough
WHO CARES I'M GOING TO SEE AVENGED SEVENFOLD!!!
Thursday Jan 19th @ the Rialto theater in Tucson Arizona with Stacy!
First day of the 2nd leg of the tour.
I AM SO MUTHA FUCKIN EXCITED!!!!
They were on TRL today and performed two songs. "Bat country" (of course) and their new single "The beast & the harlot" according to MTV...it was the HIGHEST rated live performance in the HISTORY of MTV.
In stupid people terms: more people watched A7X today on trl than have ever watched mtv EVER!!!
I am literally watching the boys become the rockstars they were always meant to be. Its the most amazing thing to see. Especially since they refuse to leave their diehard fans behind, Matt thanks "the fallen" (of which I am a member) at least 3 times in every interview.
I love him for that.
Zacky mentions the dedication of "the fallen" (what they call the original diehard fans) every time he can, to remind them/us that they do this for us and couldn't care less what anyone else thinks because he knows we will FOREVER AND ALWAYS have his/a7x's back.
And its true. Their TRUE fans live, breathe & die for Avenged Sevenfold.
Okay I'm going to get some sleep because the next time I'll see the back of my eyelids won't be until thursday nite.
current mood: ecstatic
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| Wednesday, January 4th, 2006
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10:08 pm
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How much you've changed...
Take this quiz, post the results, and see how much things have changed since then.
5 YEARS AGO
How old were you?: 18
What school year were you in?: Freshman in college
Where did you go to school?: Bellevue Community College
Where did you work?: a dental office and on the weekends I worked at Claires
Where did you live?: Renton
Where did you hang out?: I didn't, I worked 2 jobs and went to school..there was no such thing as "hanging out"
How was your hair style?: black emo hair...cut in a bob to my chin in front and it angled up in the back and it was VERY VERY straight
Did you wear braces?: nope
you wore glasses?: nope
Who was your best friend?: Amy
Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend?: Didn't have one
Who was your celebrity crush?: Benji
Who was your regular-person crush?: Don't think I had one
How many piercings did you have?: 2 in each ear and a cartilage
How many tattoos did you have?: None yet
What was your favorite band?: Good Charlotte or Blink182
What was your worst fear?: Small spaces
Had you smoked a cigarette yet?: Nope
Had you gotten drunk or high yet?: Nope
Had you driven yet?: Yep
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HA HA HA!!! LETS SEE WHAT YOU ARE NOW !!!!!
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How old are you?: 23
What school year are you in?: Done with school for now
Where do you go to school?: see response above
Where do you live? Huntington Beach California
Where do you hang out?: The Beach, Anaheim HOB and Huntington Beach
How is your hair style?: Short, Spikey & black
Do you wear glasses?: Nope
Who is your best friend?: Bri & Bethy
Who is your boyfriend/girlfriend?: Don't have one
Who is your celebrity crush?: Johnny
Who is your regular-person crush?: Don't really have one
How many tattoos do you have?: 11
How many piercings do you have?: 10, 3 in each ear, industrial, & three lip rings
What is your favorite band? : Avenged Sevenfold
What is your biggest fear?: Small Spaces
Have you driven yet?: CONSTANTLY
Have you smoked a cigarette yet?: Nope
Have you gotten drunk or high yet?: Nope
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